Meet me here, tonight?

⚬ endless lover of people and things ⚬ ⚬ avid writer ⚬

[apostatedelirium]

☇ Intro post ✭

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hi i’m via ✩

I’m 20, queer and a lover of everything and everyone. My pronouns are he/they.

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I love art, poetry, music and video games. I play the guitar and draw occasionally. Sometimes my writing contains suggestive themes and topics related to mental health. This is an 18+ blog. We get horny on main on occasion, be warned!

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☇ Things you’ll see on my blog ☆

- MAINLY my poetry and writing

(but also fandoms I’m in sometimes!)

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☇ Tag directory ☆

#delirium_thoughts - text post/my minds inner workings

#delirium_writes - my writing

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that’s it! that’s all. i love you. bye ✩

[cheddar-baby]

i could smell your boytoy coming from down the road. Wretched little rotted morsel of a thing, may he fall to time and become carrion

[boringkate]

You listen to music regularly? Why? Have you even tried quitting? Could you quit? You get music stuck in your head? Wow. You're so ruined and music brained. I bet you make your partners listen to music with you when you have sex. Music addiction has really ruined a whole generation. You know it's not realistic to expect reverb in real life, right? You're probably so desensitized that you don't even feel anything anymore when you hear a bird singing that it wants some fuck.

[apostatedelirium]

The Good news is: Finally got the inspiration to write after two months of writers block and suddenly the world has color again.

The Bad news is: the despair is back

[deathlyfandoms]

There also needs to be a button for “this is the 5000th time I’ve read your fic because I’m having a horrible day and this is the only thing in the world that always brings me happiness.”

[my-nameless-bliss]

good news: there is!

[monster-bait]

Support the folks posting work on comment-ebabled sites!

[ladymirdan]

I love when people leave comments on my old stuff.

Its like passive income but it actually works to make me happy.

[katzedecimal]

Honestly though, comments like that are gold to me. I love to write and a comment telling me that something I’ve done has improved someone’s life even in a small way? That’s impact. We live in societies that tell us over and over we have no value and nothing we do is ever good enough. So for someone to post a comment telling us that we improved their lives with our stories? That tells us our effort had value. We writers set out to improve the world in tiny ways, offering random acts of kindness in the form of a few minutes’ entertainment, and comments tell us we’ve achieved that little goal.

[naamahdarling]

You can totally come back and leave a comment under that comment a year later! I’m glad to know you are still enjoying it and want to know if you’re doing okay.

[yesbothways]

There is no higher compliment than a re-read.  The longer the time that has passed, the higher it is.  It means a story resonated and stayed with someone. 

[crazysodomite]

[galactic-mayhem]

saw this on pinterest but i think it belongs here too

[vinnie-vindictive]

this will never not be important

[moogmatriarch]

the author's barely disguised personality disorder

[recordstore]

bro longs for something

[minovskyy]

yes this is an exploration of guilt and culpability but it could also be a sex thing if you just give me a minute

[apostatedelirium]

No but seriously, I cannot write at all lately. Fanfic ideas and drabbles sit idle in my ellipsus tab, half formed thoughts in my notes app. Wtf is going on with my brain?? I think the stress of applying to college has stumped my creativity☹️ I need to hear the birds sing.

[apostatedelirium]

How am I supposed to write if I am not in love? I fear I am too dull to see the words written in the color of the sky or hiding in the tall grass without you.

[zmpl]

has anyone noticed that after the porn ban of 2018 tumblr was essentially killed from the mainstream and everyone flocked to other social media sites like twitter and meta. then those sites got enshittified to where twitter became Nazi Central and meta sites had an entire meme around getting “zucced” aka mark zuckerberg himself would ban you for saying a no-no word like fuck. and then the mainstream shifted to tiktok where infamous toddlerspeak sentences like “he got unalived by a pew pew” were born because if you once again say a no-no word like kill or gun or any other word that isn’t corporate i mean kid friendly then the algorithm will bury your post into the ground. and somehow we’ve come full circle and tumblr is now the most bearable social media site because although we can’t have female presenting nipples we can at least talk to each other like adults. has anyone noticed that at all or is it just me and the flaming skull

[maidenvault]

Not “Only my reading of canon is correct” or “Interpretations are subjective and all valid” but a secret third thing, “More than one interpretation can be valid but there’s a reason your English teacher had you cite quotes and examples in your papers, you have to have a strong argument that your interpretation is actually supported by the text or it is just wrong and I’m fine with telling you it’s wrong, actually.”

[mooncustafer]

If the text says the curtains are blue you can argue about what that means; but if you’re going to claim they’re actually yellow you’d better have a really good argument.

[xwilltruman]

i know the curtains better than the author. thank you for coming to my ted talk

[maidenvault]

Fandom has such unresolved mommy/daddy issues about authors. If you apply a little reading comprehension skills to my original post you’ll see I didn’t say anything at all about the author. You guys always make “interpretation” about your beef with the author. You’re all obsessed with the author. This post is just about deciphering what is there in canon. Figuring out what is being communicated by the canon itself with all the words and images and basic formal elements that are there in canon. That’s all it’s about. It really doesn’t matter if the author intentionally put all those things there in a pattern that might support the idea that this one character’s queer. That’s not what this is about. What matters is if you can compellingly argue there’s a pattern of evidence there. Or not. Everyone is conspiring together to make me go insane still adding shit about authorial intent on my post.

[darkandstormyart]

just another monday

[apostatedelirium]

I love you authors who create playlists that match the fic, I love you until my last breath. You intertwine two art forms to enhance the emotion you curate with words. What a beautiful thing to find music that you can see your story in, and share that with the world. It’s intimate, in a way.

[byjove]

ily gender nonconforming trans people. we are the true gender understanders