Finding such cool people on this site makes me want to try posting things that I think of, as a way of socializing, as ya do on social media, but I dislike doing that so intensely that it's never gonna happen. I can't be checking my phone every five minutes to see whether anyone's responded, and I would be, because I care what said people may or may not respond with. It's all the things I dislike about texting, magnified x10. No immediacy, tone, ability to figure out what the fuck someone is saying when their words don't quite make sense. And then I'm just uncomfortable with airing my thoughts out too much because they tend to be polarizing to someone or other and because I'm used to their existence only happening in my brain. I'm trying to get at an explanation of why I don't actually engage with this site like you're supposed to. People keep following me back and it makes me happy, but I feel like I should clarify that you are never going to see me actually post anything unless I'm drunk (excepting this one). I shall eternally haunt your notes and occasionally ask boxes and only do that.
