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they/them - 26 - desi lesbian

[ryebreadgf]

[metamorphesque]

— James Baldwin, They Can’t Turn Back

[gatheringbones]

I love your agreeable and amenable and flexible nature and how none of your wants and needs ever get priority and how nobody even knows what they are to begin with and how you never start or engage in conflicts and never express even mildly unsavory opinions and get along with everyone from every conceivable group, that’s so trustworthy. hey quick question. do you happen to have an enormous pressurized reservoir of rage and resentment you feel like you can’t ever analyze or express because that would break the rules for the kind of person you are and if so, do you think a lifetime of squashing it down might ever backfire?

[funeral]

On the surface, avoidance, minimization, distancing, splitting, and attempting to place a positive value on painful experiences may look like dreadful self-deception. In reality, however, this self-regulation of negative affect performs a life-saving function. For precisely that reason, trauma patients find it dangerous, even impossible, to give up these survival strategies and self-healing measures, even though they block creativity and growth and lead eventually to stagnation and decay. [ . . . ] The sacrifice of one's self-protection strategies and the loosening of one's rigid defense mechanisms are dreadfully painful and threatening processes, for they uncover old wounds associated with safety, trust, power, esteem, and intimacy.

Ursula Wirtz, Trauma and Beyond: The Mystery of Transformation

[ryebreadgf]

real yearners miss shit that never even happened

[academicblorbo]

Ilya meeting Shane's parents must be insane for them like. Mr Ilya "The Terminator" Rozanov, terror on ice and menace in bed, politely stands there. Your very shy son admonishes him for using the word "lovers" and Russia's Greatest Rage Machine just takes it.

You ask when this started and Mister Dickhead makes sure Shane is accurate about when they started this. How dare you stave off half a year of us, Shane?

You ask if they talked to Scott Hunter and Ra Ra Rasputin says that he, famous asshole extraordinaire went to talk to Patron Saint of Hockey Gays to offer him congratulations.

You ask if he has no loyalty to Boston and Mr Fucking Fuck San Francisco is like. Nyet

Your son is having a panic attack and Miike Snow Genghis Khan calls them "boyfriends" and it's your own extremely shy and sensitive and loving son that is like MY WHAT

[ryebreadgf]

[hoko-onchi-writes]

I bet young Ilya Rozanov never thought he’d get slapped in the face with that tism rizz and he would be so fucking cooked.

This man has eight of the same shirt and five of the same hoodie. This man memorizes hockey stats for fun. This man will have a cold ginger ale. This man will look awkwardly at the camera with a smile like he wants to incinerate himself in every wet t-shirt contest sports drink ad his mom books for him. This man will take everything you say absolutely literally. That’s French, Ilya. You just said a French word and we’re talking about Russian, are you unfamiliar with your own language. This man takes three days to recognize a social cue. And ten years to name an emotion. You’ll tell him you like him in the most roundabout way and you’ll think you NAILED it, and he’ll promptly have a panic attack on your dick. When he names that emotion finally? He’ll be absolutely relentless and will not stand down; he’s had an emotion and he knows you have one, too. By that point, there’s no escape. He’s imprinted on you and is starting to ovulate in your vicinity. He will bludgeon you with adorable nerd and insatiable ass. And his oral fixation is so mighty he’ll suck your remaining brain cells out through your dick.

This man drives a Range Rover because it’s good in the snow. This man does a loon call. This man will make you eight cheeseburgers. Buddy it’s over for you.

[cataclysmictide]

I AM WHAT I AM 'CAUSE YOU TRAINED ME

”I Would Leave Me If I Could. A Collection of Poetry” - Halsey/Cop Car - Mitski/unknown/unknown/"The Burning" - Venetta Octavia/@6aint/Bite the Hand - Boygenius/unknown/unknown/Bite the Hand - Boygenius/unknown/Places I’ve Taken my Body: Essays - Molly McCully Brown/unknown/Cop Car - Mitski/unknown/Who's Afraid of Little Old Me? - Taylor Swift

[arbitrary-human]

just came out to my mother on a random tuesday while eating ice-cream, technically she asked me & i just couldn’t lie anymore.

[myauditionfordrphil]

it's the team crowding mithali asking her to lift the trophy for me, it's anjum going berserk on live singing and dancing for me, it's jhulan finally fulfilling her dream of holding that cup that she bled for for me, it's harman hugging her jhullu di not letting go and sobbing in her shoulder not caring about the billions watching for me, it's smriti leaving the celebrations to go jump on jhulan for me, it's her and harman telling jhulu that last time we couldn't do it for you now we did this for you, it's jhulan sobbing while hugging harry and smriti not being able to stop her tears for me, it's the women who started it all, it's mithali and anjum and jhulan finally getting to hold their dream through this band of girls they inspired and saw grow for me, it's the women whom i always associated with indian women's cricket, the ones who made this all possible living this moment equally for me.

[il9vemyputer]

everyone on replies is terrified of this fact but i just think it's so sweet and heartwarming. she's holding our hand and leading us somewhere secret and we're both giggling like kids. i love her

[solowinged]

let’s travel through the vast unknown with mama

[omnybus]

Space chickens

[solitairians]

whenever I confess to people that i feel like I am just roleplaying as a normal person they're always like noooo you don't strike me as someone who's roleplaying as a normal person at all!!! :) and every time internally im like well yes that's because I am excellent at it

[arbitrary-human]

a warm thick bowl of soup & bread for lunch at an old pub in a town in countryside would fix me

[sugdendale]

30.05.2025 | 27.10.2025

[arbitrary-human]

they are never normal about each other

[sonofcelluloid]

Daniel, darling, it’s come to my attention your readers have dubbed our coupling “The Devil’s Minion”. Why have they done this, Daniel? I am no devil. Nor do I see any resemblance between yourself and those little yellow fellows from the picture shows. I find the title reductive. They should call us “Beautiful Angels in Genuine Eternal Love”. What? Don’t laugh! No, I didn’t mean for the acronym to be BAGEL!! Stop calling us BAGEL at once, Daniel!!! You’ve mocked my earnesty for the last time.

[rocktheholygrail]

Interview with the Vampire (2022-) Hannibal (2013-2015)

[arbitrary-human]

someone add eve & villanelle to this pls