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MASTERLIST

KYLO REN STORIES

DIVINE

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Stained Glass

Chapter 1

KYLO REN ONE SHOTS

Our Loss

Run

Holiday

Love Me For Today

It’s Winter Every day…

Blind Sidearm

Untitled 1

KYLO REN AU

Drowning Shadows (one part only)

Kylo Ren Paintball AU Part 1

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New and Updated as of July 8th 2018!

Stained Glass

“Are you Valentina?” a female voice behind me asked. “Oh! Yes, sorry,” i turned around faced with two tall individuals. One was a guy, with dark wavy hair that hung around his face and the other was a tall blonde woman, both practically towering over me. Freshmen Orientation was going smoothly, now i was waiting to meet my roommates. “I’m Christie Phasmic, your roommate,” a part of me stood shell-shocked but i forced myself to continue this conversation. “Nice to meet you Christie-” she stopped me. “You can call me Phasma, no one has called me Christie in years,” she said coldly. “Sorry, Phasma. Got it, What’s your major?” I tried to plant myself firmly in front of the two of them but i was still at odds. “I’m in my sophomore year for a major in Criminal Justice and a minor in politics. And you?” i was surprised by her choice, she looked of high education and intelligence. “Freshman painting Major with a minor in Drawing and c-ceramics,” she didn’t reply but instead just nodded her head in agreement. “This is Kylo, he can help move us in. My other friend, Artimage, isn’t here yet. We should start moving in, where’s your stuff?” Phasma looked at me expectantly but i stumbled for words. “In my car, I’m moving myself in,” I finally blurted out.

With the help of Phasma’s friend we were moved in quickly but soon enough i was left alone in the room. the two of them were a bit odd but there was no doubt that i would be seeing more of Phasma’s friends. i was under the covers of my bed scrolling through my classes and studying the map of the school. “what the hell are you doing?” Phasma asked, coming into the room with two black bags. “Uh...resting?” i questioned uneasily. “No, you’re about to put on a face full of makeup and that black dress i saw you hang up. we’re going to a party tonight,” she began to unpack. “Ok ok,” i got out of bed and sat down at my desk turning on my makeup light. i never wore much makeup but when i did, i was stunning. I’m definitely not one to brag about anything but i knew i could clean up good. i hurried to fix my face and slip on the little black dress with a pair of flip-flops. i topped look off with a black and gold rose flower crown. as cheesy as it sounds, it helped frame my hair in my face. “good, you look approachable-” Phasma paused and looked me over but hurried to pull my hair away to tighten the dresses straps. “Gotta keep these up,” Phasma patted my chest before she turned away and grabbed a small clutch. “Why, uh,” her strides were large, and i had to sprint to catch up with her once we left the room. “Why did you invite me?” i asked and we headed down the stairs and out of the dorms. “you’re not a bitch and you look like the kind of person who could use a friend like me-a friend to push you a little, try new things, maybe even help you get laid,” Phasma shrugged and i choked a bit but kept up with her. “I don’t friend people very often but when i always look out for them. loyalty is very important to me,” we headed out of the campus and into the small residential area. we approached a former frat house that was being redone but that didn’t hinder the sound of music coming from the backyard. Dozens of college students were spread across the yard, several were in the pool and mostly everyone else held a red solo cup in their hand. “You want a beer?” Phasma asked as she dove into a blue cooler. “Yeah sure, A Corona please,” she fished out the golden bottle and poured it into a cup but she didn’t get herself one. “Artimage and Kylo will be here later, we’ll probably leave around 1am. now go enjoy yourself!” she pushed me in the direction of a group of kids who smiled as i approached...

Divine

Chapter Two

“I don’t know what the hell i was thinking,” I sighed heavily, my feet thrown up into a chair as I sat with Brez on the roof of our abandoned apartment building base. we used to be better, stronger but since the 1st order took power, we’ve been losing base after base. “jokingly, i said did he want to fuck me because you know after 3 glasses of Champagne, i have no filter and we were talking about exterior motives. I can not tell you how flustered he got-”I stopped as the area in front of me shifted into a dark, dimly lit bedroom. “It’s happening again Brez,” i whispered to her as my focus shifted far away from my current location. “You...again,” Kylo said clearly aggravated by my presence. “yeah it’s me,”I growled, standing in the doorway of the bathroom, he was in front me, still partially dressed from the event. “so how many people died from ‘food poisoning’ this time? clearly, you didn't poison the drinks” I crossed my arms and leaned hesitantly on the doorframe which seemed to hold my weight. “actually all the guest invited were wanted there,” Kylo shot back. “So was i wanted there?” I rolled my eyes. “more than you know, i had wanted the night to go differently. i didn't want you there so i could kill you,” He added and started to unbutton his shirt. “But you were the one that had to start the childish games, pointing out my failure... no one infuriates me like you do,” after Kylo pulled his shirt off he stood in front of me, his dress pants sitting low on his waist. He took another step forward but before he could come within a foot of me the moment faded and i was back with Brez, who was worried. “everything ok?” she asked, grabbing my arm.

i was sitting on the old mattress that was covered with a dirty, bloodstained sheet, a thin piece of plastic separating my space from everyone else's. it was pitch black except for the small blue lights given off by the solar lights we have tapped on the walls. i tapped away silently on a cracked datapad, trying to contact old allies but most had been assassinated. defeated, placed the tablet on the floor next to the mattress and rolled over, curling up into the musky grey blanket. my eyes drifted to the dress i wore to the 1st order ‘ball’. i would have to sell it, it held no other use than an item with memories clinging to it. the rush of cool, fresh air ran over my shoulders signaled that i wasn’t alone anymore. “Twice in one day, a new record,” i heard the deep voice of Kylo ren say from somewhere nearby. “Is this...” he stopped and his shadow crossed my face. “...this is disgusting,” he finally said, touching the bloodstained sheet by my feet. “That happens when every place you called home get blown up,” i sneered. “But now that you’ve seen it, seen through to the sky, you can guess what planet we’re on, and what building. so why don’t you just blow this one up too?” i sat up, glaring at the now silent Knight. “I didn’t know-”i stopped him. “Don’t you dare try and fool me with sympathy! you did all of this!” i shouted angrily. “I’m not-” he stopped himself, his fist clenching at his sides. “you know you did this and what did you think? i had another shiny brand new base waiting for me? we’re not the resistance, Kylo. we don’t have a following and we don’t necessarily want to destroy the 1st order- just the idea that force users can be seen as equals. instead of slaughtering all my friends and hearing us out- you, not Snoke, would have gained 6 willing apprentices. now there’s just me...and i don’t know what i want to do...” i settled back onto the mattress, dust flying as i sat down. “i didn’t know that... my orders where set and i couldn’t change anything, you personally know what that is like, but Snoke is no more...” he trailed off, almost fading away but he came back with vibrancy. “I am the Supreme Leader now but since my old master was killed...i am in need of an apprentice, a send in command. someone who isn’t driven insane by war madness like Hux but someone who can see order and freedom go hand in hand,” Kylo sat down on the floor next to me. “I wish the best of luck for the idiot that takes that bait. i would head to Yavin IV first, ” i mumbled grabbing the blankets to wrap them around me. “Actually, I’m asking you,”

Divine

Chapter One

“Ah, Ms. Roman, a pleasure to see such an exquisite face here. thank you for coming to the 1st Order’s Coronation Ball and Night of Excellence,” To my left approached the General of the 1st Order, Mr. Artimage Hux. “The pleasure is mine, I’m glad i was invited this time as a respected leader and not just a keychain that my master had in tow,” I turned to him, smiling as he looked down to my face. Even with heels, Hux still towered above me. “Invited? yes. Respected leader? I don’t think so but if that's what you call your collective union of rejects, then i guess so,” he sipped at his golden drink. “I see that the former apprentice took my advice to overthrow his Master- so in a sense, this night was all because of me,” I challenged the ginger but he just laughed lightly, drawing a few eyes. “It’s hilarious of how wrong you are, Ren did not kill Snoke, your legion of force sensitives, who were all slaughtered by Ren himself after the fact, caused this night. not you getting into the mind of The new supreme leader,” Hux scoffed and moved away to join another group. i let out a huff and finished the glass of Champagne before i to mingle among the special guest area. Everyone here dressed to the hilt to show their wealth and status but i was here on another occasion. Even if i wasn't here for the supposed evening i still came dressed for it. I was adorned with a long light pink, almost off-white, ball down that had lace crawling to the base of my neck, under my breast and delicately ending down my shoulders. My back was open from the lace around my neck until the train began on my hips. Towards the end of the train the dress was spattered with red, which symbolized the blood that my fellow force sensitive friends were murdered in. I wasn't angry, not even revengeful, of Kylo Ren- instead i understood him. It was a command from his former master and he had to obey or die. I had the same scenario with my old master but instead of murder- i was forbidden of living. Obey or die- no punishment but now that no one ruled over us, maybe i could speak with him about a few propositions. But how could i possibly get him a moment away from the coronation? A dance? A tease? Oh no, we were beyond that. I was the one Kylo couldn't kill and i was going to rub it in under it got under his skin. For a few months after our encounter, i often got glimpses of his perspective and in return i believe he saw glimpses of mine but no further communication was made. It faded about 2 weeks ago, a day or so before i got invited to the event.

I was bored after the coronation, sitting at a faraway table, swirling the almost empty glass pitifully. Admittedly, it was beautiful. I didn't think Kylo Ren was one for lavishes but tonight was a surprise. As i swirled my drink a soft image emerged from my consciousness- it was me but from a far away perspective- Kylo's point of view. I turned to glance over my left shoulder and saw the tall, brooding Supreme Leader locking his eyes on my person- i returned to my drink but a dinner menu was soon passed to me. I debated actually eating here, the 1st order had been know for massively effective 'food born illnesses' from their dinner parties. I gave the menu back to the waiter. "You have some audacity to show up here," came the sleek voice of Ren from behind me. "Oh, i do?" I stood up and bowed my head slightly but not looking away from his face as i did so. "I was invited by the way, intentionally or unintentionally- the decision is yours until the night ends, then i slip out of your grasp..." i went to walk past him but i paused. "The only one that got away will get away again..." I whispered and i could feel the anger swirling in him. I walked on, swaying my hips as i grabbed another glass of Champagne.

The Event was over and mostly everyone stumbled to their Temporary rooms aboard Supremacy or left via shuttle. I soberly headed to my room which had been assigned the farthest away from the main event as possible, courtesy of my union of rejects. I had set this all up, to be walking down this hallway alone, the only sound was the natural hum of the ship and my heels clicking along the shiny black floor. I want sure when or where they would hide but i at least knew he had someone watching. When the barely audible footsteps behind me crept closer until i was stopped by the cold barrel of a blaster. It was a bit disrespectful that only 2 troopers were able to disarm and disable me but i wasn't ready to make an argument that they needed at least 7. They pushed me away from my room and into unmarked sections. The throne room? We went in no elevator, where were we going? The cuffs on my wrist were uncomfortably tight but soon enough the 2 troopers delivered me into a dimly lit room before they parted. Once again i could see myself from another point of view but it was clouded by something- tears? No. Anger. He came from behind me, the light sensing his movement and brightened. They faced me with a bloodthirsty Kylo Ren but i let him shove me to the wall, wrap his hand around my throat and snarl as i turned blue under his hold. "S-stop--i wa-want to a-a-actually ta-ta-talk" i squeaked out between short gasps of breath, this made him squeeze harder, eyes lusting over my drastic color change. "I-i teas-s-sed you- ACK-!" My heel tried to find his foot but to no avail. "T-to ge-e-et you a-a-a-lone!" I shouted, my eyes burning but his grasp released and i was no longer pinned to the wall. I glared at him as i coughed through ragged gasps. "Do you know how long i have waited to see you under my mercy? To kill you? And you come to talk," Kylo spat. "What do you expect me to do? Come with raging guns and hellfire? I don't want war with you,"I explained as i regained my breath but no doubt i would have his handprint bruised into my neck. "You don't? Then what do you want? Talking cant be the only bit of it" He snapped and i was taken back. What was i here for? To purpose a possible alliance with the 1st order, yes. But he had clearly indicated something else here...was he hiding something? "I'm not the one with several different motives, you were the one who was staring at me all night," i said hastily, waiting for a reaction but all i got was the red tint of his cheeks intensifying. "I want an alliance with the 1st order. What do you want? To fuck me?" I teased with a laugh but i soon realized he wasn't laughing. Instead Kylo's fist were balled painfully tight at his side as he looked me over with intensity. "Oh" now i actually felt a stab of fear in my stomach. "Even if you are just a nuisance, a dove like you shouldn't speak with such vulgarity," he took a careful step forward seeing if i would move but I held my ground. “You dare to tell me how to speak?” i snapped, nostrils flared but still defenseless as the cuffs around my wrist seemed to get heavier. “Fuck you,” i added with a snarl but just as i was about to say something else the cuffs unlocked, falling to the floor. “Go,” Kylo said in a strained voice but i stood there confused. “GO! I’M LETTING YOU GO. GET ON A TRANSPORT AND GO!” He shouted angrily and i hurried from what i assumed where his quarters.

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O.R OFFICER RIVER

C.R COMMANDER REN

WARINGS: NONE

“I am not a therapist Officer Krink, turn in the complaint and someone will find you as soon as possible with a solution,” i said coldly as i stared up at the young female officer who sat in front of my desk. She was pissed after the General exploded at her for making a communications mistake, it was her fault but she trying to find some compensation. Little did she know that at the end of the day my orders were to shred every complaint about the General or The Commander. The young Officer slammed the gunmetal grey door shut after she realized i was nothing but a collector. I sighed, my shoulders low as i began to rifle through papers. I didn’t want this job, nobody wants this job- Human Resources, it’s boring, dull and overall soul-suckingly slow. All i do is hear people complain about work but even in some of the true cases, where i want to help, i can’t... I’m just a paper collector. Don’t get me wrong, working for the 1st order is cool and all but this isn’t what i signed up for. I signed up to be pilot, an AT-M8 Gunner, or a strategist! There were a few more occupations but after simmering at this desk for so long i believe that i was useless. Even in this job, i feel useless.

10pm, the Human Resources department closes but i stay late to shred the complaints about The general and commander. Normally, i shred a stack of 300 but over the past few weeks the complaints have piled up to 600 a day.

[C.R] Are you still at the office?

[O.R] Yes sir, just shredding today’s complaints

[C.R] You don’t have to call me Sir through messages, Be there soon

[O.R] Yes sir.

“You and Hux have really been pissing people off lately,” i huffed as i heard the heavy thud of boots near.

“Good,” Kylo huffed and sat down in my rolly chair as i sat on the floor by the shredder. I continued to shred as silence fell upon us. “Are you aware it's midnight?” Kylo finally spoke up, i could feel his gaze locked on me but i kept shredding. “River” I looked away from my papers for a moment. “What is bothering you? Normally you have something to tell me,” He sighed, scooting the chair over to sit next to me.

“I’m bored,” I started trying to read whether or not he would want to hear me out but something spurred me to go on. “I have nothing exciting in my life, not saying i don’t appreciate my job, i do, but i go home, eat, sleep, wake up, work, go home- repeat...it’s mundane and i feel as if one day I’m going to turn into dust and disappear. But at the same moment i can’t do anything...risky or exciting because i have such a fear of punishment,” i shook my head as i pushed another stack of papers through the shredder. Kylo’s holopad beeped frantically before he could respond but it meant he had to go. “Be safe,” i said as he stood up, his leather glove ruffling my hair slightly.

“You too space dust. I’ll come see you tomorrow,” And with that Kylo was gone and so was my only friend.

I was laying in bed, looking up at the bare ceiling while my thoughts swirled around my job. I had gotten home around 2am but it was now 6am and i was unable to sleep.

[C.R] why are you awake?

[O.R] How do you know i was awake?

[C.R] Don’t worry about it, come to hangar CV 78 in uniform but bring casual clothes

[O.R] why? What is going on?

[C.R] just do it and hurry

I did what he wanted and i quickly got dressed and packed a plain t-shirt and sweatpants before i hurried down the hallway silently. Kylo was waiting outside the Hangar watching a small crew preparing his command shuttle.

“Hey,” i said softly and joined him, looking at the shuttle. “I have work at 8, is something wrong?” i spoke up.

“You’re off today and we’re taking a trip,” i watched a small smirk fought its way to Kylo’s face. I didn’t question anything anymore but the fear of getting in trouble bubble in my throat. I followed behind Kylo as we boarded the shuttle but it wasn’t until we were inside that i shook my hands nervously.

“I don’t know if i can do this,” i said looking at around at the empty seats.

“You have to, I am your Commander and you do what is ay. So if I say you are off today, You are off today. Get up here and be my co-pilot,” Kylo called but i was hesitant as he sat down in the pilot's chair, the co-pilot chair empty.

“I don’t know how to fly,” i whispered.

“You are about to learn, so sit down and watch,” I felt my body tug a little towards the seat. “Primary starting sequences can be carried out by the pilot or co-pilot. See that red switch? Flip it up, that turns on the auxiliary power source,” I uncovered the red switch and flicked it up, a groan sounding from under our feet. My face immediately when white. “Don’t get all pasty on me, you’ll start to look like Hux,” Kylo sneered playfully and heat rose to my cheeks. Kylo continued to narrate how the primary stating sequences went and soon enough he was guiding the large shuttle out of the hangar. I tensed for a moment as the hangar disappeared from view and i was face to face with the vast open darkness of space. After a few minutes of amazement, I broke the silence.

“Thank you,”I glanced over at Kylo who was smirking to himself as he programmed the auto-pilot.

“Thank me later, we have a whole day on Canto Bight. Enjoy it,”I sat back in the pilot's chair, enjoying the view as planets sped by. “Before we land, you need to change into the other clothes. Go in the back, i won’t look,” he shot me a rare smile and i hurried towards the back of the Shuttle. I was uneasy about having no coverage but i trusted Kylo enough to know when he says he won’t- he won’t. I stripped off my uniform quickly and slipped into the plain shirt and black sweatpants…

Canto Bight was incredible but sooner than i wanted we returned to the Finalizer and i was back in my uniform still looking sharp.

“Thank you for today-” Kylo stopped me just as we were about to leave the Shuttle.

“It’s not over yet, just follow me and keep close,” Kylo said quietly as the exit ramp lowered. I stay behind him and to his left as required by protocol. We passed by the human resource department and a shard of ice grew in my stomach. Kylo felt my uneasiness because as soon as we entered a private room he was chest to chest with me, studying me. I wasn’t sure what to do, look up at him? Eye contact? But he was my friend- wait were we friends? Could we have friends? Moments passed and my visible uneasiness grew.

“Yes, we are friends,” Kylo spoke softly. “And i would never do this but i trust you, I’m not supposed to trust anyone, but you are different,” Kylo’s words made my cheeks burn and he finally stepped back a little. “You said you wanted something risky. Here’s risky,” Kylo’s hand reached for his waist as he unclipped his saber.

“I-i can’t, it’s not my place,” i stuttered by kylo was standing behind me, his chest pressed to my back as he placed the saber in my hand and kept his hand wrapped around mine.

“You never know,” Kylo said and he moved my thumb over the activator. With a slight pressure, the saber crackled to life under our hands. My body stiffened but relaxed almost instantly, the hum of my hand didn’t feel foreign.

“Are you doing that?” i whispered as i felt a warm sensation crawl up my legs until it spread across my whole body.

“No but…” Kylo’s hands disappeared and he stepped away from me as i stood there, a violent red saber in my hand. “It fits you,” his voice filled my ears and i took a few careful steps until i was facing Kylo. only then was i able to see a look of pride on his face. “Swing it, just watch for the crossguards…” his voice trailed off, watching me, waiting. I hesitantly swung the saber to my side and i felt my lips tug upwards. I did the action a few more times, watching the crossguards but i got carried away with it. Letting my body go with what felt natural. I twirled the saber with one hand before swinging it to my side and eventually until it was in front of me. Kylo just stood there, watching with what seemed like a blank expression.

“Did i do something wrong?” i finally spoke up trying to see if i did anything.

“No, but you no longer have a job with human resources,” Kylo sighed. “Twirl it again,” he added and i did just so but as i waited to see what else he wanted something came flying from my left. I acted quickly and sliced the weighted sand ball in half but i as i went to return to a resting posting one of the crossguards hit my forearm. It burned through my uniform and into my skin. Kylo called the saber to him immediately and was at my side, grabbing my arm. He wasn’t angry or disappointed he was more amused that i was crying but somehow laughing. “Look at what you did,” Kylo sighed and inspected the 5-inch burn going up my arm. Tears were running down my face because the burn did hurt a lot but i kept smiling as i looked up to Kylo. he was looking down at my face, hands ghosting over the burn.

“Look at what you did River,” Kylo’s voice was a whisper as he hesitantly closed the space between us. His lips pressed softly to mine while he still held my burnt arm but his other arm pulled me into him. For a few long drawn out seconds, there was nothing but the feeling of warmth shared between us...

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MASTERLIST

KYLO REN STORIES

DIVINE

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Stained Glass

Chapter 1

KYLO REN ONE SHOTS

Our Loss

Run

Holiday

Love Me For Today

It’s Winter Every day...

Blind Sidearm

Untitled 1

KYLO REN AU

Drowning Shadows (one part only)

Kylo Ren Paintball AU Part 1

Kylo Ren Paintball AU (Part 1)

WARNINGS: Cursing

---TEAMS---

*The Order*

Leader: Kylo Ren

Members: Armitage (Hux), Phasma, Rae, Baron

*Armageddon*

Leader: Victoria Lynn

Members: Jaxon, Flynn, Axel, Ace

“Fuck!” someone yelled and the lights in the Wearhouse turned on. “I'm out!” it added and a slam followed the voice. the Wearhouse that was once filled with loud music was now silent except for the stomp of feet as the teams made their way towards the exit. “Who got the final shot?” The voice from before belonged to Will, the Leader of the T-K team. “Victoria did, that shot was almost the full length of the field!” A higher voice yelled and i finally emerged from the maze of metal barrels and walls. Will shot me a look as the T-K left the field and left my team to see the Game Masters. “Team Armageddon, you will advance to the Finals. Team Leader got to the front desk to file out the proper paperwork,” the Guy in the white uniform said while everyone shuffled into the locker room. I was still in full gear as i trotted out to see Greg. He smiled up at me as the screen above him displayed the final 2 teams. “Any idea who we will go up against?” i smiled and grabbed a red pen. “It’s between The Order and The Yellowstoners,” Greg answered hesitantly. “T-The O-order?” i stuttered and i froze as the clipboard was placed in front of me, Greg nodded solemnly. “We’re so screwed,” i groaned and put my head on the desk. “Straighten up, here comes The Order’s leader,” Greg whispered before grabbing another clipboard. “Another win Ren?” Greg smirked and handed the tall, brooding Guy a blue pen. The figure just glanced up at Greg, the only thing exposed was his eyes and hair, the rest was covered by a black protective fabric He nodded, the fabric around where his mouth should be shifted, it was a smile. “Congrats, another year but You guys got a challenge this time,” Greg smirked and looked at me. i stared at Greg, wishing i could jump over the counter and choke him. “Oh really?” the figure shuffled and he sighed heavily. “I don’t think so, we haven’t lost in 4 years. Who is it?” His voice was deep, heavy as Greg’s eyes went wide. i scribbled my signature and threw Greg the clipboard, scurrying away from the front desk and into the locker room.

By the time i was safely in the locker room, i was faced with a standoff. “Woah Woah, Hey guys,” i said and jogged forward putting myself between My team and the members of The Order. “Let’s take it down a notch,” i pushed Jaxon and Flynn back who were facing off with Hux and Baron. “You traitor!” the ginger yelled at Ace who was behind us all, his face hard. “You left us for them?! This weak band of misfits will never defeat us! You are scum!” The ginger’s face turned red and Baron was right next to him, ready to fight. “Yeah? so what he came to us! At least we appreciate Ace more then any of you would!” Flynn yelled and tried to push past me but i grabbed him by his waist and held him back. “Fighting will get us disqualified, that gives them an automatic win,” i whispered to Flynn but his chest still heaved, as his eyes focused on Hux. “I Don’t care about disqualification! What they did to Ruby was barbaric and humiliating! Ace was the only one who realized the weight of his actions!” Flynn yelled but he got quiet as we noticed the tall dark haired figure standing behind them. “Hux! Let’s go, we’ll settle this tomorrow during the finals,” The voice belonged him, Kylo Ren, Leader of the Order and his eyes were focused on me. “I need a minute to talk to Victoria...alone,” He added and everyone left, grumbling. “Do not fuck this up,” I muttered to Flynn as he pulled away from me. but after they were all gone, it was silent. “What did y-you need to discuss?” i mentioned, uncomfortable. “You ran away so flustered, i wanted to make sure you were ok,” Kylo smirked as he was right in front of me, looking down at me. “You are my enemy, you are not supposed to be nice,” i growled and his smirk turned into a smile. “it’s cute when you try to be intimidating,” his voice was smooth, I’m not falling for it. “I am not cute,” i stated firmly. “No, no you’re not. You’re beautiful and i can’t wait to place the final shot, right...here,” By now Kylo was chest to chest with me, his hand hovering above where my chest is.

The final match couldn’t come quicker. Before we all knew it breakfast was rushed by and now we were huddled in the locker room, trying to figure out what the hell we were doing. Kylo was a stealthy tank, while Hux was a weasel, running around reporting movement- he could easily be taken out of the game- but there were Phasma and Baron, both sharpshooters but Rae was the quick killer, she was their crippling point. “Get out here! Don't keep us waiting, scum!” Hux’s sharp voice carried through the locker room. i looked among my friends, all of us communicating silently. whatever would happen, we would still end up together as one, as a team. “Ok, just, don’t fall for their taunts, be silent, be quick and be sharp. we got this,” i sighed and we all nodded, heading out the locker room in a silent trot, passing The Order team but my eyes caught Kylo’s who was intensely watching me leave.

it was pitch black besides the barely lit reload stations. Music began to play loudly, echoing through the warehouse, indicating the game was starting. Only one round with one life. The sport didn’t gain many spectators but today, there were quite a few waiting behind the one-way glass panels that went around the warehouse and on the second story. “Guard the reload stations and don’t reload without someone, they’ll pick us off easily,” i whispered before we all spread out. i headed up to a high tower, setting my rifle up and watching the main floor. i watched as bodies moved swiftly under the darkness until i spotted a flash of red. i focused on the ginger but he found cover quickly. this would be little action and a lot of waiting. i waited, the sound of a short exchange between teams spiked my interest but no one was called out. this game had no time limit so we could be here all night, literally. there was a loud exchange below me and a few yells but nothing endangering me. i spotted movement to my left and focus quickly on it, tracking it as it ran. behind them, i saw the familiar shimmer of blonde hair, Rae. i targeted her and with a small pop her voice yelled “OUT!” and she threw her hands up stopping her pursuit of Jaxon but i a few moments Jaxon’s voice could be heard “OUT DAMNIT!” it was now 4 and 4. the Wearhouse fell silent and still until a gloved hand grabbed my ankle. i spun around, unholstering my handgun and pointed it at the figure. the only thing i saw was the flash of brown eyes before i kicked their hands away. “I should shoot you now!” i snapped quietly at Kylo who laughed silently. “You are such a dick!” i added with a huff and he pulled off his face coverings. “Maybe but you know you like someone who can handle you,” He purred and i rolled my eyes. “Get out before i tag you!” i yelled in a whisper pulling down my face covering. “Just one thing before i go so you can remember this fleeting victory,” Kylo smiled wickedly before he leaned in close, kissing me softly on the lips. i can’t say it was exactly a bad kiss but as my hand grabbed the back of his neck, he knew he had caught me. “Get out,” I whispered breathlessly as we parted. “No, you get out,” he smirked and i noticed that we both still had our weapons pointed at each other. “Fuck you,”I smiled and fired several shots but he had pushed my hand away and i missed. “Look at what you did!” i snarled and scrambled to gather my gear before any of his teammates would dare to find us…

#star wars #kylo ren au #star wars au #ben solo #paintball #artimage hux #phasma #oc #kylo ren imagine #kylo ren fanfic #kylo ren imagines #flirting #1st order #the last jedi #The Force Awakens #the first order #armageddon #badass

jordon-heart

Blind Sidearm

Warnings: fighting, war, death, comfort

[03:00] 3am

My post was silent as i stared at the black floor, the only thing that kept me awake was the burning sensation of the scalding cup of coffee in my hands. I had a lot on my mind and trying to sort through it all was painfully long. from Internal conflict to outside drama- It could be too much sometimes.

“Hey Stanger,” came a husky voice as a heavy pair of footsteps approached me. “Hey Kylo,”I smiled weakly. “What brings you to this sector?” i put my back against the wall, visibly relaxing in his presence. “I’ve been meaning to see why you’ve been so tense lately,” Kylo added and stood against the wall, opposite of me. “Oh..you don’t have to check on me,”I shrugged it off but his eyes told me he didn’t believe me. “It’s lower rank bullshit,” i added and Kylo shook his head. “The truth,” he said, sending a small smirk-that was rare. “I have feelings for someone and I’m just mulling over them, trying to see what the best plan of action is,”I sipped my coffee. “Who’s the lucky guy?” He challenged. “Not telling you,”I chuckled and i felt his gaze intensify. i looked at Kylo as his face changed. “Are you going to talk to him?” Kylo’s voice was Ice and i was caught off guard. “I-i’m not sure, he’s pretty i-important and i don’t think he’ll time for me,”I mumbled and Kylo scoffed. “Then why even bother with the conflict?” he snapped and my alarm went off, signaling the end of my shift. “I bother with the conflict because i really connect with the person. he makes me happy, he takes time out of his day to see me when he doesn’t have to and most of all he makes me feel safe,” i turned to leave. “Lucky bastard,” Kylo scoffed. “Not really, I’ve told him everything and he’s too stupid to realize what I’m saying,”I walked away, leaving Kylo in silence…

[20:00] 8pm

i had already ended, started and was ending my day once again before my 3am fire watch. My bed was warm as i curled up towards the wall, soaking up the peaceful vibes until there was the sound of chaos in the hallway. I jumped out of my bed and flung the door open only to be hit with tear gas. i slammed the door shut and hurried to put on my combat uniform. I clasped on the black gas mask before stepping back into the hallway. “CODE BLUE! CODE BLUE! RESISTANCE FIGHTER ON BOARD! ALL SPECIAL OPERATION SQUADS ARE ACTIVE! OPERATION ORDER: 8-6-6-3” the command was clear, order 8663 was to eliminate all enemy targets. I ran down the hallways towards the main bridge, many troopers and officers stopping to watch the solid black figures blur by. I skidded to a stop, my Platoon already formed up in front of the main bridge. “Squads 1 and 4! Stay here and protect the bridge! Kill all enemies who try and enter! Squads 3 and 6, guard the High command sector, make sure all are secure or being evacuated! Squads 2, 5 and 7 spread out and locate targets, terminate when possibly. Squad 8, you’re with me, we’re going head first into the madness! MOVE OUT!” i yelled and dark bodies moved swiftly to their assigned post. Squad 8 followed me carefully as we stealthfully made our way towards hangar 8, were all the Resistance ships landed. ‘O-Officer S-steller do y-y-you copy?’ i tapped. the earpiece which sent a ring to the communicator that i was listening. ‘They have a force user, do not engage- The knights of Ren will handle her’ the communicator said with a shaky breath before the Com went silent. i signaled to the squad members not to engage the force user, they reluctantly agreed.

[05:00] 5am

It’s a standoff, my squad Vs the Band of Resistance fighters, the only reason i didn’t stage a charge was the fact that the force user was among the line of fighters. but my patience was running out, there have been 8 hours of stillness and no action. I spoke quietly to my squad as i explained my plan. the high command said to wait for the knights of Ren but if there were a weak spot and a chance to take out the force user, to exploit that chance. “I’m going in,” i started off, their eyes went wide “I’ll enter from behind the craft. once i take out the two top gunners, you guys will stay behind this line but fire at any and all enemies. from there i will try and get my hands on that damned force user. maybe get some damage on her before i haul ass. got it?” and i my message was well received.

the gunners were out, and now i stood, hidden behind the landing ramp of a cargo ship. footsteps stomping up and down as people ran up to ammo up. i took in a deep silent breath before i stepped out from the darkness, shots flying from my blaster and making contact almost every time. i moved quickly, advancing on the targets, some of them would be kept for interrogation-such as Poe Dameron and FN-2187 but my sights were set on the figure highlighted by Blue light. She stared at me, and i stared back but i made the 1st move. my blaster was set to full power as i fired on her but she blocked all incoming shots with the saber. i kept her occupied with the blast as i advanced closer to her. soon enough we were on top of each other and i was able to try and disarm her. sections of my uniform began to burn by the heat of the saber but i gritted my teeth, pushing through until i finally threw the saber from her, but it wasn’t a victory. a large explosion threw both of us part and i was left shell-shocked, ears ringing painfully. more explosions shook the hangar and i soon found myself enveloped in darkness.

[Unknown Time and date]

everything blurred together after the hangar collapsed, it was all according to plan to have it collapse but the plan didn’t involve me almost being a fatality. I was crushed under the wreckage but I was found a few hours later after the dust settled. apparently, it was bad- bad enough that i had 1-year intensive rehab, a regular rehab treatment would take 3.

Month 3 of rehab and i had already threatened every person trying to help me. My squad didn’t talk to me anymore, and my Position was handed off to another Captain. It hurt to wake up knowing that the day would be filled with failure but it hurt to go to sleep knowing i didn’t make any progress.

I sat in my quarters, tightening the two black braces on my legs. i would make it to the cafe to grab some food, eat and head back to my quarters- all on my own. they told me not to but by now mostly everyone knew i didn’t listen. i took careful steps to my door and slowly left my room. i used the wall for support as i painfully stepped towards the cafe which was a 5-minute walk away but it now felt like hours. the cafe was empty, thankfully, and i slowly made a tray of food and sat down. “Hey stranger,” i heard the heavy voice of Kylo call from behind me. “H-hey K-kylo,”I stuttered not expecting him to be here, his face was freshly stitched up by a med droid. “How are you doing?” He asked quietly as if we were trading secrets. “I’m fine,” i nodded and stabbed a pitiful vegetable with my fork. “You’re tense again,” Kylo tried to lift his voice but we both know i wasn’t tense, i was suffering. “Yeah, just have a lot on my mind,” i sighed and i put my fork down. it was rare to see Kylo so raw, so human, much as i was now. “I’m sorry,” i said as i rubbed my forehead. “About what?” Kylo scoffed. “I disobeyed orders. They said not to go after her but i did, i dove head 1st into the fire,” i sighed heavily and i felt Kylo shift closer to me. it was the 1st time he was actually next to me. “Yeah, that was a pretty stupid decision but you made it thinking that it would do more good than bad,” Our voices were low. “Why are you here?” i spoke up, changing the subject. “I freed up some time so i could see you,” A small trace of a smile formed on his lips. “See me? I don’t want a pity party Kylo,” I grumbled. “it wasn’t meant that way, that was supposed to sound a lot kinder and romantic,” he glanced at me as we sat there, awkwardly. “So you finally figure out who i was talking about,”I perked up slightly. “you don’t give me enough credit, i am Kylo Ren. Master of the Knights of Ren,” He smirked playfully. “Ok, Mr. Master Knight, can you help me back to my quarters?” i finally looked up into his eyes. “Of course,” he smiled and planted a quick soft kiss on my cheek before he grabbed my hand, helping me up.

[main account: @jordon-heart ]

artistjordon

still my original work! i accidentally posted it to my main account!

Drowning Shadows (Au)

Alex- Adam Driver

Luna “lu”- OC

Lynn- OC

This is a bit of writing for my English class. not exactly kylo ren related but Alex was modeled after Adam driver soo....yeah?

Warnings: cursing, Alcoholic, Alcoholism

The harsh taste of alcohol swirled with the old cigarette on my tongue as I scanned the dark shifty bar. Two men hunched greedily over the stained wooden bar, both of them intoxicated and unable to do anything but cry. It was a sight to see, two large men, crying openly in a bar but it was far more common here. I found this hole in the wall, known as ‘La Muerte Ael Amor’, 4 months ago, when i failed my art history final. I’ve been visiting every weekend since.

Moments like this, watching the two men weep over each other, made my stomach churn. Not because it was...different because i never had anyone to care about me and in return, i don’t care about others. Well, maybe one person, but that’s it. I finally pulled my burning eyes away from the two men, feeling a bit guilty for staring, and looked down at the glass in my hand. My knuckles were white, i gripped the cup hard enough that it might shatter. But no, i couldn’t, breaking things is not a good way to cope but drinking is apparently. I left my lonely table in the back corner of the bar and headed towards the front. From back there i had the perfect view of everything, everyone coming and leaving.

“Hey, Barkeep. I’ll have a Sunset and Coke when you have a chance,” i placed the exact change on the bar top and waited. It wasn’t too long until the glass was thrown in front of me and i pulled out a barstool, already putting the fizzy glass to my lips before i sat down. The sweetness of coke did nothing to soothe the burning taste of the rum but the pain was well worth it. The pain was nice, it made me feel in control in the few moments i wasn’t, it reminded that i was still alive.

The bar was flooded with the sound from the street as someone entered the bar and i glanced back quickly. She looked young but not that young? The quick glance told me a lot about her. The way her shoulders were tight and of course her reddened face, were dead giveaways to her distress.

“Welcome to club darling” i muttered silently under my breath as she approached the bar, trying to order a drink. She stumbled over her words here and there but eventually got a fruity drink. From the corner of my eye, i watched her take a slow hesitant slip of the red drink and her face immediately scrunched up. I scoffed to myself as she began to cough violently. Poor soul, what drove her here? I carefully observed her, making notes of her behavior before i finally approached her.

“You’re not 21, are you?” i accused with a whisper and she jumped.

“What makes you think i am not?” She retorted, her arrogance was practically seeable.

“You’re alone, at a random bar in Brooklyn, ordering a drink you can’t handle- You’re not 21 and you’re not an alcohol person,” the increase of the red on her face told me i was right.

“Why are you here?” i asked as i took her drink and sipped it.

“That was mine!”

“Not legally,”I rolled my eyes. “Why are you here?”

“None of your concern,” The girl snarled.

“It is my concern because i know you don’t want to end up like me, hiding here, drowning your sorrows in spirits,”

She stayed silent, i clearly struck a chord with her.

“Listen, you don’t have to talk to me but just to ease your mind, who am i going to tell? I’m a random girl, at a random bar that you’ll never see again. Spill it,” My voice purred lowly, convincing her to trust me...it worked. She took a deep breath, still staring daggers at her drink that i took.

The girl next to me took in a deep breath and let it out slowly before she finally looked me in the face.

“My life isn’t great and recently things have just gotten harder,”

“No life is great. Why did you come to a bar?”

Her face turned impassive and her eyes burned into the wall past my head.

“I everyone around me seems so at ease with they drink...they say it takes the edge off and it can heal broken spirits,” the girl’s face hardened, holding back her emotions.

“This isn’t the river of healing everyone claims it to be if anything this is where people come to be baptized in the name of alcoholism. This is not your answer sweetheart,”

“Then this isn’t you answer either,” She shot back and i felt a sharp pain in my chest. She was right, this was no one’s answer.

“That doesn’t matter, I’ll get out of this eventually but until i do, it’s my duty to keep others from falling,” my hand rested on her shoulder as our eyes started to water but no tears fell. A long hour dragged on as we talked about her life, not mentioning mine.

“It’s late and I have an exhibition in the morning. Here is my number, and a free entry ticket. If you need to get out of your house or a situation come swing by. You’re more than welcome to and feel free to message me whenever”I smiled at her and she looked up again. She wanted to cry but she wouldn’t, she was stronger than tears. “Get the hell out of here before you get noticed,” I chuckled and she got up, her stance changed from when she entered. Her shoulders now relaxed and i sensed her resolve. The girl left quickly, venturing back into the busy city street.

About an hour later i closed my tab and headed out the bar. I stepped out into the street and the darkness in the night swirled with the poison in my veins. The walk home was cold and slow, slower than it normally is. I didn’t want to go home if you could even consider it to be a form of home. The apartment itself did not feel like home but the warm body and loving brown eyes did feel like home. Finally, i reached the worn red door and carefully climbed the stairs to the top floor. By now the liquor had numbed the darkness growing in my mind but as i reached my door, a streak of light shined from under the door. Great, Alex waited up for me.

“You went out again, without me,” his heavy voice said as he sat on the couch, only in his boxers, looking at me with passiveness. I expected him to be fuming but instead, i was greeted with patience and understanding. It made me sick.

“I don’t want to hear it, Alex, I want to be alone,” i muttered but he got up, coming very slowly, deliberately taking his time until he was standing in front of me. Alex was taller, a lot taller than me, and he was incredibly smart- unlike me but we both chose creative careers. I’m an illustrator while he is a photographer, an interesting photographer to say the least. We started dating 2 years ago and moved in together about 9 months ago. It was unconditional love between us but love is still foreign to me. Luckily, i had the most understanding patient person in the world.

“You want to be alone but you don’t need to be alone,” Alex was chest to chest with me, his large hand gently pushing hair from my face. He was the only person who could see through my bullshit.

“I drank a lot,” i admitted, a blush creeping to my cheeks.

“I know, but it’s ok,”

“No it’s not, i shouldn’t be this way, not at this age,” i huffed and went to turn away but his hand caught my waist.

“It’s ok to struggle with coping and i agree, you shouldn’t be an alcoholic at this age but i am here to help you,”

I growled in annoyance at his place.

“Please, let me help you,” Alex pleaded, and i placed my hand on his bare chest, ready to shove him away from me but i stopped. I needed help, i needed it badly but i don’t want to destroy what we’ve built over the past years.

“I helped someone today...a girl who was going to follow my path,” my words snapped the heavy silence around us. “She was 18, snuck into the bar but before she could have a drink i stopped her. No one should go down this path,”

“Than why did you go down this path?”

“Because i didn’t know any better! I didn’t have anyone to guide me!” my voice exploded and i shoved Alex away. “I never had anyone tell me wrong from right!”

“Lu, please don’t do this,”

“Don’t ‘Lu’ me,” i snapped and i could see Alex growing with frustration. “I’m sorry, I just...had a moment tonight and I’m coming to terms with a few things,” my anger had extinguished instantly. I hated to see Alex angry and Alex wasn’t a violent person, he’s quite, sweet and overall passionate.

“You scare me, Luna, i hate seeing you so distressed. It hurts when i feel you leave at night and i know where you’re going. I desperately want to go with you but i can never bring myself to do it,”

Tears welled in my eyes and i tilted my head back.

“What are you doing?”

“Crying is weakness and weakness is a failure. I can not fail and i cannot cry,” my voice was raspy but Alex gently pulled me into an embrace. And with the firm, loving hug, my composure shatter instantly. Tears flowed from my eyes like a freshly broken dam. It’s been a long time since I’ve shed tears but in all honesty, i rather cry in his arms than to be alone. “I’m so sorry Alex,” i cried and he brushed the tears from my eyes.

“Don’t apologize to me, you have nothing to be sorry about-”

“I have so much to be sorry about. I’m sorry you’re stuck with me. I’m sorry I’m not a functioning adult. I’m sorry I'm not good enough-”I stopped suddenly as he began to chuckle. “This is not funny Alex!” i cried but watching his goofy face contort into a large grin made my tears lessen.

“You think I’m stuck with you?” Alex was now laughing. “If there is any person in this world that I’d choose to be stuck with, it's you Lu. You are everything i want and more,” his soft voice seemed to float in my ears.

“Yeah...that was pretty stupid of me to say,”I shrugged my shoulders, trying to relieve the tension.

“Come on love, you have a gallery showing tomorrow and you need to be well rested-” his eyes fell on the clock. “Oh,” was all he said

“Yeah, it’s 5am. The gallery opens at 10am,” i giggled the numbness receding from my veins and i suddenly became aware of how tired i was. “But that doesn’t mean i have to be there at 10am,”I yawned, my hand grabbing Alex’s as i pulled him to our room, ready to sleep soundly because with he would be at my side.

It’s noon and i am far more tired than i could imagine but it didn’t dampen my unusual positive mood.

“Wow, look at you wearing a dress,” i heard the silky voice of Alex purr from behind me.

“It’s a special occasion but what are you doing here? You should be doing your study,” i chastened but his smile didn’t fade.

“I am doing my study,” Alex smiled widely, his freckles scrunching with his laugh lines. “On you,” his addition caught me off guard and i stared at him, silent. “Is that bad? Should i not do it for you. I thought maybe-” i stopped his rambling with a wave of my hand.

“I’m very excited to see what you will do,” i leaned up on my tip toes and kissed his cheek but my eye caught a familiar face entering the gallery. “I’ll talk to you later babe,” i patted the cheek i kissed and left him. “Hey Lynn,”I greeted with a smile...

The apartment was an abyss of black before Alex flicked on the lights but once the darkness was chased away, the destruction was visible. But among all the chaos between the ripped up couch and shatter glass was a perfect bottle of clear Patron, sitting neatly with an undisrupted vase of grey roses on the kitchen table. Alex stopped me from moving as he went ahead to read the red note card wrapped around the neck of the bottle. I know who it was from, i know why it’s here. i so badly wanted to run forward, snatch it from Alex’s hand and drink it whole. My cheeks burned and my stomach churned violently but with my fist clenched i stood my ground. I couldn’t hear what Alex was saying but he wasn’t happy. He dumped the flowers and threw the card out before he looked at me as i stared at the bottle. I took careful steps forwards and Alex was saying something along the lines of “Resist it Lu” or “You’re stronger than this” but as my hand touched the cool glass his voice disappeared. my mind spiraled into its darkest corner and every reason to why i should chug this whole bottle came thundering into my consciousness.

#alternate universe #adam driver #badass #flashback #alcohol #alcoholic drink #kylo ren #for fun #short #story

It’s winter every day... (Kylo Ren One Shot)

Warnings: cursing, fighting, lil fluff

I. Hate. The. Cold. The fact that the quarters i visit...frequently...happen to be bitterly freezing always makes thing harder.

my teeth ground together as i reluctantly pulled off the heavy layers of 1st order issue bedding. Why is it always so cold? It didn’t matter, i had to dress quickly before my bones chilled. I’m only 6 months into this job and i still can’t get over all of it. I’m 4 months into a relationship and i can’t convince him to turn up the fucking heat when i stay the night. the cold made me want to curl back in the blankets and melt away but i couldn’t, my job puts my life on the line...literally. i was the sole person that has to keep superior officers from killing each other. there always an argument but when things get physical, i step in. The fights are often in command centers or the main bridge. My job is actually how i met my “Boyfriend”

It was an early morning, the new “Peacemaker” was here...the previous one has sustained fatal injuries. Her uniform was sharp but lightweight some areas on her back and shoulders were padded. It would be the 1st female peacemaker the 1st order had and on day 1, she would be thrown into a heated argument with the general and commander. she legally (and rank wise) had the ability to restrain anyone...including the general or commander. the only person she couldn’t touch was Snoke. So when the pesky General and The commander went at it- she did not hesitate to step in putting both of them flat on their asses in a few quick moves. The commander did NOT like that the newcomer touched him but when he went to punish her the sight of the matte black dove made him stop. It wasn’t often, never actually, that the General or the commander couldn’t punish someone for a protocol breach- but she didn’t break protocol. they couldn’t touch her.

I grumbled as i stepped out of my small dorm like quarters and headed down the hall towards the command center. My job was to wander and make sure all was stable. the 1st order can not have disruption of between their high ranking members. Lower ranks always groan when i break up a fight but if i let them continue on their course, someone would be dead by the end of it. The high ranked officers fight to the death- at least that is what it feels like. So far i have taken my fair share of bruises and busted lips but it was part of the job. If getting beat up and taking such a big risk every day- then why does the cold bother me so much? I stood post in the main bridge for a few hours watching the communicators carefully. those bastard always started trouble with the defense officers across the room. And sure enough, i picked up on the little twitches and tense bodies. before i knew it a blonde haired communicator swiftly walked up to a specific defense officer and planted a firm punch to his jaw. I was already in motion, my stun gun charging in my side pocket. i grabbed the Bonde communicator by his collar and slammed him to the floor while the Defense officer went after him on the ground. My arm caught the Defense Officer by his torso and flung him backwards. Everything was on display, like a performance so when the Blonde Communicator and Defense Officer teamed up on me, that's when things went South.

I lured them out of the main bridge and into the hallway where i could separate them and stun them. “Let’s take this down a notch before things escalate guys,” i voiced firmly but the two looked amused (and pissed) at my attempts to stabilize the situation. “My friend was terminated because of you!” The blonde yelled. “You’ve done so many people wrong! Maybe it’s time you had a taste of what it’s like!” he added and He rushed me. I dodged his poorly timed punch but the Defense Officer was on me, hands trying to grab the stun gun on my side. In a few moments, I was outmatched and a heavy blow hit me on the side of the head-

* * *

the two bodies thunked to the floor as i was finally able to stun the two officers. blood was dripping in my eyes but i had to make sure these two idiots were reported and confined before i could worry about myself. I ordered two troopers to help carry the unconscious men to the Discipline sector. Once there i booked and reported them both, security footage would be my alibi. from filing paperwork until i reached my door, no one took notice of my bloody face- unbelievably- or maybe they all knew what happened and didn’t ask. When i opened my door i found a concerned Kylo Ren sitting on my bed, his face steeled and eyes locked on me. “Hey,” i said without much effort as i walked to the bathroom, ready to try and stop the bleeding from my temple. “You should have gone to the medical bay,” Kylo growled as he was behind me, both of us staring into the mirror at the dark spot on my head. “It’s nothing Kylo,” i tried to play it off with a smile but it didn’t work. “Can i train you now? Now that you’ve been beaten off your high horse?” His voice was sharp, cold- just like the room. I shivered but glared at Kylo. “Instead of helping me, you criticize me. Can we talk about this later when i don’t have blood pouring from my head?” I asked quietly and Kylo’s face softened a little as the white towel began to turn crimson. With a sigh Kylo had me sitting on the closed toilet as he carefully dabbed the broken skin on my temple. “You should go to the med bay,” he muttered under his breath. “Shut up Kylo,” i whispered and i grabbed the tube of antiseptic from the table next to me...

“You never leave my bed,” A voice said from the bathroom. “Because you keep it so cold in here!” i yelled from under the covers, my face was cold to the touch. “I told you i sleep hot,” Kylo shot back and the bathroom light turned off. “Yeah Yeah whatever,”I muttered and curled my feet up, trying to warm up the area around me. “HEY!” i snapped as Kylo got under the covers, a stab of cold air flowing around me. “Shhhhhhh,” Was all he said and his arms wrapped around my waist and the blankets began to warm again. Normally we would be intertwined but the Med Bay nurse said i should try and be as still as possible for the next few nights. No fun tonight, just sleep. “I’ll turn up the heat next time,” Kylo mumbled as i felt his body begin to relax as sleep overcame him. “You better or I’ll kick your ass again,”I mumbled too, a fog coming over my mind. “i let you win,” Kylo’s voice was barely audible. “Maybe,” i added finally as my mind went blank...

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Love me for Today (Kylo Ren One Shot)

Warnings: Fluff! Cursing!

From dawn to dawn i ran back and forth between the High command aboard the Finalizer. Passing off Battle plans, execution notices, budget plans and so on but i was never actually involved in any of it. I was just the delivery girl, a runner. I’m that panicked person you see bolting down the hallways, papers clutched in her hands- it’s great cardio. My uniform is distinguished by the material and large 2 red stripes going down the pants leg. It was the standard black on black but it was flexible and moisture wicking- but i still looked sharp as hell. i also have unrestricted access to most of the ship...added bonus. There are currently only 4 runners to “run” the Finalizer, so every morning at 5am, the 4 of us meet up for a warm-up before the hectic day starts. We are a team vital to communication on the Finalizer but outside of the workday, we are all very different.

my 36-hour shift finally ended as i passed along the last papers to Captain Phasma. I’m beyond exhausted. it went like clockwork, a 36 shift then a 12 break. i walked back into the private housing sector until i reached my door. i lazily punched in the 6 digit code and the doors slide open quietly. i stripped off my uniform as i headed towards the bedroom, throwing it into the heap of clothing that was forming in the corner of the room. As quietly as possible i tried to get ready for bed but the sudden stop from the snoring bed and the ruffled of sheets made me cringe. i woke him up...again. “Y\N?” the groggy voice asked. “Sorry, Kylo. I’ll be there in a minute,” I spoke softly and headed to the shared bathroom. I stared at my reflection in the large mirror after i took off my makeup. My eyes were not bright blue anymore. they sunk in with large purple bags underneath them as i felt the burn of a nosebleed start. the human body was not meant to do 36-hour shifts and i was paying the price. Luckily though, i had the weekends off. i stuffed tissue up my nose and left the bathroom, scurrying across the cold floor and under the heavy black blankets. i wasn’t even all the way under before Kylo’s heavy arms swarmed me and pulled me close. it took a very long time to get here, to get this amount of trust from him but through all the fighting and trying to understand each other- it was worth it. already i could feel my body begin to relax as the sound of Kylo’s heavy, slow heartbeat pattered away softly. It wasn’t long until my body let go and drifted into the abyss...

“Y/N” A low groan sounded from under the big black comforter. I responded with a grunt and tried to turn away. “You have off today,” Kylo’s morning voice croaked but he kept me from moving, trapped in his warm hold. “Then why are you waking me up?” i snapped quietly and pulled me crusted eyes open to see Kylo looking at me, his gaze soft. “I don’t get much time with you, at least time when you're conscious,” he chuckled lowly his hand now playing with my hair. “So you wake me up on purpose?” i moaned and threw my head into the pillow. “Maybe you have off, but i don’t,” He muttered and his hand still played with my messy hair. “Sorry, i know you have to go,”I mumbled my eyes already heavy again but i managed to tangle myself with him one last time before he had to go take a shower. i pulled my eyes open once more and looked into his, the feeling of love and affection pouring over me. “Ok,” i whispered with a smile and put my head down, darkness already swirling in my head. “Ok, what?” Kylo asked a slight sound of concern in his voice. “You still love me for today,” i sighed. “For today? I'll love you as long as you live Y/N. i love you more than just today,” i could sense his confusion. “I fear the day when someone better comes alone Kylo. Someone who meets all your expectations,”I felt the tug of sleep piercing my consciousness. “No one will be better than you,” Kylo growled, a bit annoyed. “That force sensitive scavenger is, she’s everything you ever wanted. i know because you told me this before we got involved and i was just your friend,” my words started to slur. “That’s stupid Y/N, to think that,” Kylo’s deep voice sighed heavily. “We’ll talk about this later but for now, I’m glad you love me today,” my words trailed off into silence as i fell back into the abyss of sleep...

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Holiday? (Kylo Ren One shot)

“Holiday? What is a holiday?” i asked curiously as i walked next to the supreme leader, Kylo Ren. After he assumed his rightful position when Snoke was ‘murdered’, i took his position as Commander. “You haven’t heard of them?” His voice was heavy, as normal. “No sir, you know where i come from,”I glanced up quickly at him. “Hmm, right. That small Moon where you were practically still in the stone age,” Supreme leader teased. “You’re so tense. You’re making me tense,” He added with some bite. “Sorry Master,”I apologized and i felt his hand rest on my back gently. We are in a relationship but a very new and unsure relationship- i was the hesitant one. But we weren’t exactly supposed to be...together but he is the Supreme leader now, he does makes the rules. “Relax, you’re not speaking during this one but tonight you will. Just look intimidating,” Kylo muttered as we made our way into an elevator. “I’ll tell you more about the holiday’s when this is over,” he rolled his shoulders and sighed heavily. “And make sure to pull your scarf up,” Kylo added quietly and I pulled up the black material to hide the bruises on my neck. We stepped out into a darkened hallway, past the doors the cadences of Stormtroopers can be heard. I took a heavy breath and followed Kylo out past the doors. The Troopers fell silent as soon as Kylo came into view. I knew what the speech was about and tried not to focus on the thousands of eyes on me. I felt a slight tinge of anxiety come from Kylo but he swallowed it before he spoke. It was an instant calm as he began to speak. His deep voice traveling across the largest hangar bay we have. It was a short speech compared to the one i had to deliver tonight at the Galaxy Ball. Each large organization had to present a speech about who they are or what changes have happened. This year the First Order had a new Supreme Leader, it was my job to deliver his speech because Kylo honestly didn’t want to do it. Plus there was too big of a risk for him to be alone on stage. This would also be the 1st year that the resistance wouldn’t make a speech also. He finished and the Troopers saluted before we left.

“You’re nervous,” Kylo stated as he started to put on his tie. We only had about 1 hour before we depart for Canto Bight. I personally hated the planet but every year the hosting planet changes. “Can you zip me up please?” i asked softly as i walked over to kylo. His cool hands ran down my back before he swiftly closed me in the dress. “Thanks,” my eyes glanced up to meet his. Our eyes locked for a moment and Kylo caught my chin before i left. “You look stunning,” He smiled softly. “T-thank you,” i blushed. “Finish up, we have to leave soon,” Kylo added as i turned away back to the vanity in the bathroom. “Tell me what holidays are!” i yelled from the bathroom as i put on my eyeliner. “I thought you forgot.” He teased and stood behind me, his hands on my waist. “For a while i did, but you’re done and I’m almost done, so why don’t you start to explain,” i suggested an he took the hint. “Holidays are special days throughout the year that hold meaning to certain people. Some are Religious, some are Customary and some are just here for no reason. Or they can mean a vacation, which is a break from work,” Kylo rolled his eyes at the last part. “Are there any soon?” i asked and applied more mascara. “Valentines day,” Kylo said and i paused, watching his eyes stare at himself in the mirror. “Is that a bad one?” i asked softly and resumed putting the final touches on my face. “Depends,” he said vaguely. “If you don’t want to tell me, don’t worry about it, i was just-” he stopped me. “It’s about romance, and celebrating love,” Kylo said stiffly. “Ok,” i turned to face him. “Thanks for telling me. i know it’s strange that i don’t know about things that are common to you, but I appreciate how patient you’ve been,” i smiled warmly at him but his hands cupped my cheeks gently and planted a soft kiss on my lips. I felt my shoulders relax and heart calm as he held the kiss. It was nice, just me and him, being human instead of the stoic, harsh tools we have been made to be. That’s true, we are just two guns in someone arsonal but at least Kylo was free of Snoke. But now i was a gun in Kylo’s arsonal and i so badly wanted him to see me more than that. To extent he has, as our relationship grew he has seen more of me than his apprentice, his commander. “You’re overthinking again,” Kylo muttered from under my lips as he pulled me close to him. “I do see you more than a loaded gun, always remember that, even if i don’t act like it,” the scent of leather mixed with the cool mint of his cologne as we enjoyed up the moment. I forgot he has a direct connection to my thoughts. “We have to go,” i finally said and pulled away, his brown eyes still on mine. “Wait, one more before i have to act like i don’t care,” Kylo smirked and kissed me again but poured passion into this kiss. It was short but he left me breathless, like always. We marched out together as we headed for his Command Shuttle. “Supreme leader, Commander,” Hux greeted with stiffness. He was still burned by Kylo’s place as Supreme Leader. “General Hux, you look sharp as ever,” i greeted and Kylo headed inside the Shuttle. “As do you,” he complimented back. Hux and I, we were on better terms than him and Kylo. “Is Phasma well enough to join us?” i asked and Hux sighed. “She should be here in a moment. She’ll be in here armor but due to her injuries, Phasma has permission to leave her helmet off,” i watched as he visibly relaxed. I love Phasma, she is the best drinking partner, unlike Hux or Kylo who have one shot and immediately want to either kill me or fuck me- sometimes they can’t decide. Anyway, i was glad should could be here tonight. I highly doubt any of us will touch any alcohol tonight, the Galaxy ball is broadcasted across the universe. “You have the speech?” Hux asked sharply. “Memorized to a T, sir” i sighed and saw Phasma approach, her face covered in makeup to hide her injured face. “Intimidating,” i smiled at her and she bowed her head. I was technically higher rank than her but we both held the same level of respect for each other. I will have to talk to kylo about promoting her. We boarded the ship and i took a seat with Phasma. “The testosterone is practically visible between those two,” she said under her breath as the shuttle began to depart. “I know, but i can’t complain because they haven’t been fighting since i threw them both into a wall,” i whispered as i saw Hux's head tilt our direction. “Kylo did make me pay for that later,” i sighed. “Yeah i saw that limp, what did he do?” Phasma said and the shuttle hit lightspeed. “No mercy training, he beat the shit out of me,” I huffed and i watched Kylo shift as him and Hux talked quietly. “I deserved it, i stepped out of line, but at least now they aren’t killing each other,” i snickered under my breath and Phasma smothered a chuckle. “Oh no, they still do, no doubt Hux is thinking about all the ways he could kill you and Kylo,” Phasma mentioned. “He doesn’t have to worry about Kylo trying to kill him because he’ll already be dead. General Ginger better what his ass,” as i said the last part i saw Hux glance over at me. Our eyes met and i knew he heard me. “Attempt my murder and I’ll slaughter his whole army before him then keep him as a pet,” i felt the darkness swirl in my mind as my thoughts wondered how many ways i could torture Hux if he ever thought to betray me. “Or i might just let you have him. You’re exceptional in torture Phasma,” i chuckled and she smiled. We didn’t hate Hux, but we knew he had been burned bad when Kylo and I rose above his control. Hux was like a caged animal, scared, angry and ready bite.

Our conversation stopped until we sat down at our table in the Grand Order Hall on Canto Bight. “Lovely place,” i commented as i sat between Kylo and Hux, Phasma was next to Kylo on his left and i was on his right. “You chatter is useless commander,” Hux said as he looked at the menu of wine. “Well fuck you too General Hux,” i replied and got a sharp jab in my ribs by Kylo. ‘Do not start anything’ Kylo’s voice broke through my thoughts. ‘If you do the consequences will be the worst possible’ i heeded his words and kept my mouth shut as drink orders were taken. “Red wine,” Hux said to the young girl. She looked at me for my answer. “A shot of patron with Jack and Coke,”I got a nudge from Kylo under the table. ‘I need a drink or I’ll puke on stage from nervousness’ i nudged him back as him and Phasma ordered. The drinks came out quick but we had to wait for the starting toast. The Host, Queen Requine, sauntered out on stage to present the opening toast. “Here is to a peaceful, diplomatic night. May the parties in our presence bring harmony to the galaxy,” she smiled widely and the sound of glasses echoed around us. “Yeah yeah,” i scoffed under my breath and threw back the shot of patron without flinching, i caught Kylo’s slightly surprised reaction. ‘You’re an alcoholic’ Kylo muttered in my head. ‘Is that a problem? Some people can’t destroy control panels willingly and get away with it’ i responded with a sigh. ‘Reasonable’ was his only response. I glanced at Kylo’s watch, i had to go backstage around 10:30 to be wired up to the sound system, it was 10:15. I felt my stomach in my throat and i zipped my jacket and coke instinctively. “Nervous?” Hux commented as he watched me finish the drink. “Not at all,” i said with a glare and looked back on the stage. “I wouldn’t have made you give the speech if i knew you couldn’t do it,” Kylo whispered in my ear and i shivered. 10:30 came too quick and i was escorted backstage to get ready. I was already flustered and the jitters had already gotten the best of me. “Don’t worry dear, there will be teleprompters on the floor,” A middle age woman said as she fixed the microphone to the top of my dress. “I know it by heart, i just don’t want to disappoint my Supreme Leader,”I took a deep breath and she walked me towards the edge of the backstage. ‘You will do great, don’t lock your knees’ Kylo’s voice said and i heard the bouncy voice of the secondary host, Patrick Holistic. “Representing the 1st order tonight is Commander Artemis Blackwell,”I took a final deep breath before i began the walk towards center stage. It seemed like an eternity before i made it to my mark. “Hello Commander, You look lovely tonight. i real piece of eye candy don't you say fellows,” i heard a few people hoot and i shot the announcer a look. “Leave,” i said firmly and he turned to leave. “Watch it Commander, i could have you stripped and sold in a second,” he hissed as he left, his hand covering his microphone. Kylo heard what he said and i could feel the anger rising in both of us, but i took a calming breath before i began speak. “Thank You Mr. Holistic for that generic insult but i have more pressing matters to dwell on. As you all know i am Commander Black will of the 1st order and i will be representing the 1st order supreme leader and high command tonight as i explain our most recent accomplishments and future goals,” i smiled warmly the crowd applauded before i began. “It is the task of the First Order to remove the disorder from our own existence, so that civilization may be returned to the stability that promotes progress. A stability that existed under the Empire which will be restored by us. Future historians will look upon this as the time when a strong hand brought the rule of law back to civilization. We plan on accomplishing this by enacting trade regulations and galactic laws within our surrendered planets. Systems can still abide by their own laws as long as they do not interfere with ours. Similar to the government on Earth, the 1st order will hold all overpower but as long as the corresponding planets do not rebel or break such laws, they are free to continue as normal. If a system intends to rebel, or may just a group, they will be snuffed out and terminated swiftly. With order comes peace but there will always someone with different opinion and as we near a critical point in our universe, instability will not be tolerated. Besides our political appeal we always have an arsenal of powerful weapons, a fleet of over 3,000 star destroyers, 500 mega-class dreadnaughts,and long with our Supreme leader, also myself, we are also two of the strongest force users in the universe. We are not a gun for hire but rather an order for peace with an extra bonus,” throughout the speech i walked gracefully from one side to the other but as i came upon my last part i stopped at center stage. “I ask you, fellow leaders, diplomats to let the past die and look to the future. A future in which order and peace has be ushered in by the firm, assertive hand of the 1st order. Thank you and Goodnight,”I bowed my head and began to head off stage, the crowd roaring behind me, some clapping and yelling with joy, some vowing to have me killed by the morning. I was finally back at my table where my compliments were silent. They had also registered the mix reaction from the crowd. “I will be back,”I whispered to Kylo as i stood up and headed out of the Grand Hall. I went to the bathroom but as i came out i saw Patrick Holistic, waiting. “Can i buy you a drink Commander?” He asked and followed me to the bar. “No,” i said firmly as i ordered my drink and paid for it. “You’re such a bitch, so uptight, so wrapped around the 1st orders finger. You could have a better purpose,” He offered. “As what? A Sex slave? A money maker for you and your human trafficking business? Never,” i scoffed and turned to the bartender. “You will not tell anyone what we say or do here unless i ask you to validate on my side,” i watched his eyes grow wide and then return to normal. He nodded and returned to cleaning glasses. ‘Kylo, i have a situation here. Westside Bar. hurry’ i whispered softly through our connection as i felt a large body behind me. “Have you met these guys?” Patrick smiled. “Trained against your mind tricks, combat pros and counter combat specialist. They are perfect for picking up high priced beauties like you,” Patrick smirked and a set of large hands pressed down on my shoulders. ‘Kylo’ i thought louder. ‘I’m trying’ he hissed. ‘I might kill them, is that ok?’ i asked as the large hand trailed down my back. ‘If you don’t i will’ He growled and i closed my eyes, channeling my strength. I whipped around and landed a firm uppercut out the tall guy behind me. I kicked him in the chest and sent him to the floor. Patrick wrapped a tight piece of fabric around my mouth and fumbled to get the black cloth over my mouth and nose. I pushed him off with the force but i stumbled backwards, dizzy from the amount of chloroform i inhaled accidentally. It wasn’t enough to blackout but just enough that i was woozy. Patrick was back on me, his hand wrapped firmly around my neck as he smothered me with the black cloth again. I felt my mind slip momentarily but i was back just in time as Kylo force threw Patrick away from me. I held myself up on the bar and tried to clear the haze in my mind but it was useless, i was so close to blacking out. “You’ll be dead by tomorrow,” Kylo growled at Patrick who was on the floor, shaking while holding his bloodied face. “I-I’m sorry!” Patrick called out but i threw my hand out and he began to choke. “Don’t even,” i growled and Kylo helped me back to our table. “What happened?” Hux asked with a concerned glare. “Assassination attempt,” Kylo muttered and Hux nodded, already thinking about who to employ to kill Patrick.

We were back on the ship, Hux and I grasping on to each other while Phasma watched silently with glazed eyes. Kylo was already ahead of us, communicating with the Finalizer. “You know wine gets you drink Huxy,” i sneered as i pushed him into a seat. “It makes me feel like I'm drinking the blood of my enemies,” He grumbled. “Thank god we got drinks on the way out. Kylo would have killed us if we made this public,”Phasma muttered and i agreed with her. “Your speech was riveting, reminded me of my Starkiller speech, except more informational. But impactful nonetheless dear Commander,” Hux slurred his compliments. “Thank you General,” i muttered and sipped the smuggled bottle of vodka from under my dress. “How did you get that?” Phasma gasped. “I stole it,”I smirked. “Sharing is caring Commander,” Hux leaned up as did phasma. “Just pass it around,” i huffed and took a swig of the liquor. Phasma went and then Hux, we passed it around until the bottle was empty and we were all out cold.

I took a deep breath in and the smell of aftershave filled my senses. “You are an alcoholic, along with Hux and Phasma,” I heard Kylo scoff. “Oh shit,” i jumped up, the covers flying off of me and i was on my feet in a moment. The cold air hit my skin and i realized i was barely clothed. “Ah!” i fumbled with a blanket and wrapped myself in it. I saw Kylo turn and look at me, only a black towel around his waist. I cast my eyes away from him and began to mutter my apologies. “I’m all about difficult coping strategies but yours has to be the most interesting,” He purred and walked over to me. “You can look at me, we are in private,” he whispered as his hand traced my collarbone. “We have work,” I muttered but his clean, crisp scent made my voice waver. “Not necessarily,” Kylo pulled me into his chest and i could hear the heavy thud of his heart. this is blissful, skin to skin contact- it only made our connection stronger. “Happy Valentine’s day,” Kylo said softly as he showed me a single red rose in his hand. “Wha-what?” i stuttered and i carefully touch the soft red petals. “Happy Valentine’s day Love,”I felt his lips kiss my forehead as i stared in awe at the rose. “I’m sorry,” i muttered. “You have nothing to be sorry about,” he handed me the rose and i held it gently in my grasp. “Thank you Kylo,”I leaned up to kiss him on the cheek. “You only have a half a day of work. I have something planned for tonight,” Kylo smiled before he left me to get ready...

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Run (Kylo Ren One Shot)

'stop running'

the voice whispered softly as my shoes silently tapped the floor quickly, swiftly. my heart raced along with my mind. there was one thing i had to do and that was to keep running. he couldn't catch me, I was too quick, too agile but not strong enough to turn and face him. I was new to this- the force. all I had on my side was the incredible strength that had built up in my legs. it was due to having to run over dunes, across fallen ships, to deliver parts between outpost on Jakku. I was a Messenger, a delivery girl, a slave- running and running but never actually getting anywhere. it was a huge mistake-

'Stop Running, Now'

It demanded- this was ALL a mistake, a huge Misunderstanding. I wanted nothing more than to be paid for my last run when the troopers came. they were wanting to take him back to the starship, apparently, he owed a lot- a fuck ton- of money but instead of paying his debt, he traded me- a force sensitive slave, to the 1st order. he traded me, his quickest runner, to the 1st order- into the hands of the Jedi Killer.

‘Running will cause more pain and suffering’

I kept going, pushing my strides longer, faster but I knew it was stupid. I was running an endless loop unless I got onto a ship and could leave but I've never flown before. I needed to hide, somewhere were droids nor humans could detect me. but this place was swarming with people and especially now that I had escaped from the General's presence.

‘last warning, stop running before I make you’

no, I will not give up, I'll die trying to escape. I blurred out all the excessive noise in my head and focused on finding some spot to hide but it was near impossible to find an area that didn't need a passkey. I ran around corners, skidding silently but regained my speed. It seemed like this hallway never ended but soon enough I rounded another corner and was face to face with a squad of white troopers. “Stop her!” one yelled and the advanced towards me. I turned back around and started down the almost never-ending hallway again. I went to round a corner again but a sudden force pulled my feet out from under me and I went sliding across the slick black floor. I scrambled up but couldn't because pain flooded my upper thigh. I panicked, struggling to get to my feet, not daring to face what was behind me but before i could make any moves to escape, i was trapped. “I told you to stop running, but you wouldn't listen” a deep voice growled. I felt the looming shadow get closer and it almost felt like time was slowing, dragging out my demise. “Do it,”I hissed through clenched teeth. “Just fucking do it,”I added as a dark figure entered my vision. A gentle grace of leather crossed my jaw before he finally appeared in front of me, intimidating with his height and build. “That would be too easy. After all these years of hunting, I’ve finally found you again,” a leather-clad hand ran over my cheek and down my next but pulled away quickly. “I don’t know what you’re talking about!” i snapped at him as Troopers began to flood in from behind. “Of course you wouldn’t, you’ll realize who you are soon enough,” and with that my consciousness was snapped into darkness...

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Our Loss (Kylo Ren One Shot)

“there's no more hope for them. the final ship will run out of fuel and once we fire upon it, you will truly be alone” the heavy voice said from outside the containment cell. “But there's hope for you, you don't have to die like them,” it came back with a touch of softness. “I am not what you envision. there is so much you wouldn't dare want to know,” i replied with a mumble the ache in my chest stealing my will to speak up. “You don't have to die, you can live...with me. I can keep you from meeting the same fate. you don't remember because they took your-” The dark haired man paused, clenching his fist. “Memories. Please, Stay with me, don't make me kill you, i couldn't live with myself if i did,” The emotions swelled in his dark brown eyes and i felt a tug at my heart as i stood up. i walked over to him where his forehead was pressed between the bars and stuck my hand through the bars to run it in his hair. A small smile played on his lips. “You are meant to be mine. I can't believe you don't remember any of it” He whispered softly as his hand caressed my face gently. “Can you make me remember?” i asked quietly and our eyes met instantly. “I could force it out of you, but that's torture and the last thing i want to do is put you through something like that” The closeness between us was comforting, like it was meant to be. “Do it,” i spoke up. “W-What?” My command was a shock to him. “Make me remember,” i added. “I told you i won't do that to you-” i cut him off by placing a small kiss to his lips. “Make me remember, please, and then I'll stay with you,” i tried to negotiate with him. “It may not work,” He added with a huff as he stepped back from the bars but he caught my hand before i pulled it back. “Just try, Please. i hate knowing that there is so much more between us than i remember,” I pleaded. “Fine but you must do whatever i say, no questions asked,” He set his Jaw and plastered on an angry expression as he stormed off. “GET ME A CELL EXTRACTION NOW!” i eventually heard...his voice cut through the still air. “Yes, Supreme leader!” someone barked back and the sound of footsteps approaching made me jump back away from the bars. “EXTRACTION ON CELL 184!” the trooper yelled as the door began to slide open and It entered to place my hands in heavy metal cuffs. “Where to sir?” the trooper asked once he dragged me out of the cell. I immediately felt extremely vulnerable as the trooper handed me off to the dark-haired man. He purposely yanked me hard as we began to storm away. Once outside the prisoner block, our paced slowed and the cuffs were discarded. “Thanks” i whispered softly. the walked between us was silence except for the few groans as i did not recognize certain things or areas. “oh?” i finally spoke up as he typed in a code to open a heavy black door. i realized that there were no other doors around like the previous hallways. he pulled me inside but did not let me look around. “sit, cross your legs” his voice was cold but it seemed that it was natural for him to speak that way. i sat down facing a large window that looked out upon the beautiful galaxy. i was mesmerized by it that i didn't notice the body behind me. Two arms pulled me closer to his warm body but before i could protest my back was pressed against his chest. “I'll try to do this painlessly but tell me if it gets too much, there's no shame if you can't take it anymore,” his warm breath was on my neck before one of his hands rested on my temple and the other on the opposite side but down on my neck. “Don't resist. the more you resist the more time, energy and pain there will be,” He whispered and i shivered as a streak of cold ran down my spine. pain? i tensed up momentarily but another cool wave washed over me. “Who am i?” the deep throaty voice asked. “I don't know,” i whispered. “Yes, You do. Who am I?” i felt an increasing pressure in my mind but it didn't hurt. “I-I don’t-” i stopped abruptly, squeezing my eyes closed as pain erupted behind my eyes. “Ahhhhh! K-Kylo stop!” i cried out and his hand let go of my face. “Who am i?” He asked and i looked up at him. “Kylo...Zen?” the last part was still fuzzy. “Its ok, lets try again,” Kylo's large hands pressed firmly to my head and neck again but this time i was met with a strong sharp pain. i cried out but Kylo's hand stayed firm on my head. “Stop! Please! Kylo Stop!” i cried, tears streaming down my face as painful images flashed behind my eyes. “PLEASE!” i yelled and his hands broke contact with my head. i put my head in my hands, crying not because of the pain, but because it didn't reveal anything. “One more time, let me try something,” I heard his husky voice ask softly. i nodded and wiped my tears as he placed his large hands on my head again. i was struck with electric as Kylo pulled me tightly to his chest. “Please remember,” he whispered before my mind went dark….

‘I could kill Hux!” a girl with dark brown hair growled as she stormed into the room. The Point of View looked up at her, from a book. She was pissed, so pissed that she looked beautiful. it was rare to see her that mad but from the man's eyes, he wanted nothing more than to see how angry she could get. Of course, he wouldn't tempt the beast like that. Instead, he closed the ‘Book of Sith’ and made his way over to her as she set the black handle next to his on the bed stand. his hands ran over her partially uncovered shoulder of her uniform- which was much like his but feminine. “I'm sorry love. what did he do this time?” the man asked as he wrapped his arms around her waist. “It's what he didn't do!” she wanted to pull from his hold and break the nearest lamp but he wouldn't let her go. “I'm sorry, we can kill him tomorrow, What do you want for dinner? i was about to place the order,” he grabbed the sheet of the daily dinner aboard the Finalizer from the nearby table. “I'll take the Steak, Rare, with Spinach and Potatoes” she sighed and signed the order form. “Go take a shower, it'll be here by then” He kissed her forehead softly and left while she headed towards the bathroom…

“Who are they?” i asked as soon ad i had my voice back. “They're you and me, just a few weeks ago before that Scavenger messed with your memories,” Kylo said softly. “Oh...I’m sorry then... i don't remember.” my head dropped and his hands moved to wrap around my waist like he did the girl- who is me- i just don't recognize any of it. “I'm so sorry” i felt tears run down my cheeks. “Don't worry about it,” he mumbled. “A-are you going to get rid of me?” i blurted out and he moved until he sat in front of me. “Never,” Kylo Vowed. “You are still the same person, you just don't remember anything we did together. I'll just have to do everything again, maybe even fix a few things i shouldn't have done” a small smirk graced his lips. “Am I still a prisoner?” i asked. “Kind of, i have to prove you really don't remember anything and that your actions against the 1st order were influenced greatly because you had no memory of who you actually are” he explained in brief. “Do i have to go back to the Cell?” i bit my lip. “No, not tonight. you can stay if you wish” Kylo said and he stood up, eventually helping me to my feet. “Again, I am so sorry-” Kylo stopped me as he pulled me into his strong arms. “You'll be back to yourself soon,” he kissed my hair before someone interrupted us…

[ 5 days later, after her trial ]

“Let's see what you remember naturally,” Kylo threw me a Black staff and took one for himself. “Don't hold back. if i don't remember, i still have to learn it,” i gave him a small nod before he lunged forward ready to strike me in the thigh. i blocked his staff with mine and we began to counter each other's moves. “Good, you're reacting normally,” i heard him praise as i ducked under his swift swing but he managed to get behind me and whacked me upside the head. the crack resonated through the training room and i fell back as another blow swiped my legs from underneath me. “Wait!” i yelled and Kylo paused, breathing heavily. i rubbed the sore spot only to pull my hand away and see it was covered with crimson. “Oh shit,” i heard the staff hit the floor and Kylo's hands were on my head, gently pulling the hair away from the seeping blood. “I didn't think i hit you that hard,” he growled under his breath before grabbing by my upper arm. We headed out of the training room, blood rushing down the side of my face. “I should have seen that coming” i muttered and Kylo heard me but for the moment he chose not to respond. We ended up back in ‘our’ shared room. I sat down on the bed as Kylo called a Medical droid to the room. it eventually came and began to stitch up the bloody gash. “I shouldn't have gone so hard off the bat,” I heard Kylo say as the droid was done in under a few minutes. my hair was still there but i was left with peaks of black material showing through on my scalp. “Don't worry about it Kylo, mistakes happen,” i tried to comfort him but he wouldn't look at me. “Its ok Kylo...please look at me” i placed my hand on his back as he sat next to me on the bed. “It’s not ok. you don’t remember but i did the same damn thing to you the 1st time we trained with staffs...and i left you alone, bleeding as you stumbled to the Medical Bay,” His head was in his hands. “Kylo, Please, don’t beat yourself up over this-” he silenced me as his hand rested on my thigh. “You loved me because of my rough edges…you fell in love with a monster and every mistake i made you fall deeper in love because you wanted to help me, to fix me...i can’t hurt you like that again,” He looked at me soft eyes...

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