Just a tiny fella

I'm a fanfic author with too much time on my hands. I plan to emotionally scar my readers. My ao3 and FFN are the same. I do not apologize.

[asmallwasp]

I really hate having a crush on my best friend. Not because I think it’s wrong to love your friends or anything, no, never that. But because of how torturous it feels. Why is she so beautiful? How can she look so ethereal with nothing but a smile? Why must I know I don’t have a chance?

She’s beautiful, intelligent, hardworking, compassionate, and kind and I’m none of those. Life puts her down and she keeps getting back up, life puts me down and I wallow in self pity. She’s so gorgeous and I’m just me, she’s so smart and I failed calculus, she’s hardworking and I don’t have a job because my boss didn’t pay on time and I got upset, she’s doing national competitions for her internships and I haven’t left my home state in God knows how long.

I really hate how I love someone I can never have. It’s cruel, almost. I’m a pale imitation of everything she’s amazing at trying to compare to the real thing. It

I tell her I love her and she says it back but she doesn’t know I’m saying it beyond just friends, I ask her what she’d do if a friend of hers confessed but she doesn’t know I’m testing to see if it’s worth the risk it never is, I ask her her type and she asks mine but she doesn’t know it’s because part of me is still delusional she’d say yes.

It’s pitiful honestly. Someone like me having a crush on someone so far beyond me, it’s like comparing a dying candle to a star. But the more I try to forget it the worse it gets, there’s nothing left to do but hate myself for it.

[asmallwasp]

I just want to be kind. How is that so hard?

It’s so easy for everyone else. My bsf is like a light and people are moths, her smile is so easy and her laugh is so beautiful. I swear kindness and compassion just flow off her tongue.

Meanwhile I can’t even speak to my siblings calmly when they ask too many questions, and I struggle to control my voice when someone interrupts me. My first thought is violence when I’m angry and it takes me up to hours to calm down even over the slightest thing.

I just want to be kind. I hate that I’m such an asshole, my bsf nearly cried when I told her I loved her the other day and told me that me being nice was rare. I nearly tore my hair out.

Why am I so violent? Why can’t I just be nice like her? I want to dig into her chest and replace my heart with hers, just to be able to be kind for a bit. And there’s goes the violence again, typical.

Why can’t I be so easy to love like she is? Why can’t I smile as easy? I love her to death but that level of love to her is her norm, at least it feels like it. She’s smart and beautiful and kind and I’m none of those things. I don’t want to be this way… why can’t I just be kind?

[asmallwasp]

Part of me wants to die so I can have a funeral and see how many people will come, to see how many actually *cared* all of this time. I want to be able to just… *know*, you know?

But at the some time, I can’t help but think a funeral would be just another inconvenience to them. My bsf’s grandma just died and I don’t want to add to her grief… if she even would be that is… if it wouldn’t be another of the many inconveniences I have caused her, making her wear her black dress again.

And on the other hand, I understand my desire is irrational. If I could come back, I would, maybe I’d be more loved? Or maybe I’d be less, who knows? I don’t.

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

writers whenever they’re starting a new fic: I have these ✨ vibes ✨ now I’ll have to build an entire plot and write an entire fic about those vibes

[asmallwasp]

Me when I wanted to write a lesbian X-Men fic between Storm and an OC because I had the OC in the Vault of OCs and wanted to use them.

[prinnay]

Peace girl

[just-a-wandering-poet]

„The hardest thing to write is heartbreak/the end/ect.“

Nah man, the hardest thing to write is a long scene about two people with same gender, without overusing their name. That is hardcore.

[asmallwasp]

The key is just to full send it. Readers will be able to tell if you’re confident in your own writing or not. Just full send it, use the names and don’t look back. Vary your sentence structure if that helps. It usually does.

[greelin]

“they were flirting with you” and how was i supposed to know such a thing when everyone speaks in codes and puzzles

[asmallwasp]

You don't actually have to read books in order to write, or even write well. Nope, not necessary.

I'm not saying you shouldn't read at all, but you don't have to read full length novels.

Most of my reading comes from short poems and like, two fanfictions with wildly different writing styles. And, at the risk of sounding egotistical, my writing's still good.

I will admit, I'm a naturally talented writer. I don't struggle with writer's block, or really, anything when it comes to writing. Main issue is usually just procrastination, but other than that, I'm fine.

But even then, that doesn't disqualify what I've said. You don't have to read Tolkien-level books in order to be a good writer, or even a decent one. You don't have to read 5 books a week in order to be a good writer.

As long as what you do read is something that interests you, and something that you like reading, that's all you need.

If you do like reading full novels, then go ahead, but if you prefer short poems and whatnot, that's fine too. You don't have to read 10k words a day in order to be good.

[gasterofficial]

[william-snekspeare]

op where is the top 10 ant list

[asmallwasp]

Everyone knows the best ants are the crunchy ones.

[saintvoids]

Some new kind of scam? It’s giving scam but I also don’t really understand how it’s a scam?? but it’s 100% a scam yeah?

[sauron-kraut]

This is happening to multiple people, truly a new low.

[cilil]

PSA: This is an ongoing potential scam.

The JasmineLucas325 account, as well as several others, are suspected of belonging to a ring of sockpuppets/bot farm run by a person who is trying to make money via shady commissions.

They appear to target fic writers on both AO3 and ff.net (and potentially other sites as well) as well as d&d players, probably due to the fact that they're more likely to want to commission specific character art instead of just AI generating it themselves.

Their messages usually contain something along the lines of praising the writing, saying how they'd love to bring your characters to life and an offer to chat about that, with various socials attached. "Jasmine" in particular has been caught messaging several people, all with the same wording, only the fic title swapped out. And yes, unlike the comment bot situations we had previously, these are actual accounts, which is why we suspect there's a person somewhere behind it. All of these accounts were created recently.

As was uncovered by people investigating this situation who contacted the person behind this, the commission prices are inflated and they are suspected of generative AI use and/or art theft. There are also other red flags such as refusing to share sketches, timelapses or WIP shots - which are part of standard vetting procedure.

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(Brief) Twitter thread calling out another one of these accounts and sharing DMs between the suspected scammer and a customer: Here

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If you have received any messages like this, from JasmineLucas325 or other similar accounts, feel free to let me know. We're investigating several accounts and trying to find as many as we can to warn people.

Thank you and stay safe online!

[verecunda]

Yeah, I got this one yesterday as well.

[saurongorthaur9]

I've been getting bunches of these too, all so far on my FFN account. I've gotten multiple reviews (all from different accounts but formatted basically the same) but I have gotten probably 20-30 PMs through my FFN account like this. They seem to follow the formula of FirstnameLastnameNumber in most cases it seems. I was pretty sure it was some sort of scam going around but good to see it confirmed.

[helenvader]

I got one, too. It was hilarious really, because it was a comment on my VIDEOS at ao3. Yep, written well indeed. Blocked that account.

[baddybaddyadardaddy]

Signal boosting because this happened to me as well.

[defira85]

Using the name Kaylani Kin currently, but it looks like they've already been reported to AO3

[academiatea]

"Denouncing of the use of AI for art and writing is NOT ableist!"

No, it is. It is. But there are cases (like NaNoWriMo!) where it shouldn't be allowed. And, of course, there is the possible plagiarism issue of AI, but I feel that's a different conversation entirely.

Things are not black and white, and this Black and White Thinking is not good or helpful.

There can be nuance.

[myfandomrealitea]

The issue of plagiarism in AI is not "possible."

Its inherent. And its not a different conversation entirely because it is such a huge factor in AI creative tools and the current models available today. AI tools to aid in creating art (not just typing prompts into a generator or automatically writing for you) is one thing, but those tools need to be ethically considerate as a whole. Which they are currently not.

Someone's ability to create art does not negate the theft of content from hundreds of thousands of people. Disabled people do not have more of a right to using AI to create images than anyone has to protect their artwork from blatant theft and misuse.

Regardless of your over-all opinion of AI and whether or not disabled people using it is the ultimate pro-argument, AI as it currently stands in creative tools is nothing but a cesspit of stolen content being regurgitated and re-stolen and monetized and once your content is stolen there is no actual way to completely erase it from the program and the results which have already been produced.

Its not "another conversation entirely" because plagiarism is the conversation when it comes to AI creative tools and, frankly, its what should be discussed before anything else. If AI creative tools cannot exist or progress without plagiarism, they should not exist.

[mikasslimebutreblog]

Can i add that actually, if anything, saying disabled people need to use the plagiarization&theft machine in order to create art is MORE ableist than not?

There are hundreds of diabled artists, both modern and historical, that created art they and everybody else loved without needing to steal from others... including people born without arms entirely

Saying there is no possible way for a disabled person to make art without theft not only ignore those artists and their works, but is also patronizing toward ALL disabled people

[katboykirby]

I am a disabled artist. I am a disabled writer.

Not only does generative AI steal my work, and the work of COUNTLESS other disabled artists, it's deeply insulting to tell me that my disability means I must be so utterly incapable that I should be bestowed a blank check for theft and plagiarism. Because my disability makes me so much lesser than abled artists, right? I would never be able to actually create something by myself because of my disability, so I should just give up and let the glacier-melting carbon emmission machine do it for me!

With all due respect, which is none, go fuck yourself OP.

I think you'll find that far, far more artists and writers are disabled and/or neurodivergent than you would expect. AI steals from us all the same. There is no justified use for generative AI, not ever. And propping up people with disabilities to use us as an excuse is disgustingly ableist of you.

[asmallwasp]

I feel like we should be more accepting of those who aren’t perfect but who still try.

People who stumble over your pronouns but still try to be respectful because they’re genuinely trying to be good and kind but are unused to it.

Those that grit their teeth to not let their anger get a hold of them, who fight with everything they have to be kind, but still speak harsher than intended sometimes.

The people who’s initial thought is mean but they immediately try to correct it because they know it’s mean.

Those struggling with their ego, biting their tongue to let you talk while trying their best to listen.

The random kid who slips back into depression but fights not to let them consume them, to not push people away again.

Idk, I just feel like if more people became accepting to those like that, the world might become a bit kinder.

[thecollectibles]

Life on the Bayou by Laure de Chateaubourg

[asmallwasp]

Just got this on my latest fanfic chapter and honestly I can’t get enough of it. I’ve always loved writing poetic love scenes and I did that with my most recent chapter and it was nerve racking because it’s the first time I’ve really hammered into the love stuff but now I can’t get enough. Note to readers, the author will appreciate your comment, they will absolutely love it. If you can, even a small comment will probably set them on a good high for a while.

[asmallwasp]

I’ve always disliked cannibalism as a form of expressing love. To me it just rang hollow, insincere, and far too quick for my tastes.

what do you do when you’ve eaten them? When you’ve gotten your fill? Do you leave? Wait for another to consume them? Even if you only eat a piece, they’re still bleeding for you, being hurt and in pain for you, does that not cause you horror? To hurt your love so selfishly for your own consumption?

I’ve much preferred the type of love where it’s like bees and honey. Yes, consume my spirit, the labor of my hands, the words spilling from my lips, and let me do the same to yours.

Merge your expressions into mine and we’ll make an offspring of language foreign to all but us. Is that not the highest love? To be understood only by them? Why do you wish to destroy them?

[icannotreadcursive]

I feel like there’s needs to be, like, handbook for authors who post on Ao3 for effective metatext.

By metatext I mean like tagging, summary, and authors notes (especially initial authors notes at the beginning of a fic). The means by which we communicate to our readers what they’re getting into.

Because we kind of all have to learn it by osmosis and there are conventions but nobody’s really taught them at the start, so there’s inconsistencies and misunderstandings or people just not knowing things through no fault of their own.

This ends up breeding frustration and confusion and in the worst cases resentment, hurt, and aggression.

I’m severely tempted to make such a handbook and get it circulating.

I think it would do fandom a lot of good.

[icannotreadcursive]

Good news, I’m writing it

[icannotreadcursive]

Update:

I’m at 9680 words, roughly 16 pages single spaced, with two or three sections to go.

[icannotreadcursive]

Update:

First draft done. 11,100 words, 29 pages with formatting

[icannotreadcursive]

The final draft is getting cleaned up right now. I’ll probably be figuring out how to post it tomorrow.

On which note, anybody know the best way to make a PDF available online?

[icannotreadcursive]

Okay it is done!

Go here for the PDF, or here to view the whole document as a tumblr post.

I recommend the PDF.

Related note: the post length limit on tumblr is apparently more than 13,000 words.

[iguessyouregonnamissthepantyraid]

"should we tell authors on ao3 when we have discord conversations about their fics" i don't speak for everyone here but if y'all ever find a group chat discussing my fics you can should must and WILL send me screenshots of the whole damn thing. inflate my ego. gimme

[the960writers]

this whole thing with people discussing a fic in secret, on closed discord servers, instead of leaving a nice comment, is such a loss for fandom. we're losing fic writers with every fic with hundreds of hits and barely a comment.

writers publish to be read. fanfic is meant to be a conversation.

[asmallwasp]

#literally! #I did not spend HOURS creatively torturing my blorbos for you to have private convos #gimme the convos #I can be trusted with the convos #gimme gimme gimme