AssuagedMind

I´m a loner on the streets of Lisbon. If you see something here besides grammatical errors, well thank you. I´m open to requests btw.

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Do you know when you hit the bottom of your life? You convince yourself it cant get worse. It always does. I thought it could only get better (or at least, be the same), after spending the last 3 years crying myself to sleep. And for a moment, it did. I started to gain hope.Then, without understanding the reason why, everything ended again. But hope wasnt crushed yet. Its like: “it can get better again”. And I kept that mentality for the next couple of days. People asked me how I´m dealing with the situation and yeah, I was good. And it wasnt a lie, I honestly believed that. Until last night. I was just trying to sleep and everything came. All hope was gone. I didnt feel it at first, but it all came later. And I said it gets worse, because I didnt cry myself to sleep. I couldnt sleep. I watched time passing by, then it was 8am. I just spent the entire night crying.

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So, I was having a normal day. Just me in my room at the computer. Then, my mother appeared with a bowl of strawberrys cut in pieces. Nothing she hadn´t done before. And I dont know, while I was eating it, I had a mental breakdown. That I will never find someone that loves me, the way she does.

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Yey

Great. I´m crying again. At least, I´m not at the subway.

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Ana

Sweetie, All my friends say You take me from granted.

I´m your cutie, You know I am. And you know you have me in the palm of your hand.

You call me your boyfriend, And my girlfriend I call you. But after all the time we spent I feel like an idiot, a fool!

Why do we never meet? You never have the time. I´m here for everything, But I´m afraid you´re lying.

I´m insecure, Please say something. Because I was lured And now you say nothing.

All My relations End like this. And I´m scared

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The Nice Guy

They all say I should stop Being The nice guy

But how can I remove The only thing, THE ONLY THING I like About Myself

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I don´t know what to do. Every Relationship I start Ends Before it begins. They Just walk away.

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Uncondiatioally

When you create something,  It doesnt matter what, Something you put your heart and soul, You take pride in it. Even if no one understands it; Even if no one likes it; Even if no one sees it. At least the creator has to love it, Unconditionally.

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Something I Dont Remember When I did

Invisible in the crowd, wa(i/n)ting to be found. Like a vagabond lost in his childhood memories That inside crying face I did when I looked around And the only one alone was me

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What sort of love can a dull man give? A man that dreams more than he lives, because he has no one to talk to. A man whose always wandering like a balloon in the air, waiting for someone´s hand. A man with a shattered dream and doesn´t even know where the pieces are.  My heart is as dull as the streets I walk in, but even this heart can love.

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I Don´t Share Your Pride

Their eyes are open wide While our history is glorified. They listen every word he says.

All the battles that we fought, All the battles that we won. Their blood runs through our veins...

Call me unpatriotic, Call me what you will. You feel pride in our golden age, I feel shame in how many we killed.

All this death and destruction Is something I can´t understand. Being inside that classroom made my realize How everyone is insane.

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I don´t understand me. I want to be happy again, But I got this disease Of needing to hear the rain And felling miserable with myself, With a beer and a cigarette. - Pedro Dias 15/02/2018

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Maggie

My hands can´t tickling you anymore, And I no longer can take you for a walk. Goodbyes are never easy, but Goodbye it was not. I´ll always keep you in my heart Every memory of you. There´s things death cannot touch.

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Me and Myself

Love is unknown to me But love is what I know the most I am unknown to happiness But happiness is what I want the most Loneliness do know me I am becoming nothing but a ghost More and more sentimentless And more and more alone The more I try to know me The less I seem to know I am lost in this sadness And I have no-one to hold - Pedro Dias

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Ylenol Os Mi

Another sun set, Looking at whom? Our pain…the pain we keep in secret! Nobody knows who notices the sun. Equal to say: why you stare at the stars at night, smoking one last cigarette… I know why, you know why, we all know why! Mistakes after mistakes after the SAME mistakes! Sooner or later, you won´t be able to disguise. One day or the other, you will realize. All the memories I can´t forget Left me lost in my past experiences. Occupied my head and, AGAIN, made me regret. Now I cry thinking in all my wasted chances. Equal to say: “Ylenol Os Mi”… - Pedro Dias

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Lady, Maggie, Happy

I know you won’t read this. You idiots, don’t even know how to read. But I can’t express my feelings More than I need.

We, humans, don’t deserve you Yet, we’re everything to you. You’re the heroes we don’t deserve, But the heroes we need.

What would be me without your love? The happiness you transmite When I’m near the abyss

I try my best though To give back all my love And a place you can call home.

Pedro Dias

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Is it worth it?

I wish I wasn´t so kind. That sweet and lovely friend Who cares more about the others than himself And always gets hurt in the end.

But I never learn. I can´t be anyone else but me. Can´t stand to see others in pain. But I too, need someone to take care of me. Pedro Dias 5/5/2017

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Waiting For A Guide

I feel like I´m being crushed And no longer have the air to scream. Trying to deal with all my thoughts And find a reason to keep on living.

“Life gets better”, They say. But I don´t know how much more I can take All by myself.

Pedro Dias 5/5/2017