aster / rowan / r | adult | they/them | queer & nonbinary trans | autistic, chronic pain & mental illness soup brain | white usamerican
this has been my main blog for the whole time i've been on tumblr (like... 12 or 13 years ;_;) so it's very multifandom/ has a wide range of content lol. list of common tags & read before following info under the cut!
currently i post a mixture of:
tv shows: heated rivalry, the pitt, ofmd, leverage, otgw, ted lasso, atla/ lok, abbott elementary, black sails, murderbot (tv show), dropout (+ game changer + make some noise) & others
books: general book tag, the murderbot diaries, the raven cycle, all for the game, truly devious, dungeon meshi (tv & manga)
podcasts: the adventure zone balance (& mcelroys in general), the strange case of starship iris, wolf 359
movies: project hail mary (book & movie tag), the old guard & tog2, itsv & astv, dnd honor among thieves, knives out / glass onion / wake up dead man, pacific rim, kpop demon hunters & other ones i forgot
youtube: drawfee & drawtectives, occasionally dan and phil (altho i have a sideblog for them now)
me: #me, my posts, my writing, my fanmixes, my edits
reference: writing, drawing, useful, resource, save tag
other misc things: fanart, art, poetry, quotes, mental health reminders, mh toolkit (wip tag), autism tag, trans tag, disability & chronic pain tag, tag for noodle (my cat), tag for library stanning, tag for robots bc i love robots
random text posts/ things i find funny or interesting
i do also reblog posts about leftist politics / involvement & solidarity w movements such as BLM, land back/ native sovereignty, free palestine, anti-racism, & dismantling oppressive systems such as ICE, policing, & the prison industrial complex. i don't always tag these posts bc tumblr loves to censor those who are speaking out against power, but i do try to tag big triggers. if i ever miss something/ unknowingly rb something against my values, please let me know.
you are not welcome here if you:
don't support anti-racist, decolonization, and anti-fascist efforts
don't believe in self-diagnosis & expanded rights & accommodations for disabled people
don't support sex workers and their rights
consider yourself a "radfem"/ transmedicalist/ don't believe in trans people's right to self-identify
believe that houseless folks "deserve" to be houseless/ that it's their fault, and/or that people struggling with addiction don't deserve support and rights
i am not afraid to use the block button <3 get lost!
please don't follow if you are under 18- i don't go through every single follower to enforce this, but i am an adult who has been on the internet longer than some of yall teens have been alive and i reblog nsfw / adult content that is not always appropriate for minors.
other links: antiracism resources, petitions, funds to donate to, & more | aesthetic blog | dan and phil blog | music/bands blog | ao3 | pinterest | letterboxd | bluesky
think that's about it \○^○/ welcome & enjoy ur stay!!
[image description: noodle, a brown striped tabby cat with white patches, lays on a gray couch with her front two paws bent and touching, and her back paws wrapped around rowan's arm. rowan's hand is petting noodle's exposed belly, and noodle's eyes are closed. /end ID]
[ID: 2 screenshots of interview text. The first reads
PLAYBOY: Do you ever get tired of talking about your friendship with Matt?
AFFLECK: I understand the questions. Ben Affleck and Matt Damon, they're friends, they're pals, they grew up together, isn't it great and cute? I get all kinds of questions, like, "So how's Matt?" or "What's Matt like?" And I don't know what sort of answers are expected.
Instead of saying Matt's fine and he's doing his thing, I'II be like, "Well, let me tell you about Matt. Matt can give a blow job in a way that's incredible, really special." Most of the time it's like Entertainment Tonight, and they can't air it. But then sometimes you think you're safe, but someone writes it down and it ends up being taken out of context in Out magazine.
PLAYBOY: Does Matt ever get pissed off about that?
AFFLECK: Matt gets it. We have a similar sense of humor, which I think is the main reason we're compatible as friends and in terms of writing. He always thinks it's funny. It's just a question of the rest of them.
PLAYBOY: Let's see if you've learned your lesson: What is Matt Damon really like?
AFFLECK: [Laughs] He gives a really great blow job.
The second reads
PLAYBOY: In his 1999 Playboy Interview, Affleck jokingly said of you, "He gives a really great blow job." Care to return the compliment?
DAMON: I do give great head. I definitely give a better blow job than Ben. I mean, I'm not lucky enough to be able to blow myself, but if I could, I'd never leave the house.
Further context: Durham city council (Reform UK) cut funding and support for Pride. The Durham Miner's Association and other trade unions raised enough money for Durham Pride 2026 to go ahead - a direct call back to when Lesbian and Gays Support the Miners (LGSM) raised money for mining communities when Margaret Thatcher seized union funding during the miner strikes of 1984-85.
At the 1985 Labour party meet, the motion to support LGBT rights as a party was passed due to a block vote from mining unions.
Stephen Guy, the chair of the Durham Miners’ Association, said that when it became apparent Durham Pride was under threat, he took it upon himself to “encourage the trade union movement to step up and do the right thing, and stand shoulder to shoulder with the LGBT+ community […] They not only raised funds for us, but came to our communities, uplifted our spirits when they were down, and showed their solidarity.”
I've seen this clip many times, but never really appreciated the power of "what was her problem?" Just casually assuming that lesbians come in a wide variety of shapes and being inclusive. As a transbian who is probably still closer to Homer shaped than to my ideal, that's huge!
hey. you have to love your trans brothers of color okay. and your trans sisters of color. and your nonbinary siblings of color. you have to okay. its simply non-optional
Reblog this post :) Especially if you’re on mobile, you’ll lose the post if you click the link without thinking. Take a note from your elders before you
Interesting note: It definitely uses whoever you're following now, not at that date. Even the 2020 one includes a lot of people I was absolutely not following yet in Feb 2020, which is actually kind of cool, I can see what they were reblogging from this fandom before I got into it.
HOLY SHIT GUYS, I WAS INSPIRED BY THIS POST TO TRY MAKE THE SONG AND YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE THE SCREAM I SCRUMPT WHEN I DRAGGED THE TRAINING AUDIO OVER THE BACKING TRACK AND IT LINED UP PERFECTLY
"And it seems like it's worth your time, right? And, by the way, there's actually- the superpower inside of feeling alien is admitting that you might be an alien."
Into the Mud Podcast Ep. 81: The Superpower of Feeling Alien with Project Hail Mary's James Ortiz - What James Ortiz would say to people who feel foreign and alien
i think we should be ridiculing them more for this. you don't get to try and go all "queer website" when your staff likes to go on nuking sprees targeting the trans fem users
would be remiss not to mention that the rainbow notably straight up just removed the trans flag colors from it. like they’re gone. it’s the progress flag minus the trans flag colors.
The fact that the trafficking of enslaved Africans underpins so much of western European culture is so severely underacknowledged by white western Europeans that it boggles the mind to think of it. I've posted here before about how pitiful have been the attempts of white institutions to account for the crimes of their past, how they will at best acknowledge only the most blatant and undeniable parts of their history while laundering responsibility for the great majority of it. One particularly striking aspect of that is how little museum space in western Europe is dedicated to discussing slavery.
The British Museum in London was formed from the private collection of Hans Sloane whose collection was funded by profits from Caribbean plantations inherited by his wife. The original museum building was bought by the British government from the children of John Montagu, a man who was literally granted ownership of the Caribbean islands of St Lucia and St Vincent by the British state. The current museum building was constructed starting in the 1820s (when slavery was still legal in the British Empire) funded directly by the British government, around 20% of whose tax income at that time came in the form of customs on imported products, such as sugar and cotton from the Caribbean.
Yet the extent of the museum's engagement with its total historic dependence on slavery is merely to have moved a bust of Hans Sloane's head to a new location with some comments on his slavery connection. There is an ongoing campaign to have merely one permanent exhibit about the slave trade at the musem. (And this is not even getting into the famous legacy of that museum as a repository of looted colonial plunder such as the Benin bronzes.)
It's not just big museums either. A tiny museum like Jane Austen's house in Chawton, UK, has a notice on its website regarding mentions of slavery that actually reassures guests that they won't go too far in doing so, "We would like to offer reassurance that we will not, and have never had any intention to, interrogate Jane Austen, her characters or her readers for drinking tea." An admission that's rather telling about what they expect the views of museum visitors to be. But why not interrogate her or her characters? That is exactly what they should be doing!
It is quite well-known among Austen fans than Mansfield Park is her book that deals with slavery: the protagonist lives in the house of a man who owns slave plantations in Antigua. Many fans are keen to find evidence in the text that the protagonist objects to this, but she ultimately marries the son of the plantation owner and lives on the land of the plantation owner and her husband's income is paid by the plantation owner, so her objections (if they exist) cannot be worth much.
In Persuasion, the protagonist's love interest is a naval officer who fought in the Battle of Santo Domingo, a battle that was explicitly about protecting British interests in the Caribbean (i.e. sugar plantations) from being captured by the French.
In Pride and Prejudice, Mr Bingley has no land and his huge income is derived from investment in government bonds, which is to say that he pays for British military campaigns (such as the same Battle of Santo Domingo) and in return he is paid by the British government out of tax income, of which a big chunk is customs levied on slave-produced products.
And that's without even getting into the question of where the cotton comes from that makes up the dresses which are a frequent subject of discussion for many Austen characters.
For that matter, what about the dresses worn by Austen herself when writing her novels? The sugar in the tea she drank? The very house she lived in was owned by her brother, who inherited it (and all his considerable wealth) from Thomas Knight, a Tory MP (which is to say, a politican from the British political wing which most heavily supported slavery). The world of Austen's novels is entirely about slavery, it is the very thing which makes the lifestyles of the characters possible. The whole museum is about slavery whether the curators like it or not, anything less than mentioning it constantly is a deliberate hiding of the truth. And when I visited it a couple of years ago, I do not recall seeing slavery mentioned even once (maybe I missed one sign in a corner of one room or something idk).
As well as the severe underreporting of slavery at museums, the lack of slavery-specific museums in western Europe is also really remarkable. The Mercado de Escravos in Lagos, Portgual and the International Slavery Museum in Liverpool, UK, are the only two that I am aware of, albeit the latter is closed until 2029. A slavery museum in Amsterdam has been proposed and is supposed to open in 2030, but given that a French slavery museum was proposed by Francois Hollande a decade ago and never built I will not get my hopes too high about it.
The London Museum Docklands has a permanent exhibit on London's connection to slavery, which is pretty good as far as it goes, but is utterly pathetic in the context that it is the only permanent exhibit about the slave trade in the whole city. The best I have seen by far is the Suriname Museum in Amsterdam, which dedicates a huge portion of its space to covering the slave trade in great detail. The fact that the museum was founded by the descendants of enslaved Africans who were trafficked to Suriname is surely why this particular museum is so good.
The contrast between that and white institutions like the British Museum is really stark. Do you treat the slave trade with the gravity it deserves, which is to say that you mention it at every opportunity and do not shy away from saying, "The slave trade is why this museum, this city, this country, this continent, why all of it is the way it is"? Or do you move one statue to a new location, put a little sign up about how one man's wife's family owned slaves a long time ago, and say "That's enough, we've dealt with the slavery issue now"?
the main reason grace and rocky are sooooooooooo everything to me and to each other is because like, are they soulmates? yes. are they best friends? of course. are they doing nerd telepathy? absolutely. BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE!!! imagine for a moment that you could never again consult a human being on anything, ever. anything that happens to you medically mentally emotionally etc you have to figure out for yourself. you have textbooks and resources you can consult but if you're delirious with pain or fever or panic you cannot reach out to anyone who knows what it is like to be a human who can help you. no one can ever tell you yes i have experienced that too. the closest thing grace has to another human being is his rock spider best friend, and he taught rocky everything he knows about being human. how terrifying must that be!! how exhausting and isolating!! and how utterly moved and relieved and floored must grace be each and every time rocky observes something about the human animal that grace didn't teach him, or deliberately learns something from mary, or picks up some mannerism unconsciously despite grace not intending to pass it along. like, i am the only human on this whole planet, there is no one here with whom i have shared bodily or emotional experience, but that's okay because you loved me enough that you became half-human too. so i wouldn't be alone. so i would have help. rocky is all of earth for grace and he became that willingly and he doesn't regret it for a second. that's a level of devotion and care and codependency you just don't see every day