be vigilant, i love you

i find myself searching for old selves while speeding forward through the plate glass of maturing cells

[everythingstarstuff]

[asyltheodd]

Hm.

Less than two weeks we will be in Japan.

The two other adults in the household agreed with me and turned me loose on planning this thing but ngl I was only kidding when I recommended we go to Tokyo with less than a month to plan when husband said he needed to take a week off from work to rest and we put in the PTO request at the end of January.

Funny how the trip I always assumed I'd spend at least 6 months planning became a "near spur of the moment, here's a few weeks" situation.

The flight was like $615 round-trip.

10 years ago, I was unemployed and a drunk college drop out on a bad cocktail of antidepressants living day to day trying not to kill myself recovering from the burnout of having to work multiple shitty jobs to make ends meet. I couldn't imagine a year from then (beyond "eventually, I will go back to college and travel the world somehow), much less 10.

10 years later, I've finished two degrees and am a class away (I'll do it this fall) from finishing my Bachelor's in a STEM field in a direction completely unrelated to my first plan for life. I've killed myself with shitty industry jobs while working on these. I made reality work to take a short study abroad and I just magicked together a budget trip to Japan for the family.

I hate to be a "it gets better" post, but I've used this tumblr to complain a lot over my 14+ years here. Things are still crazy in life, but nowhere near the amount of stress I was dealing with at 18.

It hasn't been easy, but it does have the capability to get better. I'm so glad I never succeeded in killing myself. I only wish I could have been kinder to myself when I was younger.

Obligatory chef's pilgrimage or millennial mid-life crisis? A bit of both, I guess.

Either way, I'm happy to be alive.

[kosmogrl]

screw nonchalance embrace being crazy and intense about everything

[helenvaughans]

[theblackparadeisdead]

Tumblr is such an awesome website. What if your diary had a pvp option

[emirrart]

[galasgamingcorner]

Journey by thatgamecompany (2012)

[plague-vulture]

hey do you wanna see the idea I had for a tattoo just kidding of course you do

[plague-vulture]

can't believe nobody fucks with vulture in docs.

[egberts]

i drew it :3

[crewdlydrawn]

Bird of slay

[akashicrecord]

the lesbian computer from portal was right. given the circumstances ive been shockingly nice

[ivy-connivy]

insane like/reblog parity on this post btw

[inkyrainstorms]

Yay

[apollopilled]

disco elysium being free on epic games today is evil as fuck. i beg of you guys just pirate it, the amount of claims on the free game will still tell the assholes who stole the game from the devs that Oh We're Still Relevant :). just pirate it. my christmas gift to you! pirate disco elysium

[apollopilled]

my fucking christmas gift to you (links to an internet archive listing)

[salvadorbonaparte]

my mum has severe knee problems and needs a replacement. Today she was told she's too fat to be operated on and the knee specialist suggested she gets a gastric band - which also involves surgery. So my mum was like first of all you didn't read my file because it explains that I'm not fat because I eat too much second of all you said it's impossible for me to get surgery and then suggested I get a surgery about it? He then asked her her weight and height, didn't believe her answer, and made her prove it to him because she "looks fatter than that". So she was like so you also just entirely based this on looks instead of actual numbers?

[undead-moth]

My mom went through something similar. She needed a knee replacement and her doctor wouldn’t okay it until she lost weight, which was difficult given the whole knee problem preventing her from walking thing. He told her she was too dangerous to operate on and that there were just too many risks.

My mom tried to lose weight in vain for months before she finally gave into my begging her to get a second opinion. The first doctor she saw next scheduled her for surgery the same day she met him. When my mom asked about the risk of operating on her he told her that there was some minor risks for complication and that all she would need to do to alleviate the risk was spend an extra night in the hospital so that they could keep a look out for any complications.

There were zero. There were also zero complications when she had her other knee done, her hip replaced and her gallbladder removed.

Almost like the first doctor was entirely full of shit and just trying to coerce his patient to lose weight by scaring her for fucking nothing, even when she was living day to day in excruciating pain and desperately needed a surgery.

[asteroidtroglodyte]

[naamahdarling]

We should be allowed to kick the everloving literal shit out of these people. May they reap the care they give, all at once, with no pain relief and nobody who believes them. May they know fear.

[jehovahhthickness]

Praying that $1500 randomly comes to you when you need it the most this year.

[jehovahhthickness]

Okay inflation is crazy.

We bumping up the price to $15,000 for 2026.

[vinnie-cha]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 🎉🥳

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[dragongirlteeth]

I am shocked at how many people don't have an actively hostile relationship with advertising

[dragongirlteeth]

I am skipping your ads as fast as I can. I'm skipping past your sponsor read. I'm muting the tv. I'm muting the tab. If they get too annoying I will simply stop trying to watch.

If advertisers can use every manipulative trick in the book to get me to buy their product, I am fully within my rights to do everything I can on my end to make their job impossible

[anxietyproblem]

[srm3kmnb]

NiGHTS✨💫参戦おめでとう！

[c3rvida3]

I think Joan of Arc's fursona would be a dog called Joan of Bark, but my partner thinks it would be a phoenix, which seems insensitive to me, but neither of us are furries, so I guess we don't really get a say either way.

[swiftrunnerfelidae]

I promise I’m not trying to be pretentious here. Jeanne d’Arc’s last name is d’Arc.  An overly-literal translator insisted it stood for “of Arc”, and that’s why we know her as Joan of Arc.  At the time, she was more commonly known as “Jeanne la Pucelle”, meaning “Joan the Maiden” or “Joan the Virgin”.

anyways since her main attack strategy was “hit them until they stop moving” I think she’d be a gorilla.

[c3rvida3]

*taking notes* What else do you know about this beautiful world?