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"It's Okay."

So the request for this was lost when I had accidentally posted the unfinished post so to the person who wanted more Charles Davis, here you go! I hope this meets your vision! Oh and wanted to try writing like a short fic with this request so hope you don't mind

Disclaimer: This contains yandere themes, obsessive behavior, mentions of a suicide attempt by the reader, a non accurate depiction of depression, pretty tame since I focused way more on comfort and good vibes instead of yandere but it's still there

It has been exactly a month since your... attempt, as you both call it, and to say your life had been flipped on its head would be an understatement

Charles had changed drastically in that time, you could almost wonder if he was the same mas you had married but he is. He had gone from that distant man that never noticed you suffering alone in your marriage to a doting husband who constantly worries and fusses over you

yandere-writer-momo

Yandere Head Canons:

Denial of Desire

Yandere Vampiress x Henchman Fem Reader

TW: comphet, internalized homophobia, denial of feelings, yearning, slowly slippping into madness, yandere behavior, unhealthy relationship, murder (threatened), etc.

yandere-writer-momo

A 1920s time period piece. I made this as historically accurate as I could. It is more historically inspired and set in London. This is for @justamegafan

Yandere 1920s Imagines: Parlor Maid

Yandere Socialite x Fem Maid Reader x Yandere Nobleman

TW: Wlw, internalized homophobia, messy love triangle between siblings (Not incest), bullying (mention), yandere behavior, abuse of power, uncomfortable situations, two emotionally constipated nobles, and unhealthy relationship dynamics

starburnedandunkissed

I THINK IM GOING TO BE SICK

haymitchsblog

i don’t understand the narrative that Haymitch and Effie share a bond born out of mutual understanding of each other’s pain through their years shared as mentor / scort, because there’s no such thing. Yes, they worked together in the Capitol for twenty-five years, but it wasn’t the same kind of work, and it didn’t weigh the same on both of them.

Effie was District 12’s escort , the one responsible for making sure the tributes looked good in the Capitol’s eyes, turning them into something appealing, a shiny product to bet on like a racehorse. While I wouldn’t call her evil or cruel, she’s undeniably detached from who these kids really are. She doesn’t care about them the way Haymitch does, because she doesn’t see them as equals.

In the first book, when she talks to Katniss about table manners, she refers to the previous year’s tributes as “savages.” Those “savages” were starving children who died. And now, sitting in front of new tributes who are also likely to die, she can only focus on how unappealable they were for the Capitol. Effie doesn’t see the people from the districts as equals, as lives of the same worth as her own. That’s why she could never understand what losing these kids means to Haymitch, how deeply that loss burns into him, how that grief shapes every part of who he is.

This narrative of them “finding each other” in a supposed bond of trust and mutual understanding, of two people who have both “lost so much to the Games” is not only inaccurate, it’s harmful to both of their character constructions. They are not the same. They are not going through the same things during the Games. Haymitch is losing himself piece by piece — his worth, his people. He carries the weight of years of grief, adding new deaths to that burden every year, punishing himself for not being enough to save them, and then has to return home to face the devastation those deaths bring to his community.

Effie, on the other hand, goes to the Capitol, does her job, fails to win and keeps on living. She moves on, waiting for the next two tributes to possibly bring her something the Capitol would appreciate for them to see her work as valuable and if it doesn’t work, there’s always next year, because to her, the Games are for a greater good of everyone involved.

I hate that this narrative of shared pain is being pushed just to argue that Lenore Dove could never have understood Haymitch’s pain. We don’t know that. We don’t know how she would have reacted to his suffering or his losses, because she never had the chance to see what the Capitol did to the boy she once loved most. She never learns that Haymitch’s mother and little brother were murdered. She never gets to watch his Games, to see the scars the Capitol carved into him, or to hear the story of how he was locked in a cage while Capitol citizens laughed at him, touched him and fed him like an animal.

Lenore Dove never got the chance to grieve by his side, but she was willing to give her life for him every time she had the chance. She had already dimmed her own fire once for the people she loved — what’s so hard to believe that she would’ve done it again, knowing he was all she had left? The boy she loved with her whole being needed her there. Why would she ever leave?

She doesn’t have to give up all her ideals to love him right. She doesn’t have to stop rebelling, because Haymitch never did either. He’s a rebel regardless of Lenore Dove; he was raised to oppose the system. He led Katniss not only through the Games but through the rebellion itself.

Lenore Dove isn’t the only one who carries rage against the system, they both grieve their people just the same, and they both understand that pain. She’s an empathetic girl, radicalized by compassion; why would it be any different for the boy she chose to love?

Effie, however, does see this. She sees him in the aftermath of, the brokenness, the drinking, the pain that never leaves him, the punishment the capitol puts him through . And yet after all these years, despite witnessing their cruelty and his decline, she doesn’t change. Why? Why hasn’t her mindset shifted after decades of watching the same suffering repeat itself? After years of seeing Haymitch drown himself in alcohol to escape the ghosts of his tributes, she still clings to the same hollow belief that the Games are “for the greater good.” She doesn’t care about the trauma or the loss. She cares about the victory, about what having a victor would mean for her reputation, her position, her status.

She also can’t understand his drinking. She knows he has a problem; she sees it, and it frustrates her because it makes their job harder, it makes her look bad. But she believes it’s something he should just “get over,” as if it’s that simple. To her, these tributes are an inconvenience until they become victors, the gems, the trophies that will earn her a bit of Capitol glory.

I’m not saying Effie is heartless. She genuinely tries her best to get her tributes sponsors because it benefits her too, it means parties, attention, prestige. But she never wanted to be part of the Games in the first place. She’s probably frustrated to be stuck with District 12, while she has to deal with a broken man whose pain she cannot possibly comprehend.

Haymitch carries a grief so deep that it’s altered everything about him, the way he speaks, moves, acts and sees the world. That kind of pain isn’t something anyone can fix and very few people can even understand it.

There’s no mutual understanding or shared pain because they aren’t grieving the same thing.

Effie might grieve the loss of potential — a better district, a better assignment, a more glamorous life. Haymitch grieves the children who died brutally under his watch — twelve-year-olds torn from their homes, whose families he has to face afterward, carrying the weight of their deaths alongside his own trauma.

Effie can’t even offer him proper condolences after knowing he’s lost his family and the woman he loved. She knows he’s lost everything, yet the best comfort she can offer is to tell a sixteen-year-old that it was “for the greater good.” That’s how she sees life in the Capitol, disposable, as long as it serves a purpose.

It’s painful to see that even after decades together, nothing about that dynamic really changes. They avoid each other through most of the early books. They only work together when necessary and yes it’s Haymitch who pushes Katniss and Peeta to cooperate with her because they DO need Effie, they need to appear likable and valuable to the Capitol so they might stand a better chance in the arena.

But that doesn’t mean there’s a bond. Haymitch doesn’t include Effie in any of his conversations with the rebels. She’s not there when he talks to Cinna and Portia about the revolution. This is something Haymitch has devoted his entire life to, and if there were any true bond or trust between them, he would have told her, especially if she could help.

There’s no shared pain, because the pain isn’t the same. Death doesn’t weigh on them equally. Effie mourns lost opportunity; Haymitch mourns lost lives and those two kinds of grief will never, ever be the same.

urfavlistener

david shaw save me save me save me david shaw

olkinsstuff

“go to hell” is basic. “i hope you will miss the first haydove photo together” is better. it’s possible. it can happen to me.

coolerhope

Lenore Dove lives AU where Haymitch dreads/gets scared every time he returns to 12 after the Hunger Games because he's afraid he's going to come home to find Lenore Dove dead.

But Lenore Dove is always the first face Haymitch sees when he steps off the train.

revslie

the kiss 🕊️

wiistefdoesart

more listeners designs!

attackonsiyeon

LOVELY MY GOD

mitsuki91

To all the Haydove haters out there (and causally they are I dare to say at least 70% Hayffie shippers, and the other 30% Haymitch x Maysilee shippers, but most Hayffie): please note that I didn't even need the sotr book to ship Haymitch and his girl, all it took was the canon line that we had in the original trilogy where he said that Snow killed his family and his girlfriend, because it was so evident that Haymitch was not over her at all.

Sure I didn't know her or their dynamics back then (and since I love working with canon even in my non-canon ship, I never created an OC for her nor I wrote something etc), but if you know me just a bit you know I am so down for a tragic love, so really that was all it took for me.

So no, I don't ship Haydove just for sotr, my ship isn't "new" compared to the secular Hayffie that Suzanne destroyed (? It was never there imo), and sure I don't feel better or worse for this.

Please ship what you want but don't say shit just to justify your ships (and I swear this is the most wild take you all, wdym my ship is invalid because is "new"? As in "no ships are allowed to be born if another canon material is relased because I was there before that"?! Uhm first of all bullshit, second of all no, I was there too since the start).