lol yup, still here

G. 30. Portland, OR. I'm the only one in my friend group who joined this God forsaken website in 2010 and is still on it. Something to celebrate or be ashamed of? 🤷

[armandology]

fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

[byjove]

I wish they could invent a medical device that temporarily transfers your symptoms and pain to the doctor treating you and it worked like a shock collar. “I think light exercise would-.” and then bam they’re rolling around the floor clutching their stomach in agony and dry heaving.

[02void]

[doubloonhaver-deactivated202209]

[02void]

[fleabag-15]

my interpretation … mieaow …

[marian-devotee]

I took my little brother (autistic, mostly non verbal) out and he was using his voice keyboard to tell me something, and this little boy (maybe 4 or 5?) heard him and asked me "Is he a robot??" I tried to explain to him that no, he isn't a robot, he just communicates differently, but my darling brother was in the background max volume "I am robot I am robot I am robot I am robot"

[marian-devotee]

My little brother insisted if I was going to post about him, he wanted a cut of the "profits". When I explained to him that Tumblr isn't monetized, and is pretty pointless, he and my older brother pointed out that he'd still be bringing me "fame and notoriety" if the post got "big". So we agreed, if the post hit 10k notes, which seemed extremely farfetched and silly at the time, I'd take my little brother out for sushi (his favorite food) and let him eat as much as he wants.

I guess God wanted the little robot to enjoy some sushi 🍣 🥲

[thetruerarkher]

[bathroomcube]

[comixextra]

[roach-works]

it’s what they would have wanted

[iobotomypop]

happy moonwalk day

[smooth]

[russsiawave]

[himynameisemail]

[coughloop]

Sorry man I didn't know

[funpression]

sometimes you dont eat fruit for awhile and then you eat some fruit and you're like oh fuck its fruit

[basketcat]

i love yugioh

[lamignonette]

[m3lat0nin]

no, babe, i dont do casual. its mind numbing devotion for all eternity or nothing

[mkultra-dropout]

[mythicdove]

hey. i'm outside. hey look if u could just. hey. Let me in. it's really cold out here and i see you've got a bowl of baby spinach there. I love baby spinach. Please let me in

[awkward-spacecase]

It feels so weird to do this because I haven't actually posted on here myself since early Tumblr days, but it didn't feel like enough to just journal this experience. I feel like I have to shout it into the ether to strangers who may or may not care to read this and hopefully don't know who I'm talking about and who might sympathize and send a little bit of good energy my way because don't we all need it right now.

In essence, not counting the dark era of early pandemic lockdown, the last 6 months of my life have been some of the worst 6 months of my life. I own a small local business out of a brick and mortar space that I love and I work hard and it brings me so much joy. But running a small business is hard and it's expensive and sometimes people don't always understand how much an owner pours into honing their craft.

In the last 6 months I've dealt with obstacle after obstacle, shitty landlord, broken HVAC, annoying retail neighbors, leaking ceiling, city inspectors, and bills on top of bills on top of bills, and every time it felt like I was finally getting a handle on things, something else would blow up in my face. Then, after much lamenting, a good friend of mine introduces me to someone she thinks can help. Help with some admin stuff I've let pile up, fill some gaps with staffing, help me decipher analytics, and she does help. The weight on my shoulders was somewhat eased. And then she started sticking her nose where it doesn't belong, overstepping her bounds, blatantly ignoring my personal and professional boundaries, pushing my business in a direction I thought I was clear with her I wasn't ready to go in. And just like everything recently, this also blows up in my face. Except this time, the damage is EXCEPTIONAL. I'm talking this person backed me into a corner that she made and left me hanging there with a $13K bill due by January 31st. I'm trying real hard not to fall apart. Maybe I already am considering I'm posting this here lol. I've vented to my closest circle. I don't have therapy til Wednesday. I guess I just needed to drop this little journal entry into the ether and hope by some miracle someone sees it and decides to reach out and help me for real. Not because it'll benefit them somehow, but because they can feel how hard I've been fighting and have the ability and willingness to help me out for real. Because I'm so SO exhausted and I'm truly losing the fight in me to keep going. The somewhat positive thing I'm taking out of this is that my instincts have been right. Everytime. And I need to trust my instincts more than I've trusted the awful people who've put me in a worse position than I was before.

Idk how to close this out. I'm having a rough night and I'm trying not to lose my mind and chew this person out. If you're reading this, trust yourself! No one knows you better than you so don't let anyone sway you in a direction you're not comfortable with!!! And if time travel ever gets invented, go back to August 2024 and tell my younger self the same thing! Please I beg 😩

Ok rant done for now. Thanks tumblr

[jupitersmusings]

good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

[overlord-fire-bubble]

THIS ONE FUCKING WORKS. REBLOG IT.

[tiny-kt]

this for real fucking works

[scroll-of-thought]

Apparently this one fuckin works, and who am I to argue with the collective agreement of tumblr. Will report back if good things happen.

[doyoulovebugs]

:(