I Have Thoughts and I Must Share Them

Bluejay | she/her | insomnia my behated | very lesbian | too ADHD to pick a single hobby | or to shut up ever | an adult, apparently

[azure-clockwork]

Hello y’all, and welcome to my blog! I’m Bluejay, but you can feel free to call me Jay (or Blue or Cool Hair or Neeeeeeerd or—). I use she/her pronouns.

I’m a dumbass with a shitty sleep schedule, a million different interests, a bad case of lesbianism, and the unfortunate ability to inflict all of the above on y’all. I’m also apparently a real adult with a job in aerospace; I’ll post about that too at some point, I promise.

This blog isn’t a serious thing with an actual theme, but rather a place for me to repost fanart and vomit my thoughts. I can’t promise posts on any one topic, but you’ll probably see things about engineering, fandom, adhd, being a lesbian, my hobbies, science, books, and of course insomnia. I also run a side blog where I post my poetry over at @andiloveyouinpieces if you wanna go read my attempts at sonnets.

Please feel free to talk to me; I’m frequently awake and bored and scrolling on my phone.

There is not really a good organizational system here, but if you wanna find my ramblings, most of them are under #tonight on late-night thoughts with jay. There’s a few more honest ones under #tonight on late night oversharing with jay. The explicit ones are under #horny thoughts with Jay. You can find things I’ve made under #tonight on late-night art with jay, though honestly, I need to go back and make sure I’ve tagged all my art. And finally, if you’re looking for my book reviews, check out #Late night book reviews with Bluejay. I’ll update this section if I ever actually organize this bullshit. Also, my blog is full of characters, so view the dramatis personae here!

[luna-azzurra]

The most interesting question you can ask about any character is not what do they want. it's what do they believe they deserve. because those two things are almost never the same and the gap between them is where your entire story lives. a person can want love completely and believe they don't deserve it and that belief will destroy every good thing that comes toward them in ways they won't even notice they're doing. write the gap. the gap is the character.

[groutik]

[xiaq]

One of the best things about being a writer is thinking of something small you can add to your work that’s just. Devastating. Like you’re sitting there going. Oh. That would be diabolical. People would get really riled up about that. Exquisite. Let’s do it.

[suffuse]

yeah man

[toasthaste]

according to An Immense World, apparently giant squid eyes are, like, UNREASONABLY large, even for something their size living at those depths. the next largest eyes on earth, blue whale eyes, are less than half the size, and swordfish, who live at similar depths as giant squid and have the largest eyes of any fish, have eyes that could fit inside a giant squid's pupil.

eyes hit serious diminishing returns wrt resource costs vs vision quality as they get bigger, so the question became: what the FUCK do giant (and colossal) squid need to see so badly that they couldn't see with swordfish-sized eyes that's justifying that massive energy cost? that nothing else in the deep ocean needs to see so fucking badly??

turns out the one strength eyes that big really have over much smaller eyes is: seeing large glowing objects in water deeper than 500 meters from an appreciable distance.

sperm whales are the primary predator of giant squid. sperm whales don't glow. BUT! water that deep is full of bioluminescent creatures-- these creatures light up when bumped into. something a sperm whale's size is continuously bumping into those critters, it's just surrounded by a glowing field all the time when it's swimming at those depths, visible from a distance-- if you have the right eyes-- as a massive glowing shape. so basically the only reason to have eyes the size of soccer balls is if you live in the deep ocean and your life depends on having a heads up when a hungry sperm whale lurking around

and also I gotta say, the imagery... the huge lurking threat betrayed only by the ambiguous glowing shape of its movements through the water, is really evocative, if spooky deep-sea games aren't already using that to make things extremely ominous then they should really start

[kitamars]

remember our promise

[organsmerti]

FALKE

[interestingmistakes]

Reblogging this manually. Op doesn't want credit for fear of being terminated.

[azure-clockwork]

In typical Jay fashion, I’ve started a new project instead of finishing my current ones. Fortunately, this one has a due date!

Cathmir, rated E, with angst and an upcoming side of monsterfucking:

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[star-mom-selkie]

happy pride month

[segamascott]

he seems to be doing a pretty good job tbh

[damnhotpocket]

Gema.piano on instagram

Why are all music teachers like this 😭😭😭

[communeist]

THEY ARE

[crematedequally]

when i was 8 i had a very intimidating russian woman as a music teacher- she was both my opera instructor and piano teacher. about a month into piano, she sat me down and said to my mother and i "this child- very beautiful voice, good for singing. i will not allow this child to continue piano. god did not want this child to play an instrument. he told me this in dreams. that is all."

my mom had it written down on a slip so we could remember the exact words because it was so funny. i HATED playing piano and i was definitely not good at it (i did end up having a good 5 years of opera training and ended up being a pretty accomplished choir singer though) and the idea of god sending my incredibly severe and serious russian piano teacher a dream begging her to stop teaching me piano was probably the funniest way it could have gone.

[maddie-grove]

I really like this website because somebody will be like “there’s nothing wrong with darting out from behind a parked car into traffic, bootlicker” and you can be like okay this clearly evolved from a valid point about how the US is too car-centric. But something happened to it.

[jamiemccrimmon]

[horsefriend]

[putnamspuppeteer]

For those who don't know: Ikumi Nakamura is the woman who was senior artist on Bayonetta, and designed the titular character along with Hideki Kamiya. Their greatest moment of bonding was over their insistence that Bayonetta keep her glasses on at all times. Nakamura cannot go to horny jail. She is the warden.

[brookietf]

[catgirlforeskin]

Happy pride month to her and her exclusively

[seraphiminn]

she made a comic about the experience on twitter

[catboybiologist]

happy pride

[ikindamaybewanthertositonmyface]

An Update from back in October I'm surprised wasn't added to this post. lol

[fleshengine]

I love the face of a woman having the time of her life.

[manuciruja]

awww the like button turns into a rainbow when you press it! that's so cute...hey staff what's with all the trans women you keep nuking?

[manuciruja]

i think we should be ridiculing them more for this. you don't get to try and go all "queer website" when your staff likes to go on nuking sprees targeting the trans fem users

[sadgi]

can I get a job as an editor but the only thing I do is correct when someone uses the word "prone" when they mean "supine"

[sadgi]

thank you wikipedia for this really good image

[sadgi]

a helpful mnemonic for everyone