"You're both such nice boys - it's too bad you'll never have mates." She was a kindly old omegan woman who worked in the library at Dustin's University, a lady that Steve talked to fairly often. She'd never said anything that made him feel bothered, she hadn't acted judgemental whatsoever towards him, towards them, until now.
Steve's shoulders faltered, and he held Dustin's textbook a bit closer to his chest. Dustin looked bewildered by the comment, glancing up at Steve in wide eyed confusion, as if to ask if the woman had actually just said that. It wasn't uncommon for people to hint around it, or allude to it - and, of course, assholes would more loudly comment on it. But, kindly grand parent types didn't say it outright.
"... Uh," Steve swallowed, meeting Dustin's eyes for a moment. He wanted to deny it, to tell her off, but Steve knew; of course he knew that already. Dustin had a shot at least, since he could produce the pheromones for a proper mating, it was just entirely up in the air if it would work if his partner couldn't trigger the same response in him, given he couldn't smell them. But Steve? Steve simply could never trigger an alpha to do a proper mating bite.
"Oh, but maybe they'll find a cure one day!" The woman said cheerfully enough, red cheeks unaware of the storm she'd just set off. "You're studying medicine, aren't you, Mr Henderson?"
"... Biomedical engineering," Dustin answered, lips downturned. It wasn't until she caught a hint of Dustin's displeased scent that she seemed a bit startled. Had she not even registered how rude she'd been? God, it was like talking to his mom all over again.
"I'm sure you'll figure something out, you deserve it!" She insisted, and Steve just didn't want to be a part of the conversation anymore.
"I think you're wrong, though." Dustin told her, point blank. "Steve can trigger my pheromones even without me able to smell him, and he can smell me just fine. The idea that we'd be unable to mate, and have it mean just as much as any other mating is faulty and foolish. If anything, it would show our bond is deeper."
She opened her mouth a bit, eyes big, before a wide smile spread across her face. She'd seemingly missed the jab Dustin had thrown at her, as she leaned forward to take hold of Dustin's hands in her own, squeezing them tightly. "That is so beautiful - I had no idea you were courting! I wish you two boys the best of luck, I'm so happy for you."
Steve felt his anger dissipate, leaving him just tired with the world. She'd clearly not meant her original comment cruelly, but she'd meant it just the same, and it almost was worse that he couldn't stay angry with her. But, it'd still hurt, and as Steve got older, knowing he'd not ever find a mate just made the longing grow stronger.
"Let's go," Steve said, turning to leave without having the energy to deal with this any longer. Dustin looked as though he wanted to argue with the woman longer, but Steve had only made it a few steps before Dustin caught up to him.
"Which questions did you want me to quiz you on?" Steve asked him as soon as they found an open table in the corner of the library. He passed some of the textbooks they'd rented across the round table to Dustin, who sat down gingerly in his own seat.
He wasn't talking, Dustin was just staring at Steve like he was a particularly flighty animal. Steve cocked an eyebrow at him, wondering what the look was for. With no explanation coming, Steve rolled his eyes. Of course, Dustin wanted a reason to hear himself speak.
"Okay, Henderson, I'll bite. What are you looking at me like that for?" Steve asked him tiredly, chin in the palm of his hand.
"...I just thought... maybe you would have been more upset with what I suggested." Dustin said slowly, like he was tip toeing across a field of Legos while barefoot.
"... About you, and me... trying to become mates?" Dustin explained further, until he saw the look of realization click in Steve's eyes.
"You were just saying that to her, though. It's not like that would actually work, right?" Steve let out a small laugh, but Dustin's expression didn't shift in its severity. ".. It wouldn't work, right?" Steve repeated himself, quieter this time, humor leaving him.
"...I think it might?" Dustin suggested softly. "You're the only person who's mood I instinctively respond to with my own scent. Your purring, your chirps, I know what they all mean and it...causes a reaction in me. Like, my pheromones respond to the cues you're giving me." Dustin explained, but he still looked half terrified, and the smell of worry was billowing off of him more and more as time went on, as though he was expecting Steve to blow up at him. "Why wouldn't it work for mating too?"
Steve opened his mouth, but nothing came to him. No, that couldn't be right. Right? It couldn't be. He'd already spent years shoving down his feelings towards Dustin, trying not to drive off the person he was closest to by letting him know that in his mind, Dustin already was his alpha.
"I... don't want a mate, if it isn't you. I don't want to try with anyone that isn't you." Dustin was looking up at him from under his lashes, and his eyes so were so truly beautiful. Delicate under a strong brow.
Steve could barely hear anything from the sound of his heart pounding in his ears.
"...I don't want a mate if it isn't you." Steve let his heart pour out of him, since it already felt like it was banging against his core, trying to break free. "... You're already my alpha, to me."
Dustin sucked in a breath, eyes suddenly a bit brighter, teary. "I want to be. Can we be? Can we try?"
Steve sniffed, nodding his head, before adding, "probably not in the library."