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I don’t want you to die in me.
assembling some class materials and fondly thinking about (yet) another reason Six Hearts have bewitched me, body and soul.
Bleach tells many stories, and one of them is the story of Ichigo learning how to deal with power/violence to protect people, while his five beloved pookies represent different types of violence people are victims of
Orihime as a window into gender violence. it's so explicit throughout the series, but oh Arrankar Saga is so brilliant in addressing violent masculinities and misogyny while Ichigo is learning how to deal with the power/violence he's most afraid of. and then in the end, Orihime finds her agency and Ichigo is able to wield this power by relying on her and connecting with her.
Chad as a window to racism. the gut-wrenching turmoil of racialized bodies having to deal with rage but not allowing himself to fight back. Then Chad finds a way to use his fists because Ichigo, also struggling with self-defense, supports him and vice versa. Chad finding pride in his skin while reminding Ichigo that he's not powerless.
Uryu as a window to war/genocide. being a survivor, struggling with the logic of enmity, then learning how to make friends because of Ichigo and Orihime and Chad... then all of this coming back to show us a) Ichigo learning how to handle the radical duality within himself to be his most powerful self and b) Uryu confirming his friendship.
Then Rukia and Renji as windows to class oppression. being victims of the system, then joining the ranks to try and change things, but then having the organizational system tear them apart... then ichigo's defiance brings them back together, and even though they don't lead the great rukongai revolt, they find a way to make the gotei different (also because of ichigo) and have their voice.
will this series ever let go of me? hope not.
Portrait of Rukia for her birthday
I can't believe Kubo drew them standing around like this more than once. Maybe this is just what they look like. Inuzuri gremlins to the bone.
HAPPY RUKIA DAY
Every time I think about Renruki, i became crazy (in good sense) about this parallel
it is my poem
for the OTP ask thingy (and i’m trying very hard not to beg you to just do all of them) - 1, 2, 6, 14, 22, 26, 48, 50, 56, 58 ❤️💜
lol, this one is very long, so am throwing it under a cut.
You'll be having a normal one and then a shounen manga from the 2000s starts haunting you again
Polynya Fanfic Masterpost
Last updated 12/9/2025
Hi, I’m Polynya and I write Bleach fanfic. At this point, I have written kind of a lot, and I wanted to make a little intro page for new readers.
If you’re impatient and don’t want to read all this, here are the quick links: AO3 | FF.net. ao3 is my preferred platform. Unfortunately, due to various ai-scraping and other scams, I archive-lock my fics, so you’ll need to be logged into read them. As of spring 2024, I am sick of FF.net’s crap and no long posting new fic there, but I’m leaving up the stuff that’s there. If you ever have trouble finding one of my stories, just let me know and I’ll find a way to get it to you.
Would I like your fanfic, Polynya?
99% of my fanfic is Renruki or Renruki adjacent. If you come in here looking for something different, you’re going to be disappointed, is what I’m saying.
I like big casts, and frequently recurring characters are Byakuya, the other lieutenants plus Ikkaku, Yumichika, and Akon, the Karakura kids whenever I can swing it, a smattering of other captains (particularly Hitsugaya, because I like his friendship with Byakuya), and various members of the Kuchiki family and Squads 6 and 13.
I like to write about relationships, whether they are friendships, romances, families or work relationships. I write a lot of romance, but people constantly tell me that they don’t like romance but they do like my writing, so make what you will of that. I’m old, and I write like an old person: my work has a lot of career feels, mistakes made and lessons learned, second chances, accepting people as they are and making yourself into person you want to be. Even though my main pairing is M/F, I write them as bi4bi and I regularly write a number of LGBT+ characters and pairings. I also write a number of characters as neurodiverse, most notably Byakuya, my autistic king.
Getting started with Polynya fic
If you aren’t sure if you’re gonna like my work or not, I suggest trying out The Letter of the Law [AO3] [FF.net] [Tumblr] It’s short, it’s funny, it’s sweet, by ratio, it’s probably my most popular fic. It’s about Ace Attorney Vice-Captain Abarai Renji getting Uryuu out of legal trouble at the end of the TYBW.
If you’re feeling a little braver than that, please consider Hold On, Hold On [AO3] [FF.net] , an Academy Days story about Kira and Hinamori trying to keep Renji from falling apart after Rukia’s adoption. I consider it my best fanfic and if I can ever get people to read one thing of mine, it’s this.
A recent thing I wrote that I am pretty proud of and stands alone well is i got everything i want (and i got nothing that i need) It’s about Renji having a Hallucination. (absolutely cannot be read fandom-blind, the better your love of the Soul Society Arc, the more you will enjoy it)
Okay, I’m on board now:
So, the thing I’m the most “famous” for is my series, The Heart is a Muscle [AO3 series]. The first couple of stories are interwoven with canon (the last few will be, too, if I ever finish it). The actual reason I started writing Bleach fanfiction was that I wanted an extremely long, slow burn RenRuki story that wove through the entire Bleach canon and I’ve never found one. So I made one myself. It is still in progress. It may be in progress forever. Each story gets subsequently longer and more ridiculous. I’m in the timeskip now and I may never stop. The name is dumb, but so are Renji and Rukia, so there. If you like audio, you can listen to part 1 as a podfic.
For the very brave, go places is my most world-buildy story and the closest to my heart. It is about Rukia and Renji’s brief stopover at the South Rukongai District 70 Consolidated Shinigami Recruitment Station between leaving Inuzuri and arriving at Shin’ou. Features the Gotei courier service, thoughts on how shihakushou relate to manifestation, and Inuzuri Rukia, the squirreliest girl in Soul Society.
this could be permanent, you know [AO3][ff.net] is a modern/no powers AU where Renji is a tattoo artist and Rukia is a high-powered businesswoman with terrible (or possibly fantastic?) taste in tattoos. This is a weird one for me, because I rarely have much patience for stories that don’t take place in Soul Society, but I have always wanted to write a romcom. This is my romcom. As a bonus, it has many wonderful illustrations by my kind and talented friend @fluffnflightillustrations
Do you like angst? I have written one angst story, but it’s a doozy. Portions for Foxes [AO3] [AO3 - Fade to Black version] is an AU where Byakuya dies after his fight with As Nodt, and he leaves his family and his squad in the care of Rukia and Renji, respectively, who can barely stand to face each other. It is really sad, and there are explicit sex scenes, but my brand is incredibly strong, so it also has friendship and some funny bits, and the end is ultimately hopeful. This is honestly one of the better things I have written. The Fade-to-Black version has the explicit parts of the sex scenes removed, but it is still rated mature.
I got a request for a Hisana-Lived AU once, and it was pretty open-ended. I didn’t want to step on the toes of my other favorite Hisana-Lived AU (A Thin Red Line) so I gave myself the restraint that in my version, neither Rukia nor Byakuya ever bothered to mention Renji to Hisana, so she doesn’t even know he exists before becoming Byakuya’s lieutenant and helping to stop Rukia’s execution. I was reading a lot of Jane Austen at the time, so I wanted to write it with sort of the vibe of a Regency Romance, and that’s how I ended up with my other Big Story, a little in love now and then [AO3][ff.net]. It also features a number of lovely illustrations by Fluff. Three out of five acts are done at the moment. I tried to finish it in the summer of 2022 and failed. I tried again in fall 2024 (it did not go well). It is now the autumn of 2025 and I am on my third try, but act iv is about half done and act v is basically done so I think am really gonna have it done around early spring 2026.
I get a lot of requests for kidfic. I don’t really like writing kidfic, but most of what’s out there is horrifically out of line with my experiences as a parent, so I wrote some from a while. If that’s your bag, I’ve collected them as a series, The Greatest Family in Soul Society. Please don’t ask for more. I’ve done more than my part.
I don’t know what happened to me, because I didn’t used to be like this, but every so often I get the urge to write some smut. Unfortunately, I only write goofy, high concept smut. No one is more sorry about this than me. I have made a collection for them: What If We Kissed Under the Dick Rope? j/k… unless…? I use the pseud polynya_after_dark for these, so that link is another way to get to them directly.
I occasionally write shorter fiction or run request events here on Tumblr. I didn’t want to flood my ao3 with a bunch of short stories, so I have an anthology story that I throw them into for archival purposes. It got too big, so I made a second one, and my plan going forward is to make a new one for each calendar year. There’s all kinds of stuff in there, a lot of birthday stories, AUs, etc. There’s an index in Chapter 1 of each. Squad Six is Jerks vol 1 (2020-Aug 2021) [AO3][ff.net] Squad Six is Jerks vol 2 (rest of 2021) [AO3][ff.net] Squad Six is Jerks vol 3 (2022) [AO3][ff.net] Squad Six is Jerks vol 4 (2023) [AO3][ff.net] Squad Six is Jerks vol 5 (2024/25) [AO3]
There are a lot of these, but I particularly recommend the Squad 11 AU, where Byakuya is too distracted by his wife not-dying to adopt Rukia, and by the time he gets around to it, she’s joined Squad 11 with Renji, and the Dr. Renji AU, where Aizen transfers Renji to Squad 4 instead of Squad 11 and it turns out to be the best thing that ever happened to him. I talk about both of these from time to time and maybe someday I’ll spin them out into something bigger.
Speaking of AUs, I also have an AU that takes place in Soul Society, where Hisana took Rukia with her when she married Byakuya, and as a consequence, Renji never met Rukia and instead of becoming a shinigami he…became a tattoo artist instead. LOOK, I do NOT get paid, I can have as many tattoo artist AUs as I want. Anyway, there is a fanfiction part that’s not done yet, but I made a bunch of comics for it, you can find them all here.
Okay, that’s the major stuff! If you get all the way down here and you still want something to read, just go to my main ao3 page and read the rest.
Keeping up with my fanfic
I try to do a Tumblr post once a week (currently, on Friday) where I babble about what I’ve been working on and how it’s going. I do these for me, and they tend to be pretty personal. They’re always tagged with “writing update.” I sometimes take a hiatus from doing these at times when writing isn’t a big focus for me and I need to relax. It does not necessarily mean I’m not writing, it’s just that I”m not being goal-oriented about it. I’m taking one right now, but I should be back in the fall!
I tend to tag my writing with “my writing” and my art with “my fanart”. For some reason, when people ask me about my fanfics, I tag it with “my fanfic.” I should probably get a better system. Sometimes I’ll tag with the names of specific fanfics but I am super inconsistent about that.
I used to take requests, but it got overwhelming. I usually do one to three one-if-you’re-lucky request events a year (usually, centered around some topic). If I’ve got one going on, it’ll be my pinned post and it will say so on my ask page. If you have a very specific request that is extremely in my wheelhouse, you can send it to me at any time. I can’t guarantee I’ll do it, or that I’ll finish it on any kind of timeline, but it doesn’t hurt to ask. (If it isn’t Renruki-centric, there is almost 0 probability I’ll do it, tho).
I do not take commissions and never will, don’t ask.
out of everything on this beautiful green earth you could make a bleach filler episode about, thank you to whoever decided to include a subplot where renji acts out that one hozier tweet. you were so real for that.
please ignore any anomalies you might notice
Morning routine 🧚🌸🍞
::slams door open:: it's been two years, but I've written another dirty fanfic! it's very weird! i probably should have edited it more but I am busy all day tomorrow and I wanted to post it today! enjoy!!!!!
for old times' sake (ao3 link, open for 1 week, then registered users only after that)
Summary: Rukia gets a new toy and falls back on old memories in order to break it in.
Timeline: During the separation
Starring: Rukia and her sexy fantasy version of Renji
Rating: Explicit!! Contains flashbacks with arguably underage sexual activity.
Words: 4681
Rukia and Renji arrive at Karakura Island. Somewhere on the shore the crew of the Slaying Moon are debating whether or not they should greet them and in that case who. Eventually they just send Ichigo.
For the entirety of their visit, Renji will get comments on how he looks like a pirate dressed up in a noble’s naval uniform. He tries to not let it get to him when people ask if he’s sure he’s not a pirate. He’s worked hard to get where he is, dammit.
one thing i completely missed when reading the one-shot is kubo confirming that all lieutenants and captains get a mansion to live in and now i’m just dying to know about the configuration of this district like WHO IS WHOSE NEIGHBOUR????????
I really wanted to draw his tattoos cuz they look so cool
sorry I keep posting him lol I’ve just been watching a lot of bleach recently and he’s my fav