BarneyLove

a queer adhd author with an ongoing hyperfixation on the marauders. fuck jkr. They/them 🏳️‍🌈

[barneylove]

- wolfstar fic list (ao3) -

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In Lieu of Flowers | E | 12/30 | 126k | modern mafia au |

Detective Remus Lupin and his partner James Potter are assigned to investigate of the most notorious crime families in New York City. Their chosen target for getting someone on the inside? Sirius Black. Things don’t go to plan, for anyone.

next chapter: so sorry will be delayed by a week or so! new eta ~1st October 💛

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Dear Moony | E | 30/30 | 431k | muggle au | part 1/3 |

Sirius's POV from before Hogwarts to the end of 3rd year. Plenty of h/c, Black family/brother angst, Marauder-found-family-vibes, and the start of some very slow-burn wolfstar.

Name TBC | not yet posted | muggle au | part 2/3 |

Will be a long fic following the Marauders from the start of their 4th year right through to the end of their 7th year. Part 2 of Dear Moony. Will follow Sirius as he begins to drift further from his family, and the struggles he and the others go through as they begin to grow up.

The Collection | E | 31/31 | 267k | muggle au | part 3/3 |

Marauders-as-a-family while at uni, with established wolfstar, lots of art, plenty of h/c and a whole lot of Black family drama. (Can be read alone)

The Accident | M | 1/1 | 8k | muggle au |

Follows Sirius's recovery after a motorcycle accident with established wolfstar & found family vibes. (Can be read alone)

A Sweet Arrangement&No Small Gift | E | magical au |

Part 1: Sirius is disowned, and travels as (an injured) Padfoot to get to the Potters (6.8k). Part 2: Sirius (as Padfoot) is injured the summer after arriving at the Potters (14k).

- ted lasso fic list (ao3) -

Horribly Inevitable | E | 4/4 | 31k |

The altercation in the changing room at Wembley goes just a little differently, and the team realise exactly how much Jamie has been hiding since his return to Richmond. [Set in S2E8 'Man City']

Misery so Bitterly | M | 2/2 | 11k |

When Jamie has a bad migraine, he struggles to ask for help. But after several miscommunications add up, the coaching team think he's regressing to his old prickish ways. Ft. some very guilty coaches & teammates when the truth comes out.

[barneylove]

hi!! i just wanted to say how much i love your fics, i am very excited to reread the collection whenever it is reposted!! i have loved following your stories for so many years and i hope you feel better soon! please take all the time you need!!!

hi @e-lli-s,! thank you so much for this very kind message, so supportive and i'm again so grateful on coming back to reread it. i'm so sorry that i was desperately slow with a reply with everything and also that the collection ended up being down for way longer than i meant!!

it has just been reposted here, and i won't take it down again! i reposted it 'as is' (aka a bit tidied up in places) but it's been a relief to let go of my weird thing about tidying up the entire thing up especially given the last few months.

i can't say it enough but thank you so much for everything these last few years, you have always been so kind across so many various fics and i'm so grateful 💛i really hope things on your end are going super well and that if you do reread the collection you enjoy!

take care and thank you again xoxo

[barneylove]

hey!!! just wondering how you’ve been doing since it’s been a bit since you’ve posted, totally good and awesome to take a break from the internet but wanted to check in!

hi! thanks so much for this lovely message 💛 i'm sorry i've been so absent. i'm very grateful for your check in and to all the other lovely humans that messaged here (or on ao3) thank you as well, every one means so much, i will reply properly as soon as i can!

i'm doing a bit better now, but it's been a pretty low-energy time. i'm slowly coming out of the fog though and hoping this time it'll stick!

i hope you're doing okay too, thank you again for your message. i'll be back sometime hopefully soon 💛 xo

[barneylove]

Hey lovee , I was wondering if you have a new updating schedule for your fic ?

Hi lovely, I haven't got an official plan just yet but hoping to get back into posting ILoF over the next few weeks 💛 have started tinkering away again with edits, definitely am feeling better than I was so shouldn't be too far away! Thank you for messaging xo

[barneylove]

Just checking in , haven't heard from you in a while .

Hope everything is okay and that life has been treating you well , take your time 🫶

Hello, thank you for such a lovely message 💛💛 so sorry for disappearing, my trip a couple weeks ago was a bit of a disaster! Fell off my friend’s horse, thankfully only a mild concussion but not my first so has taken it out of me! Shout out to their expensive helmet that saved me from worse. Will be back asap, but thank you I appreciate your message very much 💛 will take my time 🫶

[barneylove]

No worries if not and no pressure but I wondered if there would be a ilof chapter this week xx

Thank you for such a sweet and no pressure message 🥺💛 i was planning to get a new ilof chapter up but I’m so sorry I’ve had to call it this weekend, life has become hectic and the chapter just hasn’t flowed! aiming now to get it up before 1st October. Thanks again, I’m sorry about that! xx

[barneylove]

LOVEE ALL YOUR FICS !!

Currently reading your new wolfstar one , it's amazing !! And it happens to be a saturday so I'm guessing new update ?

Ahhh thank you so much!! 💛 so glad you're enjoying!

And yep you guessed right, here is the new chapter of In Lieu of Flowers 🌻☺️ just posted! hope you enjoy xo

"Evan said he was tall, dark haired." Sirius ordered, chest burning. "Get me a name, an address. And call me, once you have him." Fabian nodded, once, and there was a delighted rage in his eyes. "Done."

[barneylove]

New chapter 🌻

I'm sorry in advance (it's a bit of a big one, I'm afraid) - but here is chapter 11 of In Lieu of Flowers. Really hope you enjoy 💛

"I guess." Remus thought back, trying to examine the memories like the detective he should be. "Yeah, about my Dad, a bit, how I was enjoying Brooklyn, again."   "And you asked him some questions?" "He was careful." Remus admitted, after a moment. "He told me some things, like about working for his uncle at the florist, and he mentioned his brother was at university. Nothing that we didn't already know, or could've guessed."  "Clever." James admitted, softly. "But we knew he was going to be smart about this. Use us as much as possible, while giving us as little as he can."  

[barneylove]

I just feel the need to say that this next update is going to mean so much more to me because it's officially gonna be the last update before I have to start school 😭 ( AKA my last weekend of freedom )

This is the only think I'm looking forward to :/

Oh man last few days of freedom, hope you have a fab weekend! thank you so much for being excited about the update 🥹💛

Can confirm new chapter will be up this weekend! Might be more like Sunday morning (UTC) because I'm already rewriting a bunch whoops - but I'll get it up asap 💛 thanks again and enjoy your weekend! xo

[barneylove]

I haven’t been up to date but i wanted to leave a comment on the collection bc i have it downloaded and reread particular chapters when im feeling anxious, i just really love your h/c 💛💛💛 so here’s my placeholder comment until the reupload, at which point ill go give it much love 💛

excited to get into ILOF when i get a chance!

What a lovely message to wake up to, thank you so much 💛🥺

I'm so glad if the collection can be a bit of a comfort for you when you're feeling anxious, I reread bits and pieces of it when I'm feeling the same 💛 (and re the reupload, I'm hoping to get it back up by end of September - finally making some headway with the editing!)

Thanks so much again, this message was the best start to my day 💛 really hope you enjoy ILOF if you do have a read! take care xo

[barneylove]

so so so excited for the next chapter of in lieu of flowers !!! Will it be today? 🥰

Naw thank you so much, super excited to share with you! Such great timing as well, because here it is! 💛🥰 xo

New Chapter 💛

Chapter 10 of In Lieu of Flowers is now up 🌻 so sorry for the delay, but thank you for your patience and hope you enjoy!

Sirius laughed, pressing a very chaste and brief kiss to the cheek closest, and pulled back. "Does it hurt your feelings to know that without the FBI," he kept his voice low. "You would never have gotten a date with me?"  Remus sighed. "I hate you." He muttered, rough and under his breath, before he quite obviously pulled himself together.  "I hate you too." Sirius replied, far more sweetly, though he let his grin become a little more shark-like as a white car pulled up, and his phone buzzed. "I hate you more."

[barneylove]

I simply cannot stop wondering if sirius is gonna discover marlene was undercover… like how would anyone ever process that, it must have been so hard for her to actually realise how close she was to Sirius (presuming that was her feelings) but it’s just such an interesting and crazy dynamic because of that obviously and I’m like GOD !!! Like how would sirius even be able to handle that info and like she’s dead so he could never even resolve that or find out her thoughts I’m like wow do I want him to know or not - anyway just WOW

I have sooooooooo many thoughts about this ask I cannot even express omg, I am so grateful you shared all your thoughts thank you!! i really don't want to spoil anything for you 🤭 but it's also wild how much i just want to blab and share everything ahahaha.

it's definitely one of my favourite dynamics in the fic, and you're so right like there's just no real way for sirius to find resolution to any of it which is kinda heart breaking ...

there will be answers! eventually! i promise 💛

thank you so much for reading and being excited, it's the best xo

[barneylove]

AHHH ITS SATURDAY BIATCHESS , YALL KNOW WHAT THAT MEANSSS !!!

YALL ARE CORRECT 😂😂😂

Chapter 9 of in lieu of flowers is now up! Link is here 💛 hope you enjoy xoxo

[barneylove]

hey! Hope you’re well💘 will there be an in lieu of flowers update today? (In the least pushy way poss!!!!!) :)

Hi!! So lovely of you, I'm doing well thank you! Hope you're well too! Not pushy at all, and perfect timing 😊 chapter 9 has just been posted!

"Was that a joke?" Sirius asked, leaning forward, intrigued despite himself. "Did you just make a joke?" "I make jokes." Remus replied, with a frown. And then his eyes slid away. "Not always funny ones, but-" "Ha." Sirius mocked, rolling his eyes.

Link to Chapter 9 of In Lieu of Flowers 💛 really hope you enjoy! xo

[barneylove]

I have never looked forward to Saturdays so much in my life - this fic is giving me life omg I can’t express how much it is my dream fic. I LOVE IT! I love how I literally can never know what’s coming too, even the smallest things are flooring me - chapter 8 was as wonderful as everything you ever write, you have such a flow and a way with words that just makes it so exciting and fun to read your work. I couldn’t be more glad to have found your account, it’s like you plucked my dreams from my brain and wrote it all up in the best way possible. Thank you so so much for sharing with us !

Oh my gosh this message is giving me life, you made my absolute day 😭 you are so kind, thank you! 💛 so happy you’re enjoying so far, and I’m really glad if it’s surprising you a bit too!!

I’m honestly having heaps of fun with this fic, especially because of lovely humans like you! Thank you for reading, and for this lovely message 🥹💛 xo

[barneylove]

hi! sorry if I'm bothering you a bit but I posted a tiktok about dear moony, if you want to watch it.

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZNHs9FybsNjPs-Ycrew/

Omg I loved it so much 😭 it’s like you somehow took the mood boards for all the Black cousins literally straight from my brain??? Thank you heaps!

(Also you’re never bothering me, it’s the best and I’m super grateful - thank you again 💛)

[barneylove]

New Chapter 💛

Chapter 8 of In Lieu of Flowers is now up 😊

"I'd go pale cream, or white, for flower choice." He tapped his chest, over where a suit button hole might sit. "Boutonnière." Pettigrew seemed to choke, a little. "White calla lilies are pretty and honestly kind of popular, right now, but they mean innocence," Sirius shrugged, non-judgementally. "You may be into that, but if you're not, you can't go wrong with white roses and eucalyptus." He grinned. "At least a white rose can mean, a new beginning. Which surely a new marriage would qualify for, am I right?" "Are you-" Pettigrew swallowed. "I'll, well," he blinked. "That actually sounds- but, um, why, um, why do you know all that?" "I'm a florist." Sirius smiled sweetly. "Hadn't you heard?"