Bipolar 2 and Borderline Personality Disorder

25 and growing| Bipolar 2, BPD, GAD, C-PTSD, and ADHD| Your life changes in an instant| Who am I now and who will I be| I’m more working to find peace,being alive, and something more.

[bipolar2andbpd]

Me causing my own problems:

[bipolar2andbpd]

I wanted to die for a while, but I live for the life I experience. Whatever life looks like. Live for the experience of life.

[bipolar2andbpd]

When the realization hits you that you’ll eventually be alone.

[thoughtkick]

“There is a terrible emptiness in me, an indifference that hurts.”

— Albert Camus, The First Man

[thoughtkick]

“Nothing is more heartbreaking than when you try your hardest and it still isn’t enough.”

— Unknown

[stay-close]

“I am a strong person. But every once in a while I would like someone to hold my hand and tell me things are going to be OK.”

— Unknown

[stay-close]

“Not everyone you love is going to love you back. That’s why you’ve got to love yourself.”

— Unknown

[bipolar2andbpd]

I was fired today. I worked hard to be a good employee, but made some mistakes. My boss wants me to fight to come back, but it’s not worth it. I don’t have the energy for it to be worth it. I have so much shame and regret for my mistakes, but anger and pain for other people’s mistakes that effected me. I hate myself for messing up but hate the people that didn’t try very hard to help.

[bipolar2andbpd]

It’s weird how things can change so much in a few months. I’ve gone from pretty depressed to very depressed to semi-stable to I don’t know what the hell is going on.

[thoughtkick]

“Be patient when things are not going right. Accept that what is yours will come to you in the right way at just the right moment.”

— Unknown

[thoughtkick]

“And sometimes I have kept my feelings to myself, because I could find no language to describe them in.”

— Jane Austen

[bipolar2andbpd]

My paranoia has been bad lately. Someone was talking behind my back at work and now I’m worried that others are too. I shouldn’t care, but when I hear people whispering, my emotional mind thinks it about me. It makes me stressed out, frustrated, angry, and scared. People talking about me is not the end of the world, but it can overtake my whole day sometimes. My self-esteem is fragile and I feel like I need to please people. Someone’s words have more of an effect on me than I’d like to admit. I want acceptance, but I’m afraid if I trust people, they’ll ruin me.

[meanwhilepoetry]

Have you ever felt like you are the quiet ghost everyone can see but chooses to look through. Like your body is there, just transparent, you speak but no one hears you, not really. The act of disappearing is not so hard truly. You can do it even in a room surrounded by people who claim they love you. Just pretend you aren’t there, and everyone around you will pretend you have vanished too.

- Nikita Gill

[neckkiss]

“Take it day by day, don’t stress too much about tomorrow.”

— Unknown

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Surround yourself with people who see your value, and remind you of it.

Unknown

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winter has come once again to teach me things i don’t want to know about myself

[stay-close]

“It always shocked me when I realized that I wasn’t the only person in the world who thought and felt such strange and awful things.”

— John Green