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~Wave~.

I am Audhd. That's autism and adhd. My brain is always fighting one half.

I love schedules and plans, but I also hate them. I love to eat the same food, but I also am bored and hate that food now.

I want to stay in my house and never see anyone, I want to go to the pool party and socialize my ass off (this one involves a lot of stressing leading up the event, splurge spending on a new party outfit, trying to cancel/find a reason not to go. Then after I am sick, like physically and must become a vegetable who is barely functional for 2 weeks, with roscea/acne/shingles outbreak. Le sigh)

Its the wanting everyone to notice my new outfit, but not wanting anyone to LOOK at me. I wanna be social and giggly, but once I am there my voice is so low and i observe mostly. If they wanted to know what I said, they'd listen?

I love to spin/dance when I am alone, I dance while I walk my dogs because Idgaf what strangers think, but my sister can see me? Normal walk. Totally stiff. Not by choice, my brain just puts up shields, safe guards. Share my interests with strangers online? Totes. Friends and family? Yeah, I watched that, while silently begging them not to ask me questions, not to get me to explain how and why its a fixation.

Its finding out birds are shitting all over my roof, obsessing for 2 months trying to shoo them before climbing up onto the roof (SO SCARYYYYYY. HEIGHTS ARE SCARY) and installing solar guards around my solar panels myself.

Its the me that always wants to see if I can do that myself FIRST.

My laptop charging cord being loose, not staying in and charging so I search how to fix it. I buy the parts, I do the research, I take apart my laptop, solder the parts back together and wala.

I can't process stuff the same way others do. When I play a new video game, I can't SEE all the stuff. There's so much new stuff to take in, to see, to learn that it takes a couple weeks before I really SEE the game and how beautiful it is, the details. I need time to settle. I process from the bottom up. I need to know where it starts. I can't build without foundations.

My executive functioning is TRASH. I have so many plans, but so many ideas I can't figure out where to start. So I do nada then suddenly throw it all together. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

I love analysises because it helps me organize and verbalize the patterns I see. Lots of times I recognize the pattern, but can't explain it. I just know. And I do. Not spoiling the end is such a thing for me. I try so hard not to do it these days, but for me I am guessing, I'm right though so I've spoiled it for whoever I said that too.

I cannot do anything if someone is watching. I don't need nor want help. Even if i am doing it wrong. Me messing up is part of the bottom up processing. I don't want you to know, I restacked those blocks SIX times. Embarrassing cause it makes me look dumb, but really its how my brain works. I do it then say nah, I don't like that. Everything I do is always better the second time. The first time is good, acceptable. The second one? Well now the first sucks! Lol I always say I didn't understand the first time, but now I do.

I recently found out when they say give 100% they don't mean give 100%. Huh? Doesn't even make sense to me.

Fairness is HUGE to me. I don't just listen because you said so. I look at facts and I make a choice. I follow rules if the rules are good.

Red teapot first attempt, purple the second.

For years I loved Harry Potter. Hufflepuff 4 life. Then JK Rowling turned out to be a horrible person against transgender and autistic individuals (thinking queer autistic women are children just confused and far too simple.). To be fair, I gave up on JK as a person once she was letting outside opinions influence her writing ala Ron. Now she wants to replace the original actors cause they don't preach her words? Fuck her. I can't support that anymore. Stay over there billionaire. Wolfstar & Romione forever.

I always said I should've been a hippie. 🌬 I am not queer, but I am with you. I will fight anyone for you. Love is fucking love. Love whoever you want. (Not children or animals 🤬) I just want everyone to be good. Let's fight bad climate and not each other. Stop genocide. Free Palestine. 🇵🇸🏳️‍🌈 I have not ever believed money was the foundation to happiness

Atheist. Sorry not sorry. Its cool if it helps you and you get fulfillment. Do NOT preach to me. It does not work. It actually makes me angry. Violently verbally aggressive.

I am a survivor. Of physical and emotional abuse. Via parents and first "love". First "love" also gave me sexual violence too, but I lost my virginity nonconsenually as well.

An undiagnosed until 44 year old autistic women who spent her entire life being corrected and told to stop. Fighting about gender norms since before I knew what that meant. Boy toys and girl toys NEVER made sense. They're TOYS. Colors shouldn't be only for said gender. Stupid! I hate that shit. My daughter played with dolls and cars. She wore whatever she wanted. I cant go camping because I'm a girl? Wtf is that shit? My sister can go though because she's going with Sarah and they'll do girl camping things, not boy camping things like Anthony is gonna do? Cause riding the tire attached to the boat wasn't gender mixed? They all did it. Ridiculous. One of the many times I was EXCLUDED simply for having a vagina in my family.

My family liked groups. I was born when the boy group was born. Danny and Jermey like 2 years older than me. Nick and Nathan 1 year older. Dana same age as me. Then Matthew is a 1 younger, Anthony 2 years younger, my sister 3 years younger, Sarah 5 years younger, Jessi 8 years younger. I hung out with Danny till he was too cool for me then me and Anthony were besties. So Danny, Matthew, Anthony, twins, Dana all the boys get to go do something. The people I usually hung with at family gatherings. I get left out. I don't play with the younger kids so I am not invited to that either.

Fuuuuuck AI. Its killing human creativity. Fuck Oligarchs. Fuck Trump. Fuck the politicians they're all paid for, all the same agenda.

moonycleric

just found this photo i’m SICK

thebestofmyrmidons

Evidence of Young Will in the Rainbow Room!

Curse my facial recognition skills, but I saw these pictures of the kids in the rainbow room, and almost instantly, this particular face stood out to me:

Firstly - I don't remember seeing this kid in the season 4 rainbow room scenes.

Secondly - I almost immediately recognised that this actor was Luke Kokotek, the actor that played Young Will in the first flashback scene of season 5:

As you can see - same face shape, slope of eyebrows, eye shape, and eyelid fold.

To double check I wasn't actually going insane, I sense checked against another picture of the actor:

The resolution of the photo I took of the book is really low, but you can see at least two moles on the neck of both the actor and the picture in the book. Aside from that, the shape of their ears match up too - the left one is rounder and the right one is slightly pointier, in both pictures.

The funny thing is - it's clearly a younger version of Luke Kokotek playing a test subject in the Rainbow Room. However, on IMDb, he only has season 5 credits on his profile and his name is not mentioned in any of the season 4 credits, so he clearly doesn't feature in the show - so why include a still of him in the official book?

Either they cut all of his scenes in season 4 for some reason (but released BTS footage of him to the author of this book?)... Or...

There might be footage of a Young Will in the Rainbow Room that we haven't seen yet...

misspracticallydelulu

Wait, wait, hang ON a damn second…

I have a theory about Will’s slightly different painting that @lilialunaa posted here

Original:

What if it’s a corrupted memory? Or…

…a vessel of communication?

Just like in What Dreams May Come:

Plot: Chris Nielsen dies in an accident, and enters Heaven. But when he discovers that his beloved wife Annie has killed herself out of grief over the loss, he embarks on an afterlife adventure to save her from Hell.

Before Annie takes her life though, she was a painter. And her work literally painted his afterlife. And they communicate through her art.

When she “destroys” the painting, things start dying in his afterlife:

His afterlife before she destroys the painting:

After: (the leaves literally shrivel & die!! Kind of what appears to happen in Will’s alternative painting) 👀

Annie’s diary entry reminds me of how important Will’s art is to Mike:

Chris talking about his actions sounds like Mike describing himself 😭

And when she was in Hell, she lost her memories to the torment:

Only when he promised he’d stay in Hell with her, she “woke up” and recognised him, saving them both:

Just like Mike’s promise:

And Mike is the only one that Will can remember, and has the power to “wake him up” from a trance:

I think Will is going to communicate through the painting to make Mike “remember” and “wake him up”:

I mean…

It’s uncanny…

(sorry if this connection has been made before!)

thebestofmyrmidons

THE MAPS IN THE BOOK ARE ONE HUGE HINT!

Guys, we need to LOCK IN, because this book has been out for a whole week and no one has taken a closer look at the street names on the map? Almost all of the street names don't line up with any of the in-show streets, and if you look at what they're called, you'll see that they are CLUES! I only had time to properly look today, but holy, it has opened my eyes AAAAH!

Idk if I mentioned, but from what I've seen, the season 5 maps are kind of consistent, and I think the photos I'll show you below confirm that the map in the book (and season 5) is a projection from Henry's mind. And Max is projecting from his mind, and sending clues to WAKE US UP!!

It's FILLED with clues, holy mother of god !

As a warm-up - here's a whole fucking street named Henry and one for Mayfield, at the veeeeeery edge of the map!

And of course 'Michael' is right above the Mindflayer:

There's also a street called 'setup':

We also have 'Colony', 'Dominion', 'Industrial Distribution', 'Wake', 'Secretary', 'Profit', 'Commodity', and 'Merchant':

And not only that, you can CLEARLY tell it's a fake map, because for some reason, the street names are non-sensical, and are either first names that were popular in the 50s, or names of Ivy League universities. You know, street names that someone would come up with if they, uh, were banished to another dimension at a young age and had to make up when trying to make the illusion seem real. And, oh yeah, fun tidbit, none of the 'street' names have actual designations (e.g. X street, Y road etc.) - they did have that in the original season 2 map I show below (e.g. Kerley Blvd and Cornwallis Rd).

Here are some of the street names that I've found that are OLD names:

We've had streets called:

- Terry (!!!)

- Henry

- Clyve

- Eileen

- Daisy

- Robert

- Karen (!!!)

- Philip

- Aubry

- Randolphe

- Willard

- Sheldon

- Griffin

- Herbert

- Tyler

- Jessie

- Florence

- Margaret

- Irene (2 different streets)

- Clover

- Trenton

- Garcia

- Glen

- Arthur

- Lincoln

- Randall

- Bethany

- Allen

- Wayne

- Gilbert

- Eleanor

- Daisy

- Cindy

- Victoria

- Barrton

- Buttland

- Brogdon

- Ludwig

- Pierce

- Donnell

There's lots and lots more, but I was getting tired!!!! AAAAAH

ALSO why is no one questioning how the NOTORIOUSLY WEALTHY Steve Harrington is neighbours with the NOTORIOUSLY POOR Will Byers?! WHAT !

And you know the big deal with Mirkwood being located on the intersection of Kerley and Cornwallis? The big fucking deal they make of Mirkwood being proximal to the lab?

They got the location right in the original season 2 lab:

They're listed on other sides of the town in the book map:

Guys, I'm telling you - the book is a big puzzle and contains tons of hints, and you need to really look at the details.

COME ONE GUYS - THOSE OF US WITH A BOOK - LOCK IN!!!

rgwriter

What they always did that they didn't do

I've mentioned some of this before, but part of what made this season feel so wrong was because none of the characters were doing things they normally did. They were all acting... Not like themselves.

Nancy didn't investigate anything. In 1 she taped photos together, investigating on her own and with Jonathon. In 2 she went into the lab, secretly recorded conversations and drove to Illinois to get help to take the lab down. In 3 she followed up on Mrs. Driscoll and the rats in spite of her horrible treatment at the newspaper. In 4 she worked on the school paper, interviewed Eddie's uncle, went undercover in the asylum and got an exclusive from Vecna himself.

In 5? She didn't investigate anything. It was even Mike's idea to look into Mr. Whatsit with their mom. She certainly didn't show any curiosity about the military occupation.

Joyce didn't discover a small hidden detail. In 1 she paid attention to the lights when everyone thought she was crazy. In 2, she paid attention to Will's art and even watched the video, finding the MF in the static, and ignoring all the doctor's who told her nothing was wrong with Will. In 3, it was the magnets. In 4, she got Murray's help so she didn't discover so much as followed a very unbelievable hunch that Hop was somehow alive and in Russia.

In 5? She found nothing. In fact, her one bright idea was so incredibly wrong that I can only surmise she forgot all the details around Will's last possession. Her decision making skills were seriously suspect.

Hopper didn't investigate either. In 1 it was Will's disappearance and the lab. In 2 it was the pumpkin farms and the lab. In 3 it was Joyce's magnets leading him to the mayor and the Russians and eventually their lab. In 4, he was just trying to escape, but he still figured out why they were feeding the prisoners and what was going on.

In 5? He was missing a piece of the puzzle, and just being a mindless grunt searching for Vecna so he could blow him up. He had to be told or shown everything, he didn't put anything together himself. It was El's idea to look into Aker's mind. El's idea to go to the base. He, as a former soldier, wasn't curious about what they were doing there beyond looking for El.

Jonathon wasn't there for his brother. Now this was a repeat of 3, but in 1 and 2 and 4 Jonathon always observed and made time to talk to Will.

In 5, he was way too busy talking to Steve and Murray.

Mike didn't touch Will's art. Like Jonathon, this was a repeat of 3, but in 1, he caressed those binder drawings. In 2 he touched the map of Hawkins and the MF drawing. In 4, he held Will's painting like it was the Mona Lisa.

In 5, we see the painting on his wall at the end, but he doesn't even look at it.

The people who did the things they always did, but did them wrong.

Dustin is the discoverer and namer of things. In 1 he names the Veil of Shadows and figures out a compass can find the gate. In 2 he names demodog and mind flayer and asks Mr. Clarke how to make a sensory deprivation tank. in 3 he names Cerebro, helps translate a Russian code and uses his connections to get the much needed Planck's Constant. in 4 he names Vecna, brings his compass back to find watergate, figures out how and why Vecna is opening the gates.

In 5, he triangulates the lab as the center of the circular wall and finds the journals and names the wormhole and the Abyss, and because it's him everyone believes it's absolutely true, even though that brings up more questions and doesn't entirely make sense.

Will is always drawing/painting something important. In 1 he draws those cabbage fireballs, because sometimes the bad guy is smarter and you need to blow them up. In 2 he draws the MF and Zombie Boy and the Tunnels. in 3 he draws the MF when talking about another sleeper agent/Billy--he also tears down a few of his drawings. In 4 he paints THE painting.

In 5, he paints on the barn wall and repeats his season 2 possession code "He didn't want me to see there" No one notices.

Lucas is incredibly observant. In 1, he notices El wiping her nose and knows she's leading them astray and follows the compass to the lab, noticing the light company vans. In 2, he notices Dustin's feelings about Max and handles it very well, and he also notices where the demodogs went. In 3, he notices the El olive branch. In 4, he notices his party having fun without him and that Max is more troubled than she lets on.

In 5, he notices everything. The date. The coincidences. The fact that Vecna might be messing with them. UNTIL Robin says Max is coming back to her body. Then he's done noticing anything but her.

El is always self-sacrificing. In 1 she protects the party to defeat the demogorgan, sending them both to the UD. In 2, she comes back home because she sees they need her and risks her life to close the giant gate. In 3, she protects the party from the meat flayer and loses her powers. In 4, she stays at the Nina to get her powers back and save the party, and nearly dies fighting Vecna.

In 5, she easily defeats Vecna once she finds him, then because of one speech from Kali, decides to khs anyway to end the cycle. Even though no one wants her to and it's unclear that it would actually do any good. So...it was the one sacrifice that made absolutely no sense and wasn't for her found family, or out of love.

Robin always solves the puzzle. In 3 when she arrives, she cracks the Russian code. In 4 she finds the Creel info and cracks the music code.

In 5 she figures out Will is an antenna, and the number of kids Vecna wants, and makes a Dick plan to get the kids to safety, and that Holly, Max and Will are all trapped in Vecna's mind, and that Will is gay and in love with Mike... But she doesn't notice the dial or tower changing colors. Or Mike's behavior toward Will. Or that the fight seemed way too easy. (Bonus, she does feel that Hawkins is different and isn't sure why)

Steve is the one guy that did something in 5 he'd never done before. Made a plan everyone followed instead of going along with someone else's.

You see what I mean? Everything, every character, was just a little off. Or a lot off, depending.

acecreamsandwich

I can't get over how they didn't even try to hide this "retcon" of the fact that Chance and Andy were supposed to have graduated in 1986 but they decided to stay in high school for 3 extra years, I guess they couldn't get enough of high school 🤔

Because only seniors get those letterman jackets since they are customized to your class year and name. It's hard to see Andy's in the first pic, but he wears it throughout S4, not just this scene.

But then in S5 they conveniently don't have "Class of 86" on the sleeve anymore, just their name on the breast like before and a new patch that is the mascot logo, instead. Literally on the same spot where the "Class of 86" used to be. They replaced it. The costume department most likely had to either make duplicate jackets to do this or had to make the patches Velcro so that they could swap out the patches if needed. But, if they really wanted us to forget that they were meant to have graduated already don't you think they'd lose the jackets all together to not remind us??

It's not like it can even be excused as them failing out their senior year because of the UD stuff and they had to make up a year, because that would still mean they would have graduated last year in 1987. Because it is a 1.5 year time jump, and in 2 months after S5 starts it will turn into 1988 for them. Literally none of it makes sense. There is no reason for them to stay and flunk out an extra year either after everything is "solved". Why would they graduate in 1989??? None of it makes sense at all lmao. They even sandwich Max in between them when they are seated at the epilogue graduation ceremony so that we can't miss them being there. Like, this has to be deliberate 😭

Omg i read a post with 3 different paintings pictures in it and now I cant find it why didnt I reblog...

chillikm

”the party grow up and don’t play dnd anymore”

my 40 something year old English teacher rents out an Airbnb for a whole weekend every like month or something for him and his friends solely for the purpose of campy dnd sessions

nightnut

me nerding out about my fav games 20+ years after being introduced to them:

(20 years later is now)

byler-blurts

documenting all 11 declassified files (1/2)

because they apparently expire on july 14th and you never know

#1 Underneath the Demogorgon Suit

#2 Soft But Scary

#3 Conceptualizing Eleven

#4 The Resurrection of Will Byers

#5 The Soviet Files

#6 The Autopsy of Chrissy Cunningham

#7 Max and Vecna’s Curse

#8 Dr. Kay’s Sonic Weapon

#9 The Rainbow Room

#10 Hawkins National Laboratory

#11 The Rift

... gets its own post because of the 30 images per post rule

part 2 here

sherlockbyers

OH MY GOSH EMERGENCY!!!

someone already got the arrow video dvd box and did an unboxing (here)!!! and there’s nothing it seems…

bird-on-the-fly

Mmm..

thebestofmyrmidons

I think the main reason why I can't let go of CG all these months later is because no matter how I think about it, my brain simply cannot rationalise or make sense of the writing in season 5 in any sense. Maybe it's something about neurodivergent brains but it doesn't make any sense to me for season 5 to have played out the way it did, without an additional explanation. So, because it's still unfinished in my brain, I just can't seem to let it rest?

At this point, it's not even about being upset about certain plot points (El killing herself, byler not happening etc.) - those emotions are gone. The anger was there when I watched the finale, but they just don't upset me anymore?

Instead, it's this lingering feeling that there's something deeply unfinished, something that needs solving, some kind of explanation that's keeping me here.

I think CG awoke my inner PI honestly, because it's so puzzling to me and I just need to make sense of it. Funnily enough, I feel like whenever we do get more information and hopefully more content, I feel like I won't be as invested in the story itself (unless it's interactive, and will require thinking, rather than simple consuming)... At this point, it feels more about solving the mystery, than watching the actual show...

Is this is a hot take? Does anyone relate? I just NEED to make sense of all of this!

bird-on-the-fly

I say this to my husband all the time "Its not done, my braon can't let it go."

thebestofmyrmidons

oh my god the official ARG has finally commenced - god fucking bless. i thought this day would never come...

here's the link to the 'declassified' files, that somebody found by cracking the code from the official book that released today:

Approved for release on June 30, 2026, the documents range from 1983–1987.

this concept art for the rifts being a spiral, or a time vortex that leads into a time tunnel (as suspected!!! ding! ding ding!)

DING DING DING

why is Max listed as being born in 1972 and graduating in 1990? that would make her 1 year younger than everyone?

also there is some puzzle to solve here, but my brain is too tired:

probably relates to the hawkins lab floor plan too:

Brenner's notes:

and for all you Russian speakers, have a field day:

earhartsease

itwasa-7

One of my theories related to mikewtfdidyoudogate / conformitygate / lovewinsgate !! (I hope this all makes sense)

(Inspired by mediamouthapp's video on TikTok)

#squishy #porcupine #so cute #so squishy #sensory

atsadi

Strange birthday cake for a kid who's apparently scared of clowns.

(... even if the clowns on the cake weren't so creepy all on their own!)

walkablepurse50

I need conformitygate to happen just so we get some resolution to the dang clown imagery in season 2. This genuinely drives me nuts.

Because it's a clown that scares Will into the Upside Down on Halloween.

And Bob tries to give Will advice about Mr Baldo the clown which he uses against the Mindflayer and it doesn't work so Will gets possessed. Bob's clown voice is also a reference to Joyce's witch from the Castle Byers scene in your post.

But then the episode after Will gets possessed we see Jane's childhood room and it's FULL OF THEM. Literally, why?

We get a reference to this clown thing every episode between 2x02 and 2x05. Also we get it pointed out to us that Will and El are mirror characters in the car with Bob when Bob asks if it was Will or a ghost (El's halloween costume) walking around the house at night. The rest of the convo is basically all about clowns.

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