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tumblr? you mean my online and very public diary.
dont retreat emotionally. people like you and want you around. they like to talk to you, and you genuinely matter. you have to trust this through the hard times so you can get to the better times without sabotaging yourself. you are worth loving
i hate when i notice something so casual and natural is probably an OCD thing like wait maybe emojis and punctuation don't just look better in multiples of three
[looking at people younger than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at people older than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at myself] its over
btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here
you've met me at a very "yeah i'm trying to work on that" time in my life
they should invent a body that feels normal to be inside of
my mom tells me that i spend too much time spiraling about stuff my ocd is fixated on when i only tell her about it when it’s so bad i can’t sleep or eat like ma’am you do not see even a fraction of the time i spend spiraling i spend more time spiraling than you could even comprehend my natural state is in a spiral
one day I’ll get over it and the lump in my throat when I try to talk about it won’t exist
Your OCD awareness/advocacy should not stop when people have “unsavoury” obsessions. People with pOCD, zOCD, harm OCD and moral scrupulosity OCD deserve to have a place in your advocacy too. It’s a mental health disorder, it’s not going to be sunshine and rainbows.
I've gotten so much more comfortable in therapy since i started but i still cant get myself to grab a tissue and logically I know that using my sleeves is grosser and more embarrassing than just blowing my nose but it feels so stupid doing it in right im front of someone
even now that my therapist asks if i want one i still say no and i can't figure out why, and i know she must be paying attention to the fact and i just wish i could know exactly what she's seeing there
I feel like i've spent so much of my life making up conversations in my head that i dont even know if they're real or not like i've attached my brains version to the actual people and i dont know if my feelings towards them are half made up or not