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i think ultimately you become whoever would have saved you that time that no one did ✩ system blog mostly, featuring: OMORI, Our Flag Means Death

[bl-ckberry]

lmaooo we haven't posted in like a month

hopping back on here to say that working through trauma is hard, it's rough, it feels like the world is collapsing around you

everyone says take it one day at a time, things will get better, you'll get through it, it'll make you stronger, etcetera etcetera and so on and so forth. that kind of sounds like bullshit when you're in the thick of it, though.

so, coming from someone who's... in the thick of it:

it sucks right now. it totally does, and that's okay. it's okay to feel hurt and sucky and bad. will it get better? yeah, it will. but it's okay if you can't focus on that right now. it's okay to just feel like shit.

take care of yourselves. do things that make you happy, even if it's just a little. don't push things, go slowly if you need to. it'll get better, but right now it sucks, and you've gotta address that first, you know?

i believe in you. you can do it. :)

[bl-ckberry]

everything's going to be okay

i know, you've heard it before. i know it's what everyone says.

but it's true.

don't try and argue, just hear me out for a second. humor me.

take a deep breath. do it, really. a deep breath in through your nose, hold it for a few seconds, and slowly let it out. take a look around you. do a grounding exercise. look for every blue thing in the room, maybe. remind yourself where you are, when you are.

and now try and believe me when i say it's going to be alright.

i know it's hard right now. i know it's beyond hard. i know there aren't words to describe it. i know, i know.

this isn't forever. this is temporary. that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt, that doesn't make the pain you're going through any less valid. what it means is that you aren't going to be in pain forever.

alright?

now take another deep breath, it's gonna be alright. you're doing great. i'm proud of you.

[gabbsabbath-blog]

REBLOG IF YOU WANT ANONS.

[amingethia]

Pls also go to @ask-hamato-ming-oc-tmnt

[bl-ckberry]

we love anons :))

[bl-ckberry]

someone who loves you wouldn't do this~

hung up on this lyric :/ ( from "family line" by conan grey )

just kinda turns over and over in my brain ...

someone who loves you ... wouldn't do this

sigh

[bl-ckberry]

::◃˚｡ ۪۪۫۫ beck intro post :3 ༄˚｡ˑ ::

> my name is Beck (or becky wecky if you ask nicely), he/they/neos > im 16?? i think > im mainly a trauma holder but i function as a co-host sometimes :))

[bl-ckberry]

your art is wonderful!

ahh thank you!! here's more that i found from a while ago :))

one of my favourites, wish i knew who made it ^^;

by roux and jules

roux drawing of herself after she first changed her name :))

ia sketch of herself :))

this one was a group effort but i drew most of it and came up with the idea >:3 its a colouring page we made for one of our best friends :3

weston's drawing of mitski!!!!! i love this oen!!!!!!!!!!!!

love posting system art :77 theres so much, and this isnt even looking at our sketchbooks!! art has been such an incredible outlet for us our entire life and its super cool to share <|:] <3

,,,also this was the first anon/ask weve ever gotten so i kinda got excited and went overboard;w;

[bl-ckberry]

i just. i fucking. i cafucking explodes

[bl-ckberry]

too sleepy for words but

[bl-ckberry]

okay finally awake for words:

this comic is about forgiving yourself, allowing yourself to feel, allowing yourself to be comforted. its about one character—an alter, a part of self, a friend?—leaning on another not to fix their hurt, but just to understand and be with them.

it's less about sadness and more about love

[bl-ckberry]

[bl-ckberry]

too sleepy for words but

[bl-ckberry]

Black Miku my beloved...

(Drawn by Ia)

[strangehorse]

who’s the most traitorous bastard in your body? mine is probably my deltoid muscle 

[bl-ckberry]

thought this was about systems at first-- 

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

[bl-ckberry]

hey :)

friendly reminder that forgiving persecutor alters is not always easy. it is going to be difficult. it is going to require work and effort. but it is important. 

forgiving persecutors, allowing them to heal, helping them to heal. none of it is going to be a nice, easy walk in the park. but it is worth the effort. they are worth the effort. and to any persecutors or misguided protectors/trauma holders/etc. who are reading this, you are worth the effort!

do not give up on your alters, even when it isn’t easy. be patient with your alters and be patient with yourself. all alters are capable of healing, all alters deserve the chance to grow and change, and all alters deserve love and care. (yes, including you ^-^)

[calellon]

and for my next trick i will go utterly insane in complete silence

[bl-ckberry]

On today’s episode of I Wish People Would Be Responsible When They Front So I Don’t Have To Clean Up The Mess Behind Them

Arghghhhhhhh. 

[bl-ckberry]

why is my tumblr upside down stop that