Blair

College student, 20, CA

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Amazing update on my mental health:

I finally found the meds that work for me and make it easy for me to do my daily tasks!! It took a long long time of trying meds that either didn’t work or did more harm than good, but it all worked out!

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Insane Confession:

In my very first semester of college (like a year ago) I found out my crush’s address and he lived on a street named Arcadia so during that period of time I would just listen to Lana Del Rey’s song Arcadia on repeat.

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Doing research with the professor I have a crush on

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After four months in happy to announce that I’ve gotten over my limerence

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Ive been depressed for so long that the sadness and the wallowing feels comforting.

[what-even-is-thiss]

“Cats don’t actually love you”

A cat is a small creature in the middle of the food chain that is fully aware that you are a very large thing that could stomp its head in at any moment and yet it chooses to rest its tiny little head on your leg for a nap and spreads out on the floor near you exposing its belly and its most sensitive organs. It brings dead mice and bugs to you to share food.

Don’t you get it? This tiny thing trusts you. It wants to help you too. It licks your leg thinking that it’s helping. It kneads on you to find comfort. It shares its body warmth with you in the cold and gives you your space in the heat. It hisses at other mammals it sees outside including other cats in an effort to protect its family.

Cats love you so so much. But they will keep trying to eat plastic.

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I love my cats with all my heart

[emotionaleating]

when someone doesn’t wanna tell me what i did wrong and suddenly i’m 8 years old wondering what i did to make my mom mad again

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Real

[emotionaleating]

my biggest s3xual fantasy is to have someone notice my absence and wonder about me lol

[melodysav]

I truly believe that there's something intrinsically wrong with me.

[professionallyunstable-deactiva]

there's not a single nonchalant bone in my body. I care so much I could literally vomit.

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Thank you bpd for making me like this 😍

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I am convinced religion is just a coping mechanism and it used to be beneficial but now it’s ruining America.

[girlmostlikely]

Remembering that I am entirely up to me

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Scary

[shamesonlydaughter]

it doesn’t have to be good it just has to be done

[aletheyass]

do you ever hang out with someone else’s family and you’re like ooooh. so this is what it’s supposed to be like

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Mom

She has me tied to a pole, she keeps the leash tight she wants me to obey and submit but I’m not a dog. She has a mold for me and until this day she hasn’t stopped trying to force me, beat me into it even though we both know I don’t fit. She passed down her anger to me, it’s not my fault I am like this but maybe it is my fault she is like this. He says she wasn’t like this before me. Maybe I ruined her. She thinks I was a waste of her life.

[guerrillatech]

[esoomris]

Wow.... so you’re telling me you took an action that resulted in the death of one person...... to save the lives of many people.... who would have died if you did nothing??? that sounds so familiar

[kedreeva]

[asteroidtroglodyte]

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Lately I don’t enjoy the things I used to but I know this wave of sadness will pass. I just have to remember the blue sky.