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hollstein.

#in my carmilla renaissance #i miss them so much

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so why me then? what? you don’t care if perry lives or dies but you keep saving me. from your mother, from your sister. from yourself. she’s a college girl in over her head that you’ve barely met, what makes her any different than i am? what makes any person sacred to another? yeah, i felt really sacred when you were leaving discarded blood bags all over the apartment. i know it isn’t pretty but that’s part of it too. she isn’t mine. you are. to annoy or not. to love or not. to save… or not. carm, you can’t just- i know. you don’t want any possessive vampire crap. you want reasons. a trail of thoughts and justifications that you can follow back to somewhere safe. you want the kind of love that clicks. like a key into a lock. but i don’t have any of that to give you. all i know is that in more than a century you’re the only person i ever found worth saving. you and no one else. it’s not enough. i know. god, it used to drive me nuts when i would do things for you that were so clearly only for you and you’d say… “i know u didn’t just do it for me”. yeah. until i realized it was because you wanted me to be doing what was right for some reason beyond the fact that you wanted me to. i dont know what you want me to say, carm. i wish i could say that it doesn’t matter but it does. do you miss me? like someone cut a hole in me.

#carmilla #hollstein #in my carmilla renaissance #😭