I only logged onto this account because I saw in my email that a follower had mentioned me in something. Now that I'm here, I don't see anything. Still, if any of my followers remember me, I guess I'll give a little update.
It's been over a year since I've been on here. I'm still working a retail job as a cashier, so I got to see all the covid madness firsthand. It was like nothing I had ever experienced in my entire life. If I could take three Christmases and three Thanksgivings and wrap it up all into one, they had nothing on the covid crowds. Absolutely insane.
My boyfriend and I decided just recently that it's best if we don't date right now, because there's a lot that both of us have to work on as people, by means of better jobs, moving out, and figuring ourselves out. We still want to remain friends, and there is no bad blood. In fact, we're optimistic about the future. We know that we can be better people and we plan to work hard to be the best versions of ourselves. It won't be easy, but it is possible. After the worst year of our lives, we want to start building back up.
I've been spending a lot more time with my friends. They have been such a strong and wonderful support group. They've been at a moment's notice, they have sacrificed sleep for me, they have offered me their precious time when they've gotten off of work. And today is going to be the first "me day" in a very long time.
Some of the goals I would personally love to accomplish for myself this year?
-find a full time, better paying job with good benefits
-start stocking money away so I can move out
-start up an online bow shop to start selling hair bows since so many people have shown interest
-become better at getting off my ass to get things done
-start counseling with my current ex so that when the time does come where we try our relationship again, we're starting fresh and on stable ground
These are huge, terrifying goals, but they're goals that need to happen. Nothing ever grows in a comfort zone.
I haven't really had time to focus on my spirituality, nor have I had time to focus on the things I used to love to do, like read, draw, write, and craft. And I would love to start getting back into the things that make me happy. I've definitely lost bits and pieces of myself over the course of 2020, and I want to find them again. I want to be on good terms with myself and with the people I've hurt the most, if that is even remotely possible.
I don't really know if anyone is even going to read this, nevertheless remember me. But it does feel awfully good to write.
If any of my old followers are even active on this thing anymore, I'd like to say hi and that I hope you are doing well and that this year treats you so much better than it did last year.
I doubt I'll be back on here again for another year or so, because there isn't a good reason for me to log on or even check my dash. But if any of my followers on here have insta, that is where I am most active. So feel free to follow me on @stephromichelle
Take care of yourselves, and stay healthy.
