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🌸 Poetry by Naru 🌸 English is my third language, please be aware that German and Chinese are my first and second, so there will be mistakes. Otherwise, enjoy!

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I pray for the moon to forever wane. I plead for the stars to fade. I wish for the night to never return. I fear what the darkness has made. I cry for the dawn to find me. I see it all fading, every last mark. Turn up the lights, make them burn bright. I don’t want to go home in the dark.

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Turn, your devotion

I plead to the heavens to let you free,

So you may forever be with me.

But soon the judgement came.

I see your head held down, as if in shame.

Am I really worth this for you?

While you die, I am dying too,

So once again, I run away

I don't know if I will see you one day,

But I hope so much with my heart,

Then I realise it with a start

That in that crucial one moment

I hesitated, and started this torment.

I know now, after these years, so tough,

If my love had been enough

You would have lived on forever.

I wish I had been so clever

On that day, in that cursed moment.

These must be my atonement

For giving up before it really began,

For throwing happiness in the garbage can.

I hope you watch me from the moon tonight

Because I am willing to rewrite

My life for a chance to be with you.

I will challenge the heavens anew.

And bid for one more try on happiness.

Please, my love, await my success.

You showed your devotion to our love,

Now it's my turn to show those above

What you really mean to me

And how devoted I can be!

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Just me

I am an assassin in the night. I've already killed thousands of people And I continue to do so today. So how come that you love me? That you’re willing to ignore the red Trailing behind me, seaping into me?

I am a nobody in the light. I’ve always been ignored by people And it still didn’t change today. So how come that you love me? That you’re willing to smile at me, While getting bullied yourself by them?

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SEE

Some people may tell you

"Art is an explosion!"

A single moment of life.

It is only meant to last

For a short period of time.

Other people may tell you

"Art is eternity!"

Lasting many lifetimes.

It will never change at all

And never disappear.

But I will tell you

That art is the mastery of capture.

You capture a single moment

And preserve it for eternity.

Life does not hold still,

Time does not stop,

The World will go on

And people will change.

That's why in order to forever keep those times of Importance, Remembrance or Beauty,

We need to put them out of us And out for the light to see.

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Rest

I’m shaking. It feels so cold against my skin. This cave, this nightmare of mine. Here you are, I finally found you. Reduced to a skeleton, dead.

The Pharao’s Curse, they whisper. But I know better than to listen. Afterall, you are here, chasing me. I run, and run for my pathetic life.

Your body, mere bones without value. Yet your soul, so treasured, unmeasurable. But I know it’s here, it’s over there. It will continue to haunt me until I’m gone.

I scream, I run, I’m scared of you. Even though, just minutes ago, I loved you. What is this? What are you? And most importantly, who am I?

This wild hunt, this game of cat and mouse Seems to never have a happy ending. Suddenly I crash, into fragile bones. Here you are again, in pieces, shattered.

Sounds. I’m terrified of this. This unreal reality is just … I’m afraid. I’m scared. Horrified. I want this nightmare to end.

What date is it today? What time? Oh, right. My birthday. Halloween. The night of witchcraft, magic, wizards. It’s midnight. The bells just rung.

I need to run. Escape. Be gone and fast! You’re still chasing. Your lips moving so fast. I’m shaking. I hear someone calling my name. Dizzyness overcomes me, but I go on.

There! I hear it again. A voice calling my name. Who is it? It can’t be you, can it? You’re just a soul, a ghost, a hallucination. Your mouth is in pieces, bones crushed.

This seems to go on forever! I cannot stop, but I tire and soon I stop. Please leave me alone, ghost of my cruel past! Mom, Dad, my sister, my brother, and you.

All of you are gone, turned into nothing but bones! And I love it! This feeling of accomplishment. Finally I’m free! Even if you still chase me. It’s all in my mind! I just know it!

Afterall, I crushed your throat with these hands. I broke her neck and his skull, while smiling! A shot ran in my ears after those two died as well! It was also me, who turned you into bones, nothing!

I feel so accomplished, so satisfied! I’m free! Finally free from traditions, from them! The weight of my destiny, my fate gone in a flash! I let out a laughter, maniac crackling, insane.

Finally I am just me! Plain old me. I know I’m not special, but I know I am! No restrictions, no bindings in this metal cage. I love it! I can do whatever I want.

You will never return. Your soul won’t at least. Nothing can ever replace a spirit’s worth. Even if god existed, or one tried the ancient arts No success will come out of it!

Because even alchemy, magic or whatever Have rules, laws of nature to obey! But not me! I’m free! My mind uncorrupted. I rest here now, behind these bars of my will.

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My greatest achievement

Forbidden, that is what you are to me.

And still, only for you and no one else,

My heart will beat.

Don't look into my eyes

So deeply like you used to do,

Don't listen to my words

So closely,... Or else

This secret, this burden,

You'll hear it! You can't trust anything,

My words, my eyes,

They'll betray this secret,

This unforgivable love,

That I'm burdened to carry.

I could go to the end of the world

And back,... Just for your smile.

I could and would do everything,

Just for you!

Tease me, kick me or even kill me,

Do whatever you want.

Just let me stay by your side,

Don't leave me alone, just don't...

Hug me, no - embrace me.

In your arms,

That's where I want to be.

If anyone ever asked me

What my greatest achievement was,

I'd say it was falling in love with you.

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Questions, and more questions

When I look up at the sky, I ask myself: ‘Can he see me?’

When I close my eyes, I see him And ask myself: ‘Can he see me?’

When I sit in silence, I hear him, But still, I ask myself: 'Can he see me?’

But what I want to ask the most is… 'Have I forgiven myself for letting him go?’ Without telling him that I love him With all my heart.

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Letter of Love

Do you remember the times I said I hate you?

I hate your smile That made me fall for you. I hate your voice That always calmed me down. I hate your character That is so cheerful and happy.

I hate your body That gives the comfort I need. I hate your lips That always kiss me goodnight. I hate your heartbeat That lulls me into sleep.

Say, am I really nothing But a childhood friend to you?

Say, do you remember the times I said I hate you?

I’m sorry, I lied…

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Parent

Through storms of rage Or oceans of sadness, We will be here Inside your heart.

Both of us here, We’ll be waiting for you At humanity’s last place, But please don’t join us soon!

It was our wish To protect and help you, Because we are your parents, Because we love you.

Never forget to smile, The world will seem different. We’re sorry, so sorry That we kept those secrets from you.

Have a fullfilling life! We’re sorry that we left so early, But we are happy and glad That you are still alive.

Tell him to treat you well And stay out of danger. Just be yourself And do no grieve…

We’re here with you. Always. So stay strong. We love you, Never forget that!

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A trick of living

"Time is of Essence."

I'm sure you have heard this before.

But do you actually know what it means?

Time is steadily around us.

It doesn't wait. Not for us. Not for anyone.

Just like the world, or the people around us.

So be aware, that we don't have forever.

That Time is going to run out.

Sooner or later.

Hopefully "later" we hope.

But still, sometimes we hope for "sooner".

Like in times of war, hopelessness and sadness.

Time sure is a weird thing, isn't it?

It makes us regret, mourn, cry at times.

At others, we hope, laugh and smile.

The Essence of life. How fitting.

In life, we strive for happiness, for money

Or for fame and reputation.

Have you ever thought to strive for time?

With Time you can strive for all you ever wanted.

You can obtain wealth and reputation,

Gain fame or even happiness.

But when you do not think of Time,

It will run out on you.

Time is relative to you, afterall.

Have you ever noticed that you experience Time

In short or long bursts?

If not, you must have never lived.

During happy times, Time flies past us.

In sad times, it walks slowly, dragging on forever.

Still you experienced it fully.

"Time is ..."

I hope you got an idea today, on how to trick your life.

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Crush

Whenever I look into your eyes, Hoping for something that does not exist, I only see a reflection of someone else, Someone who is not me. I guess I should’ve known, That love hurts this much, A feeling of hurt like no other.

Just you looking in my general direction, Even if you are obviously not looking at me, Makes my heart jump, Knowing that there might be a chance, A slight possibility, You have taken a glimpse at me.

I often ask myself over and over again, If this, this horrible feeling, is worth it, Worth of getting my heart torn into thousand pieces And broken into glittering shards, Scattered throughout the room.

But even so, I know, That as much as I can’t force you to love me, I cannot force myself to stop, Stop feeling this kind of immense love.

My love for you is weird, Weird as in indescribably confusing. But I’m unsure if I can rid myself of it just yet.

Afterall it gives me hope for improvement, Improvement that you once helped steer in me.

Too bad, that “us” is over, that you forgot, while I did not.

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War Orphans

Trying to be the pillar of strength, While looking ready to shatter into pieces, I see a child comfort another. These two poor unfortunate souls, Having lost almost everything, Try to go on and live.

These strong kids in front of me, Looking so fragile and broken, Yet I see a fire burning in their hearts. It would be easy to walk away, to look away, But I can’t. I can’t do easy if these kids don’t. I will endure for my sake and theirs.

Them drawing strength from one another And comfort from my presence, We watch as the days go on and on, Hoping for it soon to be over, But even these children know, Humans are greedy creatures.

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Night Journey

Even in the darkest night, you are my light. I will forever follow you. You never were a shadow. You are a light, even in the darkest night.

Even if I only see you at night, I am satisfied. I will forever follow you. May I join you now? I will be satisfied, even if I only see you at night.

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Then another...

Just a small step is enough. A tiny one even. Like you did when you first learned how to walk. One step, then another, then another…

Just one step is enough. Just a puny tiny one. To forget those times… To move on. Just take one step, then another, then another.

Just a small step… can save your entire life.

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Tiny piece of Hope

I’ll continue to believe… As long as the slightest possibility exists that it will come true… As long as even a tiny piece of hope is present that it will come true…

I won’t give up. Not on you, not on someone else. I’ll cling onto this tiny piece of hope and maybe in a distant future, in another life… It will come true.

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Heartbreak

I’ll let you go… until you are far from my reach… But if this is what makes you happy, I’ll keep these feelings I have, locked deep inside my heart… Until the day they vanished… I’ll forget you, give up my memories. That’s what you want, right?

I pray… that one day I will find my own, my very own happiness. Even it it’ll never be you…! My last wish… Even if it’s cruel to ask for it, please… just never forget me…

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