Wallowing in Writing

Pouring my heart out. Blogging to be heard. Blogging to be understood.

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I think you half fall in love with every person you meet. It’s part of your charm. You’re in love with love.

Jenny Han, P.S. I Still Love You (via thelovejournals)

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Someone, Someday

I just finished reading a book that is totally related to this new blog entry of mine. It opened up my mind on the things that I should look for a man, a man to treasure. Here's the list....

Date someone who you feel like you’ve known forever — but at the same time, you feel like time is flying when you’re around them.

Date someone who can come close to reading your mind. Someone who knows you’re upset even though you’ve been faking a smile and are claiming you’re fine. Someone who knows exactly what your silent little looks and hand squeezes mean.

Date someone who knows you like the back of their hand. Someone who can name your top five fave song of your fave singer and list out the titles of your fave books. Someone who knows which flavor of ice cream you like. Someone who doesn’t have to ask you what you’re going to order in your date, because they already know your answer.

Date someone who has spent so much time with you that they’ve started to pick up the little phrases that you say and inadvertently copy the movements you make. Someone who has learned the reason why you love to read books or why do you hate insects, because they pay attention when you talk. Someone who is actually interested in your history, because it’s what made you you, and they love you more than words can express.

Date someone who knows every little thing about you, even the parts that you’re most ashamed of and insecure about, and still looks at you like you’re the perfect person. Someone who doesn’t give a damn about the dumb mistakes you’ve made in your past because they’re too busy looking toward the future with you.

Date someone who makes you feel comfortable in your own skin. Someone who makes you feel like you’re beautiful just the way that you are. Someone who reminds you that you are more than enough.

Date someone who you wish you met earlier in life. Someone you wish you knew was out there back when you were young and depressed and deflated of hope. Someone you wish you knew was destined to enter your life as a teenager, because things would have been better knowing it would only be a matter of time until you were together.

Date someone who you feel like you’ve known forever because you feel safe and secure around them. When their arms are wrapped around you, you feel like nothing bad could ever happen. Date someone you can call, partner.❤️

[catherinejimenez]

Dear Future Partner

I lose myself in Books.

It always starts with the first few pages. I let the words soak into my brain; I let my mind wonder with the characters, picturing their clothes, their smiles, the way they twirl their hair or laugh quietly when they’re nervous or how their heart starts to beat a little faster when they run into the person they like. I get so invested. I want to know how each person feels. I imagined the scenario as it plays out and I hear the dialogue in my head. Every scene just opens in my mind and it’s as if I’ve jumped into the pages as if I’ve become a character myself, knowing inside and out, each word, each sentence, each event and twist of this beautiful tale. 

That’s how I want know you. I want to open you, to go over your pages. I want to read each word of your past and imprint it in my memory. I want to know where you’ve been. I want to know where you want to wander. I want to know all the little things that make you, YOU. 

I get lose in books and I want to get lose in you. I want to know your thoughts. I want to know your fears, I want to know the times when your bold and loud, outgoing and shy, tender and soft. I want to open your pages and commit you to my memory, each word, each letter, so significant and beautiful. I want to know your story to get lost in it.

I want you to be my favorite book. The one I can read over and over again and each time it only gets better.I want to read you like a book, each page leading me deeper and deeper into your heart. I want to trust you. I want you to trust me. I want to fall into your pages like a character, feel your story so intertwined with my own. I like books because they take me away from the world, because they’re freeing, because they’re an escape, because I learn and grow and lose myself with each page turn. And that’s how I want to be with you. 

I want to find my solace in your story. I want our stories to blend together. I want to be your protagonist, fighting and loving and standing right by your side. 

I want you to be my favorite book. One that is too good to ever put back on the shelf. ❤️

[catherinejimenez]

My “Kita Kita” Experience

My own list of "Isa hanggang sampu" - my #KitaKita experience

Sabi sa pelikula magbilang muna ng 1-10 bago magsalita. Isipin muna lahat bago magdesisyon sa buhay. Kaya inisip at binilang ko muna lahat ng mahalagang nangyari kagabi nung pinanood namin ang Kita Kita.

Isa – Isang oras mahigit kaming naghintay para lang mapanood ang pelikulang to habang iniintay ang kaibigang galling trabaho.

Dalawa – Dalawang beses ko pang gustong panooring muli ang pelikulang ito. Hindi ako magsasawa.

Tatlo – Tatlo kaming nanood ng mga kaibigan ko. Mga kaibigang kasama kong tumawa, kinilig at umiyak ng dahil kay Empoy. Bwisit ka empoy!

Apat – Apat na beses kong pinigilan ang pag-ihi ko para lang walang mapalampas na eksena. Kasalanan ng buko shake at ni Empoy.

Lima – Limang beses kong sinabi sa sarili ko na gusto ko ding pumunta ng Sapporo, para makita ang mga lugar na napuntahan nila Lea at Tonyo at syempre para makahanap ng saging ko. lol

Anim – Anim na beses sumakit ang tyan ko kakatawa sa mga banat at kasabihan ni Empoy. Bwisit ka Empoy.

Pito - Pitong beses kong inisip kung tama bang pinanood ko to, mababaliw na ata ako sa kaka iyak at tawa. Kasalanan ulit ni Empoy.

Walo – Walong beses kong pinigilan ang sarili ko sa pag-iyak, pero wala eh iyakin talaga ako. At bwisit si Empoy, sya talaga may kasalanan.

Siyam – Siyam na minuto ata akong tulala matapos mapanood ang buong pelikula. Hindi ako makapaniwala na tapos na. Gusto ko ulit simulan mula umpisa.

Sampu – Sampung beses kong sasabihin sa inyo na napakagandang pelikula ng Kita Kita.

It’s an unconventional storytelling. What a sweet, honest, touching, tear jerking movie that will make you appreciate the little things in life and love!!!! Indeed, "it is only through the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye." Highly recommended. #KitaKita

[catherinejimenez]

THE SUNDAY CURRENTLY | VOL.3

How’s the Month of April for you guys? Mine was full of happenings, from rehearsals for graduation to Baccalaureate mass and dinner and to the most important event this month, my graduation and just recently my first job. I will post individual blogs for those but for now I’ll be doing the Sunday Currently.  I almost forgot I’m still not yet done with my book review blog for the first 5 books I’ve read in my 2017 reading challenge. I have a lot of blog post to make yet there’s only a little time. *sigh*

Currently

Reading

Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s stone. Last week, someone from Facebook offered to share her copies of some eBooks for free and one of those eBooks is the Harry Potter Series. I already watched all Harry potter movies but I haven’t read its books that’s why right after seeing that post on Facebook, I immediately ask for a copy. Luckily it wasn’t a scam or whatsoever it’s an honest giveaway and now I’m reading the second chapter of the first Harry Potter book.

Writing

A new blog post. Honestly I badly want to write to free myself from all these anxiety and stress that I’m feeling right now but I guess time and writers block doesn’t want it. I’ve been experiencing writers block lately, I think what I need is a little relaxation away from all the shits that’s happening around me. I need to release all these negativity within me. *sigh*

Listening

Korean Drama. My sister is watching a Korean Drama right now without even using earphones. She’s just right next to me that’s why I can hear it all.

Thinking

My Graduation. Almost two weeks have passed yet I’m still high on the feelings that I felt during the day of our graduation. It was full of happy moments. We made a lot more memories to treasure during that day. I can’t explain the feeling but one thing for sure it was good and I won’t forget it. I will tell you guys more about my graduation on a separate blog hopefully I’ll be able to post it this week.

Smelling

The nasty smell outside. Our neighbor put something on their backyard. I don’t know what it is but it really stinks. It smells like a dead rat or something

Wishing

To do good in my job. I’m keeping my fingers crossed, so Lord please help me. 

Wearing

Comfy Tees and shorts

Loving

The new theme for this blog. Lately, I kept on changing the theme of this site and luckily I was able to find a decent and nice theme that I want.

Wanting

To buy Rainbow Rowell and Sarah Dessen books. I’ve been wanting those books so damn bad. Wait for me my babies i’ll buy you all once I get my first paycheck. That’s a promise.

Needing

Money. I want to buy books but I don’t have money right now. Hays You feel me?

Feeling

Pressured

Clicking

Through tumblr blogs. I’m so amazed on the blog that i’m currently reading right now. I’m not going to tell you the blog site but it’s all about poetry. *insert heart sign here*

Wish me luck guys, I know this new journey will be hard but I know I can survive it. I came this far I won’t just easily give up. May God give me strength to face all the new challenges that may come on my way to success. And oh, wish me to be genuinely happy. XOXO - Cath

JOIN THE SUNDAY CURRENTLY THREAD NOW

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SEPANX

This coming April 19 I’ll be graduating on college and not too soon will be separated with my friends, by just thinking of it makes me sad already. We’ve been together for four years and I think it will be hard for me for the coming year without them beside me. After graduation, we’re all going to take different career paths, we’ll do different things and I’m quite certain that we’re going to work separately. Recently, I’ve been thinking a lot of things such as “Can I really survive everyday without friends like them to support me?”, “Can we manage to remain the connection we had during college days?” or “Can I still see them often?” and a lot more. I don’t know if I’m being paranoid or what but by just thinking the thought that I can’t be with them always makes me sad and scared.

You know, for an introvert like me, it’s hard to build new friendships. It’s hard for me to reveal myself again to different people because I’m scared of their judgments. My friends are the only people who really knows me aside from my mom, the real me and I don’t think I can ever find someone like them. They laugh whenever I tell corny jokes, they are so patient with my loud and annoying voice, they listen whenever I have something to tell, they are always there for me. Friends like them are really God’s gift for me. You can’t blame me if I’m feeling all these things now, because they are the only real friends I have. What’s going to happen to me after graduation? Can I really survive the toxic environment outside? Can I be successful alone? I’m scared. I’m scared that the friendship we built in school might fade away once we parted our ways. What if they found a new friend and forget about me? What if they don’t want to listen to my jokes anymore? What if the time comes that they won’t be needing a friend like me because they have a new one who’s much better? I know some of you might think that I’m being selfish to the point that I don’t want them to have new friends. But you can’t blame me, we’ve been together for a very long time and I already considered them as my siblings that’s why being separated with them is hard for me.

I’m sure if they’ll read this, they will laugh at me. I know they may think that I’m over thinking things. Sorry for being so melodramatic guys, maybe it’s normal for all graduating students right? Lol

P.S

To my beloved friends  Joanna, Deslee, Criselle and Jenny, I love you all guys so much. (EWWWWW) Hahahha I know you guys hate mushy and cheesy lines but who cares you won’t be able to read this anyways. I’ll seriously miss you all guys. Thank you for all the memories, you guys will always have a special place in my heart. Walang kalimutan ah?

P.P.S

I’ll post some of our photos below this blog entry, please bear with our faces lol. XOXO

[catherinejimenez]

2016: ON THE TOP OF MY LIST

Last year, I’ve watched more than 10 Korean dramas and there’s this 4 particular dramas that really catches my heart.

Disclaimer: This blog post might contain spoilers so if you haven’t watched the dramas that I will be mentioning here, I hope you can forgive me :)

W-TWO WORLDS

Synopsis: W-Two worlds is a fantasy-romance about a man and a woman living in different worlds. Yeon Joo is a doctor living in the real world and her father is the author of the most popular webtoon, W. And Kang  Chul is the lead character of that webtoon. Things becomes complicated when Yeon Joo’s father decides to kill Kang Chul and Yeon Joo gets pulled into the comic world and met Kang Chul.

I was able to watch this drama because of a friend who keeps on telling me that there’s a drama that she’s really into. I wasn’t interested at first because I’m still not yet done with Game of Throne’s season 4. But after few weeks of convincing me, I started to watch the drama and the story began.

It wouldn’t be much to say that it was love at first episode for me with W. The first few episodes of the drama were good but a little dy. But after few more episodes I started to like W. It’s a great fantasy story, a lots of twist and turns. You can’t never be comfortable because you just never know what’s going to happen next. I love the whole concept of a character having to learn he’s from a work of fiction. It’s unbelievable and devastating for the person involved.

What I liked about W-Two Worlds?

Aside from the drama’s bold storytelling, the execution of the two worlds is really my favorite. A serious kudos to the whole production team,because they managed the transition of the two worlds so skillfully.

A cute OTP. Yeon Joo and Kang Chul is really cute together. They can turn the serious scenes into romantic one real quick. One of my favorite scene of them is during the time that Yeon Joo confessed her love to Kang Chul. Before, Yeon Joo randomly says those words to him but he’s not affected at all (It’s her way to go back to the real world). This time, it’s different,  he got swayed by Yeon Joos confession.

Overall, W-Two worlds was fun and crazy ride. With action packed fantasy story. It’s highly recommended if you’re a fan of those kind of genres.

MOONLIGHT DRAWN BY CLOUDS (LOVE IN THE MOONLIGHT)

I have to tell you this guys, I really really love this one. Seriously. This drama reminds me all over again why I fell in love with traditional dramas. It wasted no time in grabbing my heart and hold onto it really tight for the entire 18 episodes.

One of the things that comes to my mind when I think of MDBC, aside from Park Bo Gums sweetness, is that this drama is really well made. From the execution of scenes to the delivering of lines, everything.

Yeong (Park Bo Gum’s character) was my favorite among the cast of the show. Yeong’s character is full of charm and you couldn’t resist it I’m telling you. One of my favorite scene of him is during the confession and first kiss on Episode 7. The way Yeong approaches into confession and eventually to his first kiss scene to Ra On got me so kilig. Ugh. This boy makes my heart wobble, seriously. Another one is in Episode 14, when he comes face to face with Ra On in the secret meeting place. I won’t forget his “I will never forgive you” line before walking to Ra On and grabbed her in his arms. I never thought those words could be so romantic. I still haven’t moved on from that.

If there’s a leading man who’s really charming and handsome there should be a better half who has the same characteristics as him which really suits for Kim Yoo Jung. She’s one of the child actresses who’s really grown up so beautiful and talented. I can still remember her, portraying the role of young Yeon-O in Moon embracing the sun (which is my all time favorite drama). I really like Kim Yoo Jung as Ra On, she’s really natural. She’s funny without looking like she’s trying hard. Kim Yoo Jung consistently looks like she’s being herself.

The cast really suits the drama. Aside from the leads, Kwak Dong Yun really catches my attention. His cool but caring friend role is loveable (I’m so kinikilig while typing this one.) Special shout out to the Princess and Master Jung’s loveline. I also enjoyed their love story, even though it’s mostly played for comedy afterall, they are the reason why Ra On and Yeong met.

GOBLIN: THE LONELY & GREAT GOD

Goblin made me speechless and fall in love in less than a few minutes. As someone who watched many dramas and (I can say) can predict almost everything that’ll happen next, this drama made me laugh, cry & cringe when I didn’t expect I would.

Synopsis: Goblin is about a general way back in Goryeo, who got killed out of jealousy by the King. Because of his desperate wish for revenge, God gave him the chance to become goblin, a creature with immortal life and superpowers.

Goblin is really unpredictable. This drama made me cry, laugh out loud, cringe (Paulit ulit ako haha) and so much more. This drama caught me offguard. It’s so fun to watch and that’s not even all. It makes you think about so many things especially God, good and bad, death, your deeds, you past and so on. It’s really a drama for everyone. It has everything you could wish for: Romance, comedy, poetry, drama and so much more. There’s something about this drama that was really addicting.

Why I like Goblin a lot?

Aside from the unique pairing of Goblin and Eun Tak, the bromance between Goblin and Grim Reaper is really enjoyable. The way they annoy each other is such a riot. Lol One of my favorite funny moments of these two is when they are trying to learn how to use cellphone. Deok Hwa, a younger servant of Goblin, told them the basics on using phone. He said, they should go first to the appstore to download apps then suddenly Goblin started to wear his coat. I was laughing so hard during that scene.

Goblin and Eun Tak’s loveteam is a breath of fresh air. It’s an unusual pair because of the age difference but the chemistry of the two is really cute.They’re not the typical clingy couple but there’s something in them that will make you love them.

Grim Reaper and Sunny’s amazing lovestory. I really love the concept of their relationship. Grim reaper being innocent about impressing girls is so adorable. I think fellow KDrama fans will agree on me that they are another example of second lead syndrome. I seriously hoped that they could make another drama together.

 WEIGHTLIFTING FAIRY KIM BOK JOO

One word to begin with….. Sweeeeg!

Synopsis: Kim Bok Joo is a weightlifting athlete in a sports university. Her seemingly ordinary life becomes interrupted as she reunited with her elementary schoolmate, Joon Hyung who’s currently an athlete of the swimming team.

WLFKBJ possibly one of the underrated dramas last 2016. I love almost everything about this drama because it really shows the charm and trials of the youths. I seriously wish I could just fill this blog post with only heart emoticons. This drama makes my heart so full and I’m loving it so freaking much. WLFKBJ feels so raw, real and beautiful with more resemblance to life and less of fiction. From the moment I saw the preview online, I felt like this show would really fits my taste.

Here’s the main things that made this show works for me:

The people and stories feels real and relatable. While dramaland is full of shows with fantastical and unusual set-ups, this drama’s charm lies in just how ordinary it’s setting is and how ordinary its characters are.

Lee Sung Kyung as Kim Bok Joo. Oh my God I love her. At first I will admit that I found Bok Joo’s acting a bit exaggerated and her body movements so unnatural but once I accepted that Bok Joo really is a person who walks weird and who really couldn’t help crumpling her face into a pout on a regular basis, I grew to love her. I seriously can relate to Bok Joo, from dealing with self-image, to crushing on boys, to finding meaning in what she does. Maybe because Bok Joo is relatable, I often find myself in her.

Nam Joo Hyuk as Joon Hyung. I Honestly prays to God to have my own Joon Hyung. I just love how he cares so much for Bok Joo even before they become a couple. Which leads to my next favorite thing, Joon Hyung Sweetness. I love it. I love that Bok Joo doesn’t need to be anything or anyone other than herself, to inspire this kind of loyalty, affection and head-over-heels love from him. The two of them shared an amazing amount of chemistry in this show. The skinship feels so natural and easy, I feel like they’ve cuddled a lot before and I’m completely blown away. These two is consistently cute together.

The Friendship of Bok Joo, Seon Ok and Nan Hee.I love that no matter what came between them, they remain as good friends. I seriously can see my friends on them. (Shoutout to my squad. Love you. Ewww Haha) So endearing and yes, full of SWAG!

So far, WLFKBJ is my most loved drama. I don’t know when will I get over because it only sets another standard for me to look at on the coming dramas this year.

The Dramas that I’ve mentioned above is highly recommended I’m assuring you all you won’t regret watching them.Goodnight, Good Morning and SWEEEG!

[catherinejimenez]

THINGS THE NYCTOPHILE BELLA NEEDS

Reassurance She wants to know that you haven’t grown bored of her. Haven’t lost interest in her. That the way you treat her before will remain the same. As if nothing changes.

Friendship She wants more than just a companion. She wants a best friend. Someone she can talk about her dreams and her demons. Someone who can understand her craziness. Someone who’s willing to trade secrets with her. Someone she can called, partner.

Affection She’s the type of girl that needs tight hugs than lustful kisses. She’s the type of girl who likes hands on her waist and back hugs. Looks that says you love her so much.

Acceptance She wants to be with someone that sees her flaws and gladly embraces them. She’s not that pretty nor has fair skin. She wants to be with someone that doesn’t mind her annoying quirks. Someone who wants her—all of her—even the imperfections.

Chances She knows that she’s not perfect, that she messed up most of the time but she hopes that you’ll give her second chances. That you’ll give her the freedom to make mistakes.

Attention She wants good morning and goodnight messages. Phone calls to make sure she made home safely. Someone who always checks if she’s okay. She wants to be an important part of your world.

Support She wants someone that will encourage her to pursue her dreams even if they sound asinine. Unrealistic. She wants someone to believe in her so much that she starts to believe in herself as well.

Comfort She wants someone she can rest her head on. Someone that will wrap an arm around her. Someone that will make her feel at peace, even when her life is nothing but chaos.

Protection She wants to know that you’ll protect her heart. That you won’t intentionally cause her any pain. That you’ll refrain from lying and cheating and weighing her down with even more baggage.

Vulnerability She’s going to have moments of weakness and she wants you to do the same. Show her if you’re angry or sad, if you’re feeling sad. She wants to comfort you as much as you do to her.

Commitment She wants something real, not a fling or a game. A real relationship that could lead to a real future.

Effort. She wants you to try to make time for her. Try to make her laugh.. try to prove that you honestly want her in your life, because it’s hard for her to believe anyone could care.

Love She wants to feel like that your love for her isn’t temporary. Like you’re a permanent part of her life, as if you’re not going anywhere. Ever.

HER HEART IS FRAGILE, PLEASE HANDLE IT WITH CARE

[catherinejimenez]

The Sunday Currently | Vol.2

Hi everyone. How’s your 2017 going so far? I hope you all doing great. I was supposed to update my blog last year but I don’t have extra time so yeah I will just share my second edition of Sunday currently tonight.  Anyway, without further ado, let’s do this.

Currently

Reading

“The Other Hand” by Chris Cleave I haven’t read much because I’m too busy on watching Korean dramas (forgive me for that J). What can I say about this book? So far, so good. I can’t say much but you can check out the full summary on Goodreads.

Writing

A new post on my blog, I missed this.

Listening

To my sisters playlist since she is right below me and she isn’t  using any earphones at the moment.

Thinking

About my graduation, my career, my dreams. I’m almost done with my internship and few more months I’ll be graduating which really scares me. I am still confused on what should I do with my life, I will be turning 20 this February and I am still uncertain on which career path should I take. I want to do a lot of thing but I don’t know where to start.

Smelling

My coffee

Wishing

That I can find all the answers to my questions, and someday all my aspirations will come true (fingerscrossed)

Wearing

Thin shirt and shorts

Loving

How the previous week transpired. A lot of good things happened to me last week and I am seriously happy.

Wanting

More time to take rest and sleep

Needing

To recognize my blogs and make more post to make my blog worth visiting.

Feeling

Blessed and Happy. Though I had my tough times last year, I am so grateful that I was given another year to enjoy, learn, love and live.

Clicking

Trough my wordpress, tumblr and Twitter.

Have a great week ahead guys. Goodnight :)

Join the Sunday Currently thread now.

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RAMBLING THOUGHTS

Few more days and a new year will arrive. It’s been a roller coaster year for me this 2016 but I’m happy that it wasn’t as boring as 2015. I realized recently that 2016 has been in some ways the worst and best year of my life. In the last 10 months I’ve changed beyond belief. I’ve gone from this scared sad girl who couldn’t understand why happiness wouldn’t happen for her to a stronger person who knows that happiness is something to strive for. I know now that those moments of utter despair, as horrific as they are at that moment, will pass and that I will be okay.

I’ve come out of this year with some amazing people that I’m lucky to be able to call my friends, be it that they are far away or just down the road, they are always there when needed, and one of my greatest hopes is that I provide that same shoulder for them. Also, this year, my internship began and so far it was going smoothly. I have a really kind boss which never fails to teach me on how am I going to do things.

So yes, this is a big mushy end of year post, but it’s December, year 2017 is almost here, and I want to make it a year of promise, of good things. A year that when I look back in 12 months I smile, without that twinge of sadness. I can’t wait to face a new year with a large smile on my face, full of hopes and dreams. Happy new year!

 - CATH 

[sashayed]

What I say to them is that people are complicated. Societies and cultures are really complicated … This is not mathematics; this is biology and chemistry. These are living organisms, and it’s messy. And your job as a citizen and as a decent human being is to constantly affirm and lift up and fight for treating people with kindness and respect and understanding. And you should anticipate that at any given moment there’s going to be flare-ups of bigotry that you may have to confront, or may be inside you and you have to vanquish. And it doesn’t stop. … You don’t get into a fetal position about it. You don’t start worrying about apocalypse. You say, O.K., where are the places where I can push to keep it moving forward.

Barack Obama on what he told his daughters after last Tuesday’s election. (via sashayed)

[catherinejimenez]

PAINFUL

At around 10 in the morning, my lolo came to visit us. Mom wasn’t around when he visited us last time that’s why they didn’t have a chance to talk, but now she’s here. For your information, my mom and my grandparents is not in good terms due to some reasons. We left the two of them in the Living Room to give them a chance to talk alone. Me and my siblings went to our room and just do random things. While I was busy with my phone, I overheard some of their conversation and what my mom said really broke my heart. It was her reasons for being angry to her parents. From that moment, I realized that I intentionally listened to them. Later on, my mom broke her voice and not so long I heard some sobs that eventually became sounds of crying. It stabs me like knife going through my heart, like a fresh wound that is open and has had salt being poured down over it. Hearing my mom cry is one of the most painful thing ever. It’s a pain that not everyone will know, it’s a pain that I wish no one would ever have to go through. I also started to cry. I don’t know but the knowledge of that all you can do is comfort her, hug her, wipe away her tears only adds to the pain. My parents are the most important persons in my life, especially my mom that’s why hearing her cry out of anger is really painful for me. I know in my heart that nothing can truly be done to ease the pain that she’s feeling.

There is no pain greater than to be helpless in the face of a love one’s suffering. Pain knows no bounds, feels no remorse and is impartial to no being. Mothers know of these painful truths and struggle to help us deal with it every day. But when they are in need of the comfort that they give us, vulnerable like we have been, we can’t do anything to help them. I don’t know why I’m sharing this but I don’t know else to talk to and this got me really bummed out.

“Today my forest is dark. The trees are sad and all the butterflies have broken wings” -CATH

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Cold Feet

It has been a long and tiring week for me even though I didn’t do much lol. Last Friday, my friend and I came back to the company that supposed to be the company for our internship but we ended up being hired to a different one. When we arrived to the office, I felt so small and vulnerable I don’t know if my friend felt the same thing though. It’s hard to explain but let’s just say that we have a nice place to work for our internship. Tomorrow is our orientation and I hope that it will go smoothly. I’m currently reading my accounting books, reviewing some lessons. I have to admit, I was pretty nervous to the fact that I’m really starting to work this semester. I’ve turned a thousand of pages full of mystery, suspense and love story, but that was all inside of a book. Now, everything that I will be doing is non-fiction; the characters are real people, my job affects the entire company, and I won’t find out the ending until next year and that really scares me. However, I am (not so) confident that my time there will be rewarding and enlightening. So, good luck self.

- Cath

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Fanaticism

Forgive me for this post I just have to share my thoughts and feelings towards those people who keeps on judging me/us because of being a fan. Being a member of a “fans club” allows me to meet so many people, young, old – people from all walks of life. I even reconnected with my high school batch mates. We are so eager to show our love and support towards our idols in any possible way. Yet we choose to remain quiet, because of people who judge and generalized base on what they believe is or isn’t “cool” or “hip”.

One thing that I’ve learned from this experience is not to judge solely on the face value. I don’t even know how many times I’ve met people in this fandom experience, only to be left completely in awe of their accomplishments in life. These individuals choose to share not just their talents but also their time and effort to good causes. Ikaw na judgemental, anong nagawa mo?

It’s alarming that some choose to be closeted fans because of social judgements. Some thinks that being a fan equates to stupidity which I beg to differ. Supporting what you love is one of the great experience you could have in your life. Allowing yourself to be happy by just supporting your idols is not a bad thing and you shouldn’t be ashamed of it. The way our idols gives us happiness that no amount of money can buy is precious. There’s no limit to love, it isn’t a competition. Fans club is made up of different people with very different stories who wanted to show how their idols became part of their lives. You don’t know the story behind those, so please mind your own business and find something that is worth doing instead of minding other people’s lives. Gets? 

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The Sunday Currently | Vol. 01

Hi, everyone! So this is my first ever edition of Sunday currently. There is no interesting thing that happened to me during the whole week, for I’m so lazy to go out and do different stuffs. By the way, keep safe guys, the weather is still bad due to typhoon Karen. God speed.

Currently

Reading. Online articles about self-hosting a blog. I’m in awe on the benefits of having a self-hosted blog. I’ve been dreaming to have my own domain name, a web space for all the stuffs I want to put on my blog, a lot of choices for themes and a lot more. But I know it will cost a lot and because I’m just a student, I think I still can’t afford it. Also, I’m curious on how am I going to revamped my blog from wordpress.com to wordpress.org without any fear on the possibility that the contents might be deleted. (I’m talking about my other blog from wordpress.com)

Writing. Or more accurately, trying to write some prose. I’ve been so uninspired lately, it’s frustrating. The words used to automatically flow from my fingertips so the fact that I’ve been experiencing writer’s block is annoying. Hmmm. I’ve also kept myself busy by writing poems (won’t tell you the ship though, it’s embarrassing).

Thinking. About my internship. I feel so nervous and I think I’m going crazy by just thinking about it. It’s not like I don’t want work but the thing is, I don’t have the confident that I need to face new people and work with them. Being an introvert is not easy, you know, every time that I need to talk or meet new people, it makes my heart beat a hundred times faster than the usual. I think I might collapse any moment. God, help me. I don’t know what to do.

Smelling. my hot coffee

Wishing. That my internship next semester will be safe and sound.

Hoping. That the next semester will go according to plan. I don’t want that my last year in college be ruined and messed up.

Wearing. Sweater and Pajamas, perfect for this bed weather.

Loving. My tumblr and wordpress blogs. It’s the first time that I actually committed to something like blogging and I’m so obsessed, you don’t even know, I’ve had numerous blogs in the past but all those didn’t exactly go the way I wanted them to be.

Wanting. For time to go quiker. I know most people want time to slow down, but it’s the exact opposite for me. I’ve got plans in the future and I just want to get over and done it.

Needing. To start exercising again. It’s been two weeks since I stopped my morning exercises and I felt that I need to bring it back. Period.

Feeling. Not exactly energized since we have a cold weather. A bit relaxed and also a teensy bit worried of what exactly, I don’t know.

Clicking. Through some new bloggers that I want to follow and their blog post. Twitter, I want to be updated on the happenings in AND Fest 2016.

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(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0SrIYDWuBM4)

AhnGoo, everybody. Jae Hyun’s reaction when his wife suddenly shows up in the awards night is so cute. Seems like Hye Sun is really good at surprises. The way Ahn Jae Hyun says I love you towards his wife is so romantic. Stay in love forever.

- CATH

[quoted-books]

Which is why I am not here to tell you tomorrow will be a new day. That the sun will go on shining. Or there are plenty of fish in the sea. What I will tell you is this: it’s okay to be hurting as much as you are. What you are feeling is not only completely valid but necessary—because it makes you so much more human. And though I can’t promise it will get better any time soon, I can tell you that it will—eventually. For now, all you can do is take your time. Take all the time you need.

Lang Leav, Lullabies (via quoted-books)