Whoops I lost my gender

Alex (25) | they/them | on the CR train (Beaujester rights) | watch me not update this until I'm 6 months into my next hyperfixation | Profile pic by @kissingagrumpygiant, header by @ anyonespatsy on Twitter

[shrugsinchinese]

Sketches of whatever the hell their deal is

[fadel-dani]

These may be my last words or the last time I write a post, so I will not forgive anyone who sees this post and does not support me with a single word and ignores me.

[fadel-dani]

I write this while writhing in pain, my eyes constantly brimming with tears. I can't bear this anymore. I'm utterly exhausted from severe anemia, the fainting spells I'm experiencing, and the exorbitant price of the medication I need.

[fadel-dani]

All I care about is getting rid of the fainting spells I experience and the constant pain. Please help me buy my medication so my body can recover and I can continue living.

[fadel-dani]

Please donate if you can. Your donation will enable me to buy my medication, and will save me, stop the fainting spells I experience, and end the constant pain.

[pitbolshevik]

please donate

[closet-keys]

There is only so much suffering one person can endure before resilience and hope is overtaken by desperation and despair. Please donate. Help him find relief from this pain and the means to escape this nightmare.

[landwriter]

just wanted to thank fandom, and in particular everybody who has ever let me a long heartfelt comment on my fic, because experiencing that as a creator of things has made me realize i myself am going through life as a coward. not only has your commenting materially changed me & encouraged me to write, but it has also made me change how i engage with all kinds of art because i cannot un-learn how powerful those kinds of comments can be.

i went to a show on the weekend and loved a band - big enough to tour nationally, small enough to be the opener at a $20 bar show. we chatted and i bought merch and it was perfectly lovely but i’d listened to their album since getting tickets and have come to love it in a much more specific and personal way than “awesome set, you guys were great”

in the past i would not have done anything with these feelings, and if i shared them with anyone it would have been my friends - certainly not the band. but instead i wrote them a long and earnest message the next day. embarrassing! horrible! but knowing what it has meant to me to receive such a message made me push through it and hit send even while wanting to pitch myself into a pit of personal mortification.

but what do you know, lo and behold, shocking no one except the cop and coward in my head, the lead singer replied thanking me, and talked more about their plans and music, in an even longer wall of text.

it’s things like this that keep me going as an artist, he said. thank you again, my heart is so full

anyways, so is mine, thinking of all the people who have told me exactly how something i shared made them feel, and made me confront how pointless and miserly it is to sit on my feelings and gratitude just because i am shy of showing them; what a sad dead end for the transformative touch of creation, when it could be reflected right back into the heart of the person who reached out into your guts in the first place.

here’s to those who keep it all going, and in doing so, spread it to the rest of us, rolling outward and outward, filling up hearts.

[16pm]

beaujes nation here’s ur food (x)

[grntaire]

HELLLLLL YEAH!!!!!!!

[lladyburd]

THIS PHOTO FROM THE ARTICLE IS INSANE

[grungixfungix]

[bisexual-engineer-girl]

WHERE CAN I WATCH THIS HOLY SHIT

[allbabiesarebastards]

I need to see this omg

[t00thpasteface]

a good ship is always improved by having at least one other random character who is so so fucking mad that the ship is happening and is either seething about it or actively trying to break them up. i see the appeal of "everyone else played matchmaker and they're all cheering to see the ship holding hands!!" but i need at least one character, with any motivation, to be the world's pettiest hater about it come hell or high water. bonus points if the beef is completely onesided and they still get warmly invited to the wedding anyway

[deinde-prandium]

[viscousvultureschemer]

Hello gang, my name is Alex! You might know me as whatitmeanstobehuman back when Deviant Art was worth something

I am back here now to share some art and yell about The Hands of the Emperor, my newest book obsession

[darikbelochka]

Family — Mother Mother

Commissions open!

[ruidiancoffee]

redrew @moodsbytraviswillingham ‘s latest post

[boss-of-armadildos]

[math-is-magic]

#genuinely: this is what further research into the famous 'marshmallow test' showed#it wasn't that kids who were able to delay gratification were more likely to be successful later on#due to intrinsic qualities#it was that kids who had a stable upbringing were more likely to be successful#and ALSO: those kids had trust that their caregivers would keep promises#which is WHY they were willing to give up one marshmallow now for the promise of two marshmallows later#kids who did NOT have trustworthy caregivers#or who were in a fundamentally unstable situation#DID NOT have that trust so they wanted their one marshmallow NOW#same deal here i think#it's not that Gen Z is bratty#it's that they have no trust in the system and no faith that promises will be fulfilled#and frankly i do not blame them -@cicerfics

[theprofessional-amateur]

I am really enjoying reading about the University of Wisconsin chancellor fired after the university discovered all the pornos he and his wife were making.

Generally when someone has a public sex scandal (or “scandal”) you get the standard “I am sorry. I regret it. It was a misjudgment on my part” but this guy is like “fuck you I didn’t do anything wrong. I didn’t violate conflict of interest clauses, you are violating my first amendment rights”

[theprofessional-amateur]

SEXY HEALTHY COOKING

[theprofessional-amateur]

I want to see this legal battle

We can’t do anything about hate speech but if there is consensual sexual activity involved!

[theprofessional-amateur]

I want the details about how this was discovered because it has a real “I saw the professor at the devil’s sacrament” “girl what were YOU doing at the devil’s sacrament 👀" vibe

[dabwax-deactivated20250410]

I know this is funny haha to a lot of people but I need yall to really internalize that this is a gentle example of what happens to sex workers. This is a white man in his 50s who turned to sex work for fun and lost his professional career. Now imagine how fucked it is for disabled impoverished sex workers to advertise themselves in a way that separates their identities and lives from their real ones because if they can't they're barred from most other jobs if ANYONE happens to find out. Aside from jobs, imagine how this affects custody battles and abuse cases and housing availability. Maybe it seems like everyone and their dog has an onlyfans and a pornhub channel and things are cool now, but we live under a christofash oligarchy and sex workers will always be trampled and spat on by most of society. This story is absurd but this isn't funny at all.

[think-before-you-screenshot]

I CANNOT stop thinking about Merrill as Inquisitor. Solas rocks up like “I’m just an apostate mage!” and Merrill’s insane, insatiable curiosity requires him to start crafting the most INTRICATE lies, while she simultaneously absolutely eviscerates him for condescending to explain stuff she already knows.

Solas: “Oh I walk in the Fade!”

Merrill: “Teach me immediately!”

Solas, who did not expect this: “Oh. Hmm. Actually it’s a highly specialized skill.”

Merrill: “Would blood magic help?”

Solas: ????

***

Iron Bull, asking about the eluvian: “The fuck is that?”

Solas, full professor-mode: “It is an ancient elven artifact, known as-“

Merrill: “Ooooooh I wonder if it connects to the other eluvian!”

Solas, panicked: “What other eluvian?”

Merrill: “The one in my house!”

Solas: ??!!???

***

Solas: “Vallaslin are slave markings, actually.”

Merrill: “Oh that’s sad! But they mean so much more now, my vallaslin is one of my last connections to a culture I am no longer allowed to participate in. They remind me that I am always Dalish, no matter what happens - that’s a part of me!”

Solas: “History doesn’t change just because you want it to!”

Merrill: “Are you not listening to me on purpose?.”

***

Merrill: “So are you dedicated to the Dread Wolf?”

Solas, spitting out his drink: “WHAT?”

Merrill: “We’ll you’re so rude about the Dalish and you don’t have vallaslin! But it wouldn’t be very, you know, sneaky to put “I am dedicated to the Dread Wolf!” on your face.”

Solas, panicking: “Uh, well, actually, um…”

Merrill: “Plus you wear a wolf jaw bone around your neck.”

Solas: !!!!!??!????

Merrill: “Not very subtle, is it?”

[fra4tas]

Beaujes doodle

[uglywhitefatherfigure]

[transcyberism]

serious answer: I ran some quick math (below the cut) and found out that this ant would impart about ten times the amount of energy as an impact by a 45kg Howitzer round, or one thousand times the energy yield of a typical handgrenade. Ordinarily I would expect something like an ant to disintegrate on impact at high speeds, but there is simply so much energy in that ant that it would have nowhere else to go but forward - even if it completely exploded on impact without penetrating, you would definitely die and definitely need a closed-casket funeral. If it simply went straight through without meaningful disintegration, carrying the majority of its energy away with it, with this being a hypersonic projectile (actually, it's a relativistic one) it still would definitely shred at least a grapefruit-sized hole in you just from cavitation damage. Given the ridiculous speed, it would also create a significant amount of heat and a concussive sonic shockwave as it did so, definitely killing you instantly and probably turning you into charred ground beef.

TLDR yes you would be super mega dead

first let's use a more sensible unit than mph. 100000000mph is 44,704,000m/s. that's more significant figures than we need but I'll leave that to the end. for reference, c is exactly 299,792,458m/s meaning our unlucky ant is traveling at about 15% of the speed of light.

next let's find the mass of an ant. googling it, it looks like 1-5mg is an oft-cited figure, so let's say it's a little sugar ant that only weighs 1mg (because that's an easy number for math, and because I want to know the best-case scenario in case this is somehow survivable). that's 0.001g or 0.000001kg (important for next step.)

to find how much energy the ant will impart, we use the formula E(k) = 1/2 * mv², which results in a value of very nearly one gigajoule (1GJ ≈ 999MJ), which is neat because we started with one significant figure and now we're ending with one too.

[raptor-goblin]

oh but the ant so small I can take it

[transcyberism]

that's true I didn't think of that

[milfyspamton]

anyone remember what these things are called like little cartoony expressive doohickies i think they have a real name but i can’t remember

[milfyspamton]

im not fucking crazy.

[milfyspamton]

if i have one more person say sparkles on this post im gonna blow i swear to god

[evengirlierballs]

They're squeans I'm pretty sure! If they pop like that anyway. But the term for this kind of "symbol to refer to the general vibe of something in art" is called "Emanata" because it emanates from a person or object.

[kiragecko]

[First image shows a bunch of dots, circles, and starlike shapes.

Second shows a page on how to draw comics. Various shapes that can fit into text balloons are labeled across the top.

round and square spirals are called 'jarns'

moons and planets are called 'quimps'

various styles of stars and asterisks are called 'nittles'

and wiggly lines of illegible handwriting are called 'grawlixes'

We see Sergeant Snorkel from the comic Beetle Bailey yelling at us.

a mix of all 4 sets of characters is labeled 'normal cussing'

just the grawlixes is labeled 'A variation using obstensibly obliterated epithets.'

and a black bar with 'censored' over it is labeled 'World War II style is becoming obsolete with today's relaxed taboos.'

The final image starts with the text, 'Other emanata reveal internal conditions.'

A man with three centreless asterisks above his head is labeled 'Man with sqeans - slightly drunk.'

A man with tongue out, lidded eyes, two centreless asterisks, and a tornadolike spiral above his head, is labeled 'Man with sqeans and a spurl - loaded!'

A man with cross-shaped eyes, two centreless asterisks, a tornadolike spiral, AND a bird with musical notes above his head, is labeled 'Squeans, spurl, crottle eyed, surmounted by thrush - it's "never-again" time!'

End ID.]

[michaelefrenart]

Laudna doing the Counterspell finger-wag. Also Long Pate.

[fishmechs]