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It's really really hard to go about your life after this . What makes it harder is how my life is physically not at all affected by him being gone. It's so difficult to digest that. He wasn't part of my life physically. None of my friends feel things like I do because he wasn't part of their lives at all. That's the reason i keep coming back. To the people who lost him like I did. Tumblr has always been a safe place. But now in times like this, it's a whole another level of a comfort. A hug, that's what it's like being here. Like we're all in a virtual room, all saddened and all missing him. I'm thankful for this place.

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me continuing to tell myself to stop scrolling but when I walk away I just feel lost and crave the community of the people who understand this feeling as devastating as non stop reading everything is

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what really gets me, after the initial shock, is the fact that what i remember as a group of bright eyed, over ambitious kids are now grown adults who are able to navigate the complexity of this situation.

we not only grew up with the boys, but we grew up with each other.

a lot of us have careers, families, a whole life far detached from the one we used to dedicate to a group of five boys (and their families, hairstylist, bodyguards… even a pigeon). and in one moment, simultaneously and instantly, all those memories came pouring and flooding back.

we grew up, but we never left

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When it suddenly crashes on you that it is real and not just a nightmare, and the dam of tears breaks 💔

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stuck on the different pictures louis, zayn, and harry chose for their posts…

louis’ is celebrating their bond, their friendship, the love they held for one another that got them through so many tough times. it’s saying they will never get to stand on a stage together again but let’s celebrate the good times, let’s remember the love.

zayn’s is highlighting that they were just kids at the start, they were boys thrown together into an insane, unimaginable situation and they needed each other. they found solace and comfort in each other and no one else can understand what they went through growing up together but they clung on to each other.

and harry’s… god. harry’s is just liam. liam on stage looking out on thousands of fans doing his favourite thing in the world. and that’s how harry wanted to honour him, making other people happy.

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I can’t wait until I’m 45 and singing Midnight Memories drunk at a karaoke bar by myself because I never learned to love anything more than I love one direction

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seeing so many people who haven’t been here for a while . we’re all family and will always be . what we got to experience is rare and precious . hope time will allow us to look back at it with joy and peace again . hugging all of you tight

I haven’t been able to verbalize how I’ve been feeling since yesterday anywhere and it feels only fitting that I can here. It feels safe here.

I still can’t believe this happened. It doesn’t feel real. I wish I could wake up tomorrow and have it all be a sick dream. My grief is compounded not only by what I’m feeling but what I know his loved ones and especially what Niall, Harry, Louis, and Zayn are feeling.

I also can’t comment on this without acknowledging what has surfaced in the past weeks and without saying that the people who spoke out against him deserve grace and understanding. I keep them close to my heart too and I hope they heal and find peace.

I can’t even say that I’ll miss him because saying that feels like he’s really gone. I hope wherever he is he’s safe and knows he was loved.

#I love you Liam #my sweet teddy bear

champagnepadre

Grown up fan girls aren’t supposed to outlive their teenage heroes my dude.. this man impacted my entire teen years and now he’s forever immortalized at 31. I don’t think I’ll ever fully process what happened today but I’m grateful for having the teen years i had cause of a dude named Liam mf Payne

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