Tails ne connait ni ses origines ni même son nom légal. Il voyageait, à un très jeune âge (on parle d’un bébé), de zone en zone sur Westside Island pour trouver de la nourriture et des abris. Jusqu’à temps qu’il tombe sur Sonic, qui l’adoptera. Le nom “Tails” lui a été donner par le hérisson, avant il en n’avait pas. Sa date d’anniversaire n’est pas le jour de sa naissance, mais le jour où il a rencontré Sonic. Il n’est pas intéressé par ses origines comme son frère.
...Or how a few months of my life were severely negatively impacted by someone else's bad management. See for yourself.
Proof of the rule they're speaking about being actively hidden from the participants to this day: FAQ – archived link, screenshot with "Who can participate?" on top, screenshot with "explicit" word search, screenshot with "nsfw" word search; Master Guide – screenshot with "explicit" word search, screenshot with "nsfw" word search; server rules – long screenshots of General Server Rules and StH Big Bang Specific Rules: Mar 12 and Jul 01, screenshots of Strike Policy: Mar 12 and Jul 01, long screenshot of General Guidelines, long screenshot of Collaboration Thread Guidelines.
I feel like this is extremely unfair 😭 One moment I was participating in the event I dreamed about for years, and the next moment I'm thrown out into the cold when I did nothing wrong. I need to get it off my chest...
Below, more about my experience with the event, though it ended up a little vent-y, a detailed (and verified!) record of what exactly happened in private thread #48, the aftermath and some fun facts I discovered or want to share:
First things first!
Yep, I signed up for Sonic BB as a Writer back in January. I didn't talk about it outside of my server 'cause I wanted it to be a surprise – when I roll out a lo-o-ong illustrated fic without a warning. I'll admit, I always wanted to participate in a Big Bang for this fandom, it was a dream of sorts. And still, before sending my form in, I carefully read all of the Master Guide and the FAQ both. Seeing as how for my neurodivergent brain the rules and regulations are important, that's what I usually do for events, and this one wasn't an exception. Confident that I understand what the event would require of me, I signed up.
First month of the event went well. My questions were answered (even though I wondered why some of the things I asked couldn't have been in the Master Guide from the beginning), I wrote my fic summary and submitted it without many problems, etc. There was a small hiccup at the very beginning of March when I noticed how strict the management seemed to be (no changes or adjustments allowed), and my anxiety got the best of me, so I asked the mods if there's a plan in case a collab team doesn't work out: screenshot of my message in #writers-info-and-questions, pulled from my Discord data; screenshot of my detailed explanation in DMs; screenshot of Mod Joy's reply. Here are the most important quotes from his reply:
I understand wanting to plan for the worst case scenarios, but I would caution you not to freak yourself out over what all could go wrong! There are some absolutely lovely artists in this event who are excited to work with the writers. Odds are, things will go off without a hitch.
We are highly encouraging that no one drops out after the assignments, especially writers, unless due to extenuating circumstances.
We want to make everything as fun and stress-free for everyone. Know that we will be around to moderate threads and dissolve any tensions that arise,..
In short, I was placated with reassurances of careful moderation, not dropping writers and ✨positivity✨. I decided to stay and challenge myself since originally BB is meant to be a challenge and all...
For those of you who haven't participated: the way it is supposed to go is that writers submit short summaries of their stories, these summaries are stripped of the writers' names and given to artists to pick through. The artists then have to list their Top 10 stories to illustrate during the claims period. After the claims, private collab threads are made for each writer and their artists with a couple of mods. So no one else could see what happens in these threads.
Now flashforward to March 11th and the threads being created. Obviously I don't have screenshots of that due to being kicked off the server without any warning and before any chance of communication, unable to delete my personal information or save anything that might be used against me which was a case of poor management at best and a deliberate move at worst, so I'm retelling as faithfully as possible. It also has been verified by [artist 1] and according to them, this is exactly what happened.
My fic was in the 4-8k range, and I got two artists. I was asleep when the thread opened, and they talked about how excited they are for my fic before I came in. Both of them are 18, young but adults. I’ll call them [artist 1] (they're cool), and the other one is [artist 2]. Both artists seemed to talk to me normally.
Oh, I have to point out that there were hmm, Mods Chaz, Joy, Summers and Frostios in my thread. I think only four of them, but I know for sure Mod Summers was reading our conversation at least in the beginning because I noticed my fic's Warnings saying "None" (the original summary I submitted had Warnings: Discussion of Homophobia, Slight Internalised Homophobia), and I pointed out that there are warnings, though I don't know if they were lost just now or weren't in the sheet available to the Artists either, and whether they were actually lost or mods didn't consider it a big enough warning to keep... I still don't know. Mod Summers just silently pinned my message.
I mentioned how I'm in one of the Asian timezones geographically, so I might be awake or asleep at unconventional times, and they told me their timezones (I didn't ask!), so I figured I can make a timebuddy chart for easy tracking what time it is for everyone. Made one, sent the link to the thread, Mod Summers asked me if I want it pinned, too, and then a couple of hours later (I think?) [artist 1] came and said it's very helpful. This is my evidence for at least Mod Summers probably reading the conversation that followed but also maybe not. I think all of the mods were online or at least visually online when it was happening.
This is where I reveal that the entire conversation happened in like... one afternoon 🥲 Roughly 7 pm to 2 am for me.
Back to the conversation itself. There were a few questions I had so I started with them, basically 1) if they've read my fics before (explained that I'm asking so I know whether I need to tell them about my writing style and Sonadow dynamics I write); 2) do they want me to send in scenes as I write them or they want a full draft; 3) if they have any immediate questions for me. Question 1) is what we need. Both of them said they've never read my stuff before, and that they don't have any questions now but they want art to be as close to text as possible, so they will ask in the future. This is how it went down after (as per my memory, artist rendition I guess):
[artist 1]: I haven't read your fics but I'd like to! Your Ao3 is the same as your handle? [no link]
Me: It isn't a requirement, you don't have to! But that's right. I have to warn you though that I usually rate my Ao3 profile as 18+ when I link it, though 33/36 of my Sonic fics are rated G and T, and I feel like a warning is in order anyway so people don't accidentally stumble upon something they don't want to see and know what to avoid/filter out. [I didn't post any links or encouraged the artists to read my profile, just made a warning to be cautious]
We go into discussion of how long I have been writing, [artist 1] shows no problems with knowing my Ao3 has 3 Mature fics, I describe what series my fic will be for [the series is completely SFW, and even then I didn't post the link to it] and go into details of how I write Sonadow dynamics in my fics without mentioning the NSFW ones obviously, we speak about Question 2).
[artist 2]: [replying to my warning about my Ao3] ooohh so you write gore sometimes?
Me: Nah, I don't actually, I'm pretty uncomfortable with it tbh, so no, I don't. Some blood and a quick description of Maria's dead body is the most I have ever done 😅 All the angst I make characters go through is emotional rather than physical!
[artist 2]: oh I shouldn't have assumed, sorry. It's just the first thing my mind went to
Me: It's okay! I've been a medical student at some point and I think I've just had enough of that - one of the main reasons I'm not a doctor but a linguist.
[artist 1] gets excited about this for some reason, and we chat about it for a moment.
Normal conversation continues like...
Me: Okay, where were we
[artist 2]: i wasn't paying attention errr
Me: Me neither! But it's Question 3)
I go into saying how them wanting to draw as close to the text is 💯 what I wanted to hear because for me my texts are an extension of my soul, I'm fragile about them, and I'd prefer the art to be exactly according to it blah-blah-blah, I describe my thoughts about a plan of work for us and how I'm going to share pieces of my fic according to their respective wishes.
[artist 1]: Sounds great!
[artist 2]: yeah, sounds good
[artist 1] says something else which I just react with an emoji to, and I start getting ready for sleep because it's almost 2 am, and I have to get up at 6 am.
Nothing else was said in the thread. That's it.
I got to bed and as most people nowadays I check my phone one last time. I see [artist 2] requesting a mod they can DM to, but I don't think much of it…
So 6 am. I wake up and again, as most people nowadays, I check my phone. I went to sleep in a good mood, seemingly in good relations with my artists, excited for the collab and having a solid plan everyone agreed to, so I eagerly open Discord to see if they wrote anything new in the thread. I see no Sonic Big Bang 2024 server.
I will not go into too much detail about my state, but I have an extremely acute reaction to stress very similar to a panic attack that lasts for hours. So with shaking fingers I open my DMs to see the message from that first screenshot I started my post with. The following exchange with me learning about the hidden rule happens the next day. Unfortunately, before that I still have to go to work for a full day in that very same mental state, oof. Plus I have no breaks on Tuesday... I go back and forth all day with my friends about how shitty this situation is, and one of them asks me how [artist 1] reacted. I say that I don't know, but they still follow me on Tumblr so I go and message them, and from what they tell me, it sounds like a mod pretended to them that I was removed because of an existing rule that's stated somewhere. They didn't argue with that, and that's understandable of course.
At home, I notice one of the event mods blocked me.
It is difficult to explain what's happening in my mind without going into details of what my [disorders] are, but things that are unfair, things that are injustice put my brain in a loop until all wrongs are righted. I'm ranting about it to friends, and I think about it day and night. On March 14th I vent about it in the tags of a related reblog, and this is the only instance of me talking about StH BB on my blog. Next morning I'm blocked by the event blog and over the next 2 weeks – by two more mods, while another mod speaks to me passively-aggressively in a shared Discord server. Then I'm shown a screenshot where one of the mods claims I offered my Ao3 to my artists (I didn't) and implies everyone who writes NSFW is dangerous. And then I receive a hate ask about the event, calling me "creepy"... All this time, my brain is still stuck in a loop, and let me tell you – it's not fun. It doesn't help that my first reaction to everything that makes me feel bad is always to assume I'm at fault for everything, and seeing how hostile people are to me, I'm drowning in self-blame. Without going into any more detail, it takes me 2 months and a lot of help to somewhat recover, so I finally send my reply to Headmod Chaz and receive one back:
If you got to this part, you know that half of Headmod Chaz's reply is simply untrue since there were no "multiple instances", and in any case I was never asked to keep quiet about my ban (and why should I?). I sent another reply a month later expressing my confusion and wondering when the messages will be removed (only my intro was removed). As of today, that reply is still ignored, and the messages aren't removed 🤷
And this is the entirety of my Sonic Big Bang 2024 experience. Now for some Q&A:
Why did you wait so long to make this post?
I didn't want to put any participants under fire, particularly my friends because I'll admit, the mods seem like petty people. And also I was worried about throwing shade on other participants (people associating their works with this) or spoiling the event for people who were genuinely having fun with it. Thus, I waited until it was over!
Is this a callout post?
According to definition as "public criticism or asking someone to explain their actions", I think it is – in terms of calling out bad management. It is definitely not a call for harassment. There is a reason I censored some names and left vague who reported me, blocked me, was hostile to me or spread rumours about me. Please don't bother anyone, and if the mods decide to engage with this, they can post their own statement.
Aside from the above reasons, why make a post at all?
Two reasons: a personal one and an altruistic one. Firstly, I hope to get closure this way since I still feel like I was unjustly thrown away when I was just being a dutiful person. Secondly, while Headmod Chaz said they will be transparent about this rule next time they run an event, as you can see they fully ignored my suggestion of doing it now, and in general keeping a rule hidden to such an extent where you lie in your FAQ is pretty shady... I don't trust them not to do it again next year.
Is it okay to reblog the post/reply to it, what about sending an ask or a PM?
The reblogs are on and off, but you can still reply or PM or send a non-anonymous ask (anonymous asks will be deleted because I want to be able to answer privately). If you decide to be negative or call me names, however, be prepared to be blocked by IP or username.
Finally, fun facts as promised 🔥
There are other participants out there who have had negative experiences with BB or were made uncomfortable by the way it was managed, but I'm not going to speak for them;
There was this whole thing with hypocrisy and possible favouritism;
Despite the mods insisting on ME being quiet about my ban, it's now known that they shared information about it outside the mod group;
Out of 6 mods: 5 have me blocked, 2 were passive-aggressive with 1 of them going as far as verbally lash out at me in DMs, and only 1 mod gave me a somewhat human apology before blocking me (not pictured in screenshots);
I saw 3 NSFW writers and at least 2 NSFW artists participating in BB just by scrolling through my dash, without seeking them out, and this is not counting people I noticed in the server prior to me being banned;
Some people are posting Mature and Explicit extras and sequels/prequels to their BB stories already;
The artist who reported me seems to have dropped out anyway;
There's a joke reason why I'm making a post, too: I have to earn being blocked from the event blog since they said they did it because of multiple instances of me talking about my removal;
For this post (and because one of their staff members is a former Big Bang mod), I was forever banned from participating in Chaos Quill Collection projects;
I'm actually grace and most of the time write my characters as aspec, and I'm exploring what sexuality and intimacy mean for me through writing, so this situation felt a little... like gatekeeping;
My fic was #48 under the title Chao Care 101, and I want you to give me a high five if you had it among your top choices 🖐
Originally, I wasn't going to complete my BB fic because it made me feel bad, but now I've decided I want to reclaim it, so I'm writing it now. Almost 8k words at the moment. It will be published. And it will be illustrated;
Meanwhile, what good came out of this disaster is Sonic Supernova 2025, and I recommend you all to keep an eye out for this inclusive Big Bang-like event 🌟
Synopsis: After a tussle with an upgraded Metal Sonic “R”, Tails and Eggman are hit with an energy beam that causes them to feel one another's pain. Meanwhile, Sonic deals with the aftermath of his time as Robo-Sonic and a certain rogue bat comes to play.
Progress on pages has not been made yet, but @veeloopz is pitching in to help with inks/flats on this issue when @multiisketch is able to get back to pencils and--after 3 issues--COLORS! Yay!
Art Fight 2026 team cards! Use these to advertise yourself and your characters - post them on social media, on your Art Fight profile page, or in the #target-hunting channel on our Discord server.
One of my wereboom doodles popped up in my notes a bit ago and it made me think abt this au again. Anyways here's something kinda cute that just came to me
I think one of the ways Sonic's friends could help him with his worsening werehog condition is by giving him plushies that smell like them. Like the plushies have something incorporated into them that carries their scent, like a piece of clothing or something. Maybe they add some other smells like lavender but keep it subtle so it doesn't bother him (his nose is incredibly sensitive)
It helps him feel less lonely at night when they're not around, and he sleeps a lot better with them too. It's comforting
Also, somewhat related but not really, I imagined what Sonic might describe Tails to smell like and the first thing I thought he'd say is "home". That probably applies to his other friends too, but I specifically thought of it in a scene involving those two alone so. Yeah
Ok so remember the burrow I mentioned where sonic hides whenever he turns into the werehog? I like to think that was his original home before he met tails. He then moved to the little hut we see in the show to be closer to his little bro, but still uses the burrow on the nights he turns. He sometimes goes there during the day too whenever he wants to be completely alone
Initially I thought no one would know sonic is a werehog, but actually I think tails should at least be aware of it and is keeping it a secret for sonic. Since they're brothers and all I feel like he should know and actually help sonic hide it from the rest of hedgehog village
None of his other friends know, but sticks definitely has her suspicions that something is up with him. He's had a few close calls with her while wandering the forest on full moons (or new moons? Full is more in line with traditional werewolf tropes but also a new moon fits more with my hcs abt dark gaia..... Eh whatever one or the other). And she also noticed how he seems more tired than usual on nights when he disappears. She's put two and two together but the others think it's just another one of her conspiracies and dismiss it. That is until sonic starts slipping up and almost reveals his little werehog secret unintentionally, then everyone else starts getting suspicious too
I like to think he has a burrow deep, deep in the forest that he dug out himself. It has a comfy nest of pillows and blankets and is always stocked up on snacks. It's in a pretty remote area and it's kept hidden pretty well so he can hide without much worry there. Tails helps a bit by keeping it stocked up as well as monitoring the area with cameras to make sure no one has wandered in. He also watches sonic through them on nights when he turns to make sure he's ok. The transformation is pretty painful and scary (to both sonic and those who see him) after all, so he wants to be able to provide any support he can. While he's definitely safest in his burrow he just can't help leaving it and going on runs, since it can get pretty boring all alone in there
Soooo eggman has to find out abt sonic's little werehog secret eventually. Sonic went from having only one other person who knew to five over the course of like two or three nights (I say two or three bc there's some time between when sticks finds out to when the other's do) and it's. Overwhelming and Scary. Now there's more ppl who can slip up and end up accidentally revealing his secret. And he doesn't feel like he can trust them after what they did to him the night the found out. So he's hiding in his burrow for.... the rest of his life, probably. At least he plans to do that. He can't handle being in the presence of anyone other than tails right now
Eggman eventually realizes sonic hasn't shown up to stop his plans in a few days, only his friends. When he asks abt it, they of course don't tell him, so he decides to search for him himself
He asks other people in the village, and gets nothing. Some are even kinda weirded out by how absent sonic has been too
The only person he can think of that sonic could've had contact with recently is shadow
And shadow, not caring for sonic's wellbeing much, spills the beans. Tells him how he was nearly torn to shreds by a monster that was captured by sonic's friends. He hasn't seen or heard from sonic since. And while he was never told directly that sonic was the monster (he fled the scene before the big reveal) he has a hunch that this is the case
Eggman sees this as a golden opportunity. Rumors around the village spread like wildfire, and eggman (now with the support of the village residents + shadow) starts a monster hunt. Getting the whole village, save one or two people at most, to go against all of team sonic was pretty easy considering how dumb most of them are, and now tails, amy, knux, and sticks have to scramble to calm the situation down before things get bad
Last wereboom post in a while probably I am. Running out of ideas and we're at the end of this au's story anyway
So Sonic's been captured, the villagers is essentially holding his friends hostage, and Eggman now basically has free reign over Hedgehog Village. He's sent his badniks to start taking over the place while everyone else was distracted with the hunt, so when they all get back, they'll be in for a big surprise (well, everyone except Tails, Amy, Knux, and Sticks of course)
The crew tries to fight and get Sonic back, but Metal Sonic swoops in and quickly overpowers them, trapping them into cages to make sure they can't intervene with the takeover
Meanwhile at Eggman's base, Sonic is thrown into a cage. Again. Not fun. And he's being taunted by Shadow. And is one more insult away from flying into a feral rage. Eggman plans to keep him prisoner and make him watch him take over of the village, then the island, and then the whole world. And he also wants to study Sonic's condition. He's never seen anything like it before (not in real life, that is) and is incredibly curious abt it. Shadow, meanwhile, wants to kick his teeth in, so while Eggman goes off to oversee the takeover, Sonic is left alone with Shadow
The two fight, of course. Shadow actually gets in his cage and tries to fight him, which ends as well as you'd expect for both of them. But it does give Sonic an opening to escape, and while he really wants to kick Shadow's ass, he's getting claustrophobic and wants to get Out. So he immediately brute-forces his way out, locking Shadow in the cage in process. He's running on animal instincts rn
Once he's outside tho, he runs into a problem- he's on an island and deathly afraid of water. Orbot and Cubot (oh yeah, they exist, sorry for forgetting abt them for this long lmao) helplessly try to stop him, but Sonic is easily able to intimidate them into taking him back to the main island
Once there, he hurries to free his friends and the village, taking down Metal Sonic and the other badniks keeping the village captive and stopping Eggman's takeover dead in its tracks. Though he's in a bit of a feral rampage, the villagers start to see that he's, at the very least, trying to help
As the fight dies down and Eggman is sent packing, the sun begins to rise, and Sonic transforms back into his normal self. He wants to run off and just be over with the day already, but the village is already celebrating and he gets caught up in it. He hazards to ask the mayor if they're gonna, uh, idk, kick him out of the village bc of the werehog thing or something, but thankfully no! He even apologizes on behalf of the village!
And he does Nothing else to compensate for the stress they just put him through. But that's to be expected at this point
And that's that! Nothing bad happens ever again (for real this time. At least nothing as bad as what just happened here). After that, Sonic decides to go back to living in his burrow full time. He needs to get away from everything for a while, until he adjusts to everyone knowing abt the werehog thing. Tails and the rest of his friends try to help him manage his condition as it slowly worsens, but having everyone know in a way makes things a little better? He has a bigger support system now which is very nice
Everything is back to normal, but it isn't at the same time, as it tends to be like when a big life-changing event happens. The end, for now :]
Sonic originally only transformed on new moons. Easy enough to handle. Just hide for a night each month. No sweat. He's done that for as long as he can remember and he has the routine down pat
But recently he started to get worse
It started with him transforming on the nights before and after the new moon one month. Then on two nights before and after the new moon. Then three. And it keeps getting worse every month. It keeps getting more painful too. It gets really hard to think on the darkest nights. It's... scary
It won't be too long until sonic ends up transforming every night. He fears the transformation might become permanent and he won't be able to hide it any longer. As it gets worse sonic has to scramble to find ways to keep it hidden, but eventually his friends have to find out and he has to face the repercussions that come with hiding something this major for so long
But it isn't his friends finding out that scares him the most
It's eggman finding out that he's really worried about
This version of eggman may not be as evil as his other counterparts, sure. He's more comically evil than heartless-scum-of-the-earth evil. But if his condition gets worse, eggman could easily use it to his advantage somehow to take over the village. Maybe by painting him as some kind of monster in its eyes and turning its residents against him. Or by exploiting his lack of speed at night to defeat him once and for all
Eggman is inevitably going to find out, but by gaia is sonic gonna try to hide it from him anyway
The first one to find out (besides tails bc he already knows) is sticks. She runs into him on a new moon and nearly gets mauled after spooking him. After that she places traps throughout the forest and tries to (unsuccessfully) warn everyone else abt a monster in the woods. Eventually she claims that it was sonic but has very minimal proof so she's dismissed
Shadow is the next to find out, by being attacked by sonic. Sonic cannot stand shadow's presence even in normal form, but it gets so much worse as a werehog. Just seeing him is enough to trigger pure feral rage even on a good night. I imagine shadow happens to wander just a bit too close to sonic's burrow one night and gets beaten half to death
Amy and knux find out a little after shadow. Sonic left earlier in the evening in a hurry, rushing and making up excuses. And after what sticks told them they definitely get kinda suspicious. Knux is especially worried since he tried going to sonic's house to see if something was wrong and he wasn't there, and tails is also missing as he went to go after sonic to try and stop him from killing shadow. Stick goes after them as well since she's been investigating this for a while at this point
So they all end up meeting up where sonic and shadow are beating the shit out of each other. Things are tense. Sonic is too focused on shadow to listen to anyone, even tails. Knux has to step in and separate them before they can even try to calm down, and by then tails would've had to tell them it was sonic and not some random monster
It takes a while for sonic to calm down after everything, and he's not really well enough to explain, so they camp out at his burrow until morning. After he turns back, he explains that, yeah, he's a werewolf. Or werehog I guess. And he didn't want anyone to know bc well. Werewolves aren't exactly seen as good. It's very awkward, and sonic feels bad keeping this from his friends. But they have a heartfelt moment and his friends promise to help him however they can and everything's good and fine. For now
Y'know what I think boom!sonic could've just been a werehog the whole time. Like it's a family curse or something. And throughout the show he's just hiding it the whole time. He only turns on full moons so he can just. Go into the woods and hide once a month and since he's already a bit of a weirdo loner ppl don't think much of it
Actually him being a werehog is why his arms are blue and why he's taller than other sonics. And he wears all that sports tape to cover the darker patches of fur on his arms and legs
And why he eats so much at meh burger even tho the food is shit. I mean we never see any other food establishments except amy's I think? Might be misremembering it's been a while but while that might be the main reason everyone eats there sonic specifically does it bc he craves meat
He's secretly been doggy this whole time and no one knew
