𝖑𝖔𝖘𝖙 𝖎𝖓 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉.

bpd/c-ptsd/severe depression/social anxiety/recovered bulimic/severe emetophobia/adhd

[chokingonflesh]

ABOUT ME AND MY PAGE:

I am 23 years old and my pronouns are she/they. I have been diagnosed with every one of my disorders and have lived with them for years.

I use this page as an escape from reality and as an outlet to vent about my mental health.

If my content in any way triggers you or you juat simply don't want to see it please just go ahead and block me as I don't mean to ruin anyones day whatsoever.

If you are under 18, please do not follow me. If you are under 18 and we have been mutuals for a while you are welcome to stay as long as you feel comfortable with that.

Stay safe out there <3

[chokingonflesh]

Me and my boyfriend overdosed yesterday and experienced severe blackouts

[chokingonflesh]

I love you in a way that would worry a therapist and thrill a poet.

[chokingonflesh]

I still vividly remember going to school as a kid and getting bullied severely, after wich I went home to get abused and yelled at.

But my 7th birthday or any other day? No clue.

[chokingonflesh]

I hate that you died...I hate having all the responsibility now and being left with only one parent, that parent being the one that resents me.

[bpderanged]

I'm sorry I'm a shit daughter but in my defense you're a shit parent too

[chokingonflesh]

this.

[chokingonflesh]

Very unfriendly reminder:

it is a PRIVILEGE to touch another persons body, not a RIGHT.

[daddyfuckedme]

[luna-azzurra]

Emotional Walls Your Character Has Built (And What Might Finally Break Them)

(How your character defends their soft core and what could shatter it) Because protection becomes prison real fast.

✶ Sarcasm as armor. (Break it with someone who laughs gently, not mockingly.) ✶ Hyper-independence. (Break it with someone who shows up even when they’re told not to.) ✶ Stoicism. (Break it with a safe space to fall apart.) ✶ Flirting to avoid intimacy. (Break it with real vulnerability they didn’t see coming.) ✶ Ghosting everyone. (Break it with someone who won’t take silence as an answer.) ✶ Lying for convenience. (Break it with someone who sees through them but stays anyway.) ✶ Avoiding touch. (Break it with accidental, gentle contact that feels like home.) ✶ Oversharing meaningless things to hide real depth. (Break it with someone who asks the second question.) ✶ Overworking. (Break it with forced stillness and the terrifying sound of their own thoughts.) ✶ Pretending not to care. (Break it with a loss they can’t fake their way through.) ✶ Avoiding mirrors. (Break it with a quiet compliment that hits too hard.) ✶ Turning every conversation into a joke. (Break it with someone who doesn’t laugh.) ✶ Being everyone’s helper. (Break it when someone asks what they need, and waits for an answer.) ✶ Constantly saying “I’m fine.” (Break it when they finally scream that they’re not.) ✶ Running. Always running. (Break it with someone who doesn’t chase, but doesn’t leave, either.) ✶ Intellectualizing every feeling. (Break it with raw, messy emotion they can’t logic away.) ✶ Trying to be the strong one. (Break it when someone sees the weight they’re carrying, and offers to help.) ✶ Hiding behind success. (Break it when they succeed and still feel empty.) ✶ Avoiding conflict at all costs. (Break it when silence causes more pain than the truth.) ✶ Focusing on everyone else’s healing but their own. (Break it when they hit emotional burnout.)

[isaipoet]

I'm what the poets preach "a mess, a muse, a moon."

[thecinnamongirlll-deactivated20]

[rebooted-collective-deactivated]

The only reason I'm still alive is because I can't drink monster if I'm dead

[j7aries]

[satanishedd]

Knowing I have fresh, still open cvts under my clothes at school makes me UNBELIEVABLY horny

[chokingonflesh]

same, only with the difference that I don't go to school anymore :'D

[chokingonflesh]

Small but VERY important reminder:

no matter which type of self harm people turn to or how "bAd" it is, it's valid either way and should NEVER be invalidated, put down or ignored.

[chokingonflesh]

"you were in a relationship with him tho, weren't you?"

"maybe you turned him on?"

"did you maybe touch his dick?"

"you gave him a signal that you were okay with it tho, so it's your own fault."

he was my BOYFRIEND, to whom I had given ALL MY TRUST. On top of that I WAS HAVING A FUCKING PANIC ATTACK and was burying my head in his chest for comfort during wich he GOT HARD AND ASKED ME IF HE COULD FUCK ME MID PANIC ATTACK?!?!?!?

but yeah ofc, it was my own fault.

[roseforviolet]