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goddamnshinyrock

oh god what is going on now

goddamnshinyrock

guys calm down, you can still draw fictional people naked

vaspider

#just not fucking.#I can live with that.#honestly this is slightly irritating but not ‘THE SKY IS FALLING’

Yyyyyeah except they’ve already:

purged the ‘chronic pain’ tag

purged the ‘top surgery’ tag

made ‘trans’ tag inaccessible to non-functional

deleted a bunch of chronic illness blogs

deleted a bunch of chronic pain and chronic illness posts from blogs they’ve left (like mine)

This isn’t just about ‘oh no you can’t look at people fucking anymore’ (even though lots of sex workers are losing their means of supporting themselves). This goes a lot further, with a lot more chilling effects.

The sexualizing of things like ‘top surgery’ or declaring all ‘trans’ tagged things to be … sexual… is really, REALLY fucked up. Never mind the fact that ‘chronic pain’ had NOTHING to do with sexiness, and we’ve been given no explanation as to why disabled people were considered acceptable collateral damage.

vaspider

ALSO I had a post flagged earlier today for a cartoon picture of Mario in a bathing suit. Mario, from Super Mario Brothers.

Someone else reported a picture of a cartoon scorpion with a hard hat on being flagged as pornography. Tagging things as ‘queer’ or ‘gay’ gets them flagged NSFW. (Hey, guess what I’d been tagging my t-shirts, because they’re pride stuff? Oh right. Queer. Gay. Pride.)

This is a fucking problem, let’s not blow it off.

thebibliosphere

I know some people are too young (or simply weren’t involved in fandom back then) to remember what went down with livejournal and a couple of other sites “back in the day”, but it all started out as “it’s okay, we’re just removing the nasty porn”, and then “okay well, just make sure you put your porn behind a cut, no, wait jk you need to host it externally, a link is fine, maybe” and pretty much devolved swiftly into “actually sweety, LGBT content is inherently NSFW by default because it might make the kiddies gay if we expose them to it, so y’all need to leave now byyyeeee”.

Like…that happened. And it took nearly a decade for the fandom spaces to recover and stabilize and to get to the point where LGBT content creators could host their content without being told “you’re not welcome here” and I’m just sitting here, watching as youtube demonetizes LGBT content creators, and Facebook flags up LGBT ads as “inappropriate” and now tumblr is going through the queer and gay tags and just mass blanketing it as inappropriate, while actual pornbots and nazis wind up in my recommended feed.

(As an interesting aside: isn’t it funny how all these sites attribute these things to an algorithm error? Itsn’t that funny.)

Like I am uncomfortable y’all. I am looking around at everything I’ve built and all the friends I’ve made and I know we’re all looking for the next safe space to jump to while hoping we don’t lose each other overnight like “the olden days” where you’d wake up and your fave blogger was just gone.

And usually it was because they’d drawn or written something as simple yet explicit as a kiss. It was just the wrong kind of kiss.

So yea, the sky is not falling, but the ice under our feet sure is making worrying sounds.

hunterinabrowncoat

You know what? Telling disabled/chronically ill people things like “there’s still hope” or “never say never” is actually really unhelpful.

As a chronically ill person, I have to come to terms with the fact I will never be able to do xyz. And I’m going to live with abc my whole life. It sucks. And I’m upset about it. I’m angry. I’m devastated. I’m grieving.

But I need to process that information. Coming to terms with the permanence of our issues, and facing a life that looks very different to the one we planned is vital to our mental health.

And it’s not pretty. It’s difficult to hear. I get that you want to say something comforting. But sometimes all you can say is “that really sucks I’m sorry”. Sometimes there is no fix. Sometimes there is no hope for recovery or for things to get better or change. Sometimes it just sucks. And we should be abel to talk about how much it sucks, without people trying to offer platitudes.

chronicallycolourful

durbikins

igg

meezy7-deactivated20210917

THIS IS 200% NOT OKAY

jokers-coffee-scented-booty

i caN’T STOP LAUGHING YET I FEEL HORRIBLE

chudobs

LET’S KICK IT

chronicallycolourful

FUCKING YEET

star-anise

When I was a kid, I used to long for a cancer diagnosis, or to get injured in a car wreck, or to die in a school shooting. Because then, everybody would know that I was in pain. I wouldn’t have to struggle anymore to make people understand that I felt sad and alone and worthless and unlovable. They’d know I needed help, and they’d rally around me.

(Being a child, I did not understand what it was actually like to have a fatal disease, or to be horribly injured, or to be the victim of violence; but at the time I was already in so much pain, a little bit more felt worth it if it finally got me help and attention)

God. I would have done anything for a world where people understood that children can be viciously, clinically depressed, and knew how to help me.

“Do you ever want to kill yourself?” No, not really. I have always preferred to live. But there’s something so fucked up in the fact that, as far back as I could remember, I always felt that coming close to death would somehow improve matters.

ruffboi-mags

oh.

not just me, then?

sandersstudies

My sociology professor had a really good metaphor for privilege today. She didn’t talk about race or gender or orientation or class, she talked about being left-handed.

A left-handed person walks into most classrooms and immediately is made aware of their left-handedness - they have to sit in a left-handed seat, which restricts their choices of where to sit. If there are not enough left-handed seats, they will have to sit in a right-handed seat and be continuously aware of their left-handedness. (There are other examples like left-handed scissors or baseball mitts as well.)

Meanwhile, right-handed people have much more choice about where to sit, and almost never have to think about their right-handedness.

Does this mean right-handed people are bad? No.

Does it mean that we should replace all right-handed desks with left-handed desks? No.

But could we maybe use different desk styles that can accommodate everyone and makes it so nobody has limited options or constant awareness that they are different? Yes.

Now think of this as a metaphor. For social class. For race. For ethnicity. For gender. For orientation. For anything else that sets us apart.

biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist

off to therapy, you guys want anything?

salazar-slanderin

For you to feel secure in your mental health, and if not secure at least hopeful and confident that you’re making the right decisions for yourself.

biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist

I’m in fucking tears thanks mate

wishmania-deactivated20181104

Instagram is depressing. I prefer tumblr where everyone is upfront about their misery and constant desire to die

lgbtlaughs

A bakery is facing legal action because it refused to write anti-gay comments on a cake for a customer

The customer bringing the claim against Azucar Bakery in Denver, Colorado, says he was the victim of ‘religious discrimination’ because they wouldn’t adorn cakes with the words ‘God hates gays’, and draw a picture of two men holding hands with a red cross above it.

Owner Marjorie Silva called the requests of Bill Jack ‘discriminatory and hateful’ and refused to decorate the cakes, saying: ‘We never refuse service. We did feel that it was not right for us to write hateful words or pictures against human beings.’

She did, however, offer to make Mr Jack the cakes and sell him some icing so her could decorate them himself.

Mr Jack was not satisfied with this response, telling a local news station he was being ‘discriminated against by the bakery based on my creed’.

He has filed a complaint with the Department of Regulatory Agencies, which have now placed the bakery under investigation, and could refer the complaint to the Colorado Civil Rights Commission if they feel that Mr Jack was being discriminated against.

Mr Jack is the head of the Worldview Academy, an organisation that exists to help people ‘think and live in accord with a Biblical worldview’.

Since the incident Ms Silva has received praise and support from people throughout the world who have contacted her via email.

tatertitans

Guys please spread this, I live here and I love this cake shop so much and would hate to see it get closed for something like this. The cakes there are absolutely phenomenal, and they even have gay and lesbian wedding cake toppers, and is the only cake store that has those in all of Denver, Golden, and Lakewood. Please don’t let this cake shop close.

chuckmanx-deactivated20181031

Friendly Christian Reminder:

Saying “God Hates” is a violation of most of the New Testament. See also John 3:16-17, for starters. Numerous mentions of “God is love”.

Saying that you are without sin is a bold-faced lie; see Psalm 130 and Romans 3:20.

Passing judgement onto another person is a no-no; see Mathew 7:1-5.

Loving thy neighbor is one of the two most important commandments; Mark 12:31.

And that your ‘neighbor’ isn’t always another Christian; see Luke 10:25-37.

In short, stop using my religion to justify you being an ass-hat, Ass-hat.

chronicallycolourful

Say it louder for people in the back!

#gay and catholic #pride in both

chronicillnessmemes

To People with Degenerative Illnesses

I see you. You exist. You belong here. You deserve more positive and encouraging posts that don’t contain the message, “It will get better.”

I wish I had the energy to write them. But we do our best to make sure you don’t see any posts like that here. You still belong in our community.

Your existence is not anti-recovery. Your acknowledgement and acceptance of your life is brave and positive. It’s ok to get angry at anyone who would tell you otherwise.

You are doing the very best that you can. You exist so therefore you are enough. I love you all very much. You are doing the very best that you can. Please be kind to yourselves.

Admin J and Admin E

a good thing to do for your friends with anxiety disorders: if you have a question you need to ask them or something you need to tell them, explain the subject of the question/the statement in the same message as your opening one!

so basically: instead of saying “can i ask you a question?” and sending just that (which, as a person with an anxiety disorder, makes my anxiety go into hyperdrive) go “can i ask you a question about ___?”

it’s a little thing but honestly few things make me anxious like “i have a question for you” or “there’s something i need to tell you” without immediate explanation. thanks!

briedoof

“call me, nothing is wrong, just wanna talk on the phone” would be so much better than “Call me.”

endlace

Actually please to all of this please.

awkwardprincessally

YES PLEASE.

thecheshirecass-deactivated2018

YES THIS OK????? Like I have trained my husband to say “nothing bad, I just need to call you because it’s too much to type.” It helps SO MUCH. Just let me prepare myself, because I guarantee my imagination will take me to much much darker places.

revanchistsuperstar

Might I add, if someone with anxiety has just said something to you that’s a lot to process, and you need some time to think about what to say in response, please consider a quick “I’m not ignoring you, I need to think about what to say and I don’t want to say the wrong thing.”

Because that definitely saves your friend with anxiety a lot of strife and assuming they’ve ruined your friendship forever. Nothing is crueler than a “Seen 2:25pm” when it’s 10am the next day and you’re waiting on a reply to a huge confession.

howto-joelheyman

Normally I don’t acknowledge my anxiety very much but to any of my friends this would genuinely be helpful. Thanks

thatworldinverted

Bonus: even if you don’t struggle with anxiety, this can really help cut down on miscommunication caused by text-monotone! My roommate and I use these a lot to keep from accidentally getting into arguments.

themarydragon

Also: treat your mother/father/parental unit as a person with anxiety. If you were in a fender bender, start the text with “everyone is fine.”

creator-crash

🌺🌺🌺

elbeeaz

noquitter-deactivated20231102

this won’t get 1% of the women’s version of this post.

the world we live in, and people in general don’t care about men. we are pretty much robots who aren’t allowed to show emotion. we’re taught from a young age that boys don’t cry.

fact is women are sexualised, men are idealised. because men can’t be raped because they’re big and strong right? right? yea, pretty much the idiots view of living.

permittedvermin

Things we know:

• Griffin uploaded a demo of Game Maker studio 2 with Pat to Polygon, where he shows off two mostly functional games that he designed himself and programmed in about 30 hours

• Griffin uploaded the Adventure Zone as a filler episode for MBMBAM when Justin was on parental leave.

• In the Adventure Zone, when Griffin first started composing original tracks, he prefaced it with “I’m just starting out, so I’m not good at it…” These soundtracks raised over $10,000 for charity.

What I’m saying is that Griffin could basically make Undertale 2 over a weekend if he was bored. I’m not sure I can comprehend that level of power

untitled55181

This reminds me of Clint’s foreword in The Adventure Zine where he mentions that Griffin taught himself to read at 2 ½ years old because he would watch his brothers read Final Fantasy dialogue out loud and…

Everything about Griffin just make so much sense

thevoidfish

God gave Griffin anxiety because otherwise he would be unstoppable

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@rabbitlingamiibo

I've never felt more peaceful.

mockwa

I told you, no more fighting

chronicallycolourful

chaoticgood-queer

Straight men who embrace their femininity, express emotions in a healthy way and help advocate for minority groups without speaking over them? Big dick energy.

cyborg-and-the-chamber-of-chisme

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