Ive been into typology lately and I don't see many things for my type (1, possibly sx/sp 1) so I'll share my personal experience with it.
Childhood: I was raised strictly Christian (and in a country focused on structure) so I have been programmed to obey and serve™ and on how to be proper. I did seem to take it a bit deeper than others though, and I saw faults in them quickly. In worship songs they focused on the wrong things and so I stopped listening to worship music because it was wrong. The bible mentioned wealth we will gain in heaven and I began hating the translation because you shouldn't need a reason to follow god. Stuff like this. I would strictly follow every command and would break down whenever I was seen as "dirty and wrong". Being improper, ignorant, and imcompetent meant you were worthless and dirty, I have continuously held that notion since childhood and both resent and pity those that don't. In my kid eyes, they will accomplish nothing and are worthless for not being proper. They do not deserve life.
I remember a specific event when I was 10. I remember doing an act of service for god (i forgot what it was) and after my mum told me to ask him for a reward. How utterly appaled i felt at the fact that you would have to do something for a reward. I felt an intense amount of shame for being someone assosiated with others similar to that, and I rejected and made sure I will never do something like that and make sure others don't.
Current: I can be very preachy about certain topics, as I was when I was a kid, but I am no longer Christian. Due to finding continuous flaws in others and their behaviour, compared to my cleanliness, I have become apathetic towards others and misanthropic. I recognise that I am the one that has to help them, they won't be able to help themselves if they don't know, and its important that I understand and know that to truly be right. Ignorance is wrong. I have made myself purposefully wrong to make sure I don't become a selfish, ego ridden ass that turns blindly towards others needs. I have to understand what is and isn't my place, and it will never always be about me, and that I remain right in the way I am. I find flaws in others and make sure I am not like that, and if I am that I don't become a hypocrite, it was never my place to judge.
There is a constant changing in what I view as right, but most of it is centred around selflessness, understanding, and competency.
A lot of this shows in different ways.
Selflessness: no matter what I think of myself, I am a human like everyone else and I am destined to help. I have actually had a breakdown revolving around intense emotions when I did not follow this. Here is a little peice of it (it was multiple, multiple pages).
"You are not who you are, you are a better specimen and being than you let on. What are you so scared of? That people will make you out to be good and rely on you? That they will leave you for being good? That being good will leave you vulnerable and feeling? You are meant to feel. You are the world's punching bag that will keep giving. You are the piñata. You are the world's piñata and you will keep being it and enjoy it. It takes more strength to be weaker because others gain more and that is what is meant to happen."
Understanding: it is fundamental that I understand everything I can. You can not act right or wrong if you do not understand. This applies to others lives, myself, human behaviour, and the likes. You can't expect others to act perfect if they have not been exposed to it, so you teach them. You can't expect them to, because they are human and will make mistake. You have to ne considerate when they fail. You have to know that it isn't always your place to reform them and they are doing fine on their own if they can sustain themself. This is important because one reason I feel so much hatred towards certain churches is they are meant to lead people towards the right path, and the people inside are exposed, and they claim to be righteous and still aren't.
Competence: its plain and simple, you won't be able to achieve anything if you can't do it. You have to be competent in whatever you do, and if you don't its because you're not worthy. If there is someone drowning, and you can't swim, you have failed them by not swimming. They have failed themself for not being able to swim and tossing themself into the pool. As much understanding will help you through this empathetically, the facts are that everyone will fail if they are incompetent and it is up to you to make sure they can make it through life.
That has been my life as a type 1.
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