prince of blood

npd sun; bpd moon; aspd rising

[clusterblood]

CHOOSE PROBLEMATIC THING THAT REPRESENTS YOUR CLUSTER B DISORDER

black hole

rotting

cannibalism

gore

poison

blood

explosions

non cluster b

results

something else (lemme know<3)

Voting ended onDec 23, 2023

reblog to make me happy:)

[borderlinereminders]

Healthy love doesn’t punish you for needing reassurance.

But healthy communication also doesn’t demand constant proof.

You’re allowed to ask for comfort and build self-soothing skills at the same time.

It’s about finding a balance and learning to ask for reassurance in healthy ways. It’s also about trying self-soothe first and sometimes you won’t need to ask after that, or when you do ask, it won’t come from a place of desperate panic.

[clusterblood]

sometimes... the best thing you can do for yourself... is not date anyone for a year or two

[zeytzeytun]

I have very strong sense of self because I never belonged anywhere

[sp1resong]

being self aware suuuucks like yeah this thought pattern/behavior is stupid and pointless and a symptom. i know this. [does it anyways

[bathroomflooder-deactivated2024]

having a huge superiority complex but never telling anyone is actually really weird. you think you're friends with just some guy? wrong. wonderful being sent down from the heavens up above to bless you.

[fairygoulish]

I'm built different. like incorrectly i think

[cl0se-th3-d00r]

[eldritchbauble]

[66beherit]

stay strong guys ❤️

[sickly-sugar]

our cluster b (18+) server is opening up to new ppl again ^^

- active for multiple years

- great mods, great community, resources for self help and diagnosis available

- system friendly, spaces for neurodivergent ppl, other clusters, plurality, and many different vent channels with active members that do their best to support

- drama free. drama is dealt with through multiple mods communicating and reaching out. bans are rare, except for trolls and ppl that harass our server members

- secret channels for fun and silly roles. boosted for fun emotes

being an adult and having cluster b is required to join. researched self diagnosis friendly ♡

[uninarc]

[sickly-sugar]

our cluster b (18+) server is opening up to new ppl again ^^

- active for multiple years

- great mods, great community, resources for self help and diagnosis available

- system friendly, spaces for neurodivergent ppl, other clusters, plurality, and many different vent channels with active members that do their best to support

- drama free. drama is dealt with through multiple mods communicating and reaching out. bans are rare, except for trolls and ppl that harass our server members

- secret channels for fun and silly roles. boosted for fun emotes

being an adult and having cluster b is required to join. researched self diagnosis friendly ♡

[aspd-thoughts]

No, I don’t feel guilty about what I said.

No, I don’t feel guilty about what I did.

No, I don’t feel guilty about what happened.

But I recognize the hurt I caused.

I realize that what I did wasn’t okay.

And I am willing to apologize and try to do better.

And maybe that matters more than how I don’t feel.

[schizosupport]

One of the curiosities about how psychosis is defined, is the fact that clinically, delusions are defined as strongly held "wrongful" beliefs that don't respond to counter-proof, and that aren't shared with others in a subculture.

In other words, believing even very bizarre conspiracy theories such as "the earth is flat" isn't a delusion, though in a broader linguistic sense it is sometimes referred to as such.

In this post I wanna talk a bit about why that is, and why I do think that it's important to have a distinction between clinical delusions that happen in psychotic illnesses, and strange beliefs that arise in other ways.

So why is it not a delusion if it's shared with a subculture?

I think the reason for this distinction is that delusions experienced by people with psychotic disorders are something that comes from within, rather than something we've been taught to believe. Per definition. Psychotic people aren't particularly "gullible", we don't lack critical thinking skills, we have an illness that make us believe random untrue crap in a way that makes us unable to think critically about it. So while a psychotic belief could be inspired by something we've come across (like a conspiracy theory) our brain is generally gonna take it as a seed and run with it. Therefore we usually quickly get out of bounds from the 'community' that might have inspired our belief anyways.

Overall, we are less prone to having gotten our beliefs from others and are more prone to being the originator of a belief. In something like folie a deux, a non-psychotic person is taught reality from a psychotic delusional person, f.ex. a child growing up with a delusional parent. The child might appear at first glance to be psychotic, but actually they only believe those things because that's what they were taught by someone they consider an authority. If you remove the child from that environment, you will usually be able to help them regain a better understanding. Similarly someone might grow up in a cult. And they are believing what they are being taught, and their parents are believing what they have been taught. And there will be most likely an originator to the cultish beliefs. That person might be maliciously making things up, or they might even be psychotic and delusional. But the people who are being taught these things as facts are behaving like most humans, as social creatures who's reality is defined by their context.

Most people's context is defined along the lines of consensus reality, but if your social context is not aligned with the majority consensus reality, you are still aligned with the beliefs of your social context if you share your weird beliefs with a subculture. Your brain didn't independently come up with a wild belief that is out of touch with everything you know/have been taught.

Consensus reality is a consensus. And even if the consensus you follow is shared by only 2% of the population, if that 2% is all the people you relate to and consider to be the people "in the know", then you are in a way not going against your contextual consensus reality. You've just picked a less popular one.

So what defines a clinical (psychotic) delusion is that it does not align with any consensus about reality that you have access to. It's your own, and it's unlikely that you have allies who are supporting your beliefs. Though in rare cases a clinically delusional person may be contributing new material to a subculture, that others then start believing, and as a result they do share their beliefs with a subculture. But they didn't just learn the belief from the subculture, the belief is growing and morphing independent of the group.

But yeah that's all clinically speaking. In a broader linguistic sense, I think people use "delusional" to refer to anyone who has beliefs that aren't aligned with the majority-consensus-reality, or even more simplistically, that aren't aligned with the speaker's understanding of consensus reality (usually as an insult). So an atheist might refer to the religious as delusional, and vice versa.

It may be a losing battle to get wider society to stop using 'delusional' in this way, but I think it is at least helpful to talk about how such "delusions" differ fundamentally from the psychotic experience.

[histrionicfit]

can we talk about the darker parts of attention seeking in hpd? not just dressing up and being flirty.

let's talk about compulsively lying

let's talk about compulsively lying so much that you're not even sure if what you say is true or not

let's talk about wishing you were injured or ill for the attention

let's talk about faking injuries or illness

let's talk about purposefully injuring yourself

let's talk about putting yourself in dangerous situations by talking to sketchy people

let's talk about not knowing how to say no to those people

let's talk about involuntary trauma dumping

let's talk about socially ostracizing yourself by acting in an inappropriate way for the temporary rush of attention it gives you

let's talk about questioning your own personality, values, and morals because they get so easily shaped by whoever you're around

let's talk about how easily manipulated people with hpd are

let's talk about how easily abused people with hpd are

let's talk about vulnerable people with hpd are

let's stop this dichotomy of demonizing or romanticizing/fetishizing hpd

[sinxsthezia]

so, i was looking thru plushie dreadfuls and i had some issues with the npd bunny. out of spite, i decided to design my own npd bunny!

symbolism: - crown to represent desire for superiority and praise - mask to represent false ego and, well, masking - mask is cracked to represent the false ego breaking, aka crashing, also represents that masking is very tiring - primarily green color palette to represent envy - large heart on the center to represent large ego and big emotions - gem motif to represent brilliance, uniqueness, and beauty - frills to spice things up, appear fancier, and make it more unique - green arrows pointing up towards the face to represent drawing attention to self

i wanted to represent npd in a more beautiful and less stigmatizing way. i hope you like it!

if you like this, consider following me and checking out my ko-fi :)

[bioethicists]

it's very important to understand how a personality disorder diagnosis functions in the psychiatric system, even if you identify with the diagnosis or find it useful.

personality disorders on your medical record will be used to discredit anything you say or do. they indicate "don't bother listening to this person; apply treatment regardless of their wishes but also they're probably manipulating/attention-seeking so maybe don't bother treating them". needing support becomes attention-seeking. behaviors that would be treated + supported in someone without this diagnosis are ignored or treated as manipulative. providers are instructed to "withdraw warmth" (a real thing in the DBT provider's manual, btw) in response to self-injury or suicidal ideation.

if you have been dx'd with a personality disorder professionally, you likely understand this.

now, here's the important part: this is not an issue of 'stigma' against a politically neutral, pre-discursive True Disease which is being Unfairly Maligned. these diagnoses were formulated based on the idea that some patients cannot be trusted, that some patients seek care too much. they are applied to patient charts as a justification for withdrawing care or as a dismissal of someone "not getting better" fast enough. in the uk, they are often employed by the nhs to shame or problematize people who use large amounts of nhs resources, arguing that receiving a lot of care through the nhs is a negative behavior stemming from a disordered personality.

there are elements of personality disorders which resonate strongly with many people, including myself, but you need to be clear-eyed about the origins + functions of this diagnosis. as a whole, they were created + function as ways to discredit + mistreat noncompliant or "difficult" patients. 'reclaiming' them is not going to change how they function systematically- it is going to make it easier to engage in this systematic neglect by evoking 'ableism' or 'stigma!' when people question the utility or application of the diagnosis.