Cobalt Kiss

This is a personal blog of a very lonely hermit/artist/sociologist. I'll write absurd stuff, it's not made up - the chasm between me and mankind is big enough, I ain't gonna make things worse by building a wall of lies between myself and you, reader, specifically. Life *is* absurd. People have called me a hippe, a goth and a punk. I'm all that and a lot more. I do align my identity more with the goth side of things. 20. He/Him, if that's necessary for you to visualise the vessel for my mortal coil. Cancer born on 29th lunar day. Idk anything about astrology, but I've *heard* it's as good as being an absolute loser in the astrological lottery, which I guess is an explanation for all my misfortunes. #nolifeoutsidethegrave #cancerpride Don't DM me, use AmA for that. Or really AMA if you wanna idc :/ If you're under 18 don't waste your time here and on this blog, go outside, please. I've got little interest in interacting with you, sorry, you gotta wait to join the deadbeat 20s-30s year-olds club.

[luluxa]

warm evening

[rosamartinello]

Payday 2 Aesthetic

[cobaltkiss]

GangalstaBob aghh aesthetic

in my 1000+ hours of pd2 I have become just like my hero, gangsta bob, fithy rich and awesome - the world is mine, but I'm left with no friends to share it with

[oneheadtoanother]

[cobaltkiss]

were/was

[cobaltkiss]

I'd hate to gatekeep, but you HAVE NO IDEA on the tought process of the Nosferatu you're roleplaying.

You gotta spend at least 24 hours in a shithole like this - get used to dim a artificial light, breathing nothing but GLASS WOOL, RAT SHIT (THERE WAS SO MUCH OF IT, IT LITERALLY RAINED) and COBWEBS. And spend all this time figuring out some shit, like a bushcrafted home server/network and reorgazining the spaghetti wiring. (I'll get to fixing whatever nonsense precious inhabitants did to the electric wiring just today) And the worst thing you gotta get INTO living like this.

I might not have been Embraced, but I shreek at the summer sun and desire the blood of the people responsible for the half-assed wiring. Guess it might be because of brain damage caused by rat shit fumes and glass wool particles.

[cobaltkiss]

Little update. It's a lot better now - still needs some touch-ups and I can put the whole dman contraption in the box. WITHOUT A SINGLE WIRE IN SIGHT!

The wall had to go - more of it, I mean. I've been hitting my head too hard and too often, while squeezing through it, and I FELT my Humanity score wither away each time.

While installing outlets on the outside, I told a bothering me wasp to fuck off and it did.

Animslism is already unlocked, so I'm not sure if I can go back... I'll take a break from this and all the Wyrm fumes.

The sun still hurts my feelings.

[cobaltkiss]

I went back to the city, got a nice clean place there... A bit cramped, but cozy.

Decided to change my potato cpu to a bit newer one. [*CRACK] Broke pins on the cooler. Okay, fine.

Thought its about time to upgrade my T480 - some fool already been in it's guts and put a small M2 drive in the sata port through an adapter. My 1TB 2.5 drive doesn't work because the external power cable is missing. 10€ for that. Fine.

"At least I can swap the nordic keybord to an english one..." I tried to keep myself calm, but nah, doesn't the one I bargained for doesn't fit at all in the T480. I got scammed.

While I was away my poor Pi 2B 1.1 been trying to install Node.js. For a week. Dread to reboot it now, cuz it's still... doing something.

Liquid in my veins is borderline boiling, this place - MY PLACE - has become hostile. I CAN'T EVEN WORK HERE ANYMORE, I JUST CAN'T AS MUCH AS I CAN'T TOLERATE THE WARM FRESH AIR HERE

I WANNA GO BACK TO THE RAT-SHIT-GLASS-WOOL HOLE ALREADY. I'M DOOMED - DOOMED TO BE A REPULSIVE MONSTER (I'm not an IT guy, but I do like tinkering with stuff) - TO BE SUSPENDED IN DUSK TILL MY MORTAL COIL ENDS

I TAKE IT BACK, NEVER TRY TO IMMERSE YOURSELF IN THE WAY OF UNLIFE OF CLAN NOSFERATU, NOR ANY OTHER CLAN

quintessence of "living" is precious, don't trade it the superficial flex of something like "living like a nosferatu". you won't see the dreadful consequences, which may deter you, not because I - the twisted example - am some fuck on the internet, but because I shall hide from the eyes of manking in places most folks avoid

[cobaltkiss]

I'd hate to gatekeep, but you HAVE NO IDEA on the tought process of the Nosferatu you're roleplaying.

You gotta spend at least 24 hours in a shithole like this - get used to dim a artificial light, breathing nothing but GLASS WOOL, RAT SHIT (THERE WAS SO MUCH OF IT, IT LITERALLY RAINED) and COBWEBS. And spend all this time figuring out some shit, like a bushcrafted home server/network and reorgazining the spaghetti wiring. (I'll get to fixing whatever nonsense precious inhabitants did to the electric wiring just today) And the worst thing you gotta get INTO living like this.

I might not have been Embraced, but I shreek at the summer sun and desire the blood of the people responsible for the half-assed wiring. Guess it might be because of brain damage caused by rat shit fumes and glass wool particles.

[cobaltkiss]

Little update. It's a lot better now - still needs some touch-ups and I can put the whole dman contraption in the box. WITHOUT A SINGLE WIRE IN SIGHT!

The wall had to go - more of it, I mean. I've been hitting my head too hard and too often, while squeezing through it, and I FELT my Humanity score wither away each time.

While installing outlets on the outside, I told a bothering me wasp to fuck off and it did.

Animslism is already unlocked, so I'm not sure if I can go back... I'll take a break from this and all the Wyrm fumes.

The sun still hurts my feelings.

[cobaltkiss]

[cobaltkiss]

cool bug i found

also there was a dragonfly in sick-ass blue colour. was too small and too fast to catch in frame properly (

[cobaltkiss]

It's hard to take Camarilla seriously where I live. Because in my native language "Camarilla" sounds very much like "a Mosquito", or more accurately "a Gigantic Mosquito". Which is fitting for a cabal of bloodsuckers ^-^

[cobaltkiss]

I'd hate to gatekeep, but you HAVE NO IDEA on the tought process of the Nosferatu you're roleplaying.

You gotta spend at least 24 hours in a shithole like this - get used to dim a artificial light, breathing nothing but GLASS WOOL, RAT SHIT (THERE WAS SO MUCH OF IT, IT LITERALLY RAINED) and COBWEBS. And spend all this time figuring out some shit, like a bushcrafted home server/network and reorgazining the spaghetti wiring. (I'll get to fixing whatever nonsense precious inhabitants did to the electric wiring just today) And the worst thing you gotta get INTO living like this.

I might not have been Embraced, but I shreek at the summer sun and desire the blood of the people responsible for the half-assed wiring. Guess it might be because of brain damage caused by rat shit fumes and glass wool particles.

[cobaltkiss]

I have become what I seeked to cure in others

[cobaltkiss]

New Life for a Mustang Jacket + Genitorturers stencil

I fully repainted the jacket into 3 shades of blue and added a little spice. I also always wanted some Genitorturers merch, so country boys make do.

If you want, you can download GIMP project file with materials for the stencils here

Actually, I most of the print was free-handed, except for letters and shapes, but if you got resources, you probably cloud manage as well with a couple more cardboard stencils than I did.

I also asked for help with drawing the people, because I used what little leftover paint was left after painting the jacket, and rather have someone with good and steady hands do things right, than waste all the paint on fixing mistakes of my shaky tendrils. I'd link her socials, but, as I understand, she would like not to be associated with such art or the likes of me :'( guess we wont collab again. Damn, I really liked both the person and the result.

For the finish I used matte clear coating, which hopefully will protect the paint from UV rays, which causes discoloration and cracking.

So, yeah, I really love it. Probably will get my ass whooped by some skinheads for it. Unless they'll assume that I'd love that xD.

[cobaltkiss]

Btw, I was heavily inspired by the Pissfaggot jacket - after finishing repainting the jacket, I got an urge to write some outlandish statement. Then came the print.

Unfortunately, I'm into nor piss, nor tobacco products - "pissfaggot" jacket wouldn't suit me at all.

I'd say it's a -5 authority for +2 electrochemistry and +1 drama

[victusinveritas]

The shit some people believe (because I know at least two people who do believe CERN is evil...it's not, it's fucking awesome.)...

[cobaltkiss]

LMAO, really tought I was beggining to get good at life, barely winning, but getting good at it.

But NOPE, it's because the NEFARIOUS CERN shut down their LHC (LIBIRAL HIDEOUSNESS CIRCULATOR). Goddamnit!! ...got just 4 years left to find love, job, a house and become famous... Nah, I'm good... probably.

[cobaltkiss]

New Life for a Mustang Jacket + Genitorturers stencil

I fully repainted the jacket into 3 shades of blue and added a little spice. I also always wanted some Genitorturers merch, so country boys make do.

If you want, you can download GIMP project file with materials for the stencils here

Actually, I most of the print was free-handed, except for letters and shapes, but if you got resources, you probably cloud manage as well with a couple more cardboard stencils than I did.

I also asked for help with drawing the people, because I used what little leftover paint was left after painting the jacket, and rather have someone with good and steady hands do things right, than waste all the paint on fixing mistakes of my shaky tendrils. I'd link her socials, but, as I understand, she would like not to be associated with such art or the likes of me :'( guess we wont collab again. Damn, I really liked both the person and the result.

For the finish I used matte clear coating, which hopefully will protect the paint from UV rays, which causes discoloration and cracking.

So, yeah, I really love it. Probably will get my ass whooped by some skinheads for it. Unless they'll assume that I'd love that xD.

[transgendercoolcat]

Each reblog = one wish my cat will overthrow fascism

[dogpuppy]

[cobaltkiss]

This reminds me of a really fucked up dream:

I was Hansel and Gretel, the gest of it is that I was in the Hansel, while Gretal was my "defensive unconscious" that kept me from doing shit in life, meanwhile exposing me to the emotionally harmful environment. It was really detailed and fuecked up, belive me.

What this post reminded me of is the second part of the dream - we cooked and a speaking potato gave us instructions. Until we chopped it into piecies and fried on a pan, during the process the speaking potato was ecstatic.

I leaned that the potato represented the part of me which is ready to be a consumable material for the pleasure.

Then why these guys can't be just like that, happy to be consumed.

[segamascott]

[cobaltkiss]

Literally me when someone I know needs music, art, woodworking, IT help, a survey, an interview, a bit of written fluff, to babysit someone (even animals), first aid or creative ideas/solutions. (Or anything else for that matter)

[cobaltkiss]

Just so you know, I'm officially, as in real, with genuine ceremony, swords and etc (happened years ago, don't remember the details), a Livonian Knight.

Which doesn't say much, except that they really do bestow knighthood on literally the worst candidates these days.