I'm Cofi, call me whatever- I go by she/they/it .w.
I'm a kin that- is- awkward-....AND CHAOTIC RAAGHGHGHGH
I like using emoticons, I might interact with other blogs, I mostly made this blog to like- help myself document whatever memory comes to me in forms of deja vu augh...
I also roleplay, well do roleplay stuff, it helps me socialize and ease up talking easier if it makes sense?
DNI if you're bad, I'm a free blocker!!!!
uuhh- I'm bad at explaining stuff- not good at talking to people- too shy-..
reminder this is not my main blog, my main is a selfship acc-
you might have to message me on this blog first beforehand- in case ur ever uncomfortable--
beneath this cut is all I remember of what my Kris has done to me, lots are fuzzy, and a lot of things MIGHT trigger some reading it if you want or must...
this does not mean that how I feel is how I think of all Kriskins, love ya'll, ya'll might hate mine just for a temporary time!
CW: choking, name calling (derogatory), unfair circumstances, weird route (mostly gut feeling, not true to memories YET), and me being jealous towards Susie and Noelle (I LOVE THEM BOTH, SO SUSIEKINS AND NOELLEKINS, UR AIGHT!!)
NOTE: my Kris goes by he/they but prefers they/them!
Kris chokes me in one memory, I remember it vividly, I don't feel it but I can just see how painful it was.
we're they trying to kill me? kill themselves? or kill both of us? whatever it was, I was scared
I was scared when my body wasn't mine, I woke up in theirs. they were...angry, upset, and frightened to say the least...
they threw me in a cage, ripped me out, as if I were some kind of- malicious being that deserved it?? what did I do? I'm just as scared as you are!
still, I remember DISLIKING Susie, and most probably resenting her in the long run but I hid it from Kris...well ig I tried to but I assume Kris can feel what I feel and I can feel how they feel in a sense?
Kris LOVES Susie, of COURSE they do! OF COURSE THEY LOVE THE BULLY WHO MOST PROBABLY HURT THEM A LOT VERBALLY!
why does SHE get that softer Kris?? WHY DOES SHE AND NOELLE HAVE A NICER KRIS??
am I just that bad of an angel?? what did I do other than TRY to make our situation work???
sure, it felt like our lungs were burning when i awoke...did something happen? was there someone before me? did you have someone control you before me, Kris? was their a weird route done???
I know you feel your autonomy is taken away, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Kris.
I love you. you know this.
YOU KNEW.
I don't remember everything now...but fuzzy feelings come and go, fuzzy thoughts that feel like memorials of times where you've hurt me, called me a bitch, called me worthless, pathetic, a fool.
and yet I loved the name; Fool.
because I was.
I was for my Kris....
I miss them, I hate them, I resent them, I love them, I care for them, I forgive them, I don't forgive them
they hurt me more than I hurt them
and sometimes I wish I could tell you that, Kris.
at the end of the day, I love you
I love you and I hate it, I still care about you.
have a good time wherever you are, if you somehow find me, don't come apologizing....or do, whatever man.
a lot of you need to realize that not everything is about you. not everyone sees the character you identify as as you. ESPECIALLY PEOPLE THAT DON'T KNOW YOU.
you can't complain about someone you don't know selfshipping with your kintype or having a headcanon that differs/contradicts your personal canon. yes I know it's uncomfortable. it happens to me frequently (popular mlp character here, lol) but it really is just something you HAVE to learn to deal with.
the characters we are exist outside of our fictionkinity. leave selfshippers and other people who aren't doing anything wrong alone and stop talking about them like they're disrespecting you personally by drawing themself kissing the character you identify as or headcanoning them as a different gender/sexuality.
while fictionkins are allowed to vent on their personal blog, it becomes another thing to just name the account selfshipping/yumeshipping and stating something awful about them or their ship in general
they don't owe you respect if they don't know you, much less know about your kin. you owe them at least the decency to not say shit about them like you know them personally when you dont
either block or scroll and move on, you guys are merely just strangers for pete's sake!
is anyone else just yearning like bro I'm forever stuck in a yearning stage whenever I'm in my cccckin shift like "BRO I MISS YOU PLEASE MAN WHEN U COMING BAAAAACCKKK"
siiiiiiiigh....
I miss my HMSW, guys....... I miss them a lot, I'll be back... /ref
- ⭐☁️ anon or whatever emojis I chose I need new ones istg-
I reblogged this weeks ago and it’s getting to be late march. I have had a great last few days lol
I reunited with a guy I had a thing with but life got in the way of initially, it went way better than I expected + I have been hanging out with my friends in really nice weather. I passed an exam and finished another one I’m optimistic about. I’m eating great food, loving up on my kitty cat daily, and One Piece Live Action season 2 came out recently.
@certified-dot-simp @lizzy-not-found @malwaregoose @bonierbonez @lemonsyourdem0n @marelimarlop @xsugarxxx @amethiossnowprinceandspouse @friedesleftsock @the-chibi-nyabikofan @roy-rvt @evee1308 + OPEN TAGS BC I'M A DUMBASS WHO FORGETS PEOPLE
i'm quite stressed unfortunately because its my exams week and i have a maths test tomorrow that i am in no way prepared for :( but i'm learning a song i love on guitar so thats good :P
whats up @winterinkspill @the-eccentric-of-notre-dame @tyrannosaurus021 @mioisnotonfire :D
@eli-eli-lema-sabachthani FEEL BETTER YOU’RE GONNA COOK ON THESE FINALS
@gyrovagus-bibliophile @cinnamorolls-babygirl @human-n0-l0ng3r @allthingswhumpyandangsty @mikewheelerisaqueerler wait idk how tagging ppl works all my moots how are you guys
i have done a lot of work today - act, current events joural, discussion board, 2 chapters of notes, and im currently watching a lecture i was supposed to do this morning. im getting shit done frfr even tho i had motivation to write for my oc
the new hire who's been somehow perfectly waking me up within ten minutes of when I should be waking up has so graciously offered me thirty extra minutes to charge my phone. let us all rejoice!
reminder that if you wanna contact me, you can! DM me either for support or reassurance, I'm not the best with words but I'll offer the best I can ^_^!!
will I somehow find a message in a blog where they're missing a friend who knew them only from their whole? their harmonia? who split into three physically because of cacophony?
