Surviving

[collectivelychatty]

About

30 | White | Trans

Neurodivergent | Physically Disabled | Mobility Impaired | Diagnosed

Polyfragmented | OA+Spiritual Abuse

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Syscourse

I’m not making posts for endogenics or spiritual multiples. If you interact, stay in your lane.

I'm on Team "Words Mean Things." Team "Trauma Is Not A Pissing Contest."

[collectivelychatty]

Parts from 2003-2006 active

Dynamic shifts in main fronting crew

So tired that I just cant do anything

[collectivelychatty]

There is definitely some inside bullshit going on but I got promoted at work so I dont really have time for that even as it erodes my personal time and functioning in the background

[collectivelychatty]

Dog alter getting triggered out at work is really uhhhhhh less than ideal

[malglories]

i do feel somewhat ruined forever. but it’s okay we stay silly

[farewell-to-lorien]

Talking to Ghosts, by Sienna Gonzales.

[scorpionlafemme]

[bobodenkirkisgay]

[lycanr0t]

comic about determination and hope

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— unknown (via letsbelonelytogetherr)

[wordfather]

cant wait to go home so i can go be horizontal. all this vertical stuff sucks

[danielwaldorf]

about to say something possibly unfair and definitely cunty but i can smell from a fucking mile away when somebody was raised in a comfortable liberal family and has never had to face like actual conservatism from family and community members. it's like trying to talk to a child who thinks they know everything and thinks that you're stupid for not understanding their genius idea of how to fix every problem in the world. and you can't just tell them they're ignorant because they're a Child you have to spoon-feed it to them like well it Would be nice if i could stay home all day! but i have to go to work so we can have money to buy toys and food and go to the movies :) and the child is like you HATE ME why don't you just get money WITHOUT going to work >:(

but instead of trying to explain capitalism to a child you're trying to explain to someone from portland that you cannot easily convince people who see themselves as your betters and believe it's their responsibility to Teach You What's Right that they are actually wrong about their most deeply held beliefs and have been wrong all their lives. and that it is actually very difficult and often harmful to cut your entire family out of your life forever. and that sometimes we love people who are wrong about things. and that being wrong about things does not make these people irredeemably evil and unworthy of human kindness. and the person from portland is just like ummm you obviously are just performative and if you Actually cared about what's right you would voluntarily abandon your entire family and support system forever and leave them all to rot

[merisms]

Hello! I was hoping it'd be okay to ask why you wouldn't recommend The Body Keeps The Score to people with DID? I've seen it recommended in CPTSD circles a lot but haven't read it myself yet (and perhaps that'll turn out to be a good thing ^^;;), so I was just curious about your thoughts on it! I've noticed through my own reading experiences that sometimes literature that is touted to help with CPTSD ends up actually being quite disheartening or frustrating or otherwise unhelpful for me and probably other people with DID, so I'm curious if that's another one of those cases or if the book has other issues with it. It's been on my to-read list for a few years, and perhaps it's time to move it back to the back of the line if it's an especially rough read.

the body keeps the score got popular some years ago and I never really understood why, because the concepts discussed in the book are better discussed in other books (the idea that you hold trauma in your body is not something the author came up with and he's also not the best author re: the topic). also, the body keeps the score has large chunks of patient cases that does go into their trauma histories and presentations, which can be not ideal for trauma survivors reading it, since you're asking about the rough read part

my biggest issue overall though, besides that it's a mid book that doesn't do or say anything original is this: there are respectful ways to discuss cases and there are ways of discussing cases that comes across as voyeuristic and kind of just nasty--the difference between being looked at and gawked at you know? and this book is definitely of the gawking variety. I read research papers for fun, a lot of those are case studies that go over 1 person's case for like 20-40 pages straight instead of a tiny lil paragraph blurb and those were still more respectful than anything van der kolk said

[greelin]

great. i was hoping my childhood would follow me forever and attach itself to my psyche and spread like mold. This is good

[littlest-bugz]

When you’re mid sentence and suddenly forget literally everything you were talking about

[merisms]

What books or readings do you recommend for people with DID? I'm looking for anything ranging from structured self-help books to just general learning. Thank you! :)

for non-book academic papers: just search things you're interested in, I have too many papers and most of them are interesting except the ones that are just academic beef or round 1000 of "DID real?"

books:

extreme baby basics/you were just diagnosed and have no idea what's going on/parts do not understand what DID is:

dear little ones; the patchwork quilt (both for child parts; side note: NOT for parts who dislike/are reactive to being treated as children)

amongst ourselves - alderman (uses some dated language but still decent)

you have a vague idea what's going on

WORKBOOK: coping with trauma related dissociation - steele et al

WORKBOOK: complex ptsd workbook - shwartz

the haunted self: structural dissociation - steele et al

healing developmental trauma - heller

any of janina fisher's books

adult children of emotionally immature parents - gibson (general, not DID specific)

toxic parents (general, not DID specific)

trauma and recovery - herman

the DID source book - haddock

complex ptsd from surviving to thriving (caveat author is christian and that seeps into the work)

academic:

intensive psychotherapy for persistent dissociative processes - chefetz

dissociation and the dissociative disorders - dell

trauma and the body: sensorimotor approach - ogden et al

sensorimotor psychotherapy - ogden

rebuilding shattered lives - chu (mostly about the field)

polyvagal theory - porges

healing the traumatized self - frewen et al

anti-recommendations (as in, don't read these):

treatment of DID - ross

got parts?

the body keeps the score

sybil

when rabbit howls (this is actually an ok book but recently I've seen people recommend this to people w DID except this is a memoir about severely sadistic abuse and I just don't think it's appropriate to recommend to Most people)

I don't recc reading memoirs esp if you do not remember your own trauma history at this point in time

[chessys]

i wish i could be the person i want to be but im too tired