Milo

21, he/him, internalized transphobia and ableism ("I have to be this because of my disability even though it doesn't feel right or make sense to me",) cupioromantic graysexual, horrible person when frustrated about identity, very cringe

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Immediately made me think of this cat in the hat meme

I apologize for the brainrot

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Fan of dnd who will never play dnd because the rules are too overwhelming (at least very daunting)

No offense at all I'm just dumb and will watch dnd oriented yt channels (Bob World Builder, Ginny Di) from afar

Yall are smarter than me (putting my energy into my feelings and not the grammar oof)

Honestly kind want to make own rpg that wasn't overwhelming to me (custom species, classes, backgrounds, etc.)

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I don't like crisis lifelines because I always get cut short trying to explain the situation

But if I try to die people get angry at me and also I go to the psych hospital

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I only use ma'am and sir when I am upset and trying to use attitude

Nonbinary people are safe from my disrespect because they're chill like that

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YOU CAN ONLY REBLOG THIS ONCE A YEAR

[siowdreams]

ive had this queued for exactly one year

[tardigrade-gaming]

Queuing this for next year as I’m writing this

[bunnygirlsupreme]

It is time!

[the-irreverend]

And stay safe everyone!

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Cw: mentions of possible molestation, trauma related prudence, Christianity, shaving cooter, 21 year old yapping about gross stuff

Tw: emotional abuse, trauma related to sexual stuff (can't use normal wording because what I went through wasn't blatant csa), talking about how I feel so gross and paranoid that I'm being thought of being sexual

I grew up in an agnostic household that didn't go to church and would have in depth discussions with a relative on the phone questioning if God existed

I am traumatized by purity culture inspired emotional abuse from those who raised me (mom's cousin and her husband) and can only calmly sit through a sex joke or scene on tv in private (and lack of privacy in physical and technologically)

I don't believe in heaven but I believe in hell and that I'm going and it comes up when I'm triggered by anything trauma related and in mental crisis (unrelated to being queer)

My cousin is an incestuous pedophile but I just have a feeling and can't prove it (except for not always able to leave the shower in an empty bathroom, her refusing to take her clothes with her when she showered and bathed, and bathing together multiple times but at least I had clothes that I remember when I was in pre k)

If I ever had sex I would probably try to end my life because I would feel so disgusting (unrelated to my aspec identity because it feels too separate from sex repulsed)

I have been wanting to shave my area for years and when I finally got trimmers and did it I felt so horrible because the staff at my ISL could hear the razor that sounds like a toy

A lot of the time I'm paranoid that the staff think I'm up to something sexual or are framing everything I do in a sexual light (I feel constantly anxious and I'm disgusted at my over thinking)

I'm getting a roommate and I'm scared that people are going to sexualize that

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Redbubble ahhh setup

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you punch nazis!

(requested by anonymous)

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*BEEP!!!*

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Finally some loose blueberry tea to use with my manatee infu-

Oh thats

Oh no

[confectionerssugarspaceelf]

My reality: waist size 34 is too small and waist size 36 is too big and falling off my ass even though it felt like it worked at first

My fantasy: waist size 35 exists and I get to wear shorts without a drawstring

(I have a strange body shape that doesn't look good pulling shorts over stomach because stomach goes forward. This is a bio family body shape and most of us just look like that fat.)

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Ay yo what the hell-

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Honestly, it's not the WORST update... I don't hate it.

But it's also different, so I hate it.

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Reblog if you don't use Generative AI to write fanfics/original fics or to create fanart/original art.

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If you were misdiagnosed with bipolar and it ended up actually being another disorder or symptoms of neurodivergence

Trust me

That diagnosis will haunt you for life even if you have new and official psych eval papers after the initial bipolar diagnosis

Your meds and past records are defined by that old misdiagnosis because bipolar is pretty serious for the people that have it and I don't and I don't know their experience

I hate psychiatrists because they don't believe me and no I don't want a yes man I just want that mistake undone and accurate care

And no this isn't denial I'm neurodivergent and was misdiagnosed with bipolar and borderline before 2022 when I received a psych eval that is more accurate with my adhd and autism with mdd, ptsd, gad, and gender dysphoria

[confectionerssugarspaceelf]

Do not ever reblog my shit to advertise ai

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Quiet petty is when you're trying so hard to not be perceived as petty after something dumb like raising your voice that you end up looking that way to the people you acted nasty around

I was only mildly upset earlier, but since I don't want to rock the boat anymore, I went quiet

I'm still being quiet and staying in the kitchen because my room doesn't have good internet connection and if I chill on my bed in silence it may be misinterpreted as I'm pouting

I am also waiting until next shift to eat because I have dealt with people twisting whatever I'm doing into stuff like running away and I don't really trust the staff here to not do the same

No headphones either because people get pissy when I need headphones or ear plugs

I probably look like I'm being petty but no I'm just autistic and have emotional trauma

(She asked me a question and it sounded to me as: "do you like to walk?" and then brought up the park but I could have misheard it and was under the assumption I would be able to walk around and the park I originally wanted to visit she didn't know about it so I chose the conservation center which going out was kinda dumb anyway because her allergies but I didn't want to leave my water bottle at the entrance to the nature center and wanted to be outside anyway and she complained about her allergies and I wanted to go home but she was trying to talk me out of it so I raised my volume and very flatly repeated myself but I'm pretty sure I was being a brat and mean)