I WANT TO LIVE

lark . 25 . they/them transmasc dyke[maybe] . this is a sideblog for my main dykeromatix where i rb poetry + slightly less horny shit ^_^

[onetwofeb]

Goethe once asked Hegel what the 'dialectic' is, and he responded very beautifully, almost therapeutically, "[it] is basically nothing but the regulated and methodically cultivated spirit of contradiction which is innate in every human being."

Conversations of Goethe with Johann Peter Eckermann, trans. John Oxenford, New York, 1998, entry for 18 October 1827, p. 244

[un-237c]

I work 35 hours this week, can you believe it?

[un-237c]

this is making the rounds rn for some reason

[butchdeanjohn]

positive image: a portrait of gay america (1985) by stephen stewart

[valtsv]

You promised content that would make me hurl, and bother, I’ve contracted cyclospora from Taco Bell

tugs my collar sweatily. since this was in reference to my fujoing out i'll serve up some gracerocky dangerous body horror sex headcanons under the readmore lol.

okay so how do we feel about gracerocky sex where the eridian body is not meant to handle all that so rocky's developed like, permanent scarring and actually for real had his organs rearranged a little bit by their sexploits, and when grace finds out he's horrified but also shamefully into rocky's determination to force his body to make space for him even if it hurts. and vice versa rocky is turned on by the sheer number of ways that the human body can betray and destroy itself under pressure. rocky gets his wires totally crossed and develops a radiation sickness fetish. rocky demands grace induce vomiting for him by manually stimulating his own gag reflex because it's the closest he can get to eridian eroticism. into the sadomasochistic body horror blender with them.

[pissmamiii]

sick to my fucking stomach for all the times i begged to be loved and seen by anyone lmao

[capacity2]

Well I think it was brave

[mercurian-scout]

https://bsky.app/profile/wintonkidd.com/post/3mqmoquu7l32h

[anxious-and-in-pain]

it’s okay to do things that make your symptoms worse (as long as you’ll stay safe)

every once in a while you need to eat something yummy. or go on a walk. or a trip to the zoo. take a hot shower. cry your eyes out. dance. listen to music. draw for way to long. write. laugh. sit in a cafe with a friend. paint your nails. dye your hair. go on a run. pet a cat

sometimes you need to do things that are cathartic or make yourself feel alive. sometimes you need the reminder of why you’re fighting so hard to stay alive

this is your reminder that just because it makes your symptoms worse, it isn’t always the wrong thing to do. there can be value in these actions

[lifewithchronicpain]

If you think about it too, abled people do it all the time. Deciding to drink to excess at a party knowing they'll have a hangover. Going to a theme park knowing walking all day is going to hurt their feet by the end. We have the right to make those same decisions.

[ghostly-light]

This is called Dignity of Risk, and it's an important concept in disability justice.

Everyone weighs their physical and mental/emotional health against one another in constantly shifting balance; inevitably, there are times when we choose to accept consequences to one for the sake of the other.

Infantilsing us by undermining our agency in the name of "protection" or "care" is yet another way that we are disabled by society.

[thirdity]

“You write the beginning and then you go back and rewrite the beginning, and you never got off page one. It’s kind of a syndrome, and I have a rash piece of advice which is — Go on, page two, page three, and never look back. Get something finished, no matter how lousy it is. […] Perfectionists cannot get going unless they kind of do violence to their own instincts, and just blast ahead.”

— Ursula K. Le Guin, The Last Interview and Other Conversations

[big-dicks-halfway-inn]

Bikes are strapped down on the upper car deck of the ferry

[wovi]

*

plath

[sawasawako]

- lighthousekeeping, jeanette winterson

[funeral]

Many places have a "forest that shouldn't be entered." Even people who are used to working in the mountains feel there is something there. They are suddenly overcome with fear and it becomes the custom to avoid certain places. These places exist. I don't know what is there, but I think they are real . . . The world is more than we can fathom with our five senses. The world doesn't exist just for humans. So I think it is all right to have such things. This is why I think it's a mistake to think about nature from the idea of efficiency, that forests should be preserved because they are essential for human beings . . . I am concerned, because for me the deep forest is connected in some way to the darkness deep in my heart. I feel that if it is erased, then the darkness inside my heart would also disappear, and my existence would grow shallow.

Hayao Miyazaki, “Totoro Was Not Made as a Nostalgia Piece” in Starting Point: 1979-1996

[haverst]

'you and me' by Diana Boier

source / Haverst

[fiore-firelily]

such insolence... guards? seize her! ...no. stop. not like that. you are doing it gay. why are you seizing her gay style

[mira-mira-0n-the-wall]

[wintercorrybriea]

Romina Lopez & Paola Rios

[aphel1on]

i have such a love for characters who descend into madness or villainy out of deep, deep empathy. characters who fundamentally cannot cope with the cruel realities they find themselves in and blow up about it in spectacular fashion. fallen angel type characters with tears of outrage in their eyes. characters who break before they bend, and break so badly they splatter blood all over their noble ideals. every variation on it gets me so good

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

The mythical disabled person who is so disabled that everyone consistently supports and accommodates them without question is a straw man which only exists as a hypothetical for the political purpose of denying real disabled people care while still being able to argue that said care would be accessible to disabled people who "actually deserves it"