kate!

20s she/her gay, autistic, nerd. girl pick a struggle

[circussbeetle]

drink up (you’re wasted on me) SEQUEL

if you’re falling in love (let me feel it)

Chapter: 1/4

Wc: 10.7k

Pairing: Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: implied/referenced past sexual assault, canon typical violence

Summary:

Aaron’s starting to get a little frustrated, for lack of a better word.

He and Spencer have been dating for going on three weeks now, and it’s not getting any easier.

He thought that the lump in his throat would fade away once he settled into Spencer’s gentle hands and plush lips, thought that every trace of guilt and anxiety that he’s doing something wrong would slip off his shoulders, replaced by long elegant fingers massaging out the knots in his muscles.

He thought he’d get better, and yet here he is three weeks in, sitting on the couch with shaking hands as he counts out his breaths all because he dared to kiss his boyfriend. It’s humiliating.

There are too many things working against him at once.

AKA dating Spencer is more than Aaron could have ever hoped for; he just wishes he could do something about it

Read the full first chapter on ao3 here

[heehawheehawheehaw]

he's like if a babygirl was an autistic middle aged man

[innerchildabortionclinic]

(no beers in) I lack a lot of the traits people typically define as human and on occasion it haunts me

[animentality]

[treecitysessions]

Why does everyone think fiction is just fantasy wish fulfillment now and not like an exploration of themes and ideas

[treecitysessions]

People will be like “this movie is evil and gross because it depicts a predatory relationship” and then you watch the movie in question and it’s about how preying on young women is bad and impacts their lives negatively

[treecitysessions]

“Why would they do this instead of just making everyone in the movie nice and normal and good” so we would have this conversation….

[kosmogrl]

[lunarriviera]

[circussbeetle]

S2 hotchreid chap 1

standing at the end of a long way down

Series: risk

Chapter: 1/2

WC: 17.6k

Pairing: Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid

Warnings: explicit drug use, drug addiction

Summary:

Spencer glares.

“What are you trying to say,” it comes out venomous and flat, less a question and more an accusation.

Hotch sighs and drops his chin an inch, looking down to the ground with his expression as unreadable as it always is. From what little Spencer can tell he seems frustrated, but whether it’s with the stilted nature of the conversation or Spencer himself, it’s unclear.

“I’m saying that if you need to talk to someone, I’ll listen,” Hotch says when he looks back up, his eyebrows bowed up at the front to show his concern, his voice so gentle it makes Spencer’s heart ache.

Hotch had said something similar when Derek had blabbed to him about Spencer’s nightmares, and Spencer has the same animosity toward the offer now as he had then.

“There’s nothing to talk about,” he mutters petulantly as he turns away to tap his foot impatiently, squeezing the handle of his bag until his nails dig crescents into his palm.

AKA Spencer's been slowly cracking for a month. It's only a matter of time until someone else notices.

Read the full chapter on ao3 here

[crossroadsghoul]

"they're not gay" I don't know man, I read a masterfully written fanfic on A03 that says otherwise.

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

things some people, especially people who are new to ao3 or fandom/fanfic space as a whole, seem to not understand:

archive of our own is an archive. not a social media.

archive of our own was built with the stance that there would be no censorship, because other platforms already had censorship where some things that were taboo were reported/removed. ao3 was built with the purpose that all of these works, that were not allowed on other platforms, would be allowed on ao3.

the archive will house anything that’s considered fanworks. so no, you cannot report this fic because it portrays in explicit details taboo topics about xyz, you cannot report that fic because it romanticizes and glorifies xyz. ao3 will not remove any of those fics, because whether or not you like it, those fics do not go against ao3’s terms of service.

“but these things are not allowed on other platforms” that’s precisely why ao3 was created, to house and give a platform to these things that were censored/banned/removed from other platforms.

if you have a problem with this, you can use other platforms to post and read fanfics

but you should also know that ao3 by far has the best tagging system, meaning you won’t get anything like what ao3 provides on other platforms, meaning it may be a pain in the ass for you to find a fic with the prompts and pairing you’re looking for, meaning you may still get jump scared by things that are triggering to you half way through your reading of what you thought was an innocent fic. because other platforms don’t have tagging systems, where you can find and avoid any character/pairing/tag as you please, like ao3.

[constellationskate]

just thinking about haymitch abernathy and burdock everdeen

burdock, who stayed by haymitch when he was deep in the clutches of depression, trauma, and alcoholism. burdock, who refused to leave his side, even when haymitch was actively trying to distance him, right up until he did something that realistically could have killed asterid. haymitch, who thought that this was the worst thing he ever did - worse than what he did in the games

haymitch, who had to watch burdock show off his daughter from a distance, rather than by his side. haymitch, who didn’t grow up to be ‘uncle hay’, but the drunk victor who falls off the stage, who katniss considers ‘disgusting’ (happy 40th)

haymitch, who had to look at this girl who so strongly resembles burdock, fight herself into the ground, nearly die over and over, and become the enemy of the most powerful man in the country, the man who destroyed his life. haymitch, who watches the only living reminder of the best friend he once had, become the face of the revolution at sixteen years old.

haymitch, who watches burdock’s bow and arrows become a symbol of the revolution, watches them end the games with a carefully calculated shot.

haymitch, who loves katniss everdeen. haymitch, who stays alive to look after his family.

sighhhh. haymitch and his everdeens

[constellationskate]

can we please talk about this again please please please

[haymitchsblog]

Once again, the connection that Haymitch and Katniss share comes from love, from compassion, and from the fierce will to make the deaths of those they loved count. They both take love—and the loss of it—as a driving force to oppose the Capitol, because in Panem, to own your grief and let it guide you toward the right thing is rebellion. It is rebellion to acknowledge the lives that were so violently taken and to honor them by holding the Capitol accountable, by making them feel shame, by showing them that every drop of blood they spill matters.

Haymitch and Katniss are emotionally driven rebels with so much to lose, and yet they keep choosing to love, choosing to offer their lives over and over again. Katniss is really himjust luckier.

[constellationskate]

can’t stand people who think they’re similar because they’re both ‘unfeeling and cruel’ sorry did you read the same books as the rest of us??

[paraadisical]

i have brain worms……they’re whispering in my head telling me to make copious amounts of criminal minds fanart….someone help….

[skeletomez]

[fanonical]

here's a secret about fandom - just because fanon is popular doesn't mean you have to like or use it. you can do your own thing, you don't have to bow to the most popular interpretations just because they are popular

[first-and-last-neocount]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 31/31 Fandom: Criminal Minds (US TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid Characters: Spencer Reid, Aaron Hotchner, Derek Morgan (Criminal Minds), Emily Prentiss, Penelope Garcia, Jennifer “JJ” Jareau, David Rossi, Jason Gideon Additional Tags: Temporary Character Death, Canon-Typical Violence, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Kidnapping, Religious Fanaticism, Murder, Heavy Angst, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Psychological Trauma, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, I put my own emotions through a cheese grater with this one folks, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Suicidal Thoughts, Afterlife, sort of. limbo at least lmao, Time Travel, Found Family, The BAU Team as Family (Criminal Minds), Non-Consensual Drug Use, Grief/Mourning, Requited Unrequited Love, Spencer is pining like a whole forest and doesn’t realize yet that it’s mutual, Not Jason Gideon Friendly, Drug Addiction, Past Drug Use, Self-Esteem Issues, Soft Aaron Hotchner, Implied Emotional Infidelity, Closeted Character, Denial is not just a river in Egypt it is also Aaron Hotchner’s favourite hangout spot, Past Child Abuse, Past Domestic Violence, Past Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Aaron Hotchner Needs a Hug, don’t worry he’s going to get SO many hugs from Spencer eventually, Slow Burn, Eventual Happy Ending Summary:

When Spencer Reid dies at the hands of an UnSub for the second time in his life, he expects it to be the end. However, one strange encounter with an unidentifiable entity later, and Spencer experiences the seemingly impossible; waking in his own body over a decade earlier, on the floor of Tobias Hankel’s shack, with a head full of memories of events that haven’t yet come to pass. Reeling from the displacement and desperate to change what’s coming, Spencer confides in Aaron Hotchner, and hopes that together they can prevent the tragedies that Spencer already experienced once from coming to pass a second time.

…

Day 31 and THAT’S A WRAP, BABY!!!!

Thank you to everyone who has liked and reblogged through my hail of CM posting, I appreciate every one of you :D 

Sequel will be coming soon, once I take a bit of time to breathe and let my brain stop steaming from a solid month of writing, lmao!

[artsy096]

All dressed up for Aaron ❤️

Full uncensored on my twt

[irrevocablecondition]

sick to my actual stomach over that video of keira knoghtley responding to jkr’s transphobia. the little giggle. the patronising “im very sorry”. the sarcastic “we all just need to learn to live together, don’t we?”. ignorance is not cute, not when so many lives are on the line and that laugh???? that snarky little giggle when asked how you feel about jkr’s relentless attacking of a vulnerable community? sick. to. my. stomach.

hope taking part in some crappy audio project is worth our lives. sick, once again, to my stomach.

the fucking giggle.

[constellationskate]

she was my gay awakening and watching this interview was soul crushing. ‘i’m very sorry’ ignorance doesn’t even begin to cover it, people of this calibre of famous who have entire teams behind them don’t accidentally get involved in projects like this, this is a calculated choice to work with someone who does and will continue to actively harm trans lives, and a calculated choice to brush it off as not that big of a deal. genuinely disgusted