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Sooooo this is happening.

#I have no other way to do it #and it’s so scary #but I’m trying #mental illness #trying to deal #I was going to write a bunch here but #idk man #my guy is gone #and it’s just me and the cat #and all my feelings

Motivational Quote of the Day! An oldie but a goodie. And an important one.

#ah I've missed this #haven't made one of these in a while #motivational #motivational quote of the day #motivating quotes #Tuesday #Tuesday motivation #just keep swimming #keep moving forward

My therapist yesterday described this triangle to me. We were talking about anxiety and how some of my anxiety (read: a shit ton of it) comes from decisions. And she was saying that some of that might be because of this triangle. For your brain to be happy, you need to have a nice cohesive triangle like this one (I know it's not perfect but I'm at work and I tried). Thoughts and feelings need to line up with what behaviors you are doing. So my example was I'll say I'm hungry. My wonderful boyfriend will then say "I'll go get you (insert food place here)". And then we will spend the next twenty minutes arguing. Because I really do want him to get it for me. But I don't feel worthy or I feel I'm being a bother or whatever fucking thing it is. And my therapist was saying this is some of the anxiety I'm feeling. I want the food, so my thoughts are yes and my feelings are hunger but then my action is to reject the food. And that is not good for my brain. So this week (since of course I'm seeing her weekly cause I'm insane) I'm going to work on that. If I want to cry, I'm going to cry. If I want junk food, I'm going to eat junk food. If I don't want to do a chore that isn't necessary, I'm not going to do it. I'm going to try and follow this triangle and see how it goes. So, wish me luck I guess?

#sorry for the tldr #but I like this idea a lot #mental health #anxiety #anxiety tips #thoughts #feelings #behaviors #or actions I guess #already fucked it up but #whatever #today sucks monkey balls anyways #yayyyyy #Tuesday

My bad

Hey everyone! So it's been a while since I've been in here. Things have been tough. And this just didn't seem important enough to put energy into.

BUT

I'm picking myself back up. And I'm doing it.

#missed you #sorry I suck #here's a random gif #cause why the hell not #finally in therapy #really like my therapist #so that's good

official-boyfriend

im a person who wants to do lots of things trapped inside a body that wants to SLEEP at all times

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Truth

Motivational Quote of the Day My heart is breaking for what our country is going through. Peaceful protests are what this country was founded on. Even if I don't agree with your fucked up views, if you are an American, you have that right. We fought for that right. But what you don't have the right to do is tell the world that your views are more important than someone's life. That is fucked up and complete bullshit. There is a special place in hell for people who people this Neo-Nazi, white supremacy bullshit but there is a much worse place for people who take their views out on others this way. And for all the fucking trolls out there spreading more hate and saying it was some other groups fault, Fuck You. This is not the time to mess with people. You are not funny. This is an act of domestic terrorism and people are scared. Don't be a goddamn asshole. It's as simple as that.

#seriously I was shocked #the footage is terrifying #the comments and trolls are even worse #sorry for the rant #but Facebook is not the place #and people would comment #and I don't need that shit today #Monday motivation #motivational quote of the day #my heart goes out to those affected #stay strong #keep believing #keep fighting #be better than them #love trumps hate

Motivational Quote of the Day

#motivation #motivational quote of the day #not sure if I like this quote #but it does have a BAMF vibe #do people still say bamf?#was that Dane cook?#if so then probably no one does #oh well #go be a badass #take what people say against you #and use it for fuel #to be a super badass #wooooo

Motivational Quote of the Day! I struggle with the word "deserve". On one hand, with all the shit I've been through in my life, I feel like I "deserve" some recompense. On the other, I think I'm a piece of shit who "deserves" nothing. But you can't let anyone tell you whether or not you deserve anything. No one is in charge of your life but you. If you are still stuck with parents or guardians who are assholes and try to control everything about your life, I know it doesn't feel like it but you are still in control. Never let go of that feeling. Don't take it too far now and become a control freak. But understand what a gift control is. And make sure you know that you control what you do or do not "deserve".

#motivational quote of the day #motivational #Monday #Monday motivation #pump up #deserve is one of those words #that fucks with my brain #and I know the world is not a balance #of some scale where good deeds and bad deeds tip it one way or another #cause then our world would firmly be in the bad deed fuck up stage #but I firmly believe in karma so hopefully that takes care of some stuff #holding on to hope

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Dear Scapegoat

It’s important to understand what has happened to you when you have been forced into the role of the family scapegoat. Often this comes under the supervision of the matriarch supreme abusive mother narcissist. All their issues were put on you, so they could feel better about themselves. Lies have been told about you. You were taught from a young age that you were “bad”. You may have acted out in response, because, that is who you were told you are. Even if you have “changed” they will not let your past go. I want you to do something for me. I want you to take your family out of the equation. They have no place here. I want you to write a list of kind things you did for others. Times you were a listening ear for a friend. Times you gave to charity. Times you smiled at a stranger. Times you stopped to appreciate the beauty of something. Write a list of things you like and things you love and things that make you smile. Write a list of all the people and animals you love and what you love about them. Write a list of compliments you have been given, even if you couldn’t or wouldn’t accept it. I want you to keep it somewhere safe and keep adding to it. Your past is not you, your mistakes are not you, all the times your family put you down is not you. Write the list. Write it and see yourself for who you truly are. Learn to love yourself just a little. <3