This is a post I’ve been thinking about for a long time, and so I’m just going to go ahead and say it.
Let me backtrack and ‘splain.
So when I was a kid, and then a “tween” (what an awful word that is!), and then a teenager, I–and every other reasonably intelligent, moderately socially aware kid–was told that we were going to Change the World. We were going to Make a Difference. Good lord, when I was twelve I was part of a team “sport” called Future Problem Solvers. We were the Class of Two Thousand One, The New Millennium, and we were The Future.
(I think it is notable, frankly, that the Boomers who told us this–because it was mostly, at my age, Baby Boomer parents and teachers–were pushing us to Make a Difference, and then a few years later were calling us lazy entitled fuckwits. I think they had this bizarre notion that somehow we would clean up the mess they’d made, and then were angry that we didn’t. [Gen X was too small and too cynical a cohort to quite put those expectations on, I think; Millennials were populous and fresh-faced enough to be the would-be saviors and then the disappointments.] I remember a friend’s mother saying, dreamily, of the 1960s, “we were so much more idealistic than you, we were going to change the world.” My friend–Gen X, not Millennial, but same diff–said, “Well, you did, and this is what you got,” which did not endear her. But, I think, it is true.)
We were going to change the world. We had it laid upon us, that we were going to change the world. If we were even remotely smart or halfway talented, we were going to fix things. We were going to make a difference.
I know so many people of my age, and a little older, and a lot younger, who feel overwhelmed, crushed, flattened by this expectation. As if they were somehow capable, at age twenty-seven and with six figures of student loan debt, of fixing the world economy. As if they were somehow capable, at age twenty-five and working their tails off at a job that pays peanuts, of reinventing the American political system. As if they were somehow capable, at age thirty and scraping by, of fixing everything.
I remember, back in 2009, the 50th anniversary of the moon landing, seeing Boomer-era people bitching and moaning that Kids These Days don’t care about the space program. And I wanted to pull all my hair out and shriek, because it is not Kids These Days that have anything to do with the space program–genuine Kids These Days can’t vote at all, but even if you count over-18s, it’s Adults These Days, Boomers and etc., who have the biggest impact on the budget, and the defunding of the space program.
But when you’re responsible for Changing the World, then you’re the one who’s responsible if it isn’t, you know, changed.
So here, now, this is me saying: that was an unreasonable expectation. We had it laid on us that we could–nay, should–be superheroes, but without superpowers. We were told that we should fix everything, Change the World, by people who actually did have the authority and money and power.
I come from a poor background. My grandmother was an agricultural laborer. My mother worked at Arby’s. My dad worked a rural newspaper delivery route. They pinched and scrimped for my education and it was, nevertheless, understood that I could only go to a fancy college if I could get a merit scholarship. (Which I did.) I got a degree, and then I got a job, and my job wasn’t in Changing the World. But it was something I could use to make a living. I’ve done well for myself, but you know, sometimes, I still have that twinge of guilt, that I ought to be Fixing Everything.
But that’s complete bullshit.
I say to you, my cohort and younger: vote. Volunteer. The point of this is not to say that you should be a selfish asshole. You should do what you can. (Lord help us, please vote in the next presidential election; the next president is going to get to pick some Supreme Court justices, and that matters.)
But if someone tries to convince you that your duty is to Change the World, ask yourself: why didn’t they do it? Why are they putting it on you? Why do they get to have comfortable lives, and then expect that you shouldn’t?
It’s okay to be comfortable. It’s okay to be normal. There is no reason why the people who fucked up the world should expect you to sacrifice your own life to fix it.