hey everyone. if you haven't seen it, ansel @transfaguette posted a queued post on his blog, stating that he is likely deceased now after taking his own life. there is a chance he is alive and simply hasn't been able to access his blog, but he stated he was confident in his means, and that his attempt would've been about a week ago. if he is alive, i hope he sees this and knows how much he means to me and many others.
i am deeply saddened by the loss of him to our community. i wish i had been able to know him better personally. i admired him a great deal. i am thankful he was here. i am glad we were both around on this earth for enough time to know each other. he made the world a richer and better place by having been here at all. i can't thank him enough.
suicide is an immensely personal and final choice. he was unhoused, disabled, and without options for a life that felt meaningfully survivable. it was his right to choose to end his life, he expressed this himself. as painful a choice as that choice is, i am glad he felt able to make it with an appreciation for life and a genuine belief in our ability to fight for a world where disabled trans people never have to make this decision out of desperation again. i am glad he went with a sense of peace and love for himself and the world.
His final words on his last post are: "Keep fighting comrades, and never lose your compassion for yourself and others."
if anyone needs it, Trans Lifeline is a suicide support hotline for trans people which will not call 911 on you without consent, and Project LETS has a collection of non-carceral resources. take care of your grief however it needs, take care of yourselves, and each other. he is gone but not forgotten.
its been about a month.
i feel like its important to share some of ansel's posts from April and May, to provide context in his own words:
i'm sharing this because i myself am a disabled trans person. i have family support, but have also dealt with neglect, being blamed for being a "moocher," and struggling to access official resources and do things the "right way." i've feared how little the people in my life seem to understand how precarious everything feels for me being disabled and trans. how easily i could end up homeless and unemployable. every time i saw him posting about this i thought, that could be me.
please think about disabled trans people. please care about us. please fight for us.
happy pride, ansel.
Update: Ansel has been confirmed deceased, having been found in Chittenango Falls State Park on July 2.
I really loved this reblog by @selenethevampirequeen and how she commemorates him. He truly left an impact on so many people and will be profoundly missed by all of us. I wish everyone affected by his death the best. Send some kind words to his sister.














