Crown of Weeds, Heart of Ashes

aspiring author/photographer. fanfic trash. sad noodle. how to tumblr?

[corpsewithacrown]

Kinda wanna get into digital art but..

How thou?

No clue what I'm doing lmao

[infinitebookshelves]

Reblog if you ACTUALLY READ TAGS

[0deerling0-inactive]

If you’re one of those people who thinks executive dysfunction only happens for things we don’t like (school, cleaning,) then please consider the fact that I’ve been meaning to plug my phone in for 20 minutes and I’m now at 2% and still putting it off to write this post ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[hawkeyedflame]

My anime/video game list consists of over 100 titles, easily, and yet I almost never get around to watching/playing any of them.

Executive dysfunction is not just for boring or unenjoyable things. It’s for everything. Even eating.

[biphobicerasurer]

What is executive dysfunction? O.o

[hawkeyedflame]

Put simply, it’s difficulty/inability with initiating tasks. The prefrontal cortex is responsible for executive functions, like decision-making and impulse control. People with ADHD and other neurological disorders that affect the prefrontal cortex often experience difficulty making decisions and performing tasks, as well as exercising self restraint. Part of why people with ADHD tend to procrastinate so badly is out of genuine inability to begin tasks, even if they’re very important.

It feels, for me at least, like I’m constantly waiting for something and I can’t start X task because I’m waiting. I never know what exactly I’m waiting for, but that doesn’t stop me from wasting hours and days not doing the things I need to do, even if I have a desire to do them.

[ewanmrozny]

It feels, for me at least, like I’m constantly waiting for something and I can’t start X task because I’m waiting. I never know what exactly I’m waiting for, but that doesn’t stop me from wasting hours and days not doing the things I need to do, even if I have a desire to do them.

Oh thank god, someone put it into words.

For me it’s also waiting for the “right” time to come to complete the task because for some reason my brain thinks doing the task at any other time is horribly, horribly wrong, weird, and out of order. The “right” time might come eventually, might not. It’s a lottery.

[lady-feral]

Yeah.  This.

[silvermoonphantom]

Y’all make it sound so deep but tbh to me it feels like tapping on the ‘Do the dishes’ button but a screen pops up saying ‘you must be lvl 27 to do this activity’ and I’m like ‘well shit I’m only lvl 26 so I guess I’ll just dick around until my exp goes up 

And then next time I tap ‘do the dishes’ it demands I’m lvl 28 and by that time it’s getting a bit moldy and I’m just staring furiously at this pile of dishes, slapping the ‘Do the Dishes’ button to no avail. The stars aren’t in position. 

The stars are never in position.

[cumaeansibyl]

sometimes there’s a Just Fucking Do It special move available but it depletes your entire power bar and the recharge speed is completely unpredictable

[spite-cadet]

I click Do Thing and it loads to 78% and then stays that way for 3 days

[kaylapocalypse-deactivated20201]

For me it’s like a notification pops up saying “The dishes need doing. You have 4 seconds to comply. If you do not comply within the allotted time, “Do Dishes” feature will become unavailable for 3 weeks.” And if I don’t get up literally that instant and force myself to do the task, and wait even like 3-5 minutes, it becomes like when u open an un-dismissible window and accidentally click outside the box and your computer makes that chime noise to let you know that the option to click outside the box (do the dishes) doesn’t exist. And then I’m just laying there like “ding…ding……ding….” until 3 weeks has passed and I’m given another 4 seconds to seize the opportunity to do the dishes.

[hey-look-a-squirrel]

That last one is 100% yes. 

[actualaster]

All of these.

And there are methods for working around it, but my brain keeps patching the loopholes I use to exploit it and get stuff done so I have to keep finding new ones

[xsuicunex2]

My body lags.

[seerofheros]

There’s a name for it?

[corpsewithacrown]

Hello my issues. I love finding out I'm not just weird and lazy

[corpsewithacrown]

Fic Updates

So I guess this is kinda obvious but I'll say it anyways.

I'm taking a brief break from my fics to deal with my declining mental health, and to sort out what I need to for school and work and rent.

Thank you to anyone reading my fics for your patience :)

[corpsewithacrown]

I need someone to want to date me so I can have too much anxiety to eat thanks

[sj0]

you have been visited by the seven magic dragon balls your biggest wish will be granted but only if you reblog

[hersheyhipster]

Couldn’t risk it.

[justjengie]

didn’t realize they change colors. now I know o gotta wish.

[pinayputa]

THIS SHIT IS REAL I GOT THE JOB I WAS NUTS ABOUT BC I REBLOGGED THIS YESTERDAY maybe it’s a coinkidink but it okay just take the necessary steps to achieve what you’re wishing for and YOU CAN DO IT

[saintlaurentcalum]

i dont have a favorite music genre. i just like songs that sound good. i have no specific taste,, if it slaps it slaps.

[corpsewithacrown]

Sorry, I know I've been hella inactive, I've had a bunch going on in my life l, what with school, and work, and drowning in stuff I should probably just see a therapist for.

Anyways meet Waffles!

[aidaronan]

Why do people stop commenting on fics if they’re more than a week or two old? Please comment on old fics. Tell me you like my one shot from 2014. Tell me you like my old multi-chap I finished in 2016 that I spent a year writing. I will be fucking thrilled.

[corpsewithacrown]

GUYSS OKAY IM GETTING A PUPPY AND I WANNA NAME HER WAFFLES OKAY BUT I DUNNO IF MY ROOMMATE WILL LET ME AND ITS GONNA BE TIGHT THIS MONTH BUT LIKE ITLL BE OKAY AND I LOVE HER AND I WANNA MAKE HER THE OFFICE PET AND FJDJKSLSLA

[corpsewithacrown]

Guys I frick fracking LOVE my little brother.

And no, hes not some new baby, or some cute 8 year old. Dude is 17, and a complete asshole.

But I ride for my lil homie and I'd die for my lil homie. He's the realest. And while sometimes I completely forget he exists-

I also LOVE him. S o M U C H ! ! !

[corpsewithacrown]

number 78?

Omg okay so we gonna take it back. Like, back, back.

It was preschool, and there was this sweet little boy named McKinley, who was adorable, okay??? Talkin shaggy brown hair, big doe brown eyes, dimples. He liked to play Power Rangers (him being the red Power Ranger, respectively) with me and this boy Brandon (who was an asshole!)

Anyways I crushed on this kid hard. I remember we were watching that bigfoot movie (Harry or some shit like that) and it scared me, because preschool me was a pussy, and he held my hand and let me hide my face in his shoulder. Total freaking gentleman ! !

Long story short he moved a week after that and is lost to the world lmao. But! Ever since him I've had a thing for dimples lmao

[1980vibes]

REBLOG if you are -gay -wanna kill yourself - love animals - falling for someone that you don’t have a chance with - hungry

no one will ever know which one

[existenceisanillusion]

Take a guess

[corpsewithacrown]

I need some kind of distraction in my life but I'm so bored of everything

[sandydragon1]

Things to Consider When Writing Nonhuman Characters

What senses do they rely on the most? Not all animals rely primarily on sight. Also keep in mind that some of their senses might be significantly weaker or stronger than ours and they might even be able to sense things we can’t at all.

How do their beliefs about morality differ from ours? Do they even view things in terms of good and evil?

How intelligent are they? Are their certain concepts they can’t understand?

How do they communicate? What is their primary method of communication and how has that shaped their culture?

How have historical interactions with humans shaped their view of us? Do they view us as helpful? Threats? Just plain weird?

How anthropomorphic are they? It’s inevitable for all of your characters to act like humans to some extent (readers couldn’t relate to them or understand them well otherwise), but different works can give the same species different human traits (religion, art, complex thinking, etc.).

What kinds of resources do they need to survive? Consider the food they eat, the kinds of shelter they use, and other basic survival needs.

How has their environment shaped their behavior and culture?

How similar are they to real animals?

What is the species’s role in the food chain? What do they eat? What eats them?

[uwuthority]

Get To Know Me Uncomfortably Well

PLEASE DON’T LET THIS FLOP AHHHH

1. What is you middle name? 2. How old are you? 3. When is your birthday? 4. What is your zodiac sign? 5. What is your favorite color? 6. What’s your lucky number? 7. Do you have any pets? 8. Where are you from? 9. How tall are you? 10. What shoe size are you? 11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 12. What was your last dream about? 13. What talents do you have? 14. Are you psychic in any way? 15. Favorite song? 16. Favorite movie? 17. Who would be your ideal partner? 18. Do you want children? 19. Do you want a church wedding? 20. Are you religious? 21. Have you ever been to the hospital? 22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? 23. Have you ever met any celebrities? 24. Baths or showers? 25. What color socks are you wearing? 26. Have you ever been famous? 27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? 28. What type of music do you like? 29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? 30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 31. What position do you usually sleep in? 32. How big is your house? 33. What do you typically have for breakfast? 34. Have you ever fired a gun? 35. Have you ever tried archery? 36. Favorite clean word? 37. Favorite swear word? 38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? 39. Do you have any scars? 40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? 41. Are you a good liar? 42. Are you a good judge of character? 43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? 44. Do you have a strong accent? 45. What is your favorite accent? 46. What is your personality type? 47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? 48. Can you curl your tongue? 49. Are you an innie or an outie? 50. Left or right handed? 51. Are you scared of spiders? 52. Favorite food? 53. Favorite foreign food? 54. Are you a clean or messy person? 55. Most used phrased? 56. Most used word? 57. How long does it take for you to get ready? 58. Do you have much of an ego? 59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? 60. Do you talk to yourself? 61. Do you sing to yourself? 62. Are you a good singer? 63. Biggest Fear? 64. Are you a gossip? 65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? 66. Do you like long or short hair? 67. Can you name all 50 states of America? 68. Favorite school subject? 69. Extrovert or Introvert? 70. Have you ever been scuba diving? 71. What makes you nervous? 72. Are you scared of the dark? 73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? 74. Are you ticklish? 75. Have you ever started a rumor? 76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? 77. Have you ever drank underage? 78. Have you ever done drugs? 79. Who was your first real crush? 80. How many piercings do you have? 81. Can you roll your Rs?“ 82. How fast can you type? 83. How fast can you run? 84. What color is your hair? 85. What color is your eyes? 86. What are you allergic to? 87. Do you keep a journal? 88. What do your parents do? 89. Do you like your age? 90. What makes you angry? 91. Do you like your own name? 92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? 93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? 94. What are you strengths? 95. What are your weaknesses? 96. How did you get your name? 97. Were your ancestors royalty? 98. Do you have any scars? 99. Color of your bedspread? 100. Color of your room?

[pyriteplates]

i’m desperate for asks gimme some yall

[corpsewithacrown]

I'm so bored and I love doing asks plzzzz

[howilearnedtocope]

Mental illness is not your fault.

Mental illness is not your fault, even if there are things that can theoretically help. You don’t have this mental illness because you didn’t do those things.

Mental illness is not your fault even if you’ve been sick for a long time, and have had access to treatment that hasn’t helped. You are fighting real chemical and biological barriers that make this difficult, and it’s not your fault that it hasn’t worked yet.

Mental illness is not your fault even if you self sabotage sometimes. Those actions are a result OF your mental illness, they are not the cause of it.

Mental illness is not your fault, even if you play up symptoms. You want attention because you are suffering, but it did not cause your mental illness.

Mental illness is not your fault even if you are bad at taking care of yourself. Again, mental illness is what makes this difficult in the first place.

I believe that there is always reason to have hope that things can get better, and that eventually you will find a way to feel better.

But mental illness is never your fault. 

[mrs-angry]

oh god.

[kenzisshrinking]

I just started crying. Thank you so much.

[sapphire2309]

thank you. truly. i needed this tonight 💕