Nobody

(Avatar by @daftpatience!) (Mlm/nblm blog: yearning-mlem) Hi! I'm Nobody, a gay man, 18, and I draw. Lotsa boys and stuff here. I have DID. This blog is under construction.

[robogart]

It is very hard to be a tall, shy, ghoul girl and try to convey your thoughts/feelings to the girl you have a crush on 😔💖💕💦✨

[crisisboyes]

Giving up on this acc and recreating

[thedivinefive]

Totally not us.

[medlilove]

To people who are desperately asking for fundz/donations on tumblr.

USE THESE REDDIT SUBS INSTEAD PLEASE FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!!!!!!!

Hate Reddit if you want, but using these subs are your best chance. People gather in these subs because they have charity to spare:

/r/Assistance /r/legaladvice /r/RandomKindness /r/Charity /r/care /r/Random_Acts_Of_Pizza /r/Food_Pantry https://www.reddit.com/r/RandomActsOfPetFood/ https://www.reddit.com/r/RandomActsOfChristmas/ https://www.reddit.com/r/almosthomeless/ https://www.reddit.com/r/homeless

/r/freelance  /r/povertyfinance /r/thrifty /r/borrow /r/gofundme

/r/depression /r/familysupport /r/transitions 

I never see anyone actually getting any significant donations on tumblr and to be honest, tumblr is the worst place to ask for assistance. Use it as your last resort, it frustrates me to no end seeing people begging for help, reblogging the same post over and over, the same types of posts over and over, to no avail, when people are waiting to help you on a different part of the web  GO TO WHERE THE HELP IS. IF YOU WANT DIRECT ACTION TO WORK STOP WITH TUMBLR AND USE REDDIT.

PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF SATAN REBLOG THIS SO WE CAN START REDUCING THE AMOUNT OF DONATION POSTS THAT GET STUCK FLOATING AROUND THIS WEBSITE

[shoeboxgoblin]

Rejection sensitive dysphoria is wild. Someone will be like “hey just so you know the thing you did was a little bit loud/uncomfortable/insensitive but it’s ok I know you didn’t mean it” and my brain will instantly translate “you should be shot”

[yourkpopidolsucks]

“why do you talk so loud? you’re always yelling”. i swear to god every time i hear that i want to just run off and hang myself. it is THE WORST 

[jabberwockypie]

To the people in the notes saying “Don’t call it dysphoria, that’s just being insecure”

- “Dysphoria” is just the opposite of “euphoria”. It doesn’t have to mean gender dysphoria. Lots of things can cause different kinds of dysphoria - PMDD is Pre-Menstrual Dysphoric Disorder (which is like PMS but much more severe, and causes intense depression and mood swings). Or, in this case, RSD - Rejection-Sensitive Dysphoria

- When it’s mentioned at all, it’s almost always in relation to ADHD. (And it tends to be described as “this is exclusive to ADHD” but I don’t think that’s actually true.) It’s also a thing with C-PTSD and BPD. (And probably more. But a lot of this stuff co-occurs with ADHD so like …  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

- I suspect it’s actually more of a trauma thing that’s exacerbated by ADHD. (A lot of the way people respond to ADHD is inherently traumatic. Being told your whole life “Well you could do the thing if you really wanted to” when no, you actually CAN’T, etc, has the same effects as emotional abuse and gaslighting on your self-esteem. And well. Being shunned for your whole childhood for being too loud/too weird/etc tends to … yeah.)

- Just being insecure or even anxious isn’t the same as Rejection-Sensitive Dysphoria. RSD - to me, at least - feels like being slapped or getting stabbed in the chest. It’s going from “Everything’s pretty much fine” to, upon a mild correction, being “I’m the worst. I should die. Nothing will ever ever get better.“  And even when I rationally know that’s not true, I’m having physiological responses that I can’t just turn off. (It’s a lot like an emotional flashback in that regard, honestly.)  You’re responding to the thing as if it’s a threat.

- It doesn’t help, though, that ADHD brains are will focus exclusively on one thing to the exclusion of all else, at the least convenient time. So we hyperfocus on “that stupid thing I said” and the perceived rejection and and the pain, and it kind of becomes a feedback loop of suck.

[ethanrayne]

I usually describe the feeling as being like… going from a normal, good, or even great day to suddenly feeling like the world is ending. And it seems to be worst when you were really excited about something and someone’s response- to the thing, or, more often, to your excitement for it- manages to hit that button that trips the world-ending feeling.

[long-gone-silvers]

I’d also like to put it out there that it’s ESPECIALLY THE WORST when it’s someone important to you initiating the rejection.

Some random asshole yelling and foaming at the mouth over something dumb? It’s whatever. Random asshole you can brush off as a random asshole and be none the wiser.

A friend/loved one gently asking you to tone something down, or telling you you were being a bit much? Oh, they must hate your fucking guts now. You’ve brought shame to even be associated with them, what the goddamn hell is wrong with you? You should avoid them entirely because you’re obviously not the kind of person they want to be around, just become a hermit and cut ties wih everyone because you’re obviously a fucking idiot.

That’s what it feels like, even if your rational brain knows it’s stupid, the way your brain is wired won’t let you cut it off until you’ve cried about it.

[getstickbuggedlol]

[lierdumoa]

To my friends on the spectrum, let me explain to you an unspoken social rule that possibly nobody has ever explained to you before

If a neurotypical asks you, “What game are you playing?” they’re not asking you to describe the game.

They’re asking you if they can play too.

If a neurotypical asks you, “What are you watching?” they’re not asking you to explain the plot of the movie/tv show to them.

They’re asking if they can watch it with you.

.

When neurotypicals ask you “What are you doing?” 

What you think they’re asking: “Please explain to me what you are doing.” 

What they’re actually asking:  “Can I join you?”

Now here’s the really fucked up part. If you start explaining to them what you’re doing? They will interpret that as a rejection. 

What you think you’re saying: [the answer to their question]

What they think you’re saying: This is an elite and exclusive activity for a level 5 friend and you are a level 1 acquaintance. You are not qualified to join me because you don’t know all this stuff. Go away.

.

This is why neurotypicals think you’re being cold and antisocial.

IT’S ALL A HORRIBLE MISCOMMUNICATION.

[hilarioushumorfromouterspace]

[whisperstims]

[retrogamingblog2]

Nintendo Controller Pins made by Alagaesha

[cursedpossums]

unrestrained summer fun

[ripe]

[robinsdraw]

Drawing of one soft emo Satan worshipper. I like to call him Nicci^^

(Sorry I haven't posted in so long...)

[nil-elk]

First batch of OC draws for my lovely mutuals. I had so much fun with these characters.  Learned a lot. 💞💞😎✨ Peizhi Wu - @wickedica Ben - @lydiaalin Morv - @about92bleachedrainbows

[sleepys-board]

a lil myatt doodle i did !! felt some myatt loving vibes and this drawing appeared

[picsthatmakeyougohmm]

hmmm

[yourlocalbpdbitch]

My only three moods:

suicidal

horny

suicidal AND horny