ghosts are more visible than i

22 / white / they-them pronouns / pls like readmore's if you read them

[tinaseh]

“Yeti” Rocking Chair by Mario Scheichenbauer for Elam, Italy, circa 1968

[godgavemenoname]

URGENT: DISABLED TRANS BUTCH AND GENDERQUEER BLACK WOMAN NEED HELP ASAP

Our new car just got towed. Yes, the shitty used one we just bought and spent every cent of our savings on. Because there isn't enough disabled parking at our apartment complex and we had to park on the side of the road or walk a very long way, which we can't do because of my chronic pain and my girlfriend's back injury.

The tow place adds on 50$ for every day you can't pick it up from them, so this is time sensitive. (Written as of 4/06/2021)

My girlfriend is trying to reach out to her family but that brings risks of its own, and they have some financial struggles too.

So we're begging... Please reblog this even if you can't donate, and don't donate if you're struggling yourself.

P*YPAL: paypal.me/cryptidfriend105

V*NMO: @crypticangels / @Alyssa-Kennedy-37

C*SHAPP: $RaphaelSchmidt / $AlyssaKennedy96

[indiiiart]

[cuasaithe]

[[more]] idek if the mobile read more pf [[more]] still even works but ah well im such a happy drunk rn and i’m loving it so much

[mexicantransguy]

Ok but as a dysphoric trans man the whole ‘you need dysphoria to be trans’ actually baffles me because even tho I’ve always had severe dysphoria, it didn’t actually help me figure out my gender at all. I usually dismissed my dysphoria as ‘internalized misogyny’ or just not being feminine enough, which actually just caused me worse dysphoria.

You know what made me figure out that I’m trans though? Gender euphoria. The minute I got called a ‘sir’ is the moment that I realized, “shit this feels right.” And at that point I realized that I could no longer deny the fact that I’m not a woman and that I couldn’t keep living as one.

Here’s a hot take: maybe being trans isn’t so much about how uncomfortable you can be in your DGAB, but rather how much more comfortable you can be.

[froborr]

Trans woman chiming in to second this.

I was dysphoric since at least the onset of puberty, but it took me until age 36 to realize I was trans, and it wasn’t the dysphoria that made me realize it. I even knew that what I felt sounded exactly like what dysphoric trans people described. But I dismissed it as self-loathing, depression, unhappiness with my body type.

And just like OP, the dysphoria isn’t how I realized I was trans. That feeling of “this is right, this is what I want” is how I realized I was trans. The realization that wanting to be trans and being trans are the same thing. Only then did it become clear. Only then was I able to start transitioning. And only then did my dysphoria begin to break.

[kropotkindersurprise]

Hello, friend, I'm new to the movement and I was wondering if you could recommend any specific antifa readings? Thank you!

Sure! Here’s some of the books I‘ve read on it. 

These are mostly first-hand accounts from UK antifascists:No Retreat: The Secret War Between Britain’s Anti-Fascists and the Far Right by Dave Hann, Steve Titzey

Beating the Fascists: The Untold Story of Anti-Fascist Action by Sean Birchall

Bash the Fash: Anti-Fascist Recollections 1984-93 by K. Bullstreet

Some books about older antifascist struggles:Homage to Catalonia by George Orwell

The Ghetto Fights by Marek Edelman

Also, I have Militant Anti-Fascism: A Hundred Years of Resistance, which looks more like an international overview, but I haven’t read it yet.

There were also some good articles online about antifa recently but I can’t find them now :/ Any followers care to add any links?

[kropotkindersurprise]

Here is a good article by Manchester antifascists: Antifascism is more than ‘Writing and Fighting’

[kropotkindersurprise]

“You are just as bad as They are” is a good article on antifascism and especially on the arguments used against militant antifascism and the use of violence in confronting fascism.

[kropotkindersurprise]

Confronting Fascism: Discussion Documents for a Militant Movement

From AK Press, free download until the end of January.

[kropotkindersurprise]

Some more good articles:

 Anti-Fascists Will Fight Trump’s Fascism in the Streets - The Nation

Trump and everyday anti-fascism: beyond punching Nazis - ROAR Mag

The limits and possibilities of Anti-Fascism - It’s Going Down

No apologies: anti-racism, multiculturalism and violence - Libcom

[kropotkindersurprise]

Why no platform is still relevant, and the trouble with liberal “anti-fascism”  - Libcom

[kropotkindersurprise]

It’s Not Your Speech, Milo: Understanding the UC Berkeley Protests - Crimethinc 

Anarchists Respond to Trump’s Inauguration, by Any Means Necessary - New York Times Anti-fascist activists take on Trump and the far right: ‘Resistance is our only shot’ - The Guardian  ^^ These two are a fun look at how “moderates” or whatever see antifa at the moment

[kropotkindersurprise]

Meet Antifa, the Most Reasonable People in America - Pacific Standard

Starting an antifa chapter: Practical Organizing for Antifa and Beyond - Antifa Dallas

More Practical Organizing for Antifa and Beyond - Antifa Dallas

An important one: Time to Beef up Defense Against Far-Right Doxxing - IGD

[kropotkindersurprise]

Know Your (Gun) Rights! A Primer for Radicals - IGD

Reaching the Moral High Ground and Finding It Barren

What the fuck is a “rapefugee”? On sexism, sexual violence and the alt-right  - London Antifascists

Punching Nazis Totally Works - Medium

[kropotkindersurprise]

This is good: Forming An Antifa Group: A Manual - IGD

The Anarchists vs. the Islamic State - Rolling Stone

[kropotkindersurprise]

Anti-Racist Neighborhood Watch Manual and Resource Toolkit - IGD

US anti-fascists: ‘We can make racists afraid again’ - Al-Jazeera

Fighting Cops and the Klan: The History and Future of Black Antifascism - Truth-out

Feminism, Fascism, and the Folly of a ‘Fair Fight’ - Novara Media

Claim No Easy Victories: A History and Analysis of Anti-Racist Action - M1AA

Anarchists Are Killing Neo-Nazis in Greece - War is Boring (from 2013)

As the Right Urges You To Fear Refugees, Antifa Are Fighting ISIS - IGD

[kropotkindersurprise]

Liberal Hypocrisy: Berkeley Clashes Should Serve As Warning - IGD

Meditations on American Antifascism - Charles Wofford

How I stopped worrying about riots and learned to love anti-fascist rage - Afrosapiophile

It’s Time for Anarchists to Pick Up A Gun - The Conjure House

Soros, ‘Globalism,’ and Grassroots Revolt: How the Right Uses Conspiracy Theories to Appear Revolutionary - IGD

Prepare & Repair : taking action & keeping safe at rallies, protests & direct actions - Slackbastard

Host a White Supremacist, Risk Chaos From Anarchists - The Chronicle

[kropotkindersurprise]

Local Antifa leader: ‘I fight what’s wrong and I know I’m winning’ - Philadelphia antifascist Daryle Jenkins on antifa and his work of doxxing fascists with the One People’s Project

Another good one on Daryle Jenkins and his great work exposing fascists - Wired

‘It was as if I had peered into hell’: the man who brought the Nazi death squads to justice - The Guardian

Building Working-Class Defense Organizations: An Interview with the Twin Cities GDC - IGD

Collusion Between the Police and Alt-Right Is Inevitable  - IGD

The world has said “No” to Richard Spencer - Antifascist News

Open letter from British YPG fighters on London attacks

[kropotkindersurprise]

Staying Safe & Watching Each Others’ Backs: Security Measures to Keep in Mind - IGD

Berkeley: A Medic’s Report - IGD

Facebook users have found a way to shut down Britain First - The Canary

On Ultras and Militant Structures - IGD

Why Environmentalists Must Be Antifascists - Earth First!

Inside the anti-racist movement that brings the fight to white supremacists - Mother Jones

[kropotkindersurprise]

How To Organize A Street Medic Training

Blunting the Impact of a Knife Attack - Stratfor

Cede No Ground To Fascists - On fighting fascism in your subculture

“Our Women” and the Real Meaning of “White Genocide” - IGD

A Communiqué on Tactics and Organization to the Black Bloc - This one is really good

Antifa aims to preserve safety of community through response

Beyond Alt: Understanding the New Far Right - New York Magazine

[antifainternational]

A list of antifa articles, pamphlets, and downloadable/printable stuff right here!

[cringefailprincess]

no, listen, when I say I want to integrate more specific solarpunk stuff in my life, i don’t mean to ask for yet again new “aesthetic” clothes that now you have to buy or make to show your support of the movement (screw that i’m consuming enough as it is), or more posts about impossible house goals, or whatever, I’m asking you what my options to build a portable and eco friendly phone charger are, im asking you viable tiny-appartment edible plants growing tricks on a budget,  im asking tips to slow down when my mind and society tell me im not fast enough, i don’t need more rich art nouveau amateurs aesthetics or pristine but cold venus project, okay, i know i should joins associations where I am tho i’m constantly on the move, thanks for that, just, you know, can we get a bit more practical ??? how do I hack my temporary flat into going off the grid for the time i’m here

[solarpunk-aesthetic]

Hello! ☀️ Here are a few practical suggestions for stuff you can do: 

Make a bottle tower garden (a small one could do well on a windowsill) 

Make eco-friendly household cleaners

Germinate strawberry seeds and care for the plants 

Grow plants from cuttings (you can grow almost anything this way) 

Make a sun jar 

Grow low maintenance houseplants 

Make a string garden 

Make a wall planter 

Germinate an avocado seed 

Make a shoe pocket garden 

Build a mini solar generator 

Re-grow kitchen scraps 

Find the right solar battery charger 

Recycle old solar cells 

Hope you find something useful in there! I post stuff up from time to time under my diy tag. Feel free to drop me a message if you have any requests!

[jellyfishdirigible]

grow oyster mushrooms on waste coffee grounds (also works with shiitake)

a list of some food plants that can grow indoors with reduced light

windowsill herbs

egg carton seed germination

germinate chayote and keep it as a houseplant (the root, stem, leaves, fruit, and seed are all edible)

choosing a portable solar panel

tips for energy efficient apartment life (but jsyk LED is better than CFL, and a tank bank or expanding water bottle is better than a brick or bottle of gravel)

DIY draft stoppers

DIY solar oven and recipes

evaporative refrigeration

use conkers/horse chestnuts to replace soap and detergents

use baking soda as dry shampoo

cleaning with vinegar do’s & don’ts and common myths

DIY dryer balls

apartment-friendly bokashi composting and DIY bokashi bran

DIY moss terrarium for your soul (ain’t many souls slower or more patient than moss)

and a list of some easy care indoor plants for your nerves

and for your bathroom and your air quality

recycle t-shirts into yarn for your crafts

[photosbynora]

[gatheringbones]

whats up i like putting on ambient forest noises when i go to bed, i like how expansive and unobtrusive it is, also i like all the bird peeps.

[gatheringbones]

here’s the other one i like, the frogs sound like the ones i grew up with and i like the background buzz of the smaller frogs and crickets, plus it’s monotonous enough that you can really go to sleep with it.

this has been. white noise blogging.

[gatheringbones]

here’s a good one if you want to pretend you’re in a goosedown sleeping bag on an air mattress in a mountain cabin with a woodstove chock full of bone dry fir logs and a tea kettle kept on a low grumbling simmer all night. 

[gatheringbones]

back to the basics with this big ass sand dune and ten hours of otherworldly moaning.

[steambastet]

Фигурка “Лесной царь”

[crypticdatesuggestions]

Are you a boy or a girl ?

Not to my knowledge .

[lesoleilluittoujours-deactivate]

@ white people who think wearing eagle feather headdresses is just a costume and doesn’t offend natives, I was at a powwow yesterday and one of the dancer’s who was a war veteran accidentally dropped an eagle feather while dancing and we had to stop the entire powwow, the head man and some other elders had to stop and pray over the feather before picking it up. The guy who dropped the father gave a speech, while almost in tears, about how sorry he was to have dropped the feather and how it represented the choices he had to make in combat and the lives of people that were taken, and he ended up passing the feather on to another young dancer instead of keeping it because he felt so ashamed. This is how much eagle feathers mean to a lot of our nations, and that’s how important it is to native veterans. Wearing eagle feathers as a costume or without having to go through combat is disgusting and you ARE offending our traditions and values. Stop. You cannot understand the importance of our customs and you do not deserve to wear eagle feathers.

[lesoleilluittoujours-deactivate]

Here’s a secret for some of y'all: this post isn’t controversial.

[cuasaithe]

i am too much & too much, in different ways but always it comes out

revolted wasn't the right word, or at least it has dulled to a sour distaste in the back of your mouth that lingers,

but still am i too dilute myself ?

i don't wish to cause any harm but i do not wish to cause harm to myself by feeling i must censor feelings & emotions, whilst in return after being asked to bare myself, being given little more than a crack in the door frame to look through.

i am large and unfeeling and raw and blunt and not static and i am not always know how i am feeling, and i feel too little, get scared easily of feeling but it usually ends or i end up feeling 'too much' and numbness is little better because a void that seperates you from the smallest fragments of joy is a curse no matter what pain it saves you from

they say they love me yet not even a month has passed since we learned of each other's existance. they have said it as the former form of a sentance, with the latter half being i want to die. they have said it and taken it back. they have said it, then chased it with apologies. they have said they will not say

am i just a fuck toy to them ? a body to be broken and then cast aside once conquered ? am i a friend ? do they want me in an entirity or as a fuck toy & an emotional support (this is not entirely fair on them)

they apologise for being 'too much' yet i leave them awkward, not knowing what to say, i feel like i am too much in a sense they are too empathic to deal with my shit and they ask not knowing what exactly they walk into bc i overshare far too fucking much

and they do make me smile & giggle & sing & laugh & content, but what friend of mine does not ?

i don't deserve them but also they do not deserve to deal with shit i thought gotten past but apparently not. It was watered down and accepted maybe but regardless, is now being dredged up, and i'm leave reeling unable to breathe, wishing i could be safe in the embrace of denial

[ptcharliesd]

Traumatized people are often afraid of feeling. It is not so much the perpetrators (who, hopefully, are no longer around to hurt them) but their own physical sensations that now are the enemy. Apprehension about being hijacked by uncomfortable sensations keeps the body frozen and the mind shut. Even though the trauma is a thing of the past, the emotional brain keeps generating sensations that make the sufferer feel scared and helpless. It’s not surprising that so many trauma survivors are compulsive eaters and drinkers, fear making love, and avoid many social activities: Their sensory world is largely off limits.

- Bessel van der Kolk “The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and the Body in the Healing of Trauma (via ptcharliesd)

[5000letters]

one thing i’ve learned is that you can’t make someone: love you, stay with you or be faithful. those are things they’re gonna do or not do all on their own. the only thing you can control is how you give and accept love and and how you leave when you feel like it’s best for you to go 

[vacuumchan]

midnight snack

[rhdchrst]

Kendrick Lamar & SZA - All The Stars