i know the end

22 she/her

[aquamoonstone24601]

i would trade stranger things 5 for shadow and bone season 3 and the six of crows spinoff in an instant

[lloras]

people who dont think its all about love are wrong

[cuntlesstars]

maybe i should've taken that job and stay... but i wanna go but im gonna miss the people so much... it's like a circle where i keep asking myself me or them or us or me or them or us or the memories or the nostalgia or me or them or us or the safe way or the bold way.

don't have an aswer for this. yet.

[kosmogrl]

[septemberminus1]

noah kahan is in every piece of media i currently consume and he is trying to kill me

[noahkahanblog]

and I finally get to stand up there and hear you sing back to me

[cuntlesstars]

i want to see him so bad how do i do

[heavensghost]

Words by Mary Oliver engraved in rock

[cuntlesstars]

i could cry because i'm missing someone in anticipation (she's in the room next to mine) (we're best friends) (i just move out)

[kosmogrl]

everything is changing and maybe that’s okay

[kosmogrl]

as you get older you realise that anything that helps you stop feeling stuck is welcome even if it hurts at first

[cuntlesstars]

trying to take that in bc the change that is about to come terrifies me and i dread it so much that i sometimes don't even recognize myself

[chaesong-hwa]

the great divide is like what if you stayed and it haunted you and what if you left and it haunted you and what if you came back and it haunted you

[cuntlesstars]

randomly told my friend she was smart and she was so surprised she said "really? no one ever told me that" BITCH you're like the smartest person i know how do you not know?? she was so happy, please compliment your friends even if it seems obvious because how did no one ever told her she was smart?????? im mad at the world actually everyone tell her

[cuntlesstars]

in this second episode another friend and i told her she was photogenic and she was once again SOOOO surprised??? even though she always know how to pause and be pretty and not awkward and she runs the activity of taking pictures like the fucking navy. i'm reflecting and thinking on every person in her life and i decided i am a little bit mad at every single one of them for never complimenting her on random things like that

[prydon]

noah kahan's the great divide is like. what if you died and came back wrong but the "death" was you leaving your hometown and the "came back wrong" is the change in the way everyone, including your own parents, perceives you even when you do return and the relationships that have been soured by your absence

[cuntlesstars]

leaving and growing up then coming back to see that your heart and mind are so much more open than all the people you've grown up with and around. it hurts me so bad to come back happy to see people i've missed just to be confronted with the fact that we grew different ways and are just not really compatible anymore. they were my whole life but now when i look at them i just see our differences and it hurts even though i wouldn't do it any other way because i am who i want to be. but fuck why did it mean losing this feeling of belonging.

[stuckinapril]

[loveridden1999]

doing things at the right age is literally a made up concept. you can start/pursue anything at any age. btw.

[loveridden1999]

remember remember

[cuntlesstars]

two years ago i had planned to move to another country and against my will i could not go so i went back to finish my master's degree and live in the city i was for the last 3 years and i did not want to be here, to live here and to study here. for months i wanted to leave and i was so depressed and uni was so fucking hard and i had so much regret about being in this country and this city. hard pill to swallow to stay here when i wanted to move and explore and live AWAY!

but i have to say... two years later i am so so glad i could never go away cause i lived with my best friend for 2 years and i became so close to my closest friends that they are like my family and they make me feel so loved and supported that i feel like i literally found the meaning of life. and in the midst of sadness and regret i found the most precious thing that is love and support and trust and true friendship. i would never for anything in my life change the way things happen even though it was hard at first.

[dragon-in-a-fez]

the thing about being "good with kids" is all it takes is literally just not trying to control and mould them with every interaction. it's just being a normal person and engaging with them through normal interactions like having conversations and playing games. it's just being genuine and friendly and not perceiving them as lumps of wet clay you are there to shape. "oh you're so good with kids" thanks it's because I think they are people

[cuntlesstars]

i stand by this because kids are so fucking easy you cannot be bad with kids really

[fake-guns-blazing]

they should let me listen to music while looking out the window of a train for my entire life

[cuntlesstars]

i have 2 hours of train to go to my internship and 2 hours to come back home and sometimes the night before im honestly excited to be the next day just for this even though i wake up at 6am