killing myself

he/they/it

[cvttcat]

MOSTLY INACTIVE NOW

he/they/it

will be mental illness posting

queer, dumbass, poc

suspected adhd, depression, anxiety, ocd traits, narcissistic traits, dissociation problems, god knows what else

tw for those who dont want to see religious stuff, a lot of my obsessions n shit revolve around religion and shit so blanket warning, i myself am agnostic/atheist but brain loud

occasionally will post ed stuff but mostly recovered

will probably post sh content, am kinda recovering but kinda not idk its complicated

very very very suicidal

NO DISCOURSE PLEASE

will stop posting for days, probably not dead, just depressed and really fucking tired

the mental illness is lowkey ruining my life 😔

send me the vilest hatemail you can think of, transphobic, homophobic, ableist, racist, sexual, shit targeting my deepest insecurities, i dont care, just make it as bad as fucking possible please please please please please please please i fucking need this

call me a fat pig, call me a faker, call me stupid, call me slurs, tell me im a girl, death threats, rape threats, i dont care, just the most vile shit you can think of

[cvttcat]

lowkey wish i was dead but im hopemaxxing anyways :pensive:

[daz3dnp4quita]

im so grateful i never have to be 14 years old ever again

[daz3dnp4quita]

pinterest comment sections r so intolerable why r u all 12 yrs old

[yellow-cat]

actually hate that the bodys response to anything is nausea. ate too much? nauseous. ate too little? nauseous. an imaginary threat got you scared? be nauseous. on your period? you guessed it. sawed into your hand and need to go to the emergency room? perhaps throwing up into your open wound will be of help

[otterb]

my cuts never get infected because I’m pure of heart and full of whimsy

[hellhoundzzz]

Guy who cares a whole damn lot voice: i don't care. It's fine.

[soup-mother]

The prevailing view of suicide and self harm to most parents is basically rapid onset internet illness. Which is ironic given nearly every single person I know who has self harmed or tried to kill themselves has been in large part because of their family, but also not surprising because yeah no shit they're not going to think about their own personal role in making their property kid miserable.

[thlayli-rah]

Hot take but I really do think that some of y’all need to consider how/why/when/how often you’re making fun of straight people for being straight

I do it too, I’m not going to pretend I don’t make jokes about the hets, or the down with cis bus, or whatever

But I recently befriended a cis, straight dude and I have watched him be dismissed, degraded, and unambiguously insulted for the perceived “crime” of being straight — all in queer environments where he is allegedly “completely welcome” and surrounded by “friends”

This guy is not a toxic person! But I have seen him be made to feel so small and like his comfort and safety in those spaces are conditional on his silence and acceptance of being treated like a human dunk zone, and I think that some of y’all have had so much shit from straight/cis people that the second you feel like you’ve got an inch, you want to luxuriate in the perceived catharsis of bullying someone who— actually —doesn’t deserve it

And until he very, very carefully mentioned to me in private that it makes him feel bad, I didn’t even clock that I was involved in doing that, that it had become so instinctive for me to make casual jokes like that, and that— well meaning or otherwise —I had been contributing to an environment that made someone I really really like feel like shit

So, I dunno, I think maybe some of y’all should think about that too

[thlayli-rah]

Coming back to say that while a lot of the responses to this post have been mainly positive, some folks have an attitude that it should be something that my friend— or any cis, straight man —should just be able to get over, because fuck ‘em, that’s why, because they’re in a queer space and they should shut up and accept it, because you suffer as a queer person and they should have to suffer too— regardless of whether or not this specific person has done anything to wrong you

I’m gonna say this point blank— you’re a tar pit if you think this way

Your suffering does not make you special, you are not granted brand new permissions to be belligerent and cruel because you have been treated poorly, straight people aren’t an oppressed class, no, but they’re people who are entitled to the same amount of basic decency that you, yourself, are entitled to

It feels good when you’ve been treated like shit to then go forward and treat other people like shit. That’s what you’re admitting. Does it make you feel good to do harm? Are you proud of that? Are you comfortable with being that kind of person? Because I dunno about the rest of you— but I realized I wasn’t, and it turns out it’s pretty fucking easy to change

[therubberducker]

[pomrania]

[Image in the above post is a comment by @justhappytobequeer which reads "There's a weird thing where people consider the most important part of morality to be societal oppression. And then somehow think that being a jerk to someone who's less oppressed is automatically morally ok and good."]

[drunkndead]

Me with sh: i love pain i love destruction oh i love to see blood this is what i deserve

Me with a papercut: ouch owie ow why is the world so cruel to me ouchie

[cvttcat]

Can we send nice mail instead of hate mail?/gen Not sure if you meant "send hate mail" sarcastically or not.

yes, if you want lol, although im generally in a better state of mind now and im not very active here anymore

i do really appreciate how nice you are though!

[maneatered]

Being alive is very bad for my nervous system.

[notahorseindisguise]

a lot of things seem to happen to the guy whos body i happen to be observing through its own eyes although from afar

[i-suggest-transing-your-gender]

Wishing all trans people with s/h scars to always feel comfortable wearing tank tops and t-shirts and short sleeves and no sleeves and shorts and skirts and never having to apologize for having visible scars ever again

[akashicrecord]

the lesbian computer from portal was right. given the circumstances ive been shockingly nice

[ivy-connivy]

insane like/reblog parity on this post btw

[inkyrainstorms]

Yay

[kale-of-the-forbidden-cities]

[cassieisinthebasementt]

[creature-adjacent]

[tired-shipper]

who ruined it

[youngjusticerulez]

dw i fixed it

[talisidekick]

If you want to stand up for transgender Canadians, then there's a petition to ask the federal government to repeal the acts signed into law that restrict transgender medical care for transgender youth:

You need only be a resident of Canada, not a citizen to sign. Please help us give transgender youth a fighting chance. Their medical care decisions should be between the handling physician and family only. This isn't a matter for politicians to decide.

[quasi-normalcy]

hey, so I would he grateful if people living in Canada could sign this and if non-Canadians could signal boost, please.

[gehayi]

The petition will be closed for signatures on February 16, 2026.

[codotafterdark]

This needs to be boosted.

[cvttcat]

i might be seriously cooked chat