who am i. who am i. WHO THE FUCK AM I
boundaries? I don't know her
if dressing slutty is the only way I can get men to look at me, then So Be It
a new person? THEY'RE A THREAT YOU'RE GONNA BE REPLACED
this is all a dream. it feels so distant it's a DREAM
I'm a burden and everyone is just pretending to like me
either I'm perfect or I should die
I'M SO FUCKING ANGRY AT MYSELF I NEED TO TEAR MY GUTS APART
second guessing EVERYTHING
obsessions. not being able to enjoy anything in moderation
being jealous of everyone who's sicker than you
wanting to hurt yourself and end up at the hospital just to see who will pay a visit
I'm not even that sick, I'm probably just faking it all
your mood depends on other people ENTIRELY
I'M SO HAPPY AND JOYFUL I RADIATE LIGHT
I've never been this suicidal in my life
I'm not good at anything but I'll be a perfect sex object to whoever is desperate enough to want me
splitting on the most important people in your life
this is a movie. things aren't really happening YOU'RE WATCHING A MOVIE
feeling drained after feeling one (1) emotion
guilt. guilt all the fucking time
you're a subhuman. die. no one cares about you anyway
embarrassed? more like humiliated, TIME TO SLASH YOUR SKIN OPEN
feeling like you don't belong anywhere. you never really fit in
I HAD THE BEST IDEA OF MY LIFE then hating it two hours later
taking everything personally
being unable to tolerate uncertainty and criticism
I can control my emotions if everything is strictly under my control 24/7 right??
being impulsive and fucking everything up
not knowing where others finish and you begin