I'm on the borderline of what?

Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD, EDNOS. Recovery is a bitch.. Red head. 25. Inappropriate.Taking life day by day because that's the only way to be happy.

[mental-ch-illness]

one of the worst things about bpd is that it feels like you are not allowed to be upset at things anymore.

[srsfunny]

Masha The Hero

[asryakino]

They forgot the part where the ambulance actually stopped to let the cat in

[booty-uprooter]

oh good I was worried

[dr-dendritic-trees]

What a good cat. What a kind cat. How can anyone not love cats they are so good and loving.

[squibbbly]

they also forgot the part where they only found the baby because masha was screaming her head off bc she knew this baby was in danger. she went around outside the alley the next morning and yelled at passerby until she got one to follow her to the baby. she kept him warm all night and then made sure someone found him. she was adopted after this bc she was a stray and is in a loving home and is a hero

[chokkilissa-nahollos]

i understand that my friends don’t wanna talk every day. i understand that my s/o doesn’t wanna be lovey dovey and super indulgent every day. lots of people need rest from performative emotions. all people need rest in general! it’s okay!! it doesn’t mean they don’t love me!! it’s not a judgement or punishment!! they deserve to take their rest, and they deserve for me to treat their needs with respect!

[opheliabpd]

Workbooks and Self-Help Books for Mental Illnesses & Symptoms

Hello everybody! I was just thinking about how I always recommend people who can’t get therapy to use workbooks, so I thought I’d make a quick list of some you could look at. I’m not comfortable recommending books for things I have not struggled with (like, if I was looking at the description of a book on OCD I’d have no idea if it was good or not) but I think I’ve covered a lot. Some of these are series which have workbooks for specific disorders like bipolar, etc., if you want to find some. Plus, you don’t have to be diagnosed with something to use a workbook if you think it’ll help you.

Workbooks are sometimes made to be done in conjunction with therapy, or something like that, but anyone can still get something out of them if you put in regular work and try to apply the skills.

I’ve linked them all the Amazon because they’re usually cheaper on there.

For reference: DBT = dialectical behaviour therapy, CBT = cognitive behavioural therapy, ACT = acceptance and commitment therapy

Anxiety, Depression, and Intrusive Thoughts

The CBT Anxiety Solution Workbook

The Anxiety and Worry Workbook

The DBT Skills Workbook for Anxiety

The Anxiety Toolkit

Depressed and Anxious: The DBT Workbook

The Mindfulness and Acceptance Workbook for Depression

The Cognitive Behavioural Workbook for Depression 

Overcoming Unwanted Intrusive Thoughts 

The Anxious Thoughts Workbook

Borderline Personality Disorder

The BPD Survival Guide

Stronger Than BPD

You Untangled

Mindfulness for BPD

The BPD Toolbox

Beyond Borderline: True Stories of Recovery 

Interpersonal Problems

The Interpersonal Problems Workbook 

ACT for Interpersonal Issues 

Anger

The DBT Skills Workbook for Anger

The Anger Workbook for Teens

Anger Management for Everyone

ACT on Life Not on Anger

Trauma and PTSD

Overcoming Trauma and PTSD

The PTSD Workbook For Teens

The Complex PTSD Workbook

You Empowered

Self Harm

Freedom from Self harm

Stopping the Pain: A Workbook for Self-Injury

Rewrite: The Journey from Self-Harm to Healing

General Emotional Issues/Multiple Disorders

Letting Go of Self-Destructive Behaviors: A Workbook 

The DBT Skills Workbook

Don’t Let Emotions Run Your Life

The Mindfulness Solution for Intense Emotions

The Mindfulness-Based Emotional Balance Workbook

Thoughts and Feelings: Taking Control of Your Moods Workbook

[lizardywizard]

But now I’m wondering how all these facial recognition algorithms we’re coming up with now are going to take to the Bright New Transhumanist Future

Like, okay, we know Google can recognise dogs. But what about stranger things? Is anyone training these things on lizards?

Imagine basilisks specifically designed to crash these algorithms: abstract-blocks-of-black-and-white-for-heads that, like the QR codes of old, carry a hidden message in their patterning, only it’s a payload, a virus that shreds the system of anyone who tries to capture it on camera, the natural evolution of anti-face-detection camouflage. Imagine things that don’t even have faces, that don’t have an equivalent and easily-cataloguable part; people who deliberately wear mass-produced, identical android bodies, the Guy Fawkes masks of the future.

[mugasofer]

It’s a thing! Turns out, people would rather not look stupid than not be caught by facial recognition.

[wirehead-wannabe]

Somehow they look exactly like you would expect cyperpunk protagonists trying to avoid detection by facial recognition software to look.

[charleypollard]

hillarious dystopian future fashion finally makes sense. or, all scene kids will survive 

[bold]

i understand when ur 13 and u just realized u have a mental illness and ur so relieved to know there are other ppl going thru the same thing as u, its easy to slip into the idea that your newly labeled thoughts and behaviors are normal and okay.

they are not. suicidal thoughts arent normal. violent impulses arent normal. delusions and hallucinations arent normal.

now that you have a name for this behavior you need to seek help. dont let tumblr trick you into thinking unhealthy coping mechanisms are the only ways to deal with your mental illness. dont let it fester, dont let it worsen. seek as much help as you can. actively try to better yourself.

[opheliabpd]

me: *is mindful twice in one week*

me: I am the epitome of recovery

[opheliabpd]

The best thing you can do for a loved one with BPD is to remind them that you care about them. 

Leaving after spending time with them? Tell them you had a great time and can’t wait to see them again very soon. 

Running out of social energy? Send them a text that you’re feeling tired and may not reply for a while, so they know it’s not you ignoring them. 

People with BPD often have a lot of trouble remembering what it feels like to be loved and cared about, even if they experience it a lot, so little reassurances like that could make a huge difference.

[shoppingstars]

do you ever get attached to someone’s routine so you can know if you’re being abandoned or not and also prepare yourself to the moment where the other person is gone? like “oh i have two more hours until they go to sleep, i better be prepared”

[whospilledthebongwater]

You know you’ve really been through some shit when you’re constantly more worried about how someone will react to you presenting an issue you have with them than you are about the thing that upset you in the first place

[whospilledthebongwater]

Didn’t expect this post to be relevant to so many people, damn

[inhale-the-frost]

Hi this is a symptom of abuse and its so shitty to deal with

[fraeuleinrabenschwarz]

Like how are ppl surprised when I show symptoms? I told you I’m mentally ill, what did you expect?????

[guiltygirl]

someone: hey how are you?

me, dissociating: no

[goodreadss]

There is a voice that does not use words. Listen.

Rumi (via goodreadss)

[ghost-of-bpd-deactivated2022071]

You know how people describe bpd with black and white thinking?

 If you don’t have bpd, it is impossible to explain how much this effects our lives. (My life at least because people casually get offended when i generalize what i mean with people like me in mind.)

Just. My point is, I am tired of having no grays.

I either try to starve myself while feeling guilty for not eating healthy or I eat 5 chocolate bars in a row and then spent the rest of the day feeling disgusting and fat.

It is just chocolate. I can’t enjoy a fucking chocholate.

And not just that either;

I don’t go out for months and then one day at a weird ass hour I am out there trying to figure out things to do so I don’t have to go back home any time soon.

I ignore cleaning my room for weeks and then I am cleaning between the tiles with a toothbrush because there may be dirt in there.

I don’t shower for days, sometimes almost weeks, and then I am busy spending an entire day with beauty products because self care is important.

I hate myself for who I became because it is my fault or I hate people who made me this way because it is not my fault.

All I need to get my life back together is just to start doing something but then I see no point in trying because no matter what I do I know it will never be enough to get my life back together ever again.

I am just so tired. That is all I am saying.

[shoppingstars]

interesting facts about bpd

A number of neuroimaging studies in BPD have reported findings of reductions in regions of the brain involved in the regulation of stress responses and emotion, affecting the hippocampus, the orbitofrontal cortex, and the amygdala, amongst other areas.

The hippocampus tends to be smaller in people with BPD, as it is in people with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). However, in BPD, unlike PTSD, the amygdala also tends to be smaller.

The amygdalae are smaller and more active in people with BPD.

One study has found unusually strong activity in the left amygdalas of people with BPD when they experience and view displays of negative emotions.

The prefrontal cortex tends to be less active in people with BPD, especially when recalling memories of abandonment.

Cortisol production tends to be elevated in people with BPD.

A 2003 study found that women’s BPD symptoms were predicted by changes in estrogen levels throughout their menstrual cycles, an effect that remained significant when the results were controlled for a general increase in negative affect.

Adults with borderline personality disorder (BPD) showed excessive emotional reactions when looking at words with unpleasant meanings compared to healthy people during an emotionally stimulating task, according to NIMH-funded researchers.

Are often found thyroid antibodies and generally low levels of vitamin B12 in BPD patients.

Psychiatrist Harold W. Koenigsberg about the brain activity in BPD people: “These patients can not use the same parts of their brains as the healthy people when they need to regulate their emotions, which may explain why their emotional reactions are so extreme”.

Think better before saying someone with BPD is just being dramatic.

[bpdminds]

NT emotions vs BPD emotions

[wildfairy]

The year you wrote about flowers and meant blood, the year you were quiet about everything that hurt.

Trista Mateer, THE YEAR OF SMOOTH DISHONESTY, [redacted] (via wildfairy)