💚 '❜ (≧w≦) ♡ ̆̈༉‧₊˚.┆call me RAIIIN┆she/her┆twst + Kuro⊹ ♡yumeshipper
💙 ੈ Artist!!⸝⸝ ⋅˚₊‧ ୨୧ ‧₊˚ ⋅ malleus’s &; idia’s wife
(sebciel truther...)
DNI IF ANTI!!
IF YOU SEE SOMETHING U DONT LIKE BLOCK DONT REPORT!! <3
@deafeningdreamatmosphere for my system collective <3.
.. i hate when my asethetic is ruint by em..
THE tsunshun and ojoudere of tumblr invites you to learn about her! be honored!
FYI!: if you have an basic dni list. i hit multiple things. block dont report~
#INTRO
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hii !! this is my ONLY blog!!!— here i post a little bit of everything usually fandom because im not creative at all!!!,, i'm more aimed towards the jirai communities of tumblr— (TW!!! mentally ill stuff might be talked about here.)
Note: I am currently questioning plurality, tread carefully! @deafeningdreamatmosphere for my system blog
to know more, click under the cut <3
also pro shipper/dark shipper or whatever you want to call it!1 block, dont report <3 thnks u
NON-SHARING YUMESHIPPER W/ IDIA SHROUD AND MALLEUS DRACONIA
(user boxes made by melonshake!! in a art trade)
about me
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꒰ঌ ໒꒱[ blewhh,, ,useless landmine!!!, non-sharing yumeshipper (malleus + idia)!!!!, and i kin ciel phantomhive a bit.] ꒰ঌ ໒꒱
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HIHIHII NAMES RAIN/FUA
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extras:
(That's our Hostess speaking! im non-host. lethe.. :/ she de-fronted before she could fix things. boo her for me).
She/her (Cis)
Straight (?)
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anything with an * denotes how much i like it~ 4 star is the most and one star is the least
Perfered pet names/titles for rain:
****Earl
****lady
*****your grace
****sweet lady
****darling
****sweetheart
****beloved
*baby
*babe
**honey/hun
*pal/mate/buddy/bud
****french terms
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my theme is made by me + all the art on this blog should be mine unless reblogged!!!!
my silly lil timezone is GMT+3!
alsooo i also tolerate ZERO drama on my blog , if you’re trying to create , engage drama— keep it to yourself , also if your a anti.. just in general. dont leave a ask or report!!. just block and lets move on!
tws !! jiraiblr ~ + (i block freely)
feel free to block me
on that note i dont care who interacts but i do have my own personal likes and dislikes, therefore no hard feelings if i block without reason or dont interact with you!!! :3 but dont always think i dont interact w/ you on purpose sometimes im really busy!!
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I'd say my main fandoms are; Black bulter and twisted wondelrand first and foremost!!! and SVSSS, and MDZS, HSR
Anime or games played: Apothecary diaries, School babysitters club, Hetalia, Madoka magica. Girls Und Panzer, Disasterous Life of Saiki k, Ouran High School Host Club, Land of the lustrous, Fabulous beasts on billbilli, SVSSS, MDZS, TCGF, 2HA, HSR, Genshin, Twisted wonderland, Black bulter, Kid in the Back, Obey!me:one master to rule them all, I might be forgetting some!! ~~
Tags!! (Idea from jiraibilly!!)
#``⊹₊˚ This feels like more of a sitting down conversation..‧``- Yapping
#``⊹₊˚ Mystery after mystery!‧``- BLACK BULTER
#``⊹₊˚ an world within its own‧``- TWISTED WONDERLAND
#``⊹₊˚ a weeping sky for a dreary soul``- Me only posts!!
#``⊹₊˚‧ People rarely bring flowers to a suicide ``- vents
I'm very pro recovery so if you recover and find that my blog is triggering. and leave its okay! im happy for you! but Im menhera though….
~ ((this does not mean im recovering.)) ~
I stopped self harm but i'll talk about SH, suicide very bluntly and do not censor; my stuff will be TRIGGERING!! :(
total otaku and Im 100% an makegumi! I wont probably get married or hit the big milestones. will remove if im proven otherwise <3
DONT TALK TO ME ABOUT RECOVERY AS A JIRAI!!!!! (thank you to melonshake on tumblr for mentioning this).I HATE HATE hate forced recovery, I was found to be mentally ill and it only made me mask harder lol
hihihi lethe..!!! so I realised that. ur a proshipper.. but. it’s ok. bc I think you’re cool, and I have a flimsy dni + I lit followed u first so it’s totally fine 😍😍
sorry that I’m a dumbass
-guess who
(I like twst n im a Floyd yumejoshi)
umhuhmhumh idk.. but.. your writing style is so familiar i feel like i should know...
my family doesn't know about my tumblr and i intend to keep it that way (+ my paypal is actually my brothers paypal..)
SO what I need everyone who commissions me to do.. is pretend we met on youtube/pinterest (Heres the link to the ads posted there: YOUTUBE and PINTEREST).
need you to go comment or whatever. even something short like "im interested" so i can redirect you to my kofi…!
heyyyy back again to clarify idc if peeps ship like whatever as long as its not incest or minor x adult unless the ship is specifically done to show the harm being done to the minor or abuse victim (like dark ships idk) as I feel that the ships that are dark and show the suffering of them are cool as like ya know showing the mental affects of victims of abuse but thats just my opinion plus im anti contact and pro recovery so yuy 👍 also its fiction
heyyyy so im not the same anon but realized ur a proshipper but like do u ship minors x adults or incest? This is like the barebones of my dni and it u arent then we chill jst kinda dumb over on my end
-not the same anon but similar question
I am pro-shipper/dark-shipper. that is what that label exactly implies. i dont have any yet. bc i didnt find any one that i really like.. other then sebciel..
thank you for being an civil person,
but this isn't dircted to you (you have good intentions. clearly..)
but let me make this clear for any anti
do we ship REAL people who have REAL feelings and are hurt by REAL situations no.
do we ship fictional characters with fake feelings and fake situations and cannot be hurt no matter how much you like or get attached to them? yes.
Do I have to describe what an experience of a actual real victim like in detail for antis to understand the difference between a real victim and pixels on the screen for an anti to understand?
if anyone seeing this is an anti or that conflicts with your boundaries: the 'Block' button is right there, block dont report/dont interact. Have a good one
If you don't like something, then scroll this blog in specific isn't going to carter to you, nobody, so just block "but what about" block them
in my case. with antis. its always pulling the same "im doing this for the victims" etc etc! they dont actually care. they never do.
Anti-ship/anti-darkship/anti-proship care so much about representation in fictional media that they start harassing real group of minorities!!
Antis constantly complain about pro and darkshippers having safe spaces. Why don't we talk about the antis' so-called "safe space," where they spread false information, label us horrfic things, harass, dox, and do a variety of other things over fiction..???
also this is the only post i'll make of this (idk if my other headmates will...) but i have to say: heres a pattern for you.
Anti blog: will always mention proshippers/darkshippers etc etc, "i argued w/ so and so!" or "i spent my day arguing w/ so and so" or "report this!". i remember a anti-sebciel blog half of their posts werent about them or what they liked it was just arguing with others
Proship blog: you can't usually tell an proship blog dni right away. why? because they DONT make it their entire personality!! they treat their "ships" like its normal bcz it is. because its fiction.
Again sorry anon. this isn't directed towards you. ur an good person for checking w/ us
hihihi lethe..!!! so I realised that. ur a proshipper.. but. it’s ok. bc I think you’re cool, and I have a flimsy dni + I lit followed u first so it’s totally fine 😍😍
sorry that I’m a dumbass
-guess who
(I like twst n im a Floyd yumejoshi)
umhuhmhumh idk.. but.. your writing style is so familiar i feel like i should know...
Hi Lethe! You don't have to answer this immediately as I saw the recent post..but I jst wanna say your borders are really pretty! I haven't seen anyone do belphie actually
Anyways, I'm gna go sleep.. goodnight or goodmorning for you!
belphie is my personal favorite, n f/o n comfort character.. but it was hard to find like. pngs and stuffs of him
so.. thank you. im not really artsy per say, thats rains thing so i took way longer then she would have...
fronting and having to deal with being bodily female is genuinely the worst part of being system manager.
i hate it here. i hate that i'm male but i'm physically reminded of this every month. it's not even just the pain, it’s the dysphoria.., can i just not??
umm hi. im fronting. but i just wanted to give the general public an intro to how we got here.. look in the intro for my stuff,
also if you want to leave an ask. please say whose its for. is it for rain or lethe
also im lethe. ok thnks
internal communication logs
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also me n rain have different themes but shes keeping her ciel theme. but i had to make my theme myself but im not artistic.. im kinda novice at this stuff.. i tried to ask her but she said no..
TW CURSING, SH MENTION (NON GRAPHIC NON PHOTO, JUST TEXT MENTION)
um im questioning plurality. im not rain rn.. so i just came here because
my family doesn't know about my tumblr and i intend to keep it that way (+ my paypal is actually my brothers paypal..)
SO what I need everyone who commissions me to do.. is pretend we met on youtube/pinterest (Heres the link to the ads posted there: YOUTUBE and PINTEREST).
need you to go comment or whatever. even something short like "im interested" so i can redirect you to my kofi…!
Never mind answer (here) gotten + idia draconia potenial answer? (reposted from jirai 9.0)
yo ever catch yourself callign yourself by "We"/"our" but not in a they/them way??
or feeling like theres more then one you w/ absloutely DIFFERENT opinons? like what. i dont agree with this.
sometimes in my head im like "ugh i wish i could be vegan meat is so gross." but i FUCKING love meat?? thats not me ? is this intrusive thoughts? i mean i deal w/ intrusive thoughts.. but like they dont sound like that
or find yourself arguing in ur head w/ someoen w/ your voice. but differing opinons and its like: wow my head LOVES making bullshit to get mad about!! i dont have time!!for!!this!! i mean.
yes i did go by they/them once in the past.. but i dont currently use it because its not me, and im in love w/ she/her, its like me,.. but sometimes i feel like i should go by he/him! but i dont WANT to be he/him.
but sometimes i go on my blog upset "oh why are they calling me by she/her" but at the same time.. I LOVE she/her and I hate he/him and would hate if someone called me she/her so what is happening?? thats not my usual thoughts but sometimes i do think it.
or feeling like im not happy w/ my apperance/aesthetic despite really liking it. not in the "this looks bad way" but in the "This isn't me" execpt it is. i like this aesthetic. so why do i hate it some days to the point of feeling dysphoric
im so annoyed
does this have an name: its intrusive thoughts right.. but they present differently with me usually. so im confused
extra notes:
So i know intrusive thoughts are not like this but my intrusive thoughts can get violent but i didn't want to mention them at the risk of triggering someone.
but like tamer ones would be .. still censored for good
but extra info would be:
i mean i do remember sometimes feeling like i dont remember going to events or behaving in certain ways. or asking to be called certain names that my friends/family swear up and down that i said i did want to be called.
i always just said thats ego-dystonic thoughts but the way its presenting now??
like i mean FUNDEMENTAL things wanting to be changed one day despite me not wanting it to change
also i have to say these things feel like actual desires (like wanting a different name or gender expression), just... not my desires
