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The Incident on January 8th
The Incident on January 8th
I’ve always been a good girl. This girl sitting alone at a bar, writing a blog entry, is still a virgin and is ready to lose it. These past couple weeks I’ve just been sitting here, the first bit of adult experience has been in these chairs, having two alcoholic drinks a day, conversing with people next to me.
Even at 25, I’ve never experienced sleazy guys hitting on me. As a lonely woman, I…
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11/14/18: Mercari
Dear Readers,
If you can’t afford to buy nice things when they’re new and don’t mind used products, try Mercari. As you read this, I would like you to know that I’m using my new (used) Microsoft Surface Pro 2. (See? It’s not even the most recent version.) I got the keyboard from a different seller because I specifically wanted a red keyboard. I don’t even know why; ever since I saw them using…
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10/27/18: The Homeless Situation
10/27/18: The Homeless Situation
I’m not a very educated person; you’d think that as an Asian with glasses, I’d have all the answers, but I suck at math and when I take shots in the dark, I’m wrong most of the time. I don’t have any facts or statistics about the current issue with homelessness in my city. I just know that most of the time, you will be asked on the street if you’ve got spare change. That’s why I started this…
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9/12/18: An Actual Purpose
9/12/18: An Actual Purpose
This morning, I was mulling over an experience that happened last night: I was at the bus stop after work and I saw a homeless man riding his bike. He slowed down once he got to me, asking for spare change, which is actually a normal thing, unfortunately. I told him the truth, and what I tell every homeless person who asks me for money: “I never carry cash on me.” I did, however, have coins,…
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7/4/18: My Experience with Depression (Not a Purpose)
7/4/18: My Experience with Depression (Not a Purpose)
What is depression? I’m no expert, but here’s what I do know:
Depression isn’t something you can learn from a textbook, or even someone else’s account. It’s something you must feel alone; something you must experience yourself, in your own way, to fully grasp the concept.
It’s ignoring one of your biggest mantras: “A life full of regrets is a waste of a life.” Depression is your logical half…
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6/28/18: Treat Yo’ Self
6/28/18: Treat Yo’ Self
I’ve wanted an iPad Mini 4 for a while now; in fact, it’s probably been almost a year. I don’t know what came over me. At one point, I saw this video about cooking and there was a woman who was using her small tablet to read the recipe and I thought, Huh, that’s cute. I suppose ever since that moment, I’ve wanted one of my own. Then, I was watching Melissa & Joeyand in the episode, Mel had been…
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4/25/18: Is He or Isn't He?
4/25/18: Is He or Isn’t He?
Recently, Park Guy–screw it, I’ll just name him Parker–reached out to me. He attempted to a call me a couple times, but I guess, with our history, he got nervous. Understandable, considering it didn’t end well. But he finally perked up the courage to tell me he wanted to meet up in person and apologize. He said he needed closure, and, while I didn’t think I needed it, I’m glad I accepted his…
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3/12/18: Faith
Before I graduated from college, I went to church on an almost-weekly basis. My family was very close to the Korean church back in Michigan before we moved out to Cali. Even today, they keep in touch with their best friends. I was always one of the kids who would tag along, mainly because the adults would always speak for me in terms of what I believed. I mean, that makes sense, because it’s part…
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1/6/18: Baggage
A few weeks ago, I was inadvertently involved in a love triangle. Well, I can’t really say “love” triangle, since I barely had any part in it. There was a certain coworker of mine with whom I thought I was friends, with a potential to add a “best” in the title. We exchanged numbers with the intent of hanging out outside of work, which never happened. During our verbal exchanges through text, he…
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11/25/17: Laptop Cameras
Nowadays, a majority of us have them. They come with most of our cell phones, our tablets, our computers. We think we’re safe with them all the time, as long as the camera isn’t technically on. Let me tell you a funny story. Well, not funny then, but definitely now, from my perspective. It may make some of you uncomfortable, since it involves, ahem, personal pleasure…but it happened. If he had…
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10/16/17: Me Too...
10/16/17: Me Too…
(Disclaimer: TRIGGER WARNING.) Most of you who have at least one form of social media probably know about the “Me Too” movement raging all over Facebook and Twitter. The point of it is to show how many people have been sexually assaulted or harassed, so we wouldn’t feel so alone. It’s a way of coming together as a community to show that there are other people out there who go through this…
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5/2/17: How to Take Heartbreak
5/2/17: How to Take Heartbreak
I’ve never really had my heart broken, so the experience is new to me. I thought I recently did, but it turns out a specific conversation just coincidentally took place during a series of depressive episodes. The “heartbreak” turn into one in itself, but I don’t specifically call it “heartbreak”, hence the quotation marks. Before I get into it, I have to say that I’m going to try to keep this…
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3/20/17: Online Dating, Part III
3/20/17: Online Dating, Part III
I know it has been a while since I last checked in, but a lot has happened, as you may expect. I recently got a job and, since it’s my first, I’m learning the ropes of actual adult life, so that’s good, for an almost-24-year-old. One thing that has been going on is I met someone on OkCupid. We met sometime toward the end of December, but have been talking ever since. We were Facebook-official by…
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12/29/16: Cyberbullying
As a few of you may know, I love karaoke. Not the go-out-to-the-bar, but stay at home and sing on the iPhone app. I didn’t usually, until I realized I love singing more than learning the accompaniments to songs. That’s why I haven’t cancelled my weekly subscription even though I never have time for it anymore. Another thing you should know is when my voice usually sounds good: evening, which I…
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12/22/16: When you have the upper hand, you don't come first
Howdy! Guess who's back! To my devout readers, thank you for sticking around during this hiatus (I got a couple NEW readers even when I wasn't actively posting, so welcome!). I got busy with school, which I didn't realize would take such a toll, but I'm back with a more realistic promise of posting. I know that means it wouldn't be a "DAILY Purpose", but I still like the name, don't you? The effort will still be there, especially since we're all on winter break, but once school starts back up (I've only got two classes lined up, so that should make it easier this time around). To be honest, I didn't expect to jump back in today, but I thought of a lesson, so had to sign on.
Today, I almost ran over a bike rider and he looked young and healthy, from what I gathered in the five seconds I saw him. What happened was, I had to make a right turn and he was headed to the crosswalk of the street I was turning into. A part of me forgot that when you're driving, pedestrians have the right of way and, for you young'uns who aren't aware of what that means, they go first and the driver waits.
I have good news and bad news here: bad news is I got this close to hitting someone with my car and I wouldn't have known his condition if he hadn't sped past the back of my car as if nothing had happened, which is the good news. He didn't fall right after, so hopefully he didn't collapse from a heart attack a while afterwards. In fact, the worst I hope he got from it was shock. Anger even, which is understandable. Throughout the rest of my drive, I mostly felt relieved (although I've seen enough fictional dramas to know that while it may seem like he was okay in the aftermath, he could have lasting effects...somehow).
Point is, that was just me thinking of myself. He's okay, just drive on. There may be some witnesses who judge you for it, but you know they're right.
Looking back, I figured out why I was so rushed. At first, I told myself, "Just go slower next time and let the bicyclist pass first. You sped. You rushed. That was your issue." But then I found another mantra that I think could also be applied to the real world.
There's a reason why California law states that pedestrians have the right of way. I know that cyclists aren't pedestrians per se, but motor vehicles can still dominate if the two collided. That being said, the rules are clear: I should have allowed the biker his two seconds to pass first and then made my turn. There was no rush, yet I felt the need to hit the gas pedal and for what? To get home faster?
Purpose: When you have the upper hand in ANY situation, you don't come first anymore. I admit that I was selfish when I deliberately decided to make that turn before the bicyclist could cross. If he had hit me, that would have been my fault because I should have waited, and there's a handful of witnesses who would've backed him up. It doesn't matter if I'm the woman and he was the man. It doesn't matter if I was shorter and younger while he was taller and older. On the road, drivers have the utmost authority, next are bicyclists, and then pedestrians. Simply put, it was HIS near-death experience, not mine. So I guess you can say I learned my lesson. Here's to hoping it sticks, for the sake of human life.
Sarah W.
8/1/16: Don't be the person nobody goes to in times of mental need
8/1/16: Don’t be the person nobody goes to in times of mental need
Trigger Warning: I reference my personal experience with depression, cutting, and suicide. While it is a good creative writing tactic, being someone whom nobody goes to for advice or relies on for support is never what you want. You shouldn’t anyway. After all, don’t you want to be the first person a loved one goes to when something goes horribly wrong in their lives? You might think that part…
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7/31/16: ASMR Therapy
Ever since middle school, I found that I enjoyed this tingling sensation whenever I heard a whisper with the right amount of softness to it. At first, it was when my English teacher was whispering to me (or a classmate, if he was close enough) about an assignment during a quiet study session. Sometimes, I even considered raising my hand just to ask him something I already knew, but I didn’t want…
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