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wait- d3rlord and Avery. Except Avery lives life as normal (but is also depressed and thinks der is dead dead) and eventually plays Minecraft again/visits Derek’s original world to try and ‘get over it’ or smth, and Derek is THERE mildly insane ofc and has a growing obsession with Avery (bc he makes him feel Sane and Normal and not like the All of like Basically Everything Everywhere is going to make him explode even if his mind can technically handle it bc Hastur is there to (and also being an asshole dw abt it) and Avery being the Kind Little Guy he is is just accidentally feeding into it, Derek figures out how to travel between Minecraft worlds, and the people in Avery’s life are at first really excited for him bc he’s no longer depressed but get Major Concern now Avery isn’t interacting with anyone or really taking care of himself and is just Playing Minecraft. Smth smth friends try to be good for Avery and drag him out of the house (at this point we’re like 2-3 months into this sitch) and in a blind and mildly obsessive panic of being alone again and with all the Knowledge coming in, Derlord figures out how to get out of Minecraft and follow Avery around and watches bim have fun with his friends (both getting unreasonable jealous (he’s a/part god now after all) but also is vaugely reasonable bc it’s good for him to be out of the house and with friends, and gets mad af when he finds out abt Avery not taking care of himself) than they fight when Avery gets home and Derek reveals him being able to move through and control devices by *turning on Avery’s Webcam so he see him* which freaks Avery out obvy, but Derek is obsessive and just keeps talking to and watching Avery through increasingly ridiculous methods. But eventually things even out and become Mostly Okay but it’s still Unhealthy and the two are Very Much codependent with each other Derek mostly for sanity and needing contact outside of ‘unhelpful god’ and Avery in an emotional and ‘this computer man tells me when and how to care for myself bc otherwise I won’t’ (both bc Avery struggles with self love/care and bc Avery also wants to spend every waking moment with Derek and I Need Permission To Leave kinda bs) Also Derek totally hacks people and banks to wire Avery money so he doesn’t have to leave the apartment for work, and gets groceries delivered and it’s over kinda vaugely healthy (In the way they treat each other) but also Very Very Bad (smth smth trama bond, codependent)

Headcannons and Ideas: T!Avery with body dysmorphia, Avery with bad parents, resulting in a slightly more extreme power dynamic than what is already being discussed, Avery who despite being very motivated for the people he loves- immediately folding when they want him to do smth bc that’s how you ‘prove you love them’ to his brain, Avery who crys when people get mad at him, Hastur who’s just here for the ride and is a little shit the whole time, Hastur with completely unhealthy and godlike views and sees consumption/merging (of minds, body’s are frivolous) as romantic and the ultimate show of devotion, Derek who Needs Avery (his boy <3), Derek who’s literally insane w/out Avery, Derek treating Avery as younger than he is, Derek as eldest child of his family, parentified eldest sibling Derek, Derek’s love for his siblings is the only kind of love he’s ever felt so that’s kinda his baseline (not in a creepy or freaky way, he just loves them and has never romantically or obsessively loved b4), Good Big Brother Derek, Avery enjoys being treated as smaller than he is (in a ‘I enjoy being loved as a small and silly thing’ but also freaky cuz trama does Things to you) not like a daddy kink tho- Just I like being loved and allowed to be silly and childish and still loved while it happens kinda stuff. Derek is a Freak, he watches Avery do all sorts of stuff, Demisexual Derek. also I changed my mind, Avery doesn’t have to be trans, but I don’t want him to like himself in basically any way, Derek helps, yippee more codependency! Idk man I’m tired but if anyone wants to do smth with any this nonsense feel free- but link me PLZ

#awtde #sfawtde #dawtde #averythemayo #d3rlord3 #fanfic #Hastur #king in yellow #the king in yellow

chernozemm

I think there's a great chance the existence of mirrors/reflective surfaces silently fucks Rocky up.

Like, Grace is in the bathroom, shaving, the curtain pulled to the side and suddenly he stops and says "stop touching my stuff". Rocky, frozen, somewhere behind him, can't fathom how Grace sensed that. He was so quiet. The razor is so loud. Grace's still facing away from him. What the fuck.

Grace repairing some panel or other and asks for a tool. Without even turning around, he says "no, not that one, the one to its left". Rocky's like are you shitting me. I know for a fact your hearing is ass. You can only see in one direction and I'm not in it!! What?!

skaylanphear

Okay but teacher Grace on Erid having very little say in which kids get filtered into his class, though he is aware that the selection process is super specific and that most of the kids he gets are high performers with star academics and some even with influential parents. He isn't quite comfortable enough with Eridian culture yet to object to the selection process and make it more inclusive, however. That is, until he learns about the special needs kids.

Obviously, there are Eridian kids with special needs, and a few of them even filter into his classes. But one specific type of special needs kid has never shown up in his classes, and the only reason he even learned of the condition is because Rocky and Adrien's first pebble has the condition.

It's initially quite a struggle for them to deal with, and Grace sympathizes of course, because the child will apparently have huge learning and academic struggles and will likely never be able to live on their own. That is, until he learns the details of the disability.

Basically, it's a condition where the part of the Eridian brain that gives them their eidetic memory isn't fully developed, and so these kids just... can't remember things the way most eridians do. And in a culture where an eidetic memory is the norm, all things cater to that, so not having that is actually a massive disability.

But Grace is like, so... this kid just learns the same way a human does, or something like. Which is nothing new to him, though he is somewhat boggled at how much Rocky and Adrian struggle with their infant and their "slow" learning curve, even as far as initial developmental stages. Grace, on the other hand, simply treats the kid the same way he would a human infant, and Rocky and Adrien are impressed with his patience.

But, through this, it occurs to Grace that there must be other kids out there with this disability who likely aren't getting the attention and chances in life that they deserve, because Eridian culture is particularly hostile toward this disability, and actively views those with it as unable to function in regular society.

So Grace demands that a special course be put together where he teaches kids with this disability specifically. Rocky is hesitant, as most kids with this disability are home schooled and kind of... kept shut away. But Grace insists and as one of Erid's saviors, he gets what he wants eventually.

His first class is super small, maybe only three kids because so few parents were willing to advertise that their children have this disability. And because of the stigma around it, even those who agreed to it are super unsure and want to be present during the lessons, perhaps paranoid about the impression it will leave on Savior Grace, who is so accustomed to only teaching the most gifted students.

But Grace knows exactly how to deal with these kids. Some of them have varying degrees of function when it comes to their memory banks, which isn't so unlike teaching kids on earth. And so Grace is able to introduce all these tools and teaching techniques that were previously unheard of on Erid (though very normal on Earth) like having textbooks for reference with you at all times and having strategies that are less focused on memorization for understanding, and providing these kids with tools like calculators and teaching them the art of taking notes to look back on, etc etc.

Suddenly, with all these tools that most Eridians don't need, these kids are learning at a much faster rate, and succeeding with the help of all their little tools. And because so many normal eridians are ignorant of Grace's actual biology, it's shocking to them that Savior Grace doesn't have an eidetic memory either (shocking to everyone but Rocky anyway)--that his brain functions quite similarly in capacity to these "disabled" children.

Once this news gets around, suddenly there's more kids in his special classes, and there's all kinds of discourse being inflamed because the real reason these kids can't live on their own or function is lack of support from Eridian society.

If Savior Grace, who is well respected as a genius in his own right amongst the Eridians, can function so successfully, they why can't these kids?

I dunno, I just think it's an interesting premise.

I do not read angst for the love of the game. I read angst so it may sink its sharpened teeth into my mind and chip off pieces to reside there, so nails sink of my flesh and tear at my heart and sink behind my eyes so I weep like a tired child, so that the story can sink its hands into the weeping wound between my ribs and scrap out the rot till the wound is fresh and the hands can push further to grasp the aching monsterous thing that crys and claws in my ribcage like a trapped thing and pull it out like something born to be horrid and broken and dying before it was even formed enough to sharpen teeth. I am rotting and the angst (with just enough comfort to make you weep) makes me fresh yet aching

kaomojiloser

rocky learns how to do a keyboard “smash”

hikari-ni-naritai

In Japanese, they don’t say “moon,” they say “tsuki,” which literally translates to “moon,” and I think that’s how language works.

rainbowgod666

Hey its been at least 9 years anything changed?

hikari-ni-naritai

nope! all quiet on the linguistic front. i am a girl now though

campersart

"I don't know if I can believe in something that might not even exist." "Then believe in me..."

lightyearssurrogatedaddy

HELLO???? IS THAT THE D3RL0RD3 HELMET???? THAT'S THE THIRD REFERENCE TO DAWTDE IN THIS VIDEO WAIT THIRTY MMINUTES GUYS A THEORY IS BREWING MAYBE DEREK. ALSO WHY YELLOW HUH???? WHY YELLOW FOR THE LEVIATHAN???? ANSWER MEEEEE WHAT THE FUCK THIS DEFINITELY CONNECTS BACK TO THE DMS CMON GANG WHAT THE FUCK is derek under the DMS being forced to engage with weird deities helllo hello hello on the server with the MOST reported sightings of the leviathan hello what hello

yellow-salamander

wifies arg has me going crazy because if you listen at around the 1:05 mark para asks wifies “what do you mean we’ll bring it back” (about the redstone) and just. hummer was probably never there huh. he’s no more real than the leviathan is.

and that makes it hit so much harder when wifies tells him “I don’t know if I can believe in something that might not even exist” and hummer responds “then believe in me.”

because as the viewer, once you catch the fact that hummer NEVER interacts with anyone other than wifies, you can’t be sure if he exists, any more than wifies is sure the leviathan exists. and suddenly you’re not sure about anything at all.

EDIT: he NEVER JOINS. he NEVER JOINS THE GAME. AT ANY POINT IN THE VIDEO.