If he had been with me ꪮ��̣̣̥⠀| ̥̈◟ ͜�� ⠀
Synopsis:- in which a lingering question keeps you up....... ͡ ͜͝⌣◌
ʚɞ Pairings :- m.kaiser x fem you
"So what do you want as your birthday gift ??"
"Ofcourse i do I never forget about people I care about."
Something warm fluttered in Kaiser's chest at that confession, something that he would never admit he felt.
"I don't want much but if i could eat those casseroles of yours"
"Oh come on." His eyes held playful annoyance.
"Ugh fine you know I can't say no to you."
"Micha what the hell happened to your face???"
He looked so broken , so small . He hugged you , his face in the crook of your neck, he lets out a shaky breath of relief as if he was finally safe.
"I'm so sorry that happened to you kaiser that too on your birthday come in!!"
"Can I just stay like this for a while........ please."
"Whatever you want, just know I'm always standing there with you ,kaiser i would not leave you , ykw as another birthday gift you can ask me for another birthday gift."
Look at you comforting kaiser with words you yearned to hear.
Please never leave me, now that's what he wanted to ask but it felt too selfish, too much for someone like him so he just settled for───"please always make those casseroles of yours every Christmas."
"Oh sure, but i also want a promise in return, i know you're leaving for bastard munchen trials , god knows when you'll be back . Can I ask for you to come back to visit me once........ please."
"Tsk that's given i promise."
When the distractions of his stardom fade and he's left to his own devices, you often plague his thoughts.
If someone were to ask kaiser what is his biggest regret his thoughts often trail to you.
The little girl from his hometown, the only one who knows about his family situation, the only one who has seen him ugly cry and scream till his throat went raw the only one who could back then make his life a little bit easier, the only one who never judged him.The girl who would feed him warm meals even when the world rejected him.
The girl who knew kaiser and not the god's chosen emperor.
No one beside him knows that he was tatted all up in your favourite flowers .
You mentioned it once , in running, he always made sure to get them for you whenever he could.
But he eventually grew out of that small old hometown, he had the option to go back to you, to go back to his home but now he had a reputation to hold up to , he was god's chosen emperor and emperor know no vulnerability.
Vulnerability is forbidden in his realm.
But one specific christmas eve when it all got too much for him, when he felt empty returning to trophies that were starting to loose their significance for him, he finally collected the courage to book a flight to him hometown, to you.
It had been years, he didn't recognise the unfamiliar yet familiar roads anymore, he went to your house only to find out that you had moved to a different vicinity.
After a grueling 3 hours of asking around for any clue of you and relying on foggy fragments a person recognised your name and was kind enough to lead him to your whereabouts, leaving him at the start of your block but not before shattering his world and stomping on his heart.
You had been married for a years now and had two scallywag kids and a decent husband.
The distance from the start of your block to your house wasn't that far, measly took 3 minutes but for him it felt like eternity, an eternity without you.
Every step was getting heavier with the onus of his reality, the blue rose bouquet on his hands suddenly felt too prickly, he finally reached your doorstep, one could easily peek inside the living room form where he was standing.
He could see the beautiful warm meals you had prepared for your family, you wore a beautiful smile that was once was directed to only him. His eyes drifted to the table── casseroles those same ones......looks like you kept your word.
He looked at your husband a man with kind eyes tucking a loose strand behind your ear and just like that your whole demenour turns more chirpy and you learn your head against your husband while your kids try to steal pudding from your plate.
He tried to look at your face again but it was getting blurry for him all of a sudden and there was this lump in his throat that wasn't going away no matter how hard he was swallowing.
Oh he remembered that feeling all too well....
Kaiser slumped against the door to your home , curling to shield himself from the weight of his reality, his form resembling his past self when his dad used to beat him , life didn't really change for him did it....???
He wanted to a say lot of things, he wanted to yank you away from those strangers and keep you for himself.......but,
He was a broken man who had no right left on you, to drag you through the hell called being his person.
The irony of his situation was if he had asked you would have waited. Would've waited for centuries.......
You would find wilted blue roses on your front porch the next day and you'd feel the same feelings you felt the day you were getting married.
And a lingering question.........if he had been with me.
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Now playing: (memories ~Conan gray)
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